Chapter 82

Amelia used to tell me to never harbor any anger in your heart. She told me that no matter how hurt I was, I had to forgive all the people who had wronged, even those who nearly killed me.

"Why?" I would ask her every time she reminds me that.

"Because that's how we experience peace." That's always had been her answer and I would think she's right, but I procrastinated on forgiving them.

Forgiveness can be procrastinated by not thinking about it, by avoiding it and focusing on the present without facing the past. It worked for me. I thought it did.

When she died I remembered her words about forgiveness and I remember her story of forgiving herself for the death of her husband and daughter. She wasn't responsible for their death, but she felt that she was. So even though she had nothing to do with it, she learned to forgive herself and that's how she lived alone and still in peace.

Even though she's dead, her words about forgiveness haunted me, so I forgive t