But maybe it was for the best. For both.I pull away slowly as I feel a tear run down my cheek. I felt a lump in my throat that prevented me from saying what I had to say. There are so many things that make me mistrust him and that make me feel bad.I have to make a decision at once because I feel like we can't go on with yes and no. It has to be something permanent.“Kayler, I...” I whispered."Why do I feel that what you will tell me will break my heart?" -asks me. I felt a pang in my chest."We can't go on like this," I tell him. I felt that if I spoke in a row I would break here in front of him so I took my time to breathe. — Being in this circle of yes and no is not good for me. For both. You know? I love you too much but... I can't go back with you.I felt pain in his gaze."Don't tell me this," he tells me."Besides the fact that you mistrusted me in the worst way and left me, now you're with someone else and I think you owe her respect," I whispered. I was playing strong to av
Five years later...-Carolina! I jump up out of bed and get a little dizzy. Fuck.It's after eight.-You will be late! I knew I had to come because the lady is never ready on time! - I hear footsteps on the stairs and then I knew mom was coming up. I had rented an apartment in the city, however, I had given copies of the keys to my mom for any emergency.How is.I put my robe on over my pajamas, put my heels on, and head to the bathroom to brush my teeth and splash some water on my face because it was such a mess.Today was my graduation.Today I graduated as a psychologist.Four years ago I had changed to that career because the one I was studying before had nothing to do with me. And better late than never.Yes, today was graduation at the university and I was already running late. It had been four years of daily struggle, physically and mentally. What can I say? Ever since I moved from Lewiston, Kayler kept his promise and I haven't heard from him again, mom moved in with Mike obvi
-What are you talking about?"Just talk to him." I have to talk to Gadreel. Tell him I don't want to marry him.-That?I closed my eyes for a moment as I heard Gadreel's voice behind me.Shit."I'll find a cab and go home." Arrange your things, honey.” Mom says goodbye and starts walking down the street, leaving me alone with Gadreel.I steel myself and turn to him.His face was no longer full of happiness like a few minutes ago, but now it had confusion and a bit of sadness."Tell me I heard wrong," he approaches. "Gadreel, I...—You just said yes to me in front of all those people —he reproaches— and now you say no. I don't understand you."I know, and believe me, I didn't want to say no to you in front of all those people because... I needed to talk to you alone," he explained.He laughed. But it was a sad laugh. -Why? was the only thing he asked.She wasn't sure whether to tell him or not, but it was better to speak things truthfully, without so much beating around the bush. And G
"And how could you know that?" I narrowed my eyes. He shrugged.—I've been with you for a long time, Carolina —she gets closer— longer than you can imagine.That scared me.-I don't understand you.—I will reveal the secrets that neither Kayler nor anyone else has been able to tell you. Maybe that way you do realize that you and Kayler can't be together.” She goes on and on."What secrets are you talking about?" I don't understand you. Be more clear please — now I pay more attention to it. I didn't know whether to believe him or not, whatever he was going to say, but there was nothing to lose by listening to what he had to say. —I don't know if what you tell me will make me move away from Kayler —I add— why have you insisted on telling me bad things about Kayler? Why have you been angry with him?"Because his family was to blame for your father's death," I heard echoes when he said that. Echoes that were repeated in my head over and over and over again. It was a phrase that left me co
I closed my eyes for a second trying to assimilate what I had heard. My heart had no way to break anymore. It was all broken. I think it would be better to be dead than to suffer while alive.I headed back to my room and finished the last bottle of beer. I needed more. I took my car keys and left the house without saying a single word. It was freezing outside and seemed lonely; I got in the car and started. He was too drunk to go slow.I drove through the dark streets of the forest until I reached the highway, but something happened, I didn't notice the white lights of an approaching car and even less the sound of its horn, the only thing I felt was a strong impact that made me unconscious... deep down I wanted to never wake up... the white light completely blinded my sight.KAYLERWhen I open my eyes the first thing I see is a white ceiling, I see everything blurry and my head hurts like what. I put a hand to my head as I sit up in bed. I have a ridiculous gown on and an IV in my lef
KAYLER" I'm fine, I've already told you many times," I tell my father who asks me more than a hundred times along the way. We had left Lewiston a few hours ago already. Tomorrow would be Mike's wedding in the afternoon. I was feeling overly anxious and a bit nervous."I just want to make sure you don't hurt something or what," he swears. Mike was in the front car and the other boys in the pack were behind us. I was still driving after what happened to me yesterday, I didn't like being treated as an invalid."We're about to get to the house," he tells me, and I tense up. We had arrived in the city and everything looked different. Carolina had lived here for a long time, she felt it was part of her. Surely she had walked those same streets and had entered those same stores.I squeeze my eyes shut for a second and decide not to think about things that torture me more and more.Mike stops in front of a two-story house, it's kind of big and it has a garden of sunflowers. That reminded me
When we were leaving the house in two cars I felt something strange in my chest, it was something I couldn't explain but what was present. I didn't put my mind to it and I only dedicated myself to my mother. When the car was going to start another car got in front of us. Mom stopped short."And now what's wrong with this one?" he asks, honking his horn many times.The other car with dark windows did nothing, it just stood there without moving. Despite the fact that mom continued to sound the horn, they ignored her."I'll get out and see what they want," I told him, getting out of the car."Be careful, we don't know what kind of people they are," my mother tells me.As I approached the car the passenger door opened so I stopped short."Why don't you give us a chance to go out?" I questioned crossing my arms.When the girl left and closed the door I was static."Anne!" I exclaimed, going to hug her."Carolina, so long," she replied with the same enthusiastic tone.When we part, I scan h
"I don't know, Anne, I don't think they'd be capable of looking for a bar like this.""Well, Mr. Brown, yes.""If only I knew where they are," I muttered.-Well...I looked at Anne.-You know? I asked.“Thomas told me.“Anne, we need to go and find out if they're with half-naked women out there.Anne thought about it.-You think? Thomas wouldn't do that."Not Thomas, but those kinds of women are going to come on to them," I tried to convince her.-Did you know? Come on, I can not stay with the doubt. We stood up and walked out without Mom noticing. -Cab! I hailed a taxi. The taxi stopped and we got in. "Where am I taking you ladies?"Anne told him the address and I could only think that she would go to the same place where Kayler was and it was likely that we would see each other. But there was something I hadn't thought about. Gadreel would be in the same place and he didn't know how he would act around Kayler, let alone Gadreel.I just hoped things wouldn't go wrong for me as usual.
I woke up feeling voraciously hungry. It was like he hadn't eaten in days. I got up and sat on the bed, still groggy from sleep. Next to me was Elder, fast asleep. Had I been the one to awaken the wolf in him? Thinking about it scared me a bit... I got out of bed and went to the kitchen, but when I opened the fridge I saw that there was nothing inside: no meat, no vegetables, not even yogurt... How was I going to satisfy my hungry now? I took a deep breath to calm myself and tried to think clearly. He needed to find food... or something that could replace it for now. I suddenly remembered that Elder had some bottles of blood kept in his closet. I took them and opened them quickly; I needed to drink that fresh blood before fully transforming into a wolf.Breakfast ready: I went to the kitchen and got some eggs, bacon and hashbrowns from the fridge. I put them in the pan to fry them with olive oil. There wasn't much to do for breakfast, but I wanted it to be special because it was Eld
Elder kissed me passionately, his lips moving against mine in perfectly timed fashion. His hands ran down my back and he held me close to him, making our bodies merge into one. I wanted so badly to make love right now, to feel his warm body inside mine… But then Elder jerked away. "We can't," he said hoarsely. "The other wolves will be watching us." I was frustrated and disappointed, but I knew he was right. Although we couldn't be together yet, knowing that Elder felt the same way about me filled me with hope for the future.''fuck it'' he snapped and kissed me even more. Elder stared into my eyes and I got lost in his gaze. His lips moved against mine and his hands trailed down my back, pulling me close. I wanted so much to make love right now, to feel his warm body inside mine... Elder slowly took off his shirt, exposing his muscular torso. I stared at him, surprised by his beauty. Then I realized that he was naked too... and I was not wearing any clothes. Our eyes met and in that i
ELDERElder left the boarding school looking for Amara. He was carrying a flashlight and a knife, but he had no idea where to start looking for her. It was totally dark and cold outside, and Elder knew that wolves were dangerous in such conditions. But he was desperate to find his girlfriend, so he walked resolutely into the forest. The full moon shone through the treetops and Elder could easily see his way through them. Suddenly he heard a noise: it was as if something was moving right behind him... could it be Amara? He turned quickly, but there was no one there. He felt a chill as he thought that maybe it was a wolf following him to attack him… Shaking those terrifying thoughts from his head, Elder kept moving forward until he reached the skylight. There he saw Amara: she was sitting in the center of the clearing, completely immobilized by fear. Her eyes were wide and Elder guessed that he must be seeing the wolf slowly approaching her... Elder was sitting on the ground, his back ag
I woke up when I felt hands on my neck. I still couldn't open my eyes, but I realized that she was being kidnapped. She felt my attacker's rough breathing and the smell of sweat on her fingers. They took me up a steep path until I was finally able to open my eyes. She was in the middle of an unknown forest, surrounded by tall, bushy trees. There was no one in sight except my kidnapper, who introduced herself as Melania. It was obvious that she was a werewolf: she had the same physical characteristics as me and she smelled just like them. However, I did not perceive any trace of the pack to which she belonged; she must be a loner. "What do you want?" I asked her with a shaky voice. "Oh, I just wanted to meet you," she replied, smiling forcefully at me. "You've been hard to find." I didn't know how to answer him, so I remained silent, staring into her bright green eyes. I suddenly saw her lips part from her to reveal a pair of sharp fangs… and she then she attacked me! "Don't you dare do
''Amara, please relax,'' Flavia tells me, but I felt weird making out with her. She's a lesbian, I'm not. I felt so close to her that I could smell the sweet vanilla scent of her skin. Her lips were so close to mine... It was all I could do not to kiss her. She knew that if she did, she wouldn't be able to stop. So I stayed still and tried to suppress my desire. But then she moved even closer and her lips brushed against mine... I couldn't resist any longer, so I kissed her hard. She answered me immediately and her hands began to explore my body. I felt like she was on fire... Never before had she felt like this with anyone. Our tongues intertwined over and over again in a passionate dance, our bodies pressed against each other... I wanted to get her out of the car and take her somewhere where we could be alone, but I knew it was dangerous: if we were found out, we could seriously hurt the relationships between our families. So we finally broke apart, both gasping from the intensity o
The full moon peeked through the forest, unable to rest. She felt like the Moon was snowballing her way from this planet to the other, and all she saw was drastic changes in natural tracks until the end of time. So she listened to something very harsh from the Moon that had begun its journey to the oceans for seven million years and she did not know when she would be next to her love again. She was a kind of spiritual member of the Space Wind, for that reason he felt her presence with more intensity and breathed the laughter of his answers, until the Sun went out...The fire was so big that the sky looked like a very luminous black cloth. Elder knows that the full moon is special because there are wolves like him in the forest, but he has never seen a light so bright to see them. Under the fire, his eyes were white and disenchanted.''Elder'' his father called him and the full moon came to his door. The wolf was very sad and asking for help to get out of this situation, Elder replied:
The next day Amara received classes at the boarding school; the first thing she left behind was a sheet of text with the words she had written to him. She was as if she was with nobody, and so she was more and more: most of the time she was left alone, until finally her mother no longer visited or called.Despite the fact that the last time he spoke to him was last Friday, yesterday morning he was in his room around noon; already with a white shirt and black pants, with his small glasses hanging in his right hand. Just like every other day, he approached the front door of the room, but never entered it. He barely felt his presence and just said "What is it?" sometime, but no more. The day before was similar, however. Once he told her that she was never coming back, and he asked if he wanted to see her as soon as he could, he was able to contain himself to crack a smile and reply, "Yes, I'll send you."And there then, before he wasted it, he put on his father's white t-shirt and field
''Please let me go,'' I begged Jean Paul's father. She had me kidnapped."I won't, Amara, until Jean Paul shows up"Love and love, dear father of Jean Paul. It doesn't make your grave bigger. Memories of you remain forever in my heart...The clock had already run out for the whole day: night had not yet come. Sometimes the bed was a kind of life, as if it were his own land; other times the bath or the enemas seemed if they were pieces of art. In the best of cases, that was my last breakfast of loneliness and rajones. The father's face was looking at each other while he cried and thought.In the friendly environment of the bedroom, the father tried to convince me that I would give myself to him soon, but I preferred to hide on the way out.After all, the entrance door of the dormitory was full of prisoners. An insider informed us that the bosses were in the courtyard, where they were talking to the guards who were going to look for Jean Paul. The afternoon had already ended and the roa
Amara and her friends Flavia and Mell spent a lovely afternoon at their picnic. Heaven made it feel like they were going to dance, but it wasn't anything wrong. The park was full of corn, water and forests that seem to blow. The children had fun along the way. Of course, Amara started talking to them about the big things: the police, the Templars, the gang members, and the little drugs… Well, some of the other characters had other ideas. Like the Carnival mask, which is a person that Amara doesn't understand why she likes it so much. That gave Flavia and Mell a bit of a spark… I don't know if she meant to be carnivalesque, but maybe it was a great idea. Finally everything ended perfectly. And Amara and her friends came out with the magic of Carnival. The girl told her that although I don't know who she was, she was a very good person.The next day, Amara went to her class and woke up in a huge rush. She felt like the hours of sleep were lacking. Taking advantage of her energy, she did