36MILO'S POVLindy and I started watching movie on Netflix and even though she was focused on the movie, I was more focused on her. It was not something that I can do everyday so I needed to make most of my time with her as much as I can. I wanted to stare at her as much as I could before I leave again.Knock knock knockLindy groans inwardly as she pressed her face against the pillow before pulling it back up, “Can’t this night be at peace please?” She whispers.I smile at her as I run my forefinger against her jawline, “It’s okay baby.”"Honey?" The two of us moved our heads towards her door and I’m sure it was her mom. Lindy travelled her head back to my direction, “It's my mom." she whispers."Sounded like it."Her mom knocks again, "Honey we brought tacos and poutines." My eyes widened when I heard tacos because I am a huge fan of tacos, nachos and some dressing, oh God and cheese. I feel like I am salivating and I'm sure I heard it right but I didn’t quite get what the other
37I reached for her hand and held it while she looks back at me. Her lips parted like that looked tremendously amazing and dangerous. Her plump lips were luring me in to kiss her and I have been wanting to kiss her as much as I could. I licked my lips to wet them while watching her hair brush over her face and we were both silently staring at each other. I pushed some parts of her hair behind her ear as my fingers touch softly her cheek."You're so one of a kind." I tell her."I am. I’m the only Lindy Swanepoel you'll ever meet." she says jokingly while chuckling.I smiled at her while I kept holding her hand as I gently squeezed it a little. “You know what?”"What?"“I'm usually attracted to women with long blond hair.” I tell her an honest fact about me and I don’t know why I just said that when it would only mean to her that I was not attracted to her because she was a brunette. “But there’s something about that I just can’t explain.”Her brows knitted, “Is it a bad thing?”I shak
38LINDY'S POVRight when he left, I went back inside the house and walked to my room. My mind was running around, imagining how he hugged me on his arms and kissed my cheeks so unexpectedly. I recalled how he joked around making me laugh and how I really enjoyed my time spent with him.Milo Beckett, the guy whom every girl in the world loves so much, just kissed me on my cheek.I feel lucky.As I reached my room, I sat down on my bed feeling sad that he had to leave but happy that I was able to finally meet him and talk to him and get to spend just a few hours of being with him. My room was spotless since he was the one who cleaned my room after we ate and how he petted Button the entire time we were watching a movie.I lay myself on the duvet and just can't stop thinking about Milo and everything that happened today until the moment he left my house. We were almost caught many times and I was so nervous but he was able to calm me down. Oh Milo , you have that effect on me right now
39I hear some rustling over the line and I had no idea what was now going on. “Lindy, Milo is really fucking obsessed with you.” I think that was Lucius.“Oh Jesus Christ Lucius !” I hear Milo .I hear Jasper and Silas’ laugh but I feel my cheeks warming with what Lucius just said.“Get off my phone!” Milo’s voice was closer. “Hey baby. It’s me.”“Baby!!” The other lads scream in the background.“Oh shut up!!” Milo screams back.I burst out into laughter again, covering my mouth as soon as I realized that I laughed a little too loud. “We just wanted to brighten your day babe." “Is this Milo now?” I asked teasingly.Milo scoffs over the line, “So just because you talked with Rowan, you now forget what I sound like?”“She loves me, Milo. She. Loves. Me.” I hear Rowan.I smile shyly, “I was joking Milo .”"Don't forget you're beautiful Lindy!""That was Lucius," Milo tells me. "Thank you.” I answered with an overwhelmed heart. “Thanks to you and your friends Mill. It made my entire da
40LINDY'S POVI grabbed the remote and turned the TV on as I searched for the channel where Hello Canada! was and waited for the Spitfire Strip boys. The talk show host started talking about their fame and countries they've visited before coming over to Canada and how much they have accomplished for the past years. Finally, he introduced them and they walked out from backstage making the fans in the studio were screaming deafeningly. Milo wore a simple black shirt, a pair of black jeans, brown Chelsea boots looking so handsome like a prince charming of the ten little Indian boys. There goes Mill and I cannot believe that I just talked to him over the phone before he walked out on that stage and embarrassed him with his adorable ringtone."Milo, one. Lindy, one." I thought to myself while smiling.They sat down on the couch side by side, while greeting Freddie and Cynthia, the hosts, then the audiences, and lastly the viewers. They looked calm and organized unlike how noisy they were
41MILO’S POV"Lindy wanna hear a knock-knock joke?" I asked her."Oh goodness Lord." Lucius exclaimed."Here we go." Rowan adds while shaking his head.“What?” I asked them. “It is not so bad.”"Don't listen to Mill, Lindy. It's really horribly bad." Jasper continued."Is it really that bad?" she asked, innocently and I loved seeing how comfortable she gets with the guys around. I can see how they really like Lindy and I can see how they are trying so hard to befriend her and be nice to her."Oh come on guys,” I whined. “It's not that bad. My knock-knock jokes always make Silas laugh.""Yeah. They are hilarious." Silas smiles."That's more like it!” I feel pumped.“You had to cheer him up?” Lucius asks Silas sarcastically.“Shut up Lucius you laugh at my jokes too.” I said before turning to her, “So Lindy, wanna hear one of Milo Beckett's knock-knock jokes?" "All right then." She answered with a smile."Oh god. No. Milo, please do not embarrass yourself." Rowan commented.The four o
42MILO'S POVI quickly pulled my head away from her when she pats my shoulder gently as she points something from behind me. Worry filled my head as soon as she shrieked, thinking that there was something or there must have been someone that caught us here.I felt relieved as soon as she says the words, “We can see the city lights from here!" I look back at her and God how I want the world not to ruin her innocence and fragility. In the back of my head, somewhere out there, in the future, the world will know about her. People will know that I am dating her and the fans would probably invade her privacy just as much.I wish there was just a place where I can keep her safe from everyone.I travel my eyes back to where she was pointing as we finally reached the top of the Ferris wheel and the entire city of Canada was visible up here. The city lights were impressive and the night was truly wonderful. It's as if I did not want this night to end because I am with her and I am me when I a
43LINDY'S POVThe following morning, I had woken up with the view of Milo sleeping in front of me on my phone. I realized that I have fallen asleep when we were talking last night and the call did not end. I stare at him as he sleeps while he snores lightly with his parted plump lips. He looked incredibly peaceful in his sleep and it was such a wonderful sight to see.“Good morning.” I greeted him even if he was still sleeping. I gathered myself out of my bed, plugged my iPhone charger, and decided to take a shower to get ready for school. I hurriedly took a bath and rushed back to my bedroom where I see Button barking, “Good morning my baby Button.” I petted her head. “Did you sleep well?”She barks at me but I tell her, “You have to stay quiet because someone is sleeping.”I dried myself up and changed into my usual clothes. I see Button over my bed and barking at my iPhone. “Button!” I rushed to her and carried her over my arms until I see a smiling Milo who had just woken up fro
E P I L O G U E "Em, just stop screaming, please." Lindy begs. "Think of it as a vacation."VACATION?! Then why can not I use the private jet?! Why do I have to ride a plane in eco... e... Ugh! I do not even want to say the word!""Stop being so overdramatic, Em. We all started somewhere." Milo mocks."I started rich and popular, I am keeping that title." She stood her ground.Milo tilts his head, "Not unless I take that away from you."She gapes.Ezekiel pulled up his pad as soon as he finished writing the words, “Cheer up Em. It is not so bad.” with a smiley face next to the sentence.It annoyed her even more. She loves her twin brother, but she hates the situation that she was in.“Not so bad for you!!” She screams at her brother before she groans. “You can not do this to me!!” Emerald screams like the drama queen she is.Days passed, Emerald found herself arriving in Aidenwoods, New Zealand with two big pieces of luggage and only a hundred pounds in her wallet and the other hund
70‘The famous Beckett duo called EZME called it quits after five years of singing together to their millions of fans due to personal issues, scandals, and health conditions that needed to be taken more seriously. Ezekiel Beckett has been suffering from Muscle Tension Dysphonia which causes the sound and feel of his voice to change due to extreme muscle tension in and around his voice box. As a result, it causes his voice to regularly stop performing more efficiently which broke a lot of his female fans' hearts. The 21-year-old heartthrob and crooner recently lost his voice due to stress, tension, overuse, and overwork and is now going through therapy doing various exercises.On the other hand, Emerald Beckett, who is no longer new to scandals and issues, has gotten some pretty bad press every now and then. The 21-year-old pop star and the other half of the duo called EZME have been known for her horrific diva behavior since her rise in popularity. It has always been rumored that she
69L I N D Y After the honeymoon, I bravely decided to go back to college and finish where I left off. Milo has been very supportive of my decisions and he has been my confidante in almost anything that I do and I want to do. He would confront me about what would be the best and would advise me when things get harder or more confusing. He is just there constantly supporting me which means so much to me after everything.When he asked me if I would move in with him to London, I did not hesitate to agree with him because all my life anywhere with him, whether it is in London, Peru, Spain, South Africa, the Philippines, or anywhere around the world, I would want to be with him. Always. Mom and dad felt sad when they found out that I was moving to another continent which made them feel a little bit emotional before we parted ways. Although they understand that things are going to be different now that I am getting older and wiser and have plans set on ahead of me with Milo. Yet, my paren
68L I N D Y “Welcome home Lindy!!!” I was taken aback as soon as the party poppers popped that came out of nowhere and I see everyone in this house greeting me with smiles on their faces. I see Lucius, Jasper, Silas, and Rowan who came all the way to celebrate this day with me which really means so much to me after what I have been through. It was the kind of support system that I needed after what happened to me and how these people are showing me an unconditional kind of love. These guys, whom I have always considered as my older brothers from other mothers, are all here and this means the world to me. I see Martha who ran towards me in a split second and hugged me tightly with tears flooding in her eyes which made me cry too because this scene is very much making me so emotional. She hugs me tight as she says the words, "I am so glad to see you again. I have missed you. I have missed you so much. I missed you a lot."She makes me bawl my eyes out as I hug onto her tighter, "I m
67L I N D YSaint Francis Sanitarium had a different way of treatment which had been pretty much helpful for my recovery. They also had strict rules about visitors, no one was really allowed to see the patients who are under treatments like me to avoid problems, complications, and miscalculations. There were no cellphones allowed inside and Wi-Fi as well to avoid any social media. Although they allowed gifts from the outside, it was still hard not to be able to see everyone. I didn’t let my negative emotions get the worst of me because I had to be strong for myself and my kids and for everyone else who is waiting for me to head out of this mental facility. I faced this battle head on and even though it was hard for me to accept the changes that I have had, emotionally and mentally, I am still very thankful for the support that I am getting from my family, friends, and of course Milo.Milo has been sending me hand written letters every day which is something I always look forward to
66M I L OWhat did she mean by that?Did she mean it literally?Silence, there was silence between us and I was just utterly and indescribably confused. She didn’t answer while her eyes were looking all over the entire house. Her eyes looked like she was searching for something inside the house and at the same time, she looked like she was in distraught. She looked so lost, sad, and completely puzzled by her own thoughts inside her head.“Are you alright baby?” I holler.She nods and looks back at me, “Yes. Just…. Just a little… awake.”I tried to ignore what I heard from her about hearing them in her head and just walked towards her, “I thought you fell asleep?”She shakes her head, “I can’t.”“Did you even try?”She nods. “Yes. These days it’s just hard for me to sleep.”“Should we visit the doctor?”“No.” Her voice was firm. “No need for that.”I take her hand to mine, “Hey, let’s go back to sleep. Shall we?”She nods and smiles before we walked up to the bedroom.I still hear the
65M I L OThey were so tiny.Very tiny.So fragile. So delicately adorable. I stare at them from outside the glass window and my heart swells with these crazy emotions that are building up inside me the more I stare at how tiny and angelic they looked. Staring at them, I did not know that I could love more my sweet Lindy for carrying my little soldiers who are now battling with their own lives. I had no idea that these tiny creatures would actually make me feel much more whole in some way. I glance at the tubes and machines that were surrounding them to help them survive and grow and I know they are fighters and that they will grow stronger. I know. I know they will. I watch as their chests go up and down while they were breathing as they were moving their tiny hands around and subtly kicked their small feet. It was amazing how they looked and how their tiny movements could actually surprise me and amaze me at the same time. Absentmindedly, I am staring at them with a smile on m
64M I L OI laugh humorlessly as I shake my head sideways, not wanting to believe what I have just heard. No, this cannot be possible. There is absolutely no way. No. I had no idea that Ricky was this selfish and this heartless with everything that had happened. He is and has always been only thinking about himself and no other else. He only and always wants to save himself from everything when the going gets rough then runs away and hides like a frightful little child and pass the blame onto others so he can clear his name.This man is despicable, absolutely and horrifyingly greedy.“I am so sorry.” Ricky apologizes but the more he says it the more it makes me angry.“Ricky! How could you so selfish?!” Gwyneth screams at him..“Of course!” I exclaimed. “Of course you would say it’s me! You freaking asshole!” I pressed my clenched fist against the center of my forehead. I groan in frustration and in anger because I want to hit this person so badly. I want to hurt him as hard as I ca
63M I L OEver since my argument with Gwyneth, we never really talked as much as we used to. I understand why she was feeling that way and I understand why she had avoided me since she hated what I have done. Of all people, I thought she would be the one who would understand me because she is my sibling, but then I was wrong.She made me feel even worst. I tried to understand where her anger was coming from and obviously, she was gutted that I said and did those things to Jolene. I know she could not believe me that I treated Jolene that way because she has always hated it when I do things that hurt women since I was brought up by women too.I wish my words could change anything to what she sees me now but then I know I can never take back the things I did and the things I said to her.Sometimes I wish she could have understood me and why I had to do it. The night before the band’s world tour started, someone came to my house late at night and rang the doorbell many times which woke