Ninety

AXEL

My head always ended up being a mess after any little interaction with Lisa these days, I could control my emotions and expressions with anyone else but not around her. Even when I managed to successfully control my emotions by masking them, it's a fucking struggle and I almost always lose the struggle.

I don’t know why I’d asked her about the memories we shared when I knew deep down that her answers would most likely hurt me. It had slipped out of my lips before I could drop myself and it rendered all the commandeering I’d been doing earlier as null and void somehow. It's all because I let myself get lost in my head while it replayed all the memories of where I would've given the world just to keep watching her smile. I should've never let myself get wrapped up in our memories after what she’d done and how she’d crushed my heart.

After the question had slipped out, I needed to do damage control so I masked my feelings again just to get an answer out of her. Things had gone south