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In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers Walk Of Shame
This time when I walk to the bar, it’s not because my mom told me to act a mess. It’s because I need to forget the way those two make me feel. I can’t believe how, even after what they did, they still have the power to make me feel like I’m nothing but putty in their hands.Could it be a trauma response? Possibly. I think I’ve seen somewhere that victims sometimes are so messed up in the head, they end up liking what their abusers did. Maybe that’s the case here. Damon did not only hurt me that one time, he stalked me for months before he had the guts to do something about it. He psychologically abused me before he ever touched me. He would call me terrible names and give me those evil eyes all the time.And Aiden… I always knew he had a scary ability to become a different person depending on who he had in front of him. I knew logically that he’s a master manipulator, but I stupidly thought he wouldn’t hurt me because he didn’t have any reason to. I should’ve known he doesn’t need a
Last Updated : 2024-06-03In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers Memory Lane
So, the guy last night was Aiden. Of course it was, that’s just my luck. I don't know his voice from heart now that he’s older, so I didn't notice. My stomach starts burning from the fucking rage growing inside of me, but I stay silent. Smart, Lily, be smart. Jumping at him and beating the shit out of him would not be smart. "You passed out in my car before you could tell me where you live," he explains, getting a little closer to me nonchalantly. Fuck this guy. Seriously."Thanks, brother. I guess I'll go now," I say, trying to keep my tone light, but we're not around people anymore. This is just me and Aiden, so he doesn't feel the need to pretend anymore. He moves and before I notice, he grabs my jaw. "I'm not your fucking brother," he growls out, tightening his grip on my jaw. The good guy is gone, I guess, "I've never been your brother, Lilian.""Right," I say, rolling my eyes, "Step-brother, then. I still have to go.""No, not yet. This is the first time in a decade I have y
Last Updated : 2024-06-04In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers The Truth Comes Out
"I would never..." Aiden spits out, but I don’t believe him. "You told them they could have me next," I continue, ignoring the way he looks so fucking flabbergasted, "You offered to share me, you were gross as hell. I saw the texts, Aiden, I read everything. It's been ten years, why are you trying to lie so hard? Give up.”"You..." he stops himself and shakes his head, "Did you see this video?""Yes, Aiden. I saw it," I growl, angry because till this day it’s still embedded in my memory and I’ve been waiting for the moment when it comes out. That makes Aiden look at me again. But this time, he looks… Guilty? I don't know, "Looking back, I can see how it was probably a joke to you. To tell your brothers they could have me next. You probably didn't fully mean it. But Damon took your word, Aiden. Did you know that? Did you ever laugh about it together?”Because that’s what I imagined every time I thought about them. How they would watch the videos together and laugh at me. But for the
Last Updated : 2024-06-05In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers Forthcoming
I frown because that’s not easy to believe, but I choose to listen to him just like he listened to me. "My best guess is, Damon found a way to sneak a camera into my room and recorded that shit. Another thing, I never told my brothers anything about you. You were... and still are, my biggest secret. I never told a single soul about you," he says, voice strong and honest. And now it's my turn to be confused, "There is no way in hell I would ever share you with anyone. Let alone Damon. I would 'share you' with my worst enemy before I share you with Damon. And Dean?... that's gross. Just gross. He's my little brother. And I always knew he was gay anyway so why would I do that?" I hate that he's making sense right now. I hate that Damon being the sole perpetrator of the whole thing makes way more sense than the two of them conspiring together. I always suspected Dean wasn't in on it, because he was never in on anything, but Aiden not being a part of it is a big shock. It's a game cha
Last Updated : 2024-06-06In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers Get Ready For It
"I'm not planning on ever being around him on my own, so don't worry," I say and I look away to hide my real feelings about that. I was definitely not expecting today to go like this, with me and Aiden talking about what happened and me realizing I was half wrong. Aiden didn't actually betray me, and I do believe that. Not because Aiden is a good guy, but because Damon is that bad. He would definitely do all of that on his own just to hurt me, scare me and get what he wanted from me. "I hated you just as much as I hated Damon, if not more," I admit. Aiden nods, as if he understands why, "But I guess I was wrong, so... even if my hate didn't affect you in any way, I'm sorry." "Well, you broke my heart," he says, making me scoff and roll my eyes, "I'm not lying, Lily. I was truly in love with you. And it hurt to have you dissapear on me like that. I never had another girlfriend after you." "Well, I never had a boyfriend after you. I have humongous trust issues," I admit, but th
Last Updated : 2024-06-06In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers Weirdly Close
********* 11 YEARS AGO **********{ Aiden }"Let's stay here a while longer, I don't mind the view," Damon says with an evil smile. I want to hit him and tell him to stop it, but why should I? I'm enjoying the view too, "Dean, you can't even lift that girl? You're weaker than I thought.""Fuck you! Yes, I can! I just slipped," He insists. I should tell him not to be such an easily manipulated dumbass, but Dean never learns. I’m going to be taking care of him until he’s 50, "Come back out, Lily."When Lily comes out of the pool again, my dick fills up completely and I share a look with Damon. This is what he wanted. But who can even blame him? Lily is wearing a little girl bathing suit with a grown up body. Her tits are spilling out and the bottom part is obscene. The fact that Dean is not even looking down is just more proof he's gay because her pussy is almost visible. "Look," Dean says to us and he struggles to pick her up before jumping into the pool with her again. As soon
Last Updated : 2024-06-07In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers Night And Day
****** PRESENT ******* { Lily } If I had a best friend, I would tell her about this monumental change in my life, but I don't have a best friend. So, I can't discuss with anyone how weird I feel about finding out that my first boyfriend wasn't as sick and horrible as I thought he was. He didn't betray me like I thought he did. Don't get me wrong, I don't think all of a sudden that Aiden is a good guy, I know for sure he's not. But he's not as bad as I thought he was either. That was always the problem with Aiden, he was consistently bad but then he would do one good thing and I would be so charmed by it, I would convince myself he was not-that-bad. And then I would compare him to Damon and I would think Aiden was like an angel compared to him. I know for a fact that’s why Aiden liked to be around Damon so much back then. People hated Damon so much, they would instantly see Aiden as ‘the good one’. "You went too far," that's the first thing my mom says when she walks into my a
Last Updated : 2024-06-09In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers So Lonely
"A kid?" I manage to let out a couple of seconds later. My mom nods. "He has a little girl, her name is Amy. She's around five or six years old," she says. My mouth is still hanging open, "Surprisingly, he wanted to keep her and be a dad. Damon asked Harry to pay for her just like Harry paid for him once upon a time. But Amy's mother, Jessica, never accepted to give her up, no matter how much money Harry offered. Fifty million dollars only got her to accept bi-monthly visitations. So Damon sees his daughter once every two months." "I can't believe this," I let out, shaking my head in bewilderment. I hate it. I fucking hate this, "Does he... love his daughter, is he a good dad?"Is he in love with this Jessica person? Who is she and why do I hate her so much? "Harry says Amy is the one thing Damon loves. Harry still tries every so often to get Damon more time with Amy, but Jessica keeps saying no. The last time, she told Harry she's scared Damon could try to touch the girl inapprop
Last Updated : 2024-06-10
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In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers Not Like Us
{ Lily } Aiden never came back yesterday, so I spent the rest of the day crying my ass off while hugging my mom as we watched people in the news talking shit about Damon while they showed how incredibly handsome he looked, trying his hardest not to roll his eyes. To be completely honest, it was a bittersweet day. My mom was being the nicest she’s ever been with me, Harry stayed home with us until the afternoon when my mom finally had enough of his presence and kicked him out. And Dean was there, being Dean and cheering me up a bit. It was a nice family day. Like, real family. So I enjoyed that part, but I hated the part where Aiden was away all day. And I was missing the fuck out of Damon, worried about him... until he texted me. Yeah, the guy who's in prison, he texted me out of nowhere and told me Aiden actually helped him out. So now we'll be able to talk as much as we want. Then Aiden called me and said he wouldn't be leaving Altamira yet because he has some ‘new issues
In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers Not So Bad
"What’s going on?" I ask, completely confused, but a smile is growing on my face. "Hey, Damon, this is my buddy Darren," Aiden says with a different voice. He's playing a character for this guy, so I just nod and wait for more information, "He knows you don't deserve to be here, he wants to help us out while we figure out how to get you out.” "Oh," I say, blinking my confusion away. This is definitely not a set-up then, it's Aiden fixing my life again, "Hi, man. It’s nice to meet you.” "Come here," he says and comes to fucking hug me, so hard he lifts me up. I find Aiden's eyes over this guy shoulder and he gives me a pointed look, so I respond to the hug, patting the guy's back, "Any brother of Aiden's is my brother. I'm sorry those bitches put you on this position." "Thanks, man," I hug him harder, for real this time, "Ungrateful pieces of shit, they couldn't even look into my eyes during the trial. They knew they were blowing shit way out of proportion." "That's women fo
In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers All Out
"I'm going to take you to Berenice's house. I need to make sure Lily's okay... and then I'm going to make sure nothing happens to Damon," I say, almost to myself, and my words make my father look at me with intense eyes, "I have a plan and a connection inside the prison. I'm going to buy him protection." "What? You have a connection inside the prison, like... an inmate?" "No. Someone in the administration," I reply, taking a deep breath. "He's a good friend... and his father is the prison warden." That lights him up. "Yes! Use him!," my dad says with renewed hope in his eyes, "If you don't, Damon will be stabbed to death with a made-up knife, only after being someone's girlfriend in there." That makes me laugh because it’s never going to happen, at least not like that. Damon isn't the victim, he would find a way to get out of the situation. And if someone is getting a girlfriend and raping someone in there, is him. I don't doubt he could rape a man, not for a second.
In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers More Than That
“Why?” My mom asks, unable to hide her true feelings about the situation, “Really, why? Tell me one good thing about him.”I stay blank. One good thing about Damon? “There aren’t palpable good things about Damon,” I finally admit, looking down, “He is mostly a bad person, but at least he’s open about it. He doesn’t hide what he is. And when you get to know him, you see he’s… just a little crazy, but not ambitious enough to actually be evil. Even with those girls, you can ask them personally. He didn’t rape anyone, he’s just a big bully. And he can be very scary, I know that firsthand… but he’s not a monster. Just like Harry promised you anything you asked for, Damon gave those girls something in exchange for a scene with him. He likes random kinks and he has these girls do them, but since he doesn’t explain, everything feels so bizarre.”My mom takes a deep breath and thinks about it for a second. “I know everyone thinks I'm stupid, but I'm not that stupid, okay? So, just trust me w
In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers Patching Wounds
"Yeah, he’s leaving," I repeat in a whisper, my stomach twists just thinking about it. I clear my throat, "Let's not talk about it, yeah? Please." "Okay," she relents, then looks down to her hands for a second, "Uh, I've had a lot of time to think about our dispute the other day and… I want to apologize to you. For a multitude of reasons. Even if you don't want to forgive me, can I please just tell you how sorry I am?” I just nod. Dean mumbles something and grabs Choky's harness to take him away from us and give us privacy. My mom walks to her brand new living room and I follow her, sitting next to her on the big white couch and looking directly at her belly as she grabs my hand. My only biological sibling is in there, it’s kind of weird to think about it. "I was so young when I had you. A young, poor girl with lots of ambition," she starts, squeezing my hand, "I resented you a lot. I lost my freedom and my dreams because I was forced to have you by my idiotic religious fami
In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers For The Last Time
Oh, dear lord… I think I trust Damon now. Or at least I do right this second, with his big dick inside of me and his gorgeousness clouding my view of the universe. He won. I mean, of course I don’t trust him one hundred percent, but definitely a lot more than before. I think I got to know him a lot better these past few days. He's obviously not a saint, at all, but I also think he's not absolutely evil I thought he was. He's just a little deranged, but it hasn’t been that bad. So far. "You're the only person that brings this out of me," he says in a gentle tone, touching his nose to mine like a cat showing love, "You turn off the bad thoughts inside my head and make me want to be better. You make me want to be a normal man." "I like this calm, softer version of you," I whisper, stroking the smooth skin of his back, "You used to show me just the worst parts of you before. You were always so mean, so evil. You bullied me so much, I really thought you were the worst person t
In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers The Right System
As soon as Aiden is done with Lily and has left her a whimpering mess, he helps me get my turn by lifting her body and positioning her so she can ride me, cowgirl style. In the water she doesn't have much power to actually ride me, so I lift my hips to fuck her. Her pussy feels even tighter than normal in this position, so it doesn't take too long for me to spill inside of her. Then I suck on her neck and rub her clit until she’s coming, squeezing my dick like crazy. But even when we're all satisfied, we don't leave the tub. Lily stays in my lap with her legs over Aiden's lap and we talk about everything except our imminent separation tomorrow. But the thoughts are there. Every time I look at the hour in my phone I get a little more worried. This is it, this is fucking it. There is no denying it anymore. When we’re all ready for bed after a quick shower, I lean against the headboard and look at Aiden drying Lily’s body with the towel. He doesn’t need to do that, but he can
In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers All Mine
I cross my arms and just observe the way Aiden approaches the guy with tense shoulders and tells him to fuck off, forgetting all about his need to always be polite. I can’t really hear what he’s saying, but I can tell it’s definitely a ‘fuck off’ situation. And Lily looks confused the whole time, even when Aiden grabs her arm and pulls her back here. I try to hide my pleased smile as they approach by themselves because Hector is still standing in the same place, as if he's confused. The dog is running behind them. "Aiden, seriously. Let go," Lily groans, trying to set herself free, "What is even happening? What was that about? You were so rude to Hector, why the hell would you fire him?” "Because he wants to fuck you, we can't let that happen," I explain, making Lily shut up and give me a confused look, then she moves it to Aiden, "What, are you sad about it? Do you want to fuck him too?” "Why are we even talking about fucking? Hector is just Chocolate's trainer. I’ve only be
In Love and Hate With My Stepbrothers Be Around
"Lily..." I can see Aiden take a deep breath and control the rant he'll have if it was me the one cutting onions so horrendously. He'd be beating my ass for daring to do something not perfectly like he would. Luckily for him, Lily is too busy trying to wipe her tears without touching her face with her hands. “Yeah?” She asks, distracted. Aiden sighs and decides not to ruin this morning even more. "Good job, but that's enough. Just go sit with Damon and let me finish here,” he ends up saying. "Alright," she murmurs and wipes her onion-tears with the back of her hands again, "I hope this tears are worth it." "They won't be," I say, watching her as she goes to wash her hands for a good five minutes. And all I do for those full five minutes is watch her wash those hands, because that's my favorite thing. Watching her do anything, especially if she doesn’t know I’m there. Although… no, actually, I prefer when she’s giving me all her attention too, "Come here, babe. Aiden is really m
