5LINDYTo be honest, I didn’t know that being pregnant would be this troublesome. I have this sudden urge for a particular dish at such a weird time of the day. Moreover, I have this sudden feeling of wanting to cry so bad because I really need to eat lasagna but I don’t even like lasagna in the first place. I’m feeling like the need to cry but the reason is so petty that it makes me want to cry for more thinking about it. Brokenhearted, I went back to bed and sat next to Milo. I stared at him for a while and I don’t want to wake him up to disturb him but I am really super hungry and craving.I sighed as I scratched my hair."Milo." I pulled him back and forth gently.He groaned deep in his throat."Baby wake up c'mon." I moved him even harder.I sighed heavily. Damn, why is this guy so hard to wake up?"Milo!!" I screamed.He opened his eyes wide open in an instant and pulled himself up looking puzzled and nervous. He holds me, looking shocked and cute at the same time with his hoo
6LINDY“Good morning my love!” I greeted him as he was still laying down and sleeping.Snoring and sleeping.“Time to wake up, babe.” I tried again.No answer but just snoring.“Milo Beckett to get up!”I leaned forward close to him, pinched his nose while messing up his hair at the same time as I find it adorable seeing him. I can’t believe he still is not waking up after I pinched his nose. He still did not move so I continued pinching his cheeks and made a flabby sound which makes me spurt into laughter. I continued pinching his cheeks as I was laughing and tried to press my palms against his cheeks and just moved them in circles. I was definitely enjoying what I was doing because he was still fast asleep. Instantly, I laugh softly as I watch his lips pout while I kept moving my palms against his skin. Still, he isn’t moving and still no chance of waking up from his sleep.Unbelievable.Unbelie--All of a sudden, I was cut off from what I was going to say as he unexpectedly grabb
7LINDYHe pulled out a chair for me and we were quick to settle ourselves down with cheeky smiles on our faces. The sun was bright on the sky at nine in the morning as the wind blows the ruffles of his curly hair while he pushes it back with his hand. I like his hand and how he rakes those fingers through the sea of curls on top of his head. His green eyes gleamed with happiness and his smile was getting wider as he scans the entire table of foods."You're planning on making me fat, aren't you?" He wrinkles his nose, teasing me again.Adorable!Such an adorable face.“Maybe.” I teased back. “Don’t worry, even if you gain weight, I will still love you.”“Oh yeah?”I nod.“Even if I get such a big belly?”I nod again, “Of course, I didn’t love you because of your abs.”He nods at me, “Must be my dick.” He says while touching his chin with his hand.I gape, “Milo!”He burst out into laughter. I laugh as I shrug my shoulders, “Probably not.”He squints his eyes at me. “Then what?”“Meh,
8LINDYNothing important.It might sound so simple and so innocent. It almost sounded like he did not really put much thought about it nor didn’t it sound something trivial.Nothing important.Was it really? Was it really just nothing important?Or maybe I am just the person who is thinking too much about what is really going on.Maybe.Yes, maybe.That is right.But no matter what and how I think about, trying to push it down in the gut of my stomach that it was really just nothing important, those words completely bothers me because in the back of my head, I felt something different from the way he said it. It felt like he was guarding something that he didn’t want me to know.Is it just me?Oh God, please tell me that it is just me.Nothing important.Nothing important.Nothing important.Those words kept running again and again and again in the back of my head.I groan inwardly and hated those words as it does not even want to get out of my head. I have always trusted my gut fee
9LINDYGwyneth smiles at me and I like how she looks at me sweetly, "You both are lucky to have each other. You're not fake and you're honest. It’s what Milo needs in his crazy world.”I smile back at her, “Thank you. This means so much to me.”“I’m just so inspired of you when I saw that interview you did back in the day and I admired you for that. You're such a strong woman." She tugs on her hand."Thanks a lot. It means so much to hear that coming from Milo's sister."She placed her arm on my shoulder, "It’s not much. You changed Milo. You actually made him more mature.” “It’s funny how you say that when he is much older than me.” “I can tell that you are a good influence on him. I'm not against you dating my brother. He's just changed since he met you and I'm extremely happy for him."I smiled at her and hearing that coming from Gwyneth just made me feel more loved and welcomed. She makes me feel as if I am really the best partner for her younger brother that she has met and I
10L I N D YJolene Jolene Jolene Who is she?I have never heard of that name.Jolene?Who is she?Jolene was a name I have never ever heard before coming from Milo or anyone else in his circle. She was a name with a dead end and I do not know how to actually feel about that. I can tell from the look in their eyes that there was something else that they were hiding which coming from this woman named Jolene. Jolene. I repeat her name in the back of my head.Jolene, I repeated again.But my head is blank.I try to recall if the lads had mentioned about that name before, but I am sure that they have never had mentioned any woman's name that is Jolene.Jolene.A name that rings no bell.Who in hell is she anyway?And furthermore, why is it the only time that I hear her name?Who is she to Milo?What were they?Her name is already bugging me and the thought about what she was and who she actually was to Milo is making me feel so anxious just thinking about it,God, who in actual freaki
11M I L O“Somebody answer me.”I stare back at Gwyneth who gave me an eager eye and I knew that she had obviously and evidently heard what I was talking about with Lind. I know she must have been traumatized by the things that I have done before and the kind of guy I was a few years back. Obviously, I know that she never wanted me to make the same mistakes as what I did before with the other women that I was with all for fun. She hated how carefree I was with my life and that I never took any woman seriously which really got her angry knowing I grew up in a household with two women surrounding me.Although, she never knew about the real truth regarding what happened actually happened with that woman and until now I could not tell her what really happened too. She would hate me.She would curse me to death.She would never forgive me.Ever.“How long have you been standing there?” I ask her intriguingly as I cast a glance over Lindy who looked just as mortified.She enters our bedro
12MILOGwyneth stares at me angrily and scowls in frustration and I understand what she was trying to make us understand but I only want to think of the good things now. Lindy would think that Gwyneth was disappointed that I got her pregnant and probably worries about the fact that we lied to her but I know Gwyneth is thinking of another thing. Gwyneth is thinking about Jolene and I can not stop thinking about her too now that this is all happening again.The entire night went by fast and we were not able to have a movie night. Lindy had fallen asleep in the bedroom after crying about how she felt like she betrayed Gwyneth’s trust. Lindy’s been fragile and I do not really like seeing her cry after what I have done to her before. I did not want her to go through that kind of pain again, the kind of pain that I am always the reason behind it.I did not want it.Gwyneth is staying in the room on the floor right above us and had not talked to me after she found out about the pregnancy. I
E P I L O G U E "Em, just stop screaming, please." Lindy begs. "Think of it as a vacation."VACATION?! Then why can not I use the private jet?! Why do I have to ride a plane in eco... e... Ugh! I do not even want to say the word!""Stop being so overdramatic, Em. We all started somewhere." Milo mocks."I started rich and popular, I am keeping that title." She stood her ground.Milo tilts his head, "Not unless I take that away from you."She gapes.Ezekiel pulled up his pad as soon as he finished writing the words, “Cheer up Em. It is not so bad.” with a smiley face next to the sentence.It annoyed her even more. She loves her twin brother, but she hates the situation that she was in.“Not so bad for you!!” She screams at her brother before she groans. “You can not do this to me!!” Emerald screams like the drama queen she is.Days passed, Emerald found herself arriving in Aidenwoods, New Zealand with two big pieces of luggage and only a hundred pounds in her wallet and the other hund
70‘The famous Beckett duo called EZME called it quits after five years of singing together to their millions of fans due to personal issues, scandals, and health conditions that needed to be taken more seriously. Ezekiel Beckett has been suffering from Muscle Tension Dysphonia which causes the sound and feel of his voice to change due to extreme muscle tension in and around his voice box. As a result, it causes his voice to regularly stop performing more efficiently which broke a lot of his female fans' hearts. The 21-year-old heartthrob and crooner recently lost his voice due to stress, tension, overuse, and overwork and is now going through therapy doing various exercises.On the other hand, Emerald Beckett, who is no longer new to scandals and issues, has gotten some pretty bad press every now and then. The 21-year-old pop star and the other half of the duo called EZME have been known for her horrific diva behavior since her rise in popularity. It has always been rumored that she
69L I N D Y After the honeymoon, I bravely decided to go back to college and finish where I left off. Milo has been very supportive of my decisions and he has been my confidante in almost anything that I do and I want to do. He would confront me about what would be the best and would advise me when things get harder or more confusing. He is just there constantly supporting me which means so much to me after everything.When he asked me if I would move in with him to London, I did not hesitate to agree with him because all my life anywhere with him, whether it is in London, Peru, Spain, South Africa, the Philippines, or anywhere around the world, I would want to be with him. Always. Mom and dad felt sad when they found out that I was moving to another continent which made them feel a little bit emotional before we parted ways. Although they understand that things are going to be different now that I am getting older and wiser and have plans set on ahead of me with Milo. Yet, my paren
68L I N D Y “Welcome home Lindy!!!” I was taken aback as soon as the party poppers popped that came out of nowhere and I see everyone in this house greeting me with smiles on their faces. I see Lucius, Jasper, Silas, and Rowan who came all the way to celebrate this day with me which really means so much to me after what I have been through. It was the kind of support system that I needed after what happened to me and how these people are showing me an unconditional kind of love. These guys, whom I have always considered as my older brothers from other mothers, are all here and this means the world to me. I see Martha who ran towards me in a split second and hugged me tightly with tears flooding in her eyes which made me cry too because this scene is very much making me so emotional. She hugs me tight as she says the words, "I am so glad to see you again. I have missed you. I have missed you so much. I missed you a lot."She makes me bawl my eyes out as I hug onto her tighter, "I m
67L I N D YSaint Francis Sanitarium had a different way of treatment which had been pretty much helpful for my recovery. They also had strict rules about visitors, no one was really allowed to see the patients who are under treatments like me to avoid problems, complications, and miscalculations. There were no cellphones allowed inside and Wi-Fi as well to avoid any social media. Although they allowed gifts from the outside, it was still hard not to be able to see everyone. I didn’t let my negative emotions get the worst of me because I had to be strong for myself and my kids and for everyone else who is waiting for me to head out of this mental facility. I faced this battle head on and even though it was hard for me to accept the changes that I have had, emotionally and mentally, I am still very thankful for the support that I am getting from my family, friends, and of course Milo.Milo has been sending me hand written letters every day which is something I always look forward to
66M I L OWhat did she mean by that?Did she mean it literally?Silence, there was silence between us and I was just utterly and indescribably confused. She didn’t answer while her eyes were looking all over the entire house. Her eyes looked like she was searching for something inside the house and at the same time, she looked like she was in distraught. She looked so lost, sad, and completely puzzled by her own thoughts inside her head.“Are you alright baby?” I holler.She nods and looks back at me, “Yes. Just…. Just a little… awake.”I tried to ignore what I heard from her about hearing them in her head and just walked towards her, “I thought you fell asleep?”She shakes her head, “I can’t.”“Did you even try?”She nods. “Yes. These days it’s just hard for me to sleep.”“Should we visit the doctor?”“No.” Her voice was firm. “No need for that.”I take her hand to mine, “Hey, let’s go back to sleep. Shall we?”She nods and smiles before we walked up to the bedroom.I still hear the
65M I L OThey were so tiny.Very tiny.So fragile. So delicately adorable. I stare at them from outside the glass window and my heart swells with these crazy emotions that are building up inside me the more I stare at how tiny and angelic they looked. Staring at them, I did not know that I could love more my sweet Lindy for carrying my little soldiers who are now battling with their own lives. I had no idea that these tiny creatures would actually make me feel much more whole in some way. I glance at the tubes and machines that were surrounding them to help them survive and grow and I know they are fighters and that they will grow stronger. I know. I know they will. I watch as their chests go up and down while they were breathing as they were moving their tiny hands around and subtly kicked their small feet. It was amazing how they looked and how their tiny movements could actually surprise me and amaze me at the same time. Absentmindedly, I am staring at them with a smile on m
64M I L OI laugh humorlessly as I shake my head sideways, not wanting to believe what I have just heard. No, this cannot be possible. There is absolutely no way. No. I had no idea that Ricky was this selfish and this heartless with everything that had happened. He is and has always been only thinking about himself and no other else. He only and always wants to save himself from everything when the going gets rough then runs away and hides like a frightful little child and pass the blame onto others so he can clear his name.This man is despicable, absolutely and horrifyingly greedy.“I am so sorry.” Ricky apologizes but the more he says it the more it makes me angry.“Ricky! How could you so selfish?!” Gwyneth screams at him..“Of course!” I exclaimed. “Of course you would say it’s me! You freaking asshole!” I pressed my clenched fist against the center of my forehead. I groan in frustration and in anger because I want to hit this person so badly. I want to hurt him as hard as I ca
63M I L OEver since my argument with Gwyneth, we never really talked as much as we used to. I understand why she was feeling that way and I understand why she had avoided me since she hated what I have done. Of all people, I thought she would be the one who would understand me because she is my sibling, but then I was wrong.She made me feel even worst. I tried to understand where her anger was coming from and obviously, she was gutted that I said and did those things to Jolene. I know she could not believe me that I treated Jolene that way because she has always hated it when I do things that hurt women since I was brought up by women too.I wish my words could change anything to what she sees me now but then I know I can never take back the things I did and the things I said to her.Sometimes I wish she could have understood me and why I had to do it. The night before the band’s world tour started, someone came to my house late at night and rang the doorbell many times which woke