Chapter 6

ARIANNA

It was a very bad idea again wasn't it? I just knew it was from the second mother suggested it.

My heart drummed in my ears, a million fanatical inconsistent beats playing within me.

Why did I even agree to going there? What was I even expecting in the first place?

Did I really imagine that Lucas would welcome me with open arms? The same man forbade me from ever coming to his office and just the sight of my face irritates him to the core.

A sound of displeasure left my lips as I pondered over what took place earlier this morning in Lucas' office.

My own husband was caught red handed making out with a human and he showed no sign of remorse to it.

Anxiety filled up my senses and nausea set in.

What usually went on between him and his mistresses?

Mistresses wow.

A pained smile carved on my lips. I was sharing my husband with multiple women.

No form of decency or respect for me as his wife whatsoever.

Is this a marriage or hell in disguise of a marriage?

How many more lovers did he have?

There is no doubt that he obviously paints my name in a bad image before them.

I wonder what he says to them? Probably that his wife is infertile, incapable of birthing a child.

Or perhaps his parents forced him to marry a gold digger as a wife.

Whatever he said, it was clearly not something to applaud over.

My heart ached within me and twined tears streamed down my eyes, blurring my vision.

What did I ever do to Lucas to deserve such hatred from him?

Am I that bad of a person?

I just want my husband to love me is it that much to ask?

I cried more and more, meditating on what I had gotten myself into in marrying Lucas.

Two years of marriage to the world but to me, it was two years of pain, two years of agony, two years of daily mistrust and two years of unrequited love.

"You foolish bitch" A low growl like that of a beast hit my ear walls.

Whipping my head immediately to the door, Lucas seized my blurry sight with his menacing brown orbs which had slits of fury in them.

I sniffed my nose and I at once stood up from the bed, arranging my emotions in one place.

"So you are here hiding right?" As he advanced towards me, multiple shivers slithered down my spine.

I do not know if it is because of his mere killer like appearance or the result of the cold breeze which seeped in through the curtains.

"I am not hiding and especially not from you" I spoke up, averting my gaze from his piercing ones.

"You still have the guts to talk really?" A harsh laugh left his lips at the sight of my brave exterior.

I tried maintaining a strong front but I hope he does not see through my expressionless face.

"Lucas what do you want? Because I clearly remembered that you said you will stop sharing a room with me so what are you doing back in my room?" I made emphasis on the 'MY' as I spoke.

Lucas walked up to me, our faces in extremely close proximity with each others.

"Arianna you are very shameless you know"he spat.

"Oh really? I am the shameless one? I caught you kissing another woman passionately and I am the shameless one?!" I asked in disbelief.

"Fucking yes! Showing your unfortunate face in my office and creating a ruckus there! You are so getting on my nerves and I am just an inch close to killing you with my bare hands!" Lucas growled in retaliation.

"Lucas.." I let out tremored breaths at his unforgiving words.

"You want your own wife dead?" I asked like I did not know the answer to his questions.

"Yes. I want you dead. Wasted and out of my fucking life. Arianna I hate you so much you have not a single clue of the depth of my hatred. You tarnish my name and image everywhere you go.

Imagine me, Lucas Hilton settled down for a low class girl like you whereas there are millions of rich and prominent ladies I could have married! And yet what do we have to show for this misalliance!? Exactly nothing! No kids, not even a pregnancy. Over the last two freaking years Arianna! What is your use as my wife!!"

"I am your partner and your helping hand! We are meant to walk through the journey of life together!!" I retorted back with so much pulsating anger and agony.

Hearing him speak about me in such a profane manner was not new but still it managed to puncture my heart every single time.

"Lucas why are you doing this to me!? I love you a thousand times more than all those other women!"

In the blink of an eye, Lucas' fingers connected to my cheek in a resounding slap that almost threw me off balance.

I held on to the cheek he slapped, his hand imprints were certainly leaving a mark giving how intense the slap was to my fragile skin.

"You just slapped me" I gasped out, holding his heated gaze with my mortified and stuperfied ones.

"Yes and I will do it again and again until you learn your fucking place in my life and in this family!" Lucas' blazing anger was incomparable to none.

His chest rosed repeatedly like he had ran a marathon race and anger fueled up within him.

I was at lost for breaths and words.

I stared like I was in a daze, expecting what just happened to be a terrible nightmare but it was not.

It was the reality of our marriage.

Lucas raised his hand on me, his own wife.

"Now listen to me clearly..." Lucas grabbed me by my chin, his fingers digging into my skin whilst a fury of indignation blazed in his eyes.

"Arianna if you should ever try this rubbish you did today in my office again, I swear on that day, I will send you to your maker and let me tell you nobody and I mean nobody will hold me accountable for it.

Your body will be disposed far away from here and you will be left to rot like the trash that you are.

You are not my wife and you will never be my wife. You got that?"

I nodded almost immediately, fear infused into my features as his nails went deeper into my skin, dragging out blood and my tears as well.

"Good" he simply stated before letting go of me and marching out of my room, banging the door loudly behind him.

"Oh my God..oh my God" I gasped out repeatedly, trying to slow down my clamouring and aching heart but it was to no avail.

I slumped back on the bed and curled myself like a ball, crying out my sorrows.

Heavens please help me.

I am tired of this marraige.