I WONDERED again if what I had said to Marcus the other day was true. Am I ready to recognize the wolves behind my personality? But in the end, I thought that was probably the right thing to do to finally answer the questions in my mind about who I am.I sigh as I look at the green surroundings from the window. I am in the living room now while sisters Trina and Vernon are in the mansion. I don't know where Persuz is. Ever since we talked and he suspected me, I haven't spoken to him yet. I have known for a long time that I do not have his loyalty and if I could just bring him back to the mansion I will do, but I know Volter will not allow it because he will lose his eye in this house. I still can't get why until now he still has to watch me and doubt, even though he knows how much I want to avenge our parents.'Until now is that still your priority?' my mind immediately asked. I thought deeply as I seriously looked at the vast surroundings surrounded by tall and towering trees. Whethe
I NEVER hesitated to go back with Marcus to the village. This is the beginning of discovering my true identity. To know my wolves parents and the truth behind why I'm with vampires. That's become a question to me and also the truth that Marcus told to me.Aside from the awkwardness I felt for what I might know, I felt the excitement to set foot in that village again and see Yena and Rossa who had become close to me."Syrie!"I was just surprised when Marcus suddenly pushed me a way for us to fall and roll over. I felt the whistling of that arrow that was supposed to be coming at me.I was surprised when I was on top of him. I felt like I was burning because I could feel Marcus' body on me. When I was ready to stand, he suddenly pulled me back. "Shh!" he said as his index finger blocked his lip to tell me to quiet. “There are hunters around,” he said. I didn't move because I felt there were people around."Where are they now?" I heard a man ask as we lay on the thick grass we were rol
UNTIL NOW I still can't still believe that Rossa is my cousin. I just didn't expect that she's connected to my personality. I never thought that someone like her would be a part of me. Maybe that's why I feel strange every time I'm with her. I felt something that led me to feel comfortable with her.Later, Yena came back from playing with her friend. She didn't expect me to be there so she was so surprised to see me there. "Sister, Syrie!" She shouted while running towards me. I greeted him and hugged him tightly. Longing in my heart filled as I hugged Yena. "You're here again," she said happily."How are you, Yena?" I asked her. Yena stopped hugging me and I put her on my lap. I fixed her slightly messy hair and pinned it behind her ear. "I'm glad to see you again," I added.I could see the reflection of a happy smile and happiness on Yena's face. There was no denying her longing to see me again. "I'm happy, sister Syrie because you're here again," she said softly while smiling and
AFTER a few minutes of traveling, we stopped at a vast expanse of forest. I was exposed to a place that seemed to have been destroyed by war. Part of each house was scattered around and was covered with various weeds. Obviously that place has been in that order for a long time. My forehead furrowed. I don’t know but a strange feeling appeared to me. There is pain in my heart and I feel a connection into this place. What have I got to do with this place?"Are we here, Brother Marcus?" Yena asked after looking around.Marcus put Yena to the ground and smiled at her. "Here we are, Yena," he happily announced."What is this place, Marcus?" I asked with wonder. "Why did you bring me here?" I turned to him with some question in my mind.“This is the ruined village because a war hundred years ago, Syrie,” Marcus began in a serious voice. He looked at me for a moment before turning around and watching it. "Everything you see is a result of that war." Marcus's face showed sadness.I saw around
UNTIL I got home, I still couldn't get my mind off what I had known about my real parents. I still can't quite imagine my father being a vampire while my mother is a wolf. I still have a lot to ask Marcus but he hasn't answered it yet. I wanted to know which of those vampires was my real father who could be connected to the vampires who adopted me. I don't know how to believe that even though I know Marcus was telling the truth. I also can’t imagine what he said I was a vampire and a wolf that I think is very impossible to happen."Hey, you seem to be thinking deeply?"I was dazed when I heard Trina's voice. I quickly turned to her and saw Vernon looking at me as well."Is there a problem, Syrie?" Vernon asked."I've noticed these past few days, you've been quiet and seem so thinking deeply, since you came back from the forest," Trina commented.I rubbed my forehead and closed my eyes for a moment. Unbeknownst to me, I was stunned to think of what I had known from Marcus. "It's nothin
"WHAT are you doing here, Marcus?" I said softly to him when he suddenly appeared inside the house after Trina and Vernon had left. There was a fear on my face that someone might see him there. I was currently standing at the window of my room while thinking about many things that were troubling my mind. Darkness begins to spread around."I just can't help myself to see you, Syrie," he said directly with a trace of sincerity on his face.I looked at his handsome face for a moment but I immediately blinked. There was something strange about him that I couldn’t figure out what it was. “Are you crazy, Marcus? They can't see you here,” I said.“Who said I would be seen here, Syrie? I know what I'm doing, so no worries that we might be seen here, ”he said in a low voice.I don’t know if the expression I see on his face is correct. There is a longing there. “But—” I couldn't finish what I was about to say when Marcus suddenly kissed me and held my neck so I couldn't get out of there.My eye
I CANNOT erase from my mind what happened last night between Marcus and me. Now I just totally thought about what we had done, what I had done. I'm just out of breath because of that. Although I regretted what had happened, there was nothing I could do because I willingly surrendered myself to him and he did not force me. But despite my remorse, I will admit that moment made me happy and a joy I only felt and realized."Lately, I've noticed that you're always thinking deeply."I felt Trina lean against me opposite the living room window as I looked around. It is currently a clear morning and the pleasant feeling of the air, touching my body. I turned to Trina. “Have you ever heard about the mate of a wolf?” I asked her because of that thing that bothered me.Trina frowned and thought. “I don’t really know about that, Syrie. All I know is that a wolf has a mate. When they found their mate, to them it smelled very strong and addictive. They will also feel excessive attraction for their
Did I make the right decision? I don't know what would be the results of the decision I made but that's what my heart is whispering to me to do—to accept Marcus and his love for me. I can't deny the strange feeling I have for him because every time he gets closer to me, I feel like I can't stop it anymore.The night reached us in that stream while Marcus hugged me from the back and watched the light of the moon and stars. Every time his skin touches mine, he makes me feel safe with him. "I don't know if I'm doing the right thing, Marcus. Are we doing the right thing?" I asked. Despite the decision I've made, those questions were still there in my mind.Marcus moved slowly, he stopped from hugging me and brought me to face him. His serious face was revealed to me. "I don't know what is right for you, Syrie, but for me there is nothing wrong with the relationship we have right now," he said."Marcus, do you know who I am? Where am I? Do you think Volter will agree if he finds out what's
UNTIL I got home that night, I still couldn't fully wrap my head around everything I learned. It keeps messing with my mind while I don't know how to accept and believe that. I am now torn between two sides and I don't know which to believe, who is telling them the truth. I'm confused and still don't know what to do."Hey! I've been calling you for a while, Syrie why don't you seem like yourself?"I blinked because Vernon waved his palm in my face. His surprised face appeared at me."It's strange that you're dumbfounded, Syrie? We've been here for a while but you don't seem to see or feel anything at all?" Trina said with folded arms as she stood on the edge of the sofa. Then she also sat there.I tried to smile while looking at these two. I turned my back away from the sofa and my face became serious. I slightly avoided looking at them. "I-it's nothing, I just thought of something," I excused them. I don't know if it's the right time to tell them everything I found out."Is there a p
I WILL NOT allow myself to leave this village without knowing other things about my real parents. The darkness is spreading around and I also have to go back home because I know Persuz will ask again where I went if I don't go home.Yena and I also played for a long time because we longed for each other before Rossa came and took the child.Marcus hasn't come back since father Trigo called him, so I'll be the only one to go there to know everything about my parents’ past. I want to clear up before I leave because I might not be able to sleep if those things keep messing with my mind.Marcus and father Trigo were surprised when they saw me enter the room. They seem to be talking seriously."Syrie, what are you doing here?" Marcus greeted me. The momentary concern on his face did not escape my eyes, father Trigo is not like that.I stepped closer to them and sat in the empty seat opposite Marcus. "I want to know everything right now, Marcus. Everything about my parents," I said directly
I STILL CAN'T believe what I heard from those wolves. I try to understand and find the truth in them. Is all that true? But someone tells me to believe that because they are telling the truth but there is a part that reminds me of the vampires who sheltered me and the good they did for me.Maybe I was just surprised by what I found out. How did my real father Amaro become Trevor's brother? And then, how come they didn't tell me that. Why didn't they confess to me those things that I should know. They didn't even mention to me that Amaro is my father. It's all a mess and I don't know which one is true."Are you ok?"I heard Marcus' voice. He sat next to me on the veranda of the house where I also stayed before. I kept looking around where I could see the tall trees. I sighed. "Marcus, everything is a mess. I have so many questions in my mind that I can't get the answer to. I don't know what to think about what I found out," I confessed, then turned to look at him with confusion on my f
NOW that Trina and Vernon knew what I was doing and about Marcus, I had no trouble hiding from them. I'm only worried about Persuz because I know who his loyalty is and it's not mine. I don't even have to explain if I'm leaving and answer their question every time I come back."I want to go to the village but I can't, Marcus. I have to be careful with my every move," I said to him while we were on the edge of the stream. He wanted us to go to the village of the wolves because he said he had things to tell me but it was not possible because Volter had disciples there who might see me and tell Volter."Why not, Syrie?" he asked me in surprise.I looked at him seriously. "Marcus, you don't know who is a true friend or foe even if it's your kind and with you," I meaningfully reminded him who frowned even more."What do you mean, Syrie? That there is a traitor in the village?"I didn't answer right away. I don't know if I should talk about Colby or just let it go. "I don't know, Marcus, bu
THIS MORNING, the smile on my lips still hasn't disappeared because of what happened between Marcus and me last night. My heart is full of joy because of that and I don't want to let it go. I just want to savor it because there's a truth that I don't know how long I'll be able to feel it. I really only felt that with Marcus because maybe he was the only one capable of giving that to me."Oh! Your face looks happy, Syrie, huh?" Vernon greeted me when I got out of my room.I smiled at him. "I'm just feeling happy today, Vernon," I returned to him.I went straight to the living room and sat on the sofa there. Vernon followed me there. "Where is Trina?" I asked when I noticed that she wasn't there and only Vernon was there."Trina? I don't know where she is, she just left a while ago," he answered while his palms were intertwined and his arms rested on his knees."You? Don't you have an appointment? Haven't you been summoned to the mansion?" I asked him. In the past, they were often at th
UNTIL now I still can't get out of my mind what Trina said to me. I didn't even think about that or even suspect Marcus, that he might be one of those wolves with a moon carved on his right arm. Yes, I didn't immediately trust him but I never thought that he might be the one I was looking for. What if that's true? What if Marcus has a moon carved on his right arm? How can I deal with what can happen when I've fallen for him?I sighed as I hugged myself standing in front of the living room window where my eyes were looking at that big tree in front of me. It was dark around and the night breeze was slightly cold. I was the only one at home again because Trina and Vernon were in the jungle while Persuz was in the mansion.My mind has been working on what Trina said and I'm afraid to know what is true and what is not. I don't even know if I can accept when it turns out that Trina is right."Are you thinking about me again?"I blinked and was suddenly nervous when I saw Marcus at the bott
"I'M just curious, Syrie, why did you suddenly have an interest in who you are?"I was slightly surprised by Trina's question as I sat quietly on the sofa facing her. I looked at her seriously before answering. "I don't know either, Trina I suddenly feel there's something missing in me. I feel like I'm missing myself and I don't know what it is," I answered.Trina looked at me as if checking the reaction of my face. Then she blinked. "Ok. I understand, Syrie and I can't blame you if you feel that way. It's natural for you to feel the search for the person you never knew," Trina agreed. "But that won't be good if Volter finds out about you, searching for your personality," she continued with a look of frustration on her face. "Maybe he'll think you're betraying him.""I already know that possibility, Trina, so as much as possible I don't want to tell anyone about this matter.""Don't worry, Syrie, I'm on your back. You can also assure me that what you said is safe," she said smiling.I
I was seriously looking at that rushing stream while the strong wind was blowing. I'm still thinking about what Volter said to me. But even so, I still feel sad and regretful because we spent so much time together that only ended up with us doubting each other. Volter and I have changed so much since we had a misunderstanding. Since he felt jealous of me."You're thinking so deep, baby."I was slightly surprised and blinked when I felt Marcus hug me from behind, he even pressed his face to my neck which brought a tickle to me.I sighed. I don't know why I couldn't feel the fear that someone might see us there and find out what was going on between us. All I know is that I'm safe when I'm with Marcus."I just can't help but think about the things that have changed in my life, Marcus, the things that are happening around," I said calmly as he gently rubbed his arm around my waist"Are you thinking about me too, Syrie?" he said backI blinked at what he said. "Do I always have to think a
Even if I WANT to go to the village to see Marcus there, even Yena and Rossa, I can't because I know Volter has a spy there to identify who the wolves are with the carving moon on their right shoulder. They could find out that I was coming to the village and that would surely reach Volter and start to doubt me.I sat down on the sofa. The situation will be more complicated now because of the decision I made and I have to be more careful because it will have a big impact on me and the vampires."Oh, Syrie you don't have a walk today?"I looked up at Vernon who had just entered the house from I don't know where he came from. Since I came to the village, I don't even know what my housemates are up to."Where are you from, Vernon?" I asked him again. I don't have to answer his question."At the mansion, Uncle Freud spoke to me and said hello," he answered bluntly. He sat in front of me and watched my face. "Lately, I've noticed that you always seem to be thinking about something. There's