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Internal Sin: 003

Author: Diana Matthew
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-29 19:42:56

(Kai's Point Of View)

After my shift was over at 10:30 pm, I sauntered down the desolated pathway that steered to my basement with a paper bag of leftovers.

My mind trotted back to what happened at school and the restaurant. 

What was going on with me?

Sleepwalking and daydreaming, that had never happened to me in a while. The last time I sleep walk was a detailed calamity and I was 10, still living under the roof of my dad and stepmom, it was the same night that I was bounced out with my brother. I swore never to sleepwalk again and it had been uneventful till now.

Nothing favorable ever happened whenever I fantasize or sleepwalk. 

With a sigh, I grabbed the handle of my basement door but found it unlocked. No one had a spare key except...

I nudged the door open and went inside and was saluted with my room hurled upside down while Rhory and his mate Keir inhabited the only chairs beside my study desk.

"Ah, look who finally decided to show up, isn't it my precious kid brother," Rhory heckled, standing and advancing toward me. His gaze flicked to the paper bag on my hand and snatched it from my grasp. "You brought dinner, I'm so hungry,"

My hands balled into tight fists. "Why did you do this to my room, Rhory?"

He shrugged at my question, ambled towards his mate, and extended the bag to him. Keir was almost a bastard, two bastards were brought together as soulmates, the meticulous match.

"I needed money, so I thought you had hidden some under your bed, so I flipped it!" He chuckled while I matched forward and seized my dinner from Keir, earning a brilliant glare from the male. 

"Give it back!" Rhory brown eyes blazed.

"Get the fuck out of my room, you won't find any money cause you took all of it the last time you were here!"

He charged toward me and clutched my collar. "You are talking back now, huh?" He asserted and I roughly jostled him on the chest and put a reasonable amount of distance between us. Keir was immediately by his side.

"You took the only money I had and now I can't pay Ms. Charlie of her rent. You are not welcome here, get the fuck out!" I shrieked at the top of my voice, feeling so ruffled. I thought I had gotten rid of him for good, I thought he was done with me when he left me to perish under that bridge, damp and quivering. Why was my luck so rotten that he had to find me five years later?!

"You owe me, Kai. You better shut your mouth before I slam you against the wall!" 

Owe him? I nearly laughed at the absurdity of those words. "I owe you nothing, Rhory. It's not my deficiency dad threw you out for your flamboyant lifestyle!"

I watched him chortle at my words as if it was the silliest shit he had ever given attention to along with Keir, his stupid mate.

He strode closer, his brown eyes glistening with an anonymous twinkle that didn't resolve well in my stomach, I stepped back knowing what was about to come. "Who said it was because of that I was thrown out?" He got nigher. "They had never cared about how I lived my teen till you fucking ranted me out and then you freaking set the whole house on fire with your fucking sleepwalking habits. They kicked us because they also had nowhere to go and when I left you at that bridge, I thought I had finally gotten rid of you and then I saw you again and realized you owe me too much for me to let go, I am here to collect and am not leaving till both of us are filled with grey hairs, Perhaps in our graves!"

"That's if you live that long!" I yelled and his jaw locked and he grabbed my collar and yanked me close to his face before slamming me on the hard wall.

"Repeat that and I might just put both of us out of our misery," he let go of my collar and grabbed my neck instead, giving it a rough squeeze while Keir snatched the paper bag from my hand again.

"And I will take this, thank you!" He chuckled. He brought the paper bag to his nose and inhaled. "This smells so good,"

"You can't have that, it's mine!"

Keir got closer to my face and giggled. Crazy fuck! "What's yours is ours, I thought we've already made that agreement dear brother-in-law," he tapped my cheeks and stepped back. "Let's go Rhory, we already have our dinner, there's no need wasting time here,"

Rhory finally let go of my neck and stepped back, throwing an arm over Keir's shoulder. "Consider yourself lucky but I will be back and you better have enough to give or I'm going to beat the shit out of you!"

I glared and watched them leave unable to do anything as they left with my meal for the night again.

I looked around my sparse room and sighed. I didn't bother reaching anything as I strolled out of the room, slamming the door shut, and strolled over to Ms. Charlie's door at the far edge of the building.

Reaching there, I knocked on the door and it opened to reveal a grumbling Ms. Charlie. "What!" She snapped at me. "Don't you fucking sleep, you young people are so irksome,"

I bowed apologetically. "I'm sorry Ms. Charlie but I have your money," I slipped my hand into my jacket and took out the money that was immediately snatched from my grasp. 

"Where did you get this cause earlier you were wailing!" She said without looking up at me as she counted the notes.

"I borrowed from a friend," I answered. "I will take my leave now, goodnight, Ms. Charlie," I turned on my heels, ready to leave till she called me back.

"Wait, kid!" She stood in front of me, her gaze instantly falling on my neck. "What happened to your neck, did you get into a fight, who strangled you?"

I chuckled nervously and shook my head. "It's nothing, Ms. Charlie,"

She gawked at me suspiciously. "If you say so. Wait here!" She instructed and went into her apartment and returned with an unopened box of pizza and three soda cans. "Take that, you seem hungry," She shoved the items to my chest and went back into the house, shutting the door before I could protest.

I smiled. "Thank you, Ms. Charlie!" I bowed thankfully at the door and rushed back to my room, pressing my back on the door and beaming happily.

Luckily I wouldn't be sleeping on an empty stomach again.

"Wow, you look so happy,"

I froze at the unfamiliar voice and lifted my gaze and nearly felt my soul leave my body and the items fell from my hold as I gawked at the glowing boy on my bed, grinning at me, and waving.

"Hi!"

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