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2020-07-24 05:12:26Emily's POV:
A shrill noise entered my ears and I groaned at the alarm clock.
Okay, I am up!
I shifted uncomfortably in my couch.
Ring ring!
I kicked the alarm clock.
Crash!
I am finally up!
I woke up the next morning, my back aching like a thunderbolt. I practically had to bend double to make it up like the original. I stretched my arms, yawning and scratching my legs.
That's not a girly thing. You are not in your
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