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I felt like I had tossed and turned all night with our last kiss replaying in my head on a loop. I felt squeamish and giddy, my whole body filled with flutters every time I thought of our kiss.The next morning I felt like an exhausted mess from the lack of sleep I had gotten. Wes and I were acting as if it never happened, neither one of us saying a thing about it.Wes looked like he had no intention of bringing up which made me keep quiet myself, not wanting to bring something up that Wes wasn't even thinking about.I had said that it was our last night being a couple so it made sense to seal it all with one last kiss for everyone to see.It just didn't feel like it was for show. It felt like it was more, something so much more. Filled with so much passion and affection that it literally felt like it had taken all my oxygen away.Goodbyes with my mother were very quick, like expected. My father on the other hand seemed much more relaxed than usual. He actually seemed a little sad to
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Wes and I sat in my dorm room with boxes of pizza and bread sticks spread out in front of us. We had made a little bed/fort on the ground in the middle of the room as we watched stupid youtube videos on the projector screen in front of us while we ate.There was nobody else on campus so we were left with each other's company which I personally had no problem with.Expect for the fact that I was falling for him hard and had no idea how to stop it.Ha."So," Wes brushed the crumbs off his hands, leaning back and turning to look at me. "What are your plans for the rest of the break? We still have days before the chaos of classes start."I shrugged as I sipped on my cola. "I don't know, I just want to catch up with all my reading. I much rather be ahead of the class. It'll give me less to stress about."Wes rolled his eyes, making a distraught face. "Loosen up, sweetheart. You work crazy hard. Just relax while you can."I laughed softly as I stood and started gathering the mess of boxes t
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"Can I just stay in your bed all day?" Wes pouted out his bottom lip as he looked up at me, hugging my pillow and keeping himself wrapped up in my blankets.I crossed my arms over my chest as I firmly shook my head. "Wes! All we've done is order take out and watch movies for the past three days. Let's go out!"Wes groaned, stretching his arms out. "I just feel like a lazy bum.""I know," I grabbed his hands and started pulling him up but I was too weak to make him budge. "Which is why we are going out to feel the crisp air on our faces. And coffee!"Wes sighed as he pushed the blankets off himself. He dragged his feet towards the bathroom, giving in. "Fine. Let me change real quick."I occupied myself by cleaning up some of the mess that was forming in the room while Wes took a quick shower and changed his clothes.I grinned when he walked out, looking much more freshened up and awake."Let's go." I reached over to take hold of his hand, taking one step before halting to a stop. I sta
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Pluviophile - (n) a lover of rain;someone who finds joyand peace of mindduring rainy days.-As if my emotions and feelings weren't already a spiralling mess, we had to get caught in the rain which was as cliche as it sounds.Wes and I decided to go bowling and grab a quick fast food dinner instead of staying hauled up in my room doing stupid shit all day.We had eaten food and were headed out only to see that it was pouring rain. Raining cats and dogs."Shit!" I exclaimed as I stepped back and tried to stay underneath the overhanging rake of the roof. "I don't even have a coat, I'm going to get drenched."Wes looked down at me, grinning brightly like a child waking up to presents on Christmas morning.I narrowed my eyes at him in a skeptic manner when I saw the mischievous glint in his eyes. "What's going on in that big head of yours, pretty boy?"Wes only smirked before he stepped out into the parking lot, tilting his head back to let the rain pellet down on his face.I gaped at
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I felt a great sense of comfort and calmness knowing that Michelle and Chris would be back today. After last night, having danced in the rain with Wes and sharing that moment, I needed to be away from him.It was the perfect and most magical moment all to be ruined because he didn't kiss me.Maybe I was selfish and petty to think that, but I couldn't help but be hurt. All my hope that maybe Wes does hold some feelings for me was stripped away when he didn't make any sort of move."I showed all the signs," I grumbled, shaking my head. "All the flirtation, getting flustered, being a little more touchy, making comments and teasing. I did everything to indicate that I have feelings for him."Michelle tilted her head as she looked at me, trying to understand every detail. "Maybe he didn't see the signs?"I gave Michelle a flat look. "This is Wes we're talking about. He's an expert in reading women and dating women."Michelle shrugged, giving me a sheepish look. "I'm sure he just didn't see
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Classes had started and the campus was swarming with students once again. It almost looked surreal because of how different the atmosphere was only a few days ago before everyone had gotten back from their holidays.I hadn't seen Wes in over a week. Part of me may had been avoiding him but I excused it as being caught up in my courses and assignments and that is exactly what I kept myself busy with.I knew I would have to see him soon but I also needed to get myself in check and make sense of my feelings before I did so.Michelle, Chris and I were hanging out at the cafe between lectures and Chris decided to invite Wes to join us, without telling me."You can't avoid him forever," he told me sincerely. "And the longer you do avoid him, the more awkward you'll feel when you do see him."I knew it was unfair of me to steer clear of Wes without giving him an explanation. As much as I wanted to avoid him until I magically made my feelings for him vanish, a big part of me did miss his comp
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It was now or never for me to do the most perfect match making of all time and introduce Wes to Summer Thomson.Summer walked into the cafe, smiling and waving to some familiar faces she saw. She was about to walk past out booth to head to the counter to order when I stopped her."Summer!" I beamed a bright and friendly smile as I waved her over, ignoring the pang in my chest.I could totally vomit right now. This was violently heart-wrenching.Michelle gave me a reassuring smile, nodding her head slowly because she knew what I was doing.Chris and Wes both snapped their heads over in confusion, not knowing what was going on."Hey," Summer exhaled as she stopped at the end of our table. She smiled warmly at me. "What's up, Fia? How was your break?"As much as I wanted to hate her because she could potentially be Wes's other half, I couldn't. She was perfect and she was one of the sweetest and most charming girls I had ever met.I didn't know her incredibly well and wasn't very close w
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I didn't know how long I had been staring out the window but I couldn't do anything to pull myself back into reality.My mind was spinning as I stared at the starry night sky. My thoughts were racing with questions about Wes and Summer, whether they hit it off, if he liked her, if he'll ask her out.I hated thinking about it but nothing I did to distract myself was working.I was in pure agony. It was torture. It was hell.I want to say I'm overreacting but honestly, feelings hurt and feelings suck.It just hurts to know that he doesn't see me the way I see him. It hurts that I can't have him. It hurts that I'm going to eventually see him be with someone else.I wish I could forget all about these stupid feelings I have for Wes but unfortunately, you cannot pick and chose who you fall for or when.I felt pathetic and lousy and like a sad, bummy little shit, more than I ever had before."Heartbreak and love - total bitch, I know," Michelle tried to keep her tone teasing, to lighten the
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