"Pinagsasabi mo Jungle?" I asked him saka tumawa ng malakas.
Sumimangot lang siya sa inasta ko. Ang cute!
"Totoo nga Miss. Kasi kung hindi ka niya gusto bilang tao, hinding hindi yan magdadalawang isip na sasagipin kahit may mga pating at isinama pa nga sa biyahe." parang naiinis na sabi niya na gusto niya talagang ipamukha sa akin 'yung punto niya.
"Okay. Whatever. Huwag ka nang magalit, pumapangit ka." sabi ko sa kanya sabay tawa.
He just blushed at that but he keep me company while I'm stuck in my cabin.
Weeks had passed and I can walk freely na without pain.
The wound gave me a scar on my skin that makes me conscious and insecure about myself but luckily, mahahaba ang mga damit na sinusuot since wala namang maigsi kaya natatabutan ang scar ko.
I'm now wearing a cream colored off shoulder dress na para talagang pang prinsesa noong simaunang panahon. Mas gusto ko nga iyon. I'm living my life as an aesthetic girl.
"What's the meaning of that flag, Jungle?" I asked him noong tumingala ako. He's touring me around.
Ang flag sa itaas ay dalawang espada na naka krus.
"That means, we could be a friend and an enemy at the same time. If they're good to us, then we can settle peacefully, if they're rude to us then we can also fight." he explained while looking up at the flag.
"That is the crow's nest. Jan mo palaging makikita sina Ferdin at Ellan salitan sila sa crow's nest at sa navigation Miss." pag eexplain niya sa akin habang tinuturo ang parang nest sa itaas kung saan makikita mo ang view.
Napatango lang ako doon saka sumunod sa kanya papunta sa harap ng barko kung saan ako nakatambay noon.
"This is the Forecastle Deck or so called Mask. The front deck of the ship. Dito madalas tumatambay si Kapitan upang mag gitara." ani niya.
Ohh. So kay Fauve pala ang gitarang iyon.
Ipinakita niya sa akin ang mga kuwarto doon, kusina at lahat. Para itong castle na ship lang ang formation.
"Are you all pirates talaga?" I asked him noong napagod kami kakaikot sa barko. Who would've thought na madaming stairs?
"Yes but we're more like a voyagers. We navigate and travel. We study about how the world works and combine it in a book then sell." he said.
"When you said you all study about how the world works, what does that mean?" I asked him, still curious.
"We travel to the different countries and places in the world. We study about things and discover new things. We study about how culture and religion works in other countries. Try to dig ancient things. Submerge into water to find anything interesting and such." ani niya.
Napanganga lang ako. Ang akala ko kasi then will bump into some cargo skips tapos magnanakaw sila tapos manghohostage.
"You looked so shocked Miss, iba nasa imagination mo ano?" he chuckled.
Hindi na ako nagsalita dahil baka ma offend ko siya or what.
"You said you'll bind it into a book. How?" I asked again.
"We're writing and sketching it po. Tapos uuwi kami sa isla para ibigay ang mga nalalaman namin sa mga tao doon. They'll be the one responsible of multiplying a book into many books." sabi niya.
"Oh, so they'll be printing it?" tanong ko.
"Nope. They will write and sketch din. Kung ano ang nakasulat doon, 'yun din ang isusulat nila." sabi niya na mas ikinamangha ko.
I myself don't have a stable signature! Ang hirap siguro nun!
"Kanino niyo naman ibinebenta ang mga libro?" tanong ko.
"We will ship it into different countries across the world to sell it. Marami namang kumukuha kasi madami ang interesado tungkol sa mga sinusulat namin doon. Then we'll divide our earnings pati na rin ang mga tao sa isla ay may kanya kanyang share." ani niya.
"Woah. And galing! Sino ang leader o pangulo niyo sa isla kung ganun?" I asked him.
"Si Captain Maverick po." ani niya.
"Siya? Eh paano niya mapapamunuan ang isla if he's travelling?" tanong ko.
"Hindi naman na po kailangang bantayan talaga ang isla kasi alam ng mga tao doon ang limitasyon at alam nilang lahat kung paano makihalubilo sa isa't isa saka hindi naman kami gagawa ng bagay na ikakapahamak o ikakagalit ni Kapitan." ani niya.
He's respected by all. Not only his crew but also the people in the island. Who wouldn't admire someone like him?
We got interrupted by a voice.
"Binibini, pinapasabi po si Kapitan na bumaba na kayo para kumain." ani ni Benjamin sa amin.
Bumaba na kaming tatlo sa hapag. Jungle made sure na nakaupo ako nago siya umikot kung saan siya nararapat na umupo.
"Did you roam around the ship?" tanong sa akin ni Fauve.
"Yes I did." sagot ko sa kanya. Trying to filter out my words kahit na gustong gusto ko siyang chikahin gosh.
"What can you say about it?" gulat ko noong tinanong niya ako
"There's nothing much I can say but this ship is like a floating castle! I mean look at me, I look like a princess with the dresses I'm wearing and everyone is just so kind and joyful. I like the atmosphere here not only the ship." pagkukwento ko sa kanya.
Napatahimik ako nang nakita kong nakatitig lang siya sa akin habang nag kukwento ako. Medyo nailang ako doon kaya nagpatuloy nalang ako sa pagkain ko.
He let out a small chuckle saka uminom sa wine niya.
"I'm glad to hear that," sabi niya.
Me and Fauve didn't have much interactions today except the scene in the dining area. Napabuntong hininga nalang ako.
The heck Dwyn? Were you expecting for more?
I looked at my scar saka dumagdag lang iyon sa insecurities ko. Tinabunan ko nalang iyon saka natulog na.
I thought I'd have a peaceful night but I woke up hearing lightnings and thunders. Agad akong napasigaw sa gulat at kaba.
Agad agad akong tumayo pero natumba ako dahil umaalog ang barko at hindi ito stable.
Ginapang ko ang distansya ko at ng pinto. I held into the door knob saka kumuha ng lakas para tumayo. When I did, binuksan ko ito saka lumabas at nakita kong walang tao sa labas ng cabin.
I can hear voices sa upper deck and sa dining area but I didn't have the courage to go there, I'm scared.
Medyo napalakas ulit ang alog ng barko kaya ang nakabukas kong pinto at napasira tapos naiwan ako sa labas. When the lighting flashed I covered my ears and closed at eyes saka dali daling pumasok ulit sa kuwarto.
Nagtago ako sa ilalim ng kumot saka umiyak. I hate hearing stuffs like this.
My Kuya, I need my Kuya.
I noticed something different about the scent of the comforter na nakatabon sa akin pero hindi ko na iyon pinansin.
"Milady?" may narinig akong boses.
Am I hallucinating?
"Are you okay?" the voice asked. It's somehow familiar.
I felt someone tried to open the blanket pero hinigpitan ko ang hawak ko doon.
"N-no please... I'm afraid." nanginginig na sabi ko.
Naramdaman kong may pumasok sa kumot na hawak ko at laking gulat ko nang nakita ko si Fauve na nakatingin sa akin.
Hindi na ako nakapagsalita noong kumislat at kumulog nanaman.
Bago pa ako makasigaw ay ipinulupot na niya ang kanyang kamay sa katawan ko.
I didn't feel any awkwardness. Instead, I feel like I'm safe in his arms.
"Shhh... Don't worry, I'm here."
I woke up not so early in the morning kasi mataas na ang sikat ng araw. The rays of the sun touched my skin. It feels so warm. It feels like home.Umunat unat pa ako and took a deep breath. Mabilis akong napa-upo ng tuwid noong napansin kong hindi ako nasa kuwarto ko."What the hell? Where am I?" bulong ko sa sarili ko noong nakita ko ang kabuuan ng kuwarto.If my room is like a room of a princess, then this room looks like a room of a king!Gold and silver colors were scattered everywhere. Mukhang mamahalin ang mga gamit sa loob. The room also smell so manly. I think, this is Fauve's room. But why am I here?The sheets were grey and black. There's a small side table with a lamp. May nga gamit din dun like pens and some things that Fauve use.The structure of this room is similar to my room, the only differences are the colors and things.&
The coldness of the water spread throughout my body. I slowly opened my eyes even though I know it will hurt because of the salty sea. I saw beautiful corals underneath the water. There are sea creatures minding their own lives. Swimming, crawling, dancing with the waves they feel free. I looked far away. I saw darkness. The ocean's mystery. Then, I remembered something. I went out of the sinking ship quickly with my bleeding feet. It was raining, it was dark. Yet, I can see the sun setting down. I don't want to look back, for I will remember the tragedy. Now, I feel nothing. I feel numb. I'm so lost. That was my thoughts before darkness finally consumed me. Naramdaman kong may bumagsak sa tabi ko kaya bumalik ako sa tamang wisyo at biglang natakot. Napagdesisyonan ko na ding unahon. Good thing I'm a swimming, I know how to control my
"Hand me the guitar please." sabi ni Fauve matapos ang mahabang katahimikan.Agad naman na inabot ni Jungle sa kanya ang gitara.He tried to adjust it a little and after that, he strummed the strings softly and started singing.It felt like this already happened before but I can't point out when it was."Incase you didn't know, baby I'm crazy 'bout ya." he sang.He looked at me looking his green eyes trying to take my soul away."And I would be lying if I say that I can live this life without ya even though I don't tell you all the time, you had my heart a long long time ago." he sing the song without taking his eyes off me.His voice. It's familiar.Damn deja vu but can't point it out.I'm confused but I still listened to his voice and it carried my thoughts away."You sing?" I asked him when I heard
"What are your plans tomorrow?" tanong sa akin ni Fauve nang nakarating kami sa harap ng cabin ko.Every step I take, I observe that even his scent smells familiar. It is very nostalgic.I opened the door but I didn't step inside, I faced him instead.Makisig na katawan ang bumungad sa akin. The first three buttons of his polo is open. I can barely see his chest inside. I'm too small for him. I'm just 5'3 and he's probably near 6 ft.I looked up and saw his lips partially open. I looked away a bit."Halos maubos na namin ni Jungle ang libro sa library kaya siguro stop muna kami sa pagbabasa." sagot ko dahil 'yan lang naman ang ginagawa ko palagi.It's not like the crew would let me do something. They won't let me clean, wash the dishes even the laundry. Tanging nilalabhan ko lang ay ang aking under garments."If you're free t
"Ouch," I whispered noong nasagi nanaman ang brason ko.Sa harap ko ngayon si Jungle at tinignan niya ako na nakahawak sa aking braso at para bang naaawa siya sa akin kasi panibagong sakit at pasa nanaman.He's not the reason why I have bruise, it's me. Hindi kasi ako sanay tapos wala silang sword na hindi matalim kaya no choice parin.I have an armor with me, nag long sleeves nadin panigurado lang. Ngunit punit punit na ito dahil nga sa espada. May mga daplis na din ako."I'm sorry binibini," Jungle said."No, no. It's not your fault. The show must go on." I told him and started attacking him again.He taught me the basic attacks and how to defend myself.One step ahead if I know I can beat the enemy, and attack. One step behind if I know I can't, and defend.Alam kong may mas ibibilis pa ang galaw
"Milady, you should stop tempting me." he whispered.Nalalanghap ko na ang kanyang hininga and believe me when I tell you na sobrang bango nun na para bang mas pipiliin ko nalang na langhapin ang hininga niya habang buhay.It is manly. It's like he's inhaling my soul."I am not," I told him. I cannot almost feel myself. Seeing him towering me makes me feel weak but safe.Nanatiling nakaparte ang mga labi ko kasi doon na ako humihinga dahil hindi ko na ata alam kung paano huminga ng maayos."Yeah? Maybe you should start closing your mouth and not parting your lips, because it is tempting me." he told me.Agad akong natameme sa sinabi niya.Anong ginagawa niya? Is he trying to seduce me? Well, I don't think he can. There's a lot of guys from my place trying to get me but no one did.Oh halt. No. There's this one g
"Kaya pa?" Alex asked me when I stopped for a second to wipe my sweat."Kakayanin," I told him and I get another arrow to shoot.Honestly, my body is already numb. I can't even feel my wound even if it is already bleeding.My hands are already red and swollen because of the force I'm giving out, but I shouldn't stop.Stopping by means I am giving up, and I don't want to give up.So far, archery was challenging yet fun and easy for me to learn. Alex and Xander helped me throughout the process of learning. I may fail at times but they don't scold me. They were so calm while teaching me.I don't know if it's because Fauve is watching us and they are just afraid to scold me because Fauve will also scold them.It took us 3 hours until I mastered archery.Pagkatapos namin, yumuko ako saka sinakop ang buhok
"What the fuck are you saying?!" sigaw ni Fauve sa babae.Months of being with Fauve and the crew, I never saw him this mad. He couldn't even raise a voice at us, but now, this Fauve is different.He's far from what I imagined. All my life, I've been bullied, I've been with a group of friends that never treated me well, I'd saw people leaving me, but this hurts the most.I got afraid. I imagined if I was the one he's shouting at, I'd be down and hurt.I never really wanted a man who shouts when he's mad or irritated. Iwant a man who is calm in whatever circumstances.But then I realized that I don't live in the world of fiction, I have to accept whatever this is. For now, I would like to run away from everything."What? It's true! You can't deny the fact that this is your child Maverick!" sigaw din sa kanya ng babae.I looked at the
I woke up in the middle of the night. I just had a bad dream. I sighed deeply and decided to get some water. I bet it's still three in the morning. Halos wala akong marinig kundi ang yapak ng aking mga paa at ang malakas na hangin. Pumunta ako sa kusina para kumuha ng tubig. Medyo gumaan ang aking pakiramdam nang nakainom na ako. I sat at the counter and enjoyed the silence. I stayed in the kitchen for a bit before I decide that I should go back to my room. Nasa hagdan ako nang biglang kumulog at kumidlat kaya napatili ako sa sobrang gulat. I covered both of my ears and shut my eyes because of fear. I hate thunders and lightnings. "Dwyn?" tawag sa akin ni Fauve. "I am sorry I shouted. Nagulat lang ako." paghingi ko ng paumanhin kay Fauve. Nagising ko ata siya sa sigaw ko. "Where are you from? Why are you outside?" tanong niya sa akin. "I had a nightmare and so I decided to get some water." I explained. "You want me to walk you to your room?" tanong niya sa akin. "No. It's f
Hindi ako nakatulog ng mahimbing dahil sa sobrang daming iniisip. With what happened, I do not know who to trust anymore. It turns out that the person I love, just want to have revenge because of what happened to his parents. The fear, anger, and sadness I saw on his eyes yesterday was enough for me to say that he can twist the afate and take a revenge on me.Minahal niya ba talaga ako? Tinatamad akong bumangon at nagmukmok nalang sa kwarto ko. Dinadalhan lang ako ni Gina ng makakain."He is not here. You can go out if you want." sabi niya sa akin noong hinatid niya ang aking tanghalian."Where did he go?" tanong ko sa kanya."Dinig ko lang ay may kikitain silang mga kaibigan sa kabilang isla. Baka mamayang gabi pa sila makakauwi. Kaya kung gusto mong lumabas sa iyong silid, sabihan mo lang ako para alam ko kung saan kita hahanapin." sabi ni Gina sa akin."Why are you doing this? Bakit pinagsisilbihan mo parin ako?" tanong ko sa kanya."Hindi naman kasi sinabi ni Kapitan na huwag kan
"What the heck are you talking about?" I asked him and he just scoffed at me. "What? Ganito nalang? Anong hindi ko alam? Ano ang mga dapat kong malaman? Tell me, Fauve! Tell me!" Sigaw ko sa kanya. It's frustrating. My curiousity is killing me. Bat siya galit sa akin sa bagay na hindi ko alam? It is not fair. "It will kill you, Dwyn." malamig na sabi niya sa akin. "Matagal na akong patay, Fuave." This isn't living anymore. When they died, I died with them. "I will tell you everything. Wala na akong pake ngayon kung ano pa ang mawawala sa akin. I endured this alone for so long. Maybe I deserve to let this out." pag uumpisa niya. "Can you seat?" he asked me. Agad din akong umupo sa tabi niya. My Fauve is back, the gentle one. He stared at me like he's going to miss me. "Can I kiss you?" he asked me even if he did not have to. I leaned in as a response and he gave me a passionate kiss on my lips and on my forehead. "I do not know what will happen after this, Dwyn. I might lo
Hindi ko na namalayan ang oras. Lumubog na ng tuluyan ang araw pero parang ayoko parin bumalik sa palasyo. I am tired of socializing. Susunduin naman ata ako ni Fuave dito kapag naramdaman niya na matagal na akong nawala. I just want to be alone for a while, but I know that I have to go back to Fauve's house. I know that I have no choice but to go back there. There's still an after party, I know people would ask for my presence. Naghintay ako ng ilang oras, pero walang Fauve na dumating. "Baka nagsisiyahan na silang lahat dun." sabi ko sa sarili ko. Were they that happy for him to forget that I am gone? Few more minutes, I decided to get up and go back. Nang medyo malapit na ako sa palasyo, naririnig ko na ang mga tawanan ng mga tao sa loob. They are happy celebrating. I plastered a smile on my face before opening the back door and greeted the handmaidens there. There are busy pacing back and forth. Umakyat na muna ako sa kwarto ko para ilagay doon ang gitara ni Fauve. Pumas
"Happy Birthday, my love!" bati sa akin ni Fauve pagkalabas na pagkalabas ko sa aking kwarto."Thank you, love." I hugged him.Halos hindi pa ako nagigising ng tuluyan, bumabati na ang mga tao sa loob ng bahay sa akin.Birthday ko pala ngayon? That was the least thing that I was expecting to start my day with. Kay tagal na din pala. Isang taon na din pala. Parang kailan lang."Sabaw pa ang mahal ko, hayaan niyo na muna." sabi ni Fauve sa kanila nang nakita niyang natutulala ako.Hindi pa din kasi ako naliligo. Sabi ko kasi kakain na muna sana ako bago ako maligo, pero parang mali ata ang daan na tinahak ko."We have a celebration here later. Is that fine with you?" tanong sa akin ni Fauve noong nakaupo na kami sa lamesa para kumain ng umagahan."Of course, love. Bakit naman hindi?" tanong ko sa kanya pabalik. "Baka mas gugustuhin mo kasi na simple celebration lang. I invited all the people in the island." he looked at me like he is observing my supposed to be expression."You what?"
"Are they there already?" Fauve asked Gina."Benjamin and his wife were already there Sir. 'Yung iba naman po ay papunta na." sabi ni Gina.I'm still finding something to wear, and it's taking me so long because I want to wear them all. This is the worst part of the day everytime I want to go out."You ready, love? They're waiting." Fauve asked me for the nth time. Nasa labas lang din siya ng kwarto ko."Not yet. Wait." I told him that for the nth time already."What's taking you so long? Mind if I come in?" He asked me."Of course." sabi ko sa kanya.And with that, he opened the door and saw my stressed face, the bikinis in the bed, and the scattering dresses everywhere."Wow." sabi niya. He just stood there, probably processinng everything."Yeah. I know. It's a mess. I do not know what to wear." I told him while standing beside the bed with my hands on my hips looking so stressed."Red if bikini, and white dress." sabi niya sa akin nang matapos niyang i-scan ang mga damit sa kama k
Naglahad siya ng kamay para tulungan akong makababa sa kalesa. We were silent until we reached to the door of my room. He opened the door for me and looked at me for a minute before he finally opened his mouth to say something."What do you want do tomorrow?" he asked me."Will you be busy tomorrow?" I asked him. I want to be with him, but I don't to bother him if he's busy."I'm going to examine the books tomorrow after breakfast." he told me."I'm going with you." I told him. Wala naman kasi akong gagawin. I am a stranger to this place. Well actually only known as Fauve's lover or something like that."Sure you can," sabi niya sa akin.We cuddled until I felt sleepy."I saw how baddass you were while fighting them. That was hot." He whispered while he's caressing my hair to make me feel more sleepy. Alam na alam niya kung paano ako paantukin."Oh yeah? I never ever thought I could survive that." I chuckled a bit."You were so protective. I feel so honored." He said."I just can't a
Aruba. So this is it. I never thought that this place would look like a paradise. The people are waving at us. Junger blow the large horn as a symbol of our arrival. Some of them looked confused as they see me in the front deck with their leader.Umihip ang malamig na hangin. They rays of the setting sun is kissing my face, giving me a warm feeling. It feels surreal. Hindi ko akalaing makakapunta ako sa isang lugar na kagaya nito."Welcome to Aruba, Stimacion." Fauve whispered. Nilahad niya ang kamay niya saka tinulungan akong makababa sa barko."Bon Bini," bati ng mga tao sa amin.Tumatango naman sa Fauve sa kanila samantalang ako, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin. "Bon Bini, means welcome. They are welcoming you, love." sabi sa akin ni Fauve habang nakangiti. Kung gayon, ako pala ang sinasabihan nila? I suddenly feel the awkwardness kasi nakakahiya na nakayuko lang alo while they're welcoming me. "Love, you do not have to be shy. This is my territory, you are very welcome her
Mahimbing ang tulog ko dahil katabi ko si Fauve buong gabi. Maaga din akong nagising dahil hindi ako mapakali at para bang may bumabagabag sa akin. I get up and do my usual routine before going out. As usual, mga crew agad ang bumubungad sa akin pagkalabas na pagkalabas ko, pero ngayon, parang balisa sila na ewan. I looked at the surroundings, the sky was still gray, the ocean was still. Hindi din mahangin at parang strange 'yung feeling ko sa lugar na ito. Caribbean Sea was the first thing that comes up into my mind. Ito na ba iyon?I thought it's only in the movies to see the dark sky and to feel a strange feeling in this place."Magandang umaga, Binibini. Pinapatawag ka na po ni Kapitan sa hapag." sabi ni Jungle sa akin. Nagulat ako dahil ng pormal niya, pero sumunod nalang din ako. His boots are the only thing that is creating a spund as we head to the dining room. Pagkadating ko doon ay natahimik silang lahat. Binaba din ni Fauve ang librong binabasa niya at ngumiti sa akin