CHAPTER 3

CHARLOTTE'S POV

“Let's break up Charlotte.” My head rang at the words he said and it felt like a bomb had been dropped inside my heart.

“What did you say?” I asked as I took a step back, wondering if I had heard wrongly. “You're joking right? What do you mean? Why? What did I do wrong? What happened? Did-”

“Just stop Charlotte. You did nothing okay?” He said with a frustrated expression and I stood there frozen and dumbfounded. This is a lie right? I'm definitely dreaming.

I closed my eyes and slapped myself hard to wake myself up from this dream and when the pain resonated on my face as I opened my eyes, I realized it was not a dream. This was real.

“Micheal…” I said as my voice cracked and I cleared my throat to stable myself. “At least tell me why. What I did wrong. Tell me where I failed as a good girlfriend. I can fix us. I'll work on myself so I can be better for you. Just tell me…”

“I-” He started and looked away with guilt all over his face. “I found someone else. She was better than you in every way and I just- I don't know I fell madly in love with her. It just happened.”

He said with a shrug and it felt like my heart had been shattered to pieces. ‘She was better than you in every way’ That sentence continued to repeat itself in my head as I stared at him in shock.

“So you cheated on me?” I asked and he scoffed as he rubbed his neck. “Is that the word?” He asked and I almost laughed at his words.

“Micheal- You're pranking me. I know it. You love me. You told me that over and over again! You got me, I fell for your prank. You can stop acting now.” I said and he looked at me like I was stupid.

I mean, I felt extremely stupid right now but I can't accept this. What's my life without him? He's never tried to support me with my loans and I never asked because having him with me was enough to comfort me. And now what? He's leaving me?

“Charlotte, enough with the dumbness. This is one of the reasons I'm leaving you. You're so dumb, it hurts me. Do you really think anyone can love you? You might be pretty, yes. But with that kind of debt on your head, who'd be foolish enough to stay?”

“I admit, I approached you because of your beauty and it was like a flex to have such a beauty as my girlfriend but I've found someone even prettier and more smarter than your stupid self. I never loved you Charlotte. You were just too stupid to not realize.”

Tears spilled from my eyes as my chest tightened with pain and agony. Is this what heartbreak felt like?

“But- All those times, you mean you lied to me? Just for a flex? Is that all I am to you?” I asked and he rolled his eyes. This was not the Micheal I knew. Something must have happened.

“Micheal, did something happen? Did you hear something bad about me outside? I promise it's not true! Believe me! I love you Micheal, please don't do this to me.” I said as I immediately got on my knees and he burst into laughter.

“You're finally where you belong. The ground. Have fun paying off your stupid parents’ debts.” He spat at the spot I was kneeling at and walked out of the house.

I immediately got up and tried to go after him but everything shattered when I saw him walk up to a lady and kiss her deeply. He turned slightly to look at me with a proud smirk on his face and then got into his car with her and drove away.

I walked down the street as my eyes were blurry with tears and my heart shattered to pieces. Why today of all days? What have I done wrong? Why me? Is this the end for me? It probably is.

I lost my job. I lost the love of my life. I have piles of debts on my head and I'm constantly abused. What kind of life am I supposedly living?

This would probably be a good time to die. Everyone I walked past looked at me with pity and contempt. I'm tired of the kind of life I've been living and decided to jump off the bridge closeby. I was never a good swimmer so it'll be easy for me to die in there. Suicide was the best option for me now.

“Mom, Dad, I love both of you so much. But this is too much for me to handle. Both of you left me here alone, to suffer and pay off the debts you took for yourselves. My life is a living hell! And I'm tired of living. I'll be joining both of you today wherever you are. It's better this way.” I was speaking to myself and people looked at me like I had gone insane but I didn't care.

“Why didn't you tell me about the loans you took? Why did you take those loans anyway!?” I yelled as I looked into the heavens, tears falling freely from my eyes. I felt my heart clench in pain as I wiped the tears off my face harshly.

I wanted to live a beautiful life. One where I had everything I wanted. The perfect man, the perfect job, the perfect house, and even the perfect kids. But all that dream flew away like a balloon with the wind.

“Are the both of you happy wherever you are? Because I'm not! I'm being beaten up and abused every day. Whenever I open my eyes in the morning, I wonder how bad my day is going to be. Why did you leave me all alone in this cruel world?” I cried while walking on the streets, not caring about the looks I was getting.

“Micheal left me. He said I was stupid. He cheated on me! All because of the debts on my head! I'm done! I can't go on anymore! This is the end for me.”

My life will be over starting tomorrow, so I have to end it today. I was about to cross to the other side of the road, where I could easily jump off and die when I felt something solid collide with me.

I was already on the floor before I realized I had been hit by a car. A smile crept up my pain-filled face as I realized it's finally over. I can finally be with you, Mom and Dad. Dying never felt so good. I closed my eyes as everything faded away and my world turned black.

Moments later, I felt like I was floating and I smiled, relishing the feeling of ascending into heaven. Suddenly I was put down, but it was somewhere softer than the ground. So this is what going to heaven feels like. I heard a male voice speaking but I couldn't catch what he was saying. Is that God speaking to me? Am I in heaven already?