Taylor's fingers pressed down on the ivory keys as " You get down, real low down , you listen to Coltrane, derail your own train" fill up the church . The melodic tune of If it makes you Happy by Sheryl Crow was her favourite and as a matter of fact it was one of my all time favourite as well .
Despite the controversy that surrounded it .
To others it was simply a glaring reminder of their faults , their addiction and whatnot but to me it was simply a small reminder that we pay for our own choices , choices that might hurt you despite how good they make you feel .
Just like mine were hurting me , I sighed and closed my eyes when Taylor moved on to the profound lyrics 'If it makes you happy then why the hell are you so sad?' and let the music flow through me like current .
Ignoring the philosophical question the one that had me break down and relive my mistakes , I sang along my cousin who
" You can discuss it with me " said my uncle his eyes twinkling with a humorous gleam " Maybe I can help you out with -"I didn't quiet catch on his words because for reasons unknown as I stared past because past the stall that was selling some fresh dishes with tomatoes , I spotted the last person I thought I will ever expect to see at the Church - Jacob Knight .Alright , fine technically speaking he was outside the church and that's where the entire fundraising rummage sale thing was going on and there weren't much people who were seriously considering about purchasing from us but I still certainly didn't expect Jacob him to be among those people . My words faltered and my forehead creased with a frown when I saw him leaning against his Lexus as his gaze locked with mine ." I'm considering that your problems have lot to do with that guy ?" said my uncle as he followed my gaze and his
Sharing a ride with your supposed to be ( still in denial ) boyfriend could really prove a bit taxing . From the moment I planted my a*s on the passenger's seat , I swear I asked Jacob a total of what I counted as fifty times about where he was taking me but being the annoying little tease he was , he kept ignoring my questions ."Don't tell me you are taking me to the outskirts where you will murder me and bury my body somewhere six feet down ?" I asked after my fiftieth failure" aww princess , you figured it out so soon " giving me a puppy dog pout , Jacob took a sharp left " you ruined my surprise , I was going to send you to your maker the easy way "" You are the one who just ruined my entire plan " joking along I rolled my eyes " I wanted to die in all dramatic way just like in Shakespeare drama , your little surprise just ruined my life' s greatest moment , pe
He shook his head and looked straight ahead " you don't know the real truth "" then tell me " I said looking down at his leaned head .Jacob pushed off my shoulder then looked me right in the eye " I hated her " he confessed his voice harsh and cold " I hated her the moment Dante brought her back , I knew what happened to our family wasn't her fault but I still turned all my anger and hatred upon her when she was just a baby . I ignored her for a better part of her life and never actually made an effort to see what was happening to her "" It wasn't your fault -"" you are not understanding what I'm trying to tell you "" then make me understand " cupping his face , I give him a hard look " you can trust me Jacob , I will never hurt you . You just told me that you want our relationship to work that you want to reconcile with me , then let me
And then there was magic . No I wasn't lying when I said that because the second Jacob stepped in the lounge, Instantly every single women in the room perked up.From my peripheral view I could see a young teen around the age of fourteen staring at him nonstop , even forgetting to blink or to breathe. Her mouth wide open as she kept staring at him . A few tables down , a woman subtly shifted while another one vainly adjusted her clothes and hair , she even went as far as popping up few buttons of her blouse. And to my horror , a middle aged woman who was dressed in black attorney suit plastered a flirtatious smile on her face .Jacob however didn't even look at their direction , which got him some major points from me . Walking up to me he gave me a wide grin as he wrapped his arm around my shoulders and just like always - the electric current instantly snapped into its place like it did whenever he touched me ." hey th
Jacob smiled looking quite amused at Chris's indignation but when I tugged his wrist he graciously abandoned his pursuit of happiness upon the sacrificial ceremony of my brother's happiness and followed me out of the diner entrance to the parking lot ." what are you gazing at so intently ?" I asked feeling his burning gaze at my back" That little sway of your a*s " without so much as batting his eye , he answered my question " Its unintentionally proactive and I -"" Don't be such a prude " blushing furiously I glanced around I would be real down on my luck if someone especially my co workers heard the star quarterback of the town telling me how 'proactive' my a*s was " And just for the record my a*s ain't swaying proactively QB , I'm walking - simply walking . Will you get your head out of the gutter , please ? "" But
" Good evening , Miss Hamilton " as soon as Jacob pushed the entrance door wide open , a butler as if summoned by the magical runes on the door popped right up . Yeah , no kidding - he was dressed like one of those butlers whom you will usually find in a high class aristocratic family .I was so surprised at his sudden appearance that I didn't even asked how he knew my name but then again maybe he knew the name of every women that slept with Jacob just in case he had to send hitman after them . What,? aristocratic families were messy - and I had watched enough dramas and had a rather good idea about how these aristocrats dealt with baby momma drama ." Good evening " I greeted him back dryly , Jacob had left me alone in the entrance hall and gone up to the second floor to get Annabeth , I knew that something must have happened at home so I didn't stop him but holy hell that was the scariest ride I ever had in my life the
When we reached Potter's , I was really glad that I dressed up nicely for the date instead of going with Jacob's 'you look beautiful no matter what '. Nervous and a bit excited , I tugged at the hem of my dress as I walked beside Jacob who was carrying Annabeth in his arms . A ninny - no , a high maintenance,well poised and neatly coiffed hostess was walking in front of us , her back ram rod straight as she lead us to our table. I stole a few glimpses furtively as we walked past the occupied tables. Most of the tables and booths were full and as for the patrons they were dressed exquisitely ranging from business suits to cocktail gowns. Even the unoccupied tables were set with bone white china plates , tiny square vases , folded cloth napkins and spotlessly clean goblet maybe used for wine or water , whatever the patrons preferred .On the right , there was a silver haired man was playing violin upon a raised white marble platform and beside
There wasn't anything more embarrassing for a girl than getting caught by your brother when you are kissing - no full blown making out with your boyfriend .It was hella embarrassing for me as well and it was with awkward grace with which I stepped out of Jacob's lexus while Chris glowered a glower at Jacob that deepened when his gaze drifted to my swollen lips ." hey , Hamilton " unlike me who was hopefully staring at the ground wishing that it will some how spilt itself and swallow me whole , Jacob was completely relaxed . He got out of his lexus in apparent ease and raised his brows at Chris with hands in his pocket " You waiting to me off ?"Something about his lazy demeanour must have ticked Chris off because a second later I heard my brother growl like an enraged animal " I really have no idea what my sister sees in you -"Jacob who was looked thoroughly amused by Chris enraged profile cocked his head and mad
EpilogueOne year later“What I’m trying to say is you can’t blame me for this !” exclaimed Jason , almost lunging at his girlfriend ‘s throat “ you are trying to argue with me with your so called theory but I’m telling you its not gonna work . If you gonna counter my theory you better prove it with real facts not ideologies “I grinned as Alicia gripped her head and groaned , like her head was going to explode any moment because of all the stress and frustration her boyfriend was giving her . Their debate session are always intense despite how loving they are out of the debate club , once inside - oh boy , they would be ready to lunge at each others throat and if I didn’t knew better I would have taken them as mortal enemies .They have never met a topic where the two of them would be able to cordially agree with each other . At first everyone was alarmed and worried when we firs
Bella“ Holy sizzles “ gasped Selina “ you look so beautiful ““ I know right “ said Adriana as she swiped her fake tears with her forefinger “ this is my master piece ,simply flaw-fucking -less amazing “To add to the effect she even sniffed” are you ready ?”Of course I was , this morning Adriana had stormed inside the room that I was sharing with Selina . I have told her in passing that I was going to do my makeup on my own - and believe me the girl squawked so loudly she was one pitch lower than the seagulls .If I wasn’t ready after all that , then I would never be ready . I nodded and once I did , Selina and Adriana grabbed my shoulders before turning me around to face the mirror .And I only had one word in my mind - Gorgeous .The solid champagne slit dress indeed flattered my curves , somehow it made me feel beautiful yet sexy at the same time . A
Bella“ It was the wedding dammit ! “ shrieked my mother “ I wanted you to be beautiful , I wanted you to feel beautiful ! Have you seen Lily ? She looks beautiful , she is healthy and active . The second she appeared in the wedding hall everyone’s gaze was locked upon her and she wasn’t even the bridesmaid ! What about you where were you ? I will tell you “ pointing her fore finger right at my face , my mother snarled “ you were being ignored , everyone was ignoring you despite Jennifer standing next to you because you are not what this society calls beautiful and healthy . You are average Bella , just average ! Do you want to be average ? Because I don’t ! I want my daughter to be beautiful and healthy , the centre of attention ! Even now the doctor can blame it all on the medicine but if you ask me , I say that it was all because you were so heavy . It wasn’t the side effect of the medicine that I gave you , No matter how much those doctor insist it is until they turn bl
Jacob“ Okay first question , exactly how much ICD one needs to overdose and die ? “ I asked but then furrowed my brows “ guess what that’s a stupid question isn’t it ? You can’t answer anyway . So “ I shrugged casually “Let’s see what exactly is the level of ICD overdose ,I can find it myself no need to trouble you “Wilkins ‘s eyes got as wide as saucers as he started to moan continuously , his eyes darting to the door and back to me .“ Ah , you better stop doing that - Grampy “ I told him with a warning note in my voice “ if something happened to you right now , you don’t even have someone to plan your funeral tonight “His eyes widened but he stopped struggling . His body went slack , and his chest rose and fell with uneven breaths . His eyes locked at the needles in my hand .“ that’s a good grampy “ I cooed soft
Bella" I think I will - umm , go ?" said Anna as she walked past Ron without waiting for an answer from me . I wanted to ask Ron , what was that about but the expression on his face made it clear that he didn't want to talk abut what happened just now .So , I swallowed my questions back . Instead I smiled at him " Hey , how are you doing ?"Ron who was still looking over his shoulder , turned his head back at me and smiled back " come on short stacks , is this question something you should be asking ? Instead it should be me asking , how do you feel after beating the death 's ass ?"I sit up a little more comfortably and flash him a victory sign " It feels awesome , I was -"I couldn't even get the words out because he already has his arms wrapped around me so tightly , that it was becoming a struggle to breathe ." I was so scared ,Bella .. just so scared " he said , his shoulders shaking as he rested his head on m
Bella" when I almost lost you , I realised how much I needed you " he said resting his forehead against mine " I didn't think about it while you were right by my side , but when I thought I was going to lose you , I realised that I never told you how much I need you "" I know , that already Jake "" Throughout my life I was scared about needing someone , scared that someday someone would want me and I would want her too "" I know that too "" No , you don't get it " he said nuzzling his head to my neck as he let his head drop down " You have no concept of how much I need you , if you knew you wouldn't be so calm , it would scare the hell out of you . It scares me too "" well , if it makes you feel better . I feel the same " All my life I have fought my battles alone , I have been disappointed so much by my family that I grew resistant even at the thought of needing someone . But Jacob was essential for me ." Glad
Jacob“ Hey , I’m back mum “ standing in front of the white headstone without Dante was awkward enough . But I knew I had to be here because she had always been there for me , I placed the bouquet of roses on her grave . My chest was rippling with so much relief and gratitude than ever before “ just so you know , I’m going to fulfil that promise the one that I made to you . I will study hard and inherit Dante -no Dad ‘s company and be a better man and son , a son you can be proud of ““What I want to say - oh to hell with this “ I wasn’t the emotional type and with all the errs and momentary pauses I was certain that my mum must be laughing at me if she was watching me right now “ What I want to say , is thank you . “ I looked at her grave before looking up at the blue sky “ Thank you so much mum , I know you came through for me …I know you did “Because she had
JacobI knew that this was real selfish on my part but you know what fuck it , because if I don’t put a stop on my pain right now , it will keep brewing until I was on the verge of dying with it . So better just end it before it becomes too much for me to handle .“ Mom , you don’t owe me a damn thing . But if you really have a pull up there I need you to string it up for me -please bring her back to me because I need her “ still leaning against the cold marble tomb , I uttered my final plea “ if you bring her back I will try my best to be a son that you can be proud of , so please tell that guy to return her back , I will do anything -please mum “Nothing , not even a flicker of grass or any soft caress of wind flew next to me . And I knew she didn’t hear it , And honestly I didn’t blame her because if I was in her place where my own kid loved my murderer instead , I wouldn’t listen to his damn ple
Jacob"I know you will be really pissed off about this but honestly I don't care because I have been pissed at you all my life and couldn't do a thing to you so yeah - that account is settled . Now we are going to talk about the new one -Bella , she is really a good person , she is loving , compassionate and caring - something I can't say about myself " I stopped breathing hard as emotions clogged my throat , I cleared it before continuing on with my speech that I have prepared after thoughtful consideration " and she is mine , you hear me mine not yours and you have no right to take her because -" my vision went hazy and something warm and wet trickled down my cheeks . I inhaled sharply staring down at the wooden flooring away from the altar " because she is my everything . I know people shit around the word ' love ' a lot now a days but this different . I have already promised her a future together and I can't fulfil that one promise if she is not by my side . " my voic