Jacob
" Was she right ? What am I even asking - if course Selina was right " it has been more than twenty four hours and other than the constant beep beep of the Implantable Cardiac Defibrillator , there was no sound in the room . It was dead silent and I hated it , I hate seeing her lying so quietly on the hospital bed - my Bella wasn't quiet , she wasn't shy and introverted yes but never quiet . I missed her eye-rolls , her quirky sass and her sarcastic jabs , I brushed away the lock of hair from her forehead and planted a kiss on the back of her hand .I wanted her to respond to me but just like the past thirty seven hours , nineteen minutes and seven seconds -I didn't get a response . No , if you are thinking that I was so out of my tree that I was actually counting seconds , minutes and hours- I wasn't . But I did set a timer and it wasn't helping , if anything it was like a constant reminder of the hours that I have spent without her .
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Jacob“ Get the fuck out of here “ the second I see Bella ‘s mom storming inside her ward , I knew that she got the lawyer’s summon - the one that I had him send her . Her expression was furious but it was no where enraged as mine , she has no right to be here -not after she uttered those nasty words about Bella .Ms Hamilton paused momentarily , her eyes went wide as she stared at me “ excuse me ? What was that ?”I don’t wait for her to move her ass because I knew this stubborn woman won’t walk out on her own , so grabbing her by her elbow - I dragged her out of Bella’s room , out of her life because from now on it was either her or me and I swear as hell knew whom Bella was gonna chose once she wakes up “ you have no right to be here , Ms Hamilton . You don’t need to see her because you don’t really care about her and don’t say that you do when you are going around t
Jacob“ I told your mother off “ I told her “ And yes , I sued her as well but before you get mad at me.I didn’t do it because I wanted to but because she really needs it . Unlike Helena who is not my mum - did I tell you about that ? I guess I didn’t because even I haven’t digested this news yet but -yeah she ain’t my mother as surprising as it gets , I am quite relieved that she and I have no relationship . At least I’m not half psycho as you said I was -a manipulative bastard yeah but not a psychopath . See I told you I wasn't a psychopath , didn’t I ? “ I didn’t know why I was even blabbering about this to her “ yeah anyways , your mum needs help - I don’t need to bother with Helena anymore but you gotta be in touch with Your mum , I know you won’t leave her alone and as much as I don’t like it . I won’t stop you , so I did the right thing I told her , how much she was hurt
Jacob"I know you will be really pissed off about this but honestly I don't care because I have been pissed at you all my life and couldn't do a thing to you so yeah - that account is settled . Now we are going to talk about the new one -Bella , she is really a good person , she is loving , compassionate and caring - something I can't say about myself " I stopped breathing hard as emotions clogged my throat , I cleared it before continuing on with my speech that I have prepared after thoughtful consideration " and she is mine , you hear me mine not yours and you have no right to take her because -" my vision went hazy and something warm and wet trickled down my cheeks . I inhaled sharply staring down at the wooden flooring away from the altar " because she is my everything . I know people shit around the word ' love ' a lot now a days but this different . I have already promised her a future together and I can't fulfil that one promise if she is not by my side . " my voic
JacobI knew that this was real selfish on my part but you know what fuck it , because if I don’t put a stop on my pain right now , it will keep brewing until I was on the verge of dying with it . So better just end it before it becomes too much for me to handle .“ Mom , you don’t owe me a damn thing . But if you really have a pull up there I need you to string it up for me -please bring her back to me because I need her “ still leaning against the cold marble tomb , I uttered my final plea “ if you bring her back I will try my best to be a son that you can be proud of , so please tell that guy to return her back , I will do anything -please mum “Nothing , not even a flicker of grass or any soft caress of wind flew next to me . And I knew she didn’t hear it , And honestly I didn’t blame her because if I was in her place where my own kid loved my murderer instead , I wouldn’t listen to his damn ple
Jacob“ Hey , I’m back mum “ standing in front of the white headstone without Dante was awkward enough . But I knew I had to be here because she had always been there for me , I placed the bouquet of roses on her grave . My chest was rippling with so much relief and gratitude than ever before “ just so you know , I’m going to fulfil that promise the one that I made to you . I will study hard and inherit Dante -no Dad ‘s company and be a better man and son , a son you can be proud of ““What I want to say - oh to hell with this “ I wasn’t the emotional type and with all the errs and momentary pauses I was certain that my mum must be laughing at me if she was watching me right now “ What I want to say , is thank you . “ I looked at her grave before looking up at the blue sky “ Thank you so much mum , I know you came through for me …I know you did “Because she had
Bella" when I almost lost you , I realised how much I needed you " he said resting his forehead against mine " I didn't think about it while you were right by my side , but when I thought I was going to lose you , I realised that I never told you how much I need you "" I know , that already Jake "" Throughout my life I was scared about needing someone , scared that someday someone would want me and I would want her too "" I know that too "" No , you don't get it " he said nuzzling his head to my neck as he let his head drop down " You have no concept of how much I need you , if you knew you wouldn't be so calm , it would scare the hell out of you . It scares me too "" well , if it makes you feel better . I feel the same " All my life I have fought my battles alone , I have been disappointed so much by my family that I grew resistant even at the thought of needing someone . But Jacob was essential for me ." Glad
Bella" I think I will - umm , go ?" said Anna as she walked past Ron without waiting for an answer from me . I wanted to ask Ron , what was that about but the expression on his face made it clear that he didn't want to talk abut what happened just now .So , I swallowed my questions back . Instead I smiled at him " Hey , how are you doing ?"Ron who was still looking over his shoulder , turned his head back at me and smiled back " come on short stacks , is this question something you should be asking ? Instead it should be me asking , how do you feel after beating the death 's ass ?"I sit up a little more comfortably and flash him a victory sign " It feels awesome , I was -"I couldn't even get the words out because he already has his arms wrapped around me so tightly , that it was becoming a struggle to breathe ." I was so scared ,Bella .. just so scared " he said , his shoulders shaking as he rested his head on m
Jacob“ Okay first question , exactly how much ICD one needs to overdose and die ? “ I asked but then furrowed my brows “ guess what that’s a stupid question isn’t it ? You can’t answer anyway . So “ I shrugged casually “Let’s see what exactly is the level of ICD overdose ,I can find it myself no need to trouble you “Wilkins ‘s eyes got as wide as saucers as he started to moan continuously , his eyes darting to the door and back to me .“ Ah , you better stop doing that - Grampy “ I told him with a warning note in my voice “ if something happened to you right now , you don’t even have someone to plan your funeral tonight “His eyes widened but he stopped struggling . His body went slack , and his chest rose and fell with uneven breaths . His eyes locked at the needles in my hand .“ that’s a good grampy “ I cooed soft
EpilogueOne year later“What I’m trying to say is you can’t blame me for this !” exclaimed Jason , almost lunging at his girlfriend ‘s throat “ you are trying to argue with me with your so called theory but I’m telling you its not gonna work . If you gonna counter my theory you better prove it with real facts not ideologies “I grinned as Alicia gripped her head and groaned , like her head was going to explode any moment because of all the stress and frustration her boyfriend was giving her . Their debate session are always intense despite how loving they are out of the debate club , once inside - oh boy , they would be ready to lunge at each others throat and if I didn’t knew better I would have taken them as mortal enemies .They have never met a topic where the two of them would be able to cordially agree with each other . At first everyone was alarmed and worried when we firs
Bella“ Holy sizzles “ gasped Selina “ you look so beautiful ““ I know right “ said Adriana as she swiped her fake tears with her forefinger “ this is my master piece ,simply flaw-fucking -less amazing “To add to the effect she even sniffed” are you ready ?”Of course I was , this morning Adriana had stormed inside the room that I was sharing with Selina . I have told her in passing that I was going to do my makeup on my own - and believe me the girl squawked so loudly she was one pitch lower than the seagulls .If I wasn’t ready after all that , then I would never be ready . I nodded and once I did , Selina and Adriana grabbed my shoulders before turning me around to face the mirror .And I only had one word in my mind - Gorgeous .The solid champagne slit dress indeed flattered my curves , somehow it made me feel beautiful yet sexy at the same time . A
Bella“ It was the wedding dammit ! “ shrieked my mother “ I wanted you to be beautiful , I wanted you to feel beautiful ! Have you seen Lily ? She looks beautiful , she is healthy and active . The second she appeared in the wedding hall everyone’s gaze was locked upon her and she wasn’t even the bridesmaid ! What about you where were you ? I will tell you “ pointing her fore finger right at my face , my mother snarled “ you were being ignored , everyone was ignoring you despite Jennifer standing next to you because you are not what this society calls beautiful and healthy . You are average Bella , just average ! Do you want to be average ? Because I don’t ! I want my daughter to be beautiful and healthy , the centre of attention ! Even now the doctor can blame it all on the medicine but if you ask me , I say that it was all because you were so heavy . It wasn’t the side effect of the medicine that I gave you , No matter how much those doctor insist it is until they turn bl
Jacob“ Okay first question , exactly how much ICD one needs to overdose and die ? “ I asked but then furrowed my brows “ guess what that’s a stupid question isn’t it ? You can’t answer anyway . So “ I shrugged casually “Let’s see what exactly is the level of ICD overdose ,I can find it myself no need to trouble you “Wilkins ‘s eyes got as wide as saucers as he started to moan continuously , his eyes darting to the door and back to me .“ Ah , you better stop doing that - Grampy “ I told him with a warning note in my voice “ if something happened to you right now , you don’t even have someone to plan your funeral tonight “His eyes widened but he stopped struggling . His body went slack , and his chest rose and fell with uneven breaths . His eyes locked at the needles in my hand .“ that’s a good grampy “ I cooed soft
Bella" I think I will - umm , go ?" said Anna as she walked past Ron without waiting for an answer from me . I wanted to ask Ron , what was that about but the expression on his face made it clear that he didn't want to talk abut what happened just now .So , I swallowed my questions back . Instead I smiled at him " Hey , how are you doing ?"Ron who was still looking over his shoulder , turned his head back at me and smiled back " come on short stacks , is this question something you should be asking ? Instead it should be me asking , how do you feel after beating the death 's ass ?"I sit up a little more comfortably and flash him a victory sign " It feels awesome , I was -"I couldn't even get the words out because he already has his arms wrapped around me so tightly , that it was becoming a struggle to breathe ." I was so scared ,Bella .. just so scared " he said , his shoulders shaking as he rested his head on m
Bella" when I almost lost you , I realised how much I needed you " he said resting his forehead against mine " I didn't think about it while you were right by my side , but when I thought I was going to lose you , I realised that I never told you how much I need you "" I know , that already Jake "" Throughout my life I was scared about needing someone , scared that someday someone would want me and I would want her too "" I know that too "" No , you don't get it " he said nuzzling his head to my neck as he let his head drop down " You have no concept of how much I need you , if you knew you wouldn't be so calm , it would scare the hell out of you . It scares me too "" well , if it makes you feel better . I feel the same " All my life I have fought my battles alone , I have been disappointed so much by my family that I grew resistant even at the thought of needing someone . But Jacob was essential for me ." Glad
Jacob“ Hey , I’m back mum “ standing in front of the white headstone without Dante was awkward enough . But I knew I had to be here because she had always been there for me , I placed the bouquet of roses on her grave . My chest was rippling with so much relief and gratitude than ever before “ just so you know , I’m going to fulfil that promise the one that I made to you . I will study hard and inherit Dante -no Dad ‘s company and be a better man and son , a son you can be proud of ““What I want to say - oh to hell with this “ I wasn’t the emotional type and with all the errs and momentary pauses I was certain that my mum must be laughing at me if she was watching me right now “ What I want to say , is thank you . “ I looked at her grave before looking up at the blue sky “ Thank you so much mum , I know you came through for me …I know you did “Because she had
JacobI knew that this was real selfish on my part but you know what fuck it , because if I don’t put a stop on my pain right now , it will keep brewing until I was on the verge of dying with it . So better just end it before it becomes too much for me to handle .“ Mom , you don’t owe me a damn thing . But if you really have a pull up there I need you to string it up for me -please bring her back to me because I need her “ still leaning against the cold marble tomb , I uttered my final plea “ if you bring her back I will try my best to be a son that you can be proud of , so please tell that guy to return her back , I will do anything -please mum “Nothing , not even a flicker of grass or any soft caress of wind flew next to me . And I knew she didn’t hear it , And honestly I didn’t blame her because if I was in her place where my own kid loved my murderer instead , I wouldn’t listen to his damn ple
Jacob"I know you will be really pissed off about this but honestly I don't care because I have been pissed at you all my life and couldn't do a thing to you so yeah - that account is settled . Now we are going to talk about the new one -Bella , she is really a good person , she is loving , compassionate and caring - something I can't say about myself " I stopped breathing hard as emotions clogged my throat , I cleared it before continuing on with my speech that I have prepared after thoughtful consideration " and she is mine , you hear me mine not yours and you have no right to take her because -" my vision went hazy and something warm and wet trickled down my cheeks . I inhaled sharply staring down at the wooden flooring away from the altar " because she is my everything . I know people shit around the word ' love ' a lot now a days but this different . I have already promised her a future together and I can't fulfil that one promise if she is not by my side . " my voic