Eliyah's POVBuong araw na masama ang pakiramdam ko. Pabalik-balik ako sa CR para sumuka at habang tumatagal, mas lalong lumalakas ang kaba na nararamdaman ko. Kinakabahan ako dahil... pa-paano kung tama nga ang hinala ko? I thought of the time we spent in our vacation, he never used protection everytime we fucked... kaya malaki nga ang tyansa na buntis ako.Pero hindi ako masaya. Some women dream for it, desire for it, and even wish for it. Pero hindi ako. Hindi ko pa kayang maging ina kung sakali man. I have no one to hold on. I have no one beside me who would help me. Then I thought of Rex, kung sakali mang buntis ako, would I tell him about it? I smiled sadly as I wash my face in front of the mirror. Namumutla ang mukha ko at ang mga mata ay malamlam, tila ba nanghihina. I starred at the mirror, hoping that a miracle would come and my pain would subside. Pero alam kong hindi iyon mangyayari pa. I am destined to be like this. To be a mistress.Nang matapos kong maglinis ng mukha a
Eliyah's POVTumalim ang tingin ko sa kanya pagkatapos niyang sabihin iyon. "Hindi..." mariin kong saad.Ano'ng tingin niya sa akin? Gagamitin ko ang katawan ko para doon? I may not be pure and as innocent as other girls but I'm not that kind of girl who would use her body for the sake of material things. I am not that kind of girl.Tumikhim siya saka nagseryoso. "Well, if that's what you want," he said then turned his back at me.Kumuha siya ng isang maliit na plato saka nilagay doon ang naka-plastic na lugaw. Inilagay niya iyon sa tray saka inilapit sa akin. "Kailangan mong kumain para bumalik ang lakas mo." marahan niyang ani. Kung hindi lang dahil sa sinabi niya kanina ay baka iisipin kong malinis talaga ang intensyon niya. Pero ngayon... hindi kaya tinutungan niya lang ako para sa sinasabi niya kanina?"What do you really want?" tanong ko.Kumunot ang noo niya sa akin. Tumigil siya sa paghalo ng lugaw at saka ako tiningnan nang mariin. "Kung iniisip mong ginagawa ko 'to para ma
Eliyah's POVSigurado ako sa nakita ko. It was Shennun and Rex's father. Alam ko dahil nakita ko na ng isang beses ang may-ari ng Montello Incorporated. Ang hindi ko lang maintindihan ay kung bakit sila naghahalikan? Ikinibit ko na lamang ang aking mga balikat at saka pinagpahinga ang sarili sa sofa. Tumayo ako at pumunta sa kulay itim kong cabinet at saka kinuha roon ang calling card ni Justine. Until now, I still have this in case of emergency. Isa siya sa mga taong mapagkakatiwalaan ko. Doc. Eliot once told me that he never mentioned my pregnancy to anyone including Justine. I'm wondering, what if Justine knew that I was pregnant at that time? Would he still offer me to satisfy his hunger and desires in bed... with me? Sa mga nakalipas na buwan, halos gabi-gabi na lang akong nananaginip. At minsan, pare-parehas pa ang mga ito. I imagined myself full of sweat, breathing heavily as I feel a cock entering me faster and harder, and I would envelope my arms around his neck then we wou
Eliyah's POVMaagang umalis si Justine kinabukasan. Pagkagising ko ay wala na siya. He left a note on the fridge saying that he went to school early because he has some errands to take care of. Pagkatapos kong basahin ang note na iniwan niya ay saka ako naghanda ng plato para sa akin. I also prepared a cup of milk for myself. Hindi ko na kailangan pang magluto ng umagahan ko dahil nakapaghanda na pala si Justine. Alas syete pa lang naman pero nakalimutan kong maaga pala ang pasok siya. For months that I stopped going to School, I still remember the lifestyle of a student. Getting up and preparing early in the morning, staying up late just to review for tomorrow's exams or quizzes, and partying because of a high score.Napangiti ako habang inaalala ang lahat ng iyon. At some point, do I regret this pregnancy? Mayroon akong tyansang ipa-abort ang bata. If that happened, I am very much sure I could continue my study. Pero buti na lang ay pinagpatuloy ko ang pagbubuntis ko. I regret nothi
Rex's POV"Do you really want me to leave?" I asked casually. Umiwas siya nang tingin habang dahan-dahang tumatango. I clenched my jaw to suppress my anger. Andito ako ngayon sa bahay na tinitirhan niya. I went here last night and I saw her in her bathroom, basang-basa habang walang malay. Nalaman kong pinalayas siya sa kanila. I couldn't believe her father! In the middle of the raining night?! Really?! At mas lalong hindi ko kinaya nang malaman kong pinapahirapan siya sa kanila. Nakakapanghina. I want to avenge, Eliyah at that moment. I want to fucking punch her father pero mas kailangan ako ni Eliyah. I'm not going to waste my time at them. Kaya dali-dali ko siyang pinuntahan sa tinitirhan niya.It pained me seeing her like that. Ilang araw na siyang hindi pumapasok kaya hindi ko maiwasang hindi mag-alala sa kanya. Nasasaktan akong panoorin siyang nagkakaganito. This is all my fault! Hindi ko maiwasang magsisi! B-Bakit siya lahat ang tumatanggap nito? Bakit hindi ako? Ako dapat ang
Eliyah's POVMy little sobs are the only sound heard in his bedroom. Nilipat niya ako kaninang madaling araw pagkatapos ng lahat ng ginawa niya sa akin. Nakakadiri. Nandidiri ako sa sarili. I felt used and betrayed. Kung alam ko lang na mangyayari ito, sana hindi na ako humingi ng tulong sa kanya! I could've just worked hard to survive! Ang tanga tanga ko! At si Rex? Where is he now? Ano'ng ginagawa niya rito? How did he know that I'm here? Hindi ko maiwasang umasa pa rin na darating siya at ililigtas ako rito... kahit na alam kong hindi. I didn't even know if that really was Rex or I just misheard it? But a part of me knew... a part of me is saying that it really is Rex. And somehow, I feel that it was Rex. Hindi na ako nakatulog ba buong magdamag habang si Justine ay payapang natutulog sa tabi ko. I want to stab him while he's fast asleep but I don't how powerful his family is... hindi ko alam kung ano ang makakaya nilang gawin. Then I thought of leaving him now... but I realized
Eliyah's POV"Sigurado ka bang kaya mo na? You can still stay here if you want, Eliyah..." halata ang pagkabahala sa mukha ni Cresia nang sabihin niya iyon. Andito kami ngayon sa bagong bahay na titirhan ko. It's been two months since I gave birth to my twins and I'm thankful that I have Cresia and Eliot beside me. Through months that we are together, I've built a good relationship with them. Sa kanila ako tumuloy hanggang sa makapanganak at maging ready na ako. Ako ang naghahanda ng mga gamit nila, ako na rin ang nagluluto, naglilinis, at nagpapa-alala ng mga kailangan nila. Kahit doon man lang, makapagpasalamat ako sa lahat ng naitulong nila sa akin. At dahil doon, nakapag-ipon ako kahit pa-paano para sa mga anak ko.Ngumiti ako kay Cresia at saka siya niyakap. "Ano ka ba, we can still call each other even if we're not living in the same roof anymore and if we have a time, we can visit you two," ani ko naman. She pouted her lips and acted like she's wiping her tears. Napahagikgik a
Eliyah's POVIt seems like my world has stopped spinning around. I felt like the world has beheaded me... multiple times. Bakit kailangang mangyari 'to sa anak ko? Is this the price of all the mistakes I've done? Is this a karma? If this is, then why my daughter?! Why not me?! I'm willing to catch everything! Even death! Just don't hurt my children! Huwag si Rexie o si Elijah! Ako na lang! Ako na lang ang magkasakit! Pero nanghina ako nang nag sink in sa akin ang lahat. It's true. My lovely daughter, Rexie, has a leukemia. Nang magising ako ay wala akong ibang maramdaman. Nakatulala lang ako habang iniisip ang lahat lahat. Up until now, I still can't believe that it's happening. Bumangon ako sa pagkakahiga. I want to see my daughter. Gusto kong alagaan at bantayan si Rexie. "Ma'am, are you sure you can do it?" tanong sa akin ng isang Nurse.I just nodded my head at her before going to my daughter's room. The Doctor said that we can get out of the Hospital by tomorrow already. Wala s
Rex's POVThey say that happiness starts within ourselves. That we don't need other people for us to be happy... because they will only make things worse... they will only hurt us... they will only take away our smiles off of our faces.But they're wrong.Standing here in front while I watch Eliyah walked down the aisle, made me realized that I need her and our son for me to be happy. Because without them... I am living my lifeless life in... a dark."I really can't believe that you're deep in love, brother." ani ng kapatid ko sa aking tabi. Hindi ko siya pinansin dahil ayaw kong maputol ang aking paningin kay Eliyah at sa anak naming naglalakad papunta sa akin. Her dad is on her side and I can see, from here, the glistening tears around his father's eyes. I remember the day I talked to his father about my plans marrying her daughter. It's hard for me to do it because I know how much he hurt Eliyah and thinking that his father tried to hurt Eliyah physically make my heart tremble in
Eliyah's POV"Lagi kang kwine-kwento ni kuya," the man whose name is Sebastian said to me. Andito kami ngayon sa isang coffee shop malapit sa prisinto kung saan kasalukuyang nakakulong si Rex. Sebastian invited me here because he wants to talk to me and I agreed. Bukod pa rito ay pakiramdam ko ay may alam siya kung bakit hinuli si Rex. Isa pa, ang ipinagtataka ko ay kung paano niya agad nalaman na nakakulong si Rex? Wala pang isang oras ang lumilipas nng hulihin siya ng mga pulis. And to think that he already knew what's up about his brother is I can't understand. Pero hindi ko na ito dapat pagtuunan pa ng pansin.What I need to know right now is the reason why Rex is arrested. Kung ano'ng kasalanan niya. And why he didn't fight? It seemed like he's accepting the verdict already. Nasa harapan ko si Sebastian habang seryoso akong tinitingnan. Walang buhay naman akong nakatingin sa kanya. Before I sat here, I first called Nadia to know if Elijah's okay. Ang sabi ni Nadia ay okay lang
Eliyah's POVKinabukasan ay mag-isa ko na lang ang nakahiga sa kama namin ni Rex. When I wandered my eyes around the room, I can't see him. I closed my eyes and smelled the scent beside me. Rex's scent is my favorite scent. Ang kanyang bango ay walang katumbas. It's addicting more than drugs.Ilang minuto pa akong nanatili sa kama bago bumangon. Dumikit sa aking balat ang amoy ni Rex. Napangiti ako nang maalala ang mga ginawa namin kagabi. I looked at the ring on my ring finger and my cheeks burned because of it. The butterflies in my stomach are celebrating for it.I sighed deeply to calm my nerves from rejoicing. I then went to the shower room to bathe myself. Pagkatapos ay naghanda na ako para makababa na rin. I just wore my pink spaghetti strap and white short shorts. Habang pababa ako sa hagdan ay naririnig ko na ang ingay ni Elijah at Rex sa kusina. Nang makarating sa kusina ay tama nga ang naisip ko. Nandoon sila at parehong naghahanda ng breakfast.I chuckled as I watched the
Eliyah's POVHindi na rin kami nagtagal at agad pumasok sa loob. I saw our maids trying to prepare snacks and foods for us immediately. Siguro ay iniisip nila na dapat ay nakapaghanda na sila kanina pa. Even though it's my fault because I forgot to tell them that we have visitors today."Sorry talaga, Eliyah. Hindi naman alam na may tao na pala sa labas kanina." Patuloy sa paghingi ng tawad si Nadia habang tinutulungan ko siyang mag-ayos ng mga tinapay. I smiled at her and caressed her hand to assure her that it's all fine."It's fine, Nadia. Kasalanan ko 'to dahil nakalimutan kong sabihin na bibisita pala sila rito ngayon." saad ko habang inaayos na rin ang juice. Nang matapos ko ay tiningnan ko ulit si Nadia. "Thank you for staying, Nadia. I'll just give them these to them,"Tumango siya sa akin at nag ngitian pa kami bago ako umalis sa kusina. I saw Rex watching Eliyah plays. Habang sina Stella at Axel naman ay parang naiilang pa. Lagi silang tumitingin kay Rex at paminsan-minsan
Eliyah's POVI can feel Rex's arms around me as I sleep. Pagkatapos nang nangyari sa amin kagabi ay mabilis akong nakatulog dahil na rin sa pagod. Pero hindi ako nagsisisi. It was such a wonderful moment for the both of us. I opened my eyes and I saw myself lying on his chest. I can feel his heart breathing while his arms are enveloped around me, keeping me so safe, keeping me so warm, and protected. I looked at the clock and saw that it's alredy dawn. Napangiti ako habang inaalala ang lahat ng nangyari kagabi. Mas lalo kung siniksik ang aking sarili sa kanyang katawan. And for the second time, I fell asleep again.I could really say that this is one of the most peaceful and warmthful sleep I have ever had. I don't know if it's because I'm with Rex or what, but I like it so much."Good morning, baby," Rex's voice lingered at my ear, reason why I got awaken suddenly. Gano'n pa rin ang init na pinaparamdam sa akin ni Rex. I can't feel the coldness of air condition because of how warmt
Eliyah's POVRamdam ko ang saya ni Elijah habang kumakain kami ng aming dinner. His smiles were brighter now than before. I smiled genuinely to myself. Because finally, my son is receiving every happiness in the world and I know that he deserves it. He deserves it so so much.Pagkatapos naming magyakapan kanina ay saka ako naghanda ng aming dinner. I informed Nadia that I will be the one who will cook for our dinner. Napangisi ako nang maalala ang ngisi niya sa akin nang sabihin ko iyon. She never asked me of anything anymore. She just nodded her head then winked at me before she left. But I know what was running in her mind."Mom, when we will be going back to States?" inosenteng tanong ni Elijah.Napaangat ako nang tingin sa kanya dahil sa biglaan niyang pagtanong niyon. Slowly, I turned my head at Rex whose eyes are now serious and black. Naka-yuko siya at umaaktong hindi narinig ang sinabi ng anak. His jaw is a little bit clenched and I know how hard he was trying to restrain himse
Eliyah's POVHindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat kong sabihin sa kanya. There's a part of me where I feel scared. Parang kahapon lang ay galit pa siya sa akin... pero ngayon, he's so sweet as honey.Napalunok ako nang dumausdos ang kanyang kamay sa bewang ko. His hot breath tickled on my cheeks. One kiss from him and I immediately pushed him away. Nang lumingon ako sa kanya, batid ko ang pagtataka sa mga mata niya."S-Susundan ko lang si Elijah," palusot ko bago mabilis na umalis sa tabi niya. Elijah is with Nadia. They are on the living room with the other maids. Ngayon ko lang natanto na mag-isa lang si Rex dito, hmm? It's easy for him to bring women here. That thought alone made me irritated at him even more. Maybe for the past years, marami na siyang nakamang babae rito, huh? And maybe in his office too! Fuck! Eliyah! Discipline please? Eh ano naman kung nakipag-sex siya sa ibang babae rito sa condo niya or even on his office? Eh hindi naman kami noon? So okay lang?Pero hindi pa
Eliyah's POVParang nawala ang bigat sa dibdib ko pagkapasok ko sa Hospital room ko. I saw Elijah sitting on my bed while Nadia is beside him, reading him a book. Agad akong lumapit sa kanila. They both looked at me and I saw how my son's eyes brigthened up because of me. Napangiti ako dahil doon."Let's rest now, baby?" malambing kong ani.He immediately and happily nodded his head at me. "Please, mom?" he pleaded while pouting.Napatawa ako dahil doon. I looked at Nadia who's also smiling while watching us. When our eyes met, she winked at me and smiled. Tumayo siya at lumapit sa akin."Uuwi muna ako. Babalik ako para sa dinner niyo mamaya,"Nginitian ko siya bago niyakap. "Thank you so much for always staying on my side, Nadia. I owe you a lot." sinsero kong saad.Naluluha siyang umiling. "Wala 'yon, Eliyah. Para na rin kitang kapatid."Nagyakapan pa kaming muli bago siya tuluyang umalis. "Do you want mommy to read you the book?" malambing kong tanong kay Elijah.He nodded his hea
Eliyah's POV"C-Can I hug you son?" Nakakabinging katahimikan ang bumalot sa loob ng hospital room ni Rex. Nangilid ang panibagong luha sa gilid ng aking mga mata. Habang pinapanood si Elijah, pakiramdam ko ay pinapanood ko ang batang si Rex kahit na wala akong ideya sa kung sino siya noon. Watching Elijah right now made me realized the mistakes I have done in the past.Pero kung tatangunin ako at mabibigyan muli ng pagkakataong baguhin ang lahat sa nakaraan, I will still do it. I will still hide Elijah from Rex. No matter what.Elijah's forehead creased because of what Rex said. Tumagal nang kaunti ang titig ni Elijah kay Rex at batid ko ang pagkalito niya rito. I thought Elijah will talk to Rex but he didn't! He didn't answer Rex but Elijah turned at me. His eyes softened.Niyakap akong muli ni Elijah. "Mom, let's go to your room," malambing niyang ani.Suminghap ako dahil doon. I hugged Elijah tightly. I caressed his back as I fought the urge of my tears to fall. When I looked at