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2021-08-03 19:29:05IVANA'S POV:
I was about to cry when he pulled me through my waist. I was about to scream. But the next moment, I was laughing like a fool. He was tickling me. My stomach was hurting like hell. I would've died due to lack of oxygen if he hadn't left me.
I was relieved after he left me and I started taking deep breaths. When I looked at him, he was... smiling. He was... actually smiling! His smile is the most beautiful smile I've ever seen in my life!
His beautifully arranged teeth, especially his left canine, which was different; sharp and catchy. His lips, pursed into that beautiful smile. My lips automatically pursed into a smile seeing him smile.
I couldn't help but say, "Your smile... is beautiful." The next moment, his smile faded away and I felt like the brightness around me suddenly faded. I felt as if... as if... if only I wish I could see his smile for one more time. But he was not smiling anymore.
Just when he smiled, I felt as if I
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