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2025-02-17 12:37:54"yes of course I knew he was your lover but since we got married I expected some sort of decency from you side ...after all the kind of embarrassment he caused was unfathomable!!!" Kabir said while crushing the ciger in the ashtray!!!
"What do you mean???" Erica said not being able to understand his words He came closer to her "You and me both know that our marriage has no feelings involved but yes, my name is surely involved...and when you put pics like these on social perform after being my wife ...it hampers my image!!! He said showing her I***a post in his phone. Erica got startled by seeing it "Kabir ... it's not like that , these are old pics and after our marriage there was so much happening in my life that I didn't even open my I*******m...you can check my phone ..I haven't been logged in from a long time ... that's why it's not removed.....I'm sorry that this caused problems to you !!! She said showing him her phone!! " Look Erica!!! Neither I m intrested in you ,your feelings nor in this relationship but that doesn't curtail my possession on you , You are my wife, and it's going be like that , you got it !!!! So you got to behave accordingly!!! You can live your life I'm not stopping neither interfering except for whoring around!!! He said in venomous voice "Mind your language Kabir!!! I m listening to you because I did a mistake but that doesn't mean you can say anything...I will not tolerate this...how can you even....."she took a pause and said "actually you know what think whatever you want I'm leaving" she said and turned to leave her voice was a mix of frustration and anger. Kabir held her hand from the back and twisted it . "Oouch"... she hissed in pain Then he pulled her to him...and her back clashed with his chest... he bent a little and put his face near her shoulders..."don't ever try to raise your voice on me ..I'm not you puppy boyfriend, I m Kabir Randhawa , you get that!!! He said in arrogance. "Kabir leave my hand "she said wiggling her wrist. "And next time if I see that fucker around you I will shoot him right there!!" He said in a dangerous voice. Erica turned her face towards his side meeting her eyes to him. "You can't be serious!!!"she said in shock. "Try me!!!!" He said in a devilish tone then he released her hand with a jolt , and left from there Erica caressed her wrist instantly ...she got tears in her eyes...the way Kabir behaved shattered her...his venomous words broke her heart..she was sobbing by holding her wrist!!! --------------------------------------------------------- Erica's pov~ -------------------- How can Kabir slut shame me like that what does he think about me??? That I am some whore???I was in relationship with Anay but that doesn't give him an authority to question me....I know my limits , never crossed it...me and Anay were in a casual relationship and I was not dying to marry him ...and even if I were ...I would still not be unfaithful to my marriage...I respect this bond....I haven't thought about him since that day I got married..... even after knowing that our marriage has no future... it's just that we have to live with eachother that's it!! I thought he may be rude but the way he helped my parents , diva and also me in some way by agreeing to this marriage (Erica didn't know Kabir has married her for getting MD position)...he got a good heart that's what I thought but today he proved me wrong ...for him I m his possession, like a commodity nothing else.... "I'm not going to live with a man who has zero respect for me...yes!!! I will leave" she said to herself by wiping her tears!! Erica opened the cupboard , she pulled out her clothes and started packing them "After your marriage your father had a minor attack beta" her mother's voice rang in her ear and her hands got freezed!!! "I can't go to my home back...dad will not be able to cope with it...no..no..no!!!! I can't be this selfish....he already has suffered so much because of me I can't give him more pain!!!" She said to herself while sobbing and put her clothes back!!! She sat on the bed and cried in helplessness...she can't do anything...she can't leave from here ...and she can't live with a man who thinks so low of him!!! She felt like a looser!!!!!She cried the whole night and slowly drifed to sleep!!!! . . . . . . . . . .Related chapters
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Anay was in club with his friends he was there after so many days ...after his Thailand trip he was mostly at home chasing Erica....but today he came for a party with his friends there was drinks , girls , loud music and all the notorious rich brat friends of Anay...he was drinking and smoking side by side...when one of his friends name Rajat said..." What happened Anay you are not very active today!!! Don't you find someone interesting here that you are drinking that too alone " a girl was sitting in Rajat's lap."Nothing like that bro...it's just I'm not in the mood!!""Let's set you mood " rishab said and he pulled him to the dance floor Anay went half heartedly...rishab made him meet Monika and he told them both to dance ...Anay and Monika were dancing...she was trying to get close to Anay ...in normal scenario Anay would have loved it...but Erica's thought has consumed his mind...he slowly drifted himself apart from her and went outside. For the first time Anay was not enjoying
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Kabir pulled her in the room and closed the door!!! Erica was watching him being shit scared... his shirt was untucked, few bottons open , he still had the gun in his hand... He raised the gun to the side of his forehead, lightly scratching the skin there as if trying to soothe a headache " how shameless are you!!! ......I warned you the other day and what were you doing...he said gesturing towards outside!!!! Erica gulped a little in nervousness and said "Kabir...you are misunderstanding the situation... it's not what you think . I was just...her words got cut as He threw the table glass and it shattered making a loud voice...she covered her ears in panick!!! " You were fucking him behind my back???" he said in a questionable tone. "Kabir stop it!!!!! Mind your language...I was just going to my room when he pulled me there ..he was saying sorry and suddenly he hugged me...I was trying to release myself...and you came just then" she said her eyes were pooling with tears of hurt
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Kabir broke every single thing of his office room the ...the room became mess...broken pieces of glass , furniture were shattered in the room ...he injured his one hand in doing so ..but he didn't stop ...he was feeling like somebody has put burning coal in his chest!!! After breaking everything... he took his whiskey and ciger and sat on the open balcony....he was smoking and drinking....the scene of Erica in Anay's arm was just dancing infront of his eyes...he can't believe Anay touched her knowing she is his wife!!! How can someone touch Kabir's possession!!!! He thought." How dare he touch something that I own.....I will not leave you bastard , just wait and watch..... nobody can claim what's mine!!!! She is my belonging....she is tied to me!!!! I burn the world if somebody tries to snatch what's mine...I don't care if she likes it or not she has to live with me" he said to himself.....he was drinking and bottles after bottle.... Suddenly it started raining cats and dogs ..but he
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Erica took off his shoes and with great difficulty she laid him in the right position putting a pillow under his neck ...she realised his clothes were wet.... she was thinking about how to get it changed when the doctor entered with Martha. He checked his temperature and his chest with a stethoscope and gave him a few injections....he took out the broken glass piece from his hand and did the dressing . " He has a very high fever...and his ragged breathing suggests maybe he has got chest infection possibly pneumonia or hypothermia but to conclude anything we have to run a few tests..he will gain his consciousness when the fever will subdue !!! He said giving the prescription " don't leave him alone and take great care of him ....he is not a person who will get unconscious so easily and also change his clothes... it's all wet!!!" He said and took his leave!!! "Martha!!!!! call some male servant and bring me his medicines and a bowl of cold water and a cotton cloth!" Erica said. Mar
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" I don't need it" kabir said in an egoistic tone refusing for the head massage. "Look Kabir I'm not dying to do this okay . You heard the doctor , and apart from me none is here to do this...so please put your ego aside and let me do it and if not you won't be able to sleep today as well" Erica said in a warning tone. Hearing this Kabir looked towards her it's true he couldn't sleep properly from the last three nights !! His eyes softened but his ego was intact so he looked at her for a minute but then turned his face on the other side like a child showing tantrums!! Watching his action a small smile crept on Erica's lips "such a child!!" She thought . Kabir laid on his back , his head was on the pillow.... Erica sat near his pillow and started moving her Fingers in his hair ....it's been years somebody has touched Kabir's hair like that ... slowly he got relaxed... his nevers calm down....his eyes started dropping in the new found warmth but his mind was saying he should be ang
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Kabir was sitting on the bed ...he was so bored... it's been a week he hasn't been to the office..he was rotating his head when he saw Erica coming from the washroom ....wearing a beautiful white shiffon saree , it was quite see through... She was towel drying her hair by looking at the mirror in front of her....her backless back was on the view..... the beautiful mole on her milky white back was looking mesmerizing ....Kabir's eyes slowly blinked in admiration....he gulped at the view and found himself lost !!!! Erica turned after a little touchup and came to him...she touched his forehead, under his chin and near her neck as .. feeling her touch his eyes got closed.... "bukhaar to nahi hai" she said casually and turned to leave when she got pulled with a strong force and immediately fell on bed on her back...Kabir hovered over her and he locked her by his legs!!! "Kabir...what is th..." Her words cut in the throat as he buried his face in the crook of her neck and started kissin
Last Updated : 2025-02-17It was meant to be him Nobody can control him
Erica was standing in the washroom infront of the mirror watching the marks of Kabir on her neck !!!! Her eyes were pooling with tears ...she came out and threw herself on the bed ..she started crying....Erica's pov~What kind of a girl I have become...the man who hurts me to no bound , I let him touch me ...he was touching me and I was enjoying it...not for once I try to seperate myself from him..... How I become this weak ....I was never like this ....I never let Anay touch me that way even though he was my boyfriend...and I was surrendering myself to him....I want to hate him...but I don't know why I feel this strong pull towards him.... he has so much control over me and I can't do anything about it!!!! Why I didn't felt bad with his touch...he must be thinking I am so easy to get!!! He has already accused my character...now he will definitely think me as a whore ...I let down myself so bad !!! I am ashamed of myself !!!She said to herself while crying ------------------------
Last Updated : 2025-02-17It was meant to be him Ignoring me!
Kabir woke up...and didn't see Erica around.....after getting ready he came for breakfast and there she was , sitting with smiriti and his dad...there were having breakfast....Kabir came and sat on his chair....he looked at Erica whose eyes were on her plate....he was contemplating why she is not looking up when she got up from there !!!! Kabir's jaw clenched why is she not looking...."Is she ignoring me"Kabir thought Erica was talking to tai a few meter away from Kabir ...she was also smiling in between but not for once she acknowledged kabir.Kabir got up "tai ....I am going" he said in deep voice thinking now may be she will look towards him.Tai got suprised , where did this come from!!!!"You want something babA!!!" She asked him and Erica turned to leave from there."Nothing" he said in a off tone also left !!!----------------------------------------------Erica has found the way to deal with him....out of sight, out of mind ...is gonna be her plan...she will keep distance w
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Erica's Pov---------------------His phone rang, breaking the spell between us. I pulled away from his embrace, still sitting in his lap, and watched as Kabir glanced from me to his phone. "Can I take it, please?" he asked softly.I nodded, tucking my hair behind the ear. "Hello, Aditya. What file have you sent? It has so many errors," he said, his voice firm and serious as he started scolding. But even as he spoke, his hand continued to gently caress my back, making me feel the affection in that moment as if assuring me that I matter to him.I couldn't help but trace my fingers along his ear, studying his face so closely. I felt a warmth spreading through me as I stroked his cheek with my thumb.It's all wrong! Is this really what we're going to present at the meeting? There's so much error!" He continued, and I could sense the tension in his voice, like he was holding back a shout-probably because I was here. I love this side of him. He could manage his reactions so well if he wa
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Erica stood at the terrace, her fingers wrapped tightly around the railing as she gazed out into the distance. Anay's footsteps approached slowly, and he came to stand beside her, making his presence known. She briefly glanced at him before turning her gaze back to the view."I am sorry for your loss, Erica," Anay began. He let out a sigh "I won't lie to you... your pregnancy was not good news for me. But still, I never wanted anything like that to happen to you."Erica remained silent, her expression unreadable."Actually, whatever happened was not for you, but for the man you are with. He definitely doesn't deserve a child. Maybe that's why God did this." "Can you just please shut up? I don't want to talk," Erica interjected, her voice tense."I know you have developed a soft corner for him," Anay continued. "I so wish I could tell you what he thinks about you and this relationship in which you are so invested.""Look Anay, I don't want your opinion on my marriage, okay? Whatever w
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Kabir was getting ready for his office....since the miscarriage happened he is going to the office for a very less time...he stays mostly at home... though it was of no use because Erica rarely let him be around her...but still he was there all the time.Kabir was looking in the mirror wearing his watch. When Erica called him from behind she was seated on the bed propped up against the headboard ."Kabir!!!!!" She called slowly.He looks behind and their eyes meet."Because of my carelessness....we lost our baby....but you didn't say a word...you get angry on everything but you don't have any reaction for our baby....was it...was it not important to you Kabir???" Her voice falters as tears brim in her eyes....Kabir came near the bed and stood beside her....Erica looked up to his eyes...."You are important to me" He said wiping her tears with his thumb "it was an accident Erica....it wasn't your fault."he softly tucked her hair ....he bend a little and kissed her forehead softly ,
