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ILLICIT AFFAIRS Forty-Two: Papa’s Love
LISAThe words were out of my mouth before I could help them and while I was still trying to wrap my head around the fact of what I just did, he already pulled me into his hands to hug me protectively and soothingly.I couldn't remember the last time someone did that for me when someone hugged me this protectively and made me feel seen, consoled, and understood.It brought fresh tears into my eyes which made the whole thing hella embarrassing. I just confessed my biggest weakness to my biggest enemy and as if that wasn't enough, I was here crying on his shoulders. I raised my hands to push him away but he kept his hand wrapped around tightly around my body, making it impossible for me to move away. More tears started flowing from my eyes and the situation that I was in wasn't even helping matters. My body was barely wrapped in a towel and he was dressed in a pant that did nothing to conceal his hard ruggedness. And I was here sobbing into his shoulders. I tried my hardest to cry si
Last Updated : 2022-12-20ILLICIT AFFAIRS Forty-Three: Fuck Her Out Of My System
AXELIt took a while for Lisa’s tears to finally subsidize and I lead her to the bed. She wouldn't meet my eyes when I handed her a box of Kleenex. She just collected it wordlessly. I immediately excused myself from the room and went to the kitchen. I found myself making an herbal tea and it was only when I was about to enter my room that the absurdity of the whole situation dawned on me. I don't think I've ever made tea for anyone apart from myself, not even Prince and here I was, about to give Lisa Volkov tea while she still had my towel wrapped around her body and was sitting on my bed. And let's not forget that she just admitted one great, if not her greatest weakness to me and she just had a mental breakdown in my arms. I've never been good with crying women, I've never even liked the idea of crying women, I don't know what to do with them and most times, I always end up getting annoyed or something.But with Lisa, I had felt a protective surge course through my veins when she
Last Updated : 2022-12-21ILLICIT AFFAIRS Forty-Four: Surprise
AXELIt was a couple of days after Lisa confided in me about her intense hatred for killing people, something that she does best and does most of the time. And during those days when we were apart, I've spent half of that time feeling incredibly sad on her behalf that she was being forced into doing something that she didn't want to do. And I've had the other half angry at whoever was making her into what she didn't want to be. Most female mafia daughters that I knew were mafia princesses and they were always doted upon by maids and soldiers waiting on their beck and calls, they lived a princess and soft lives, they were completely unlike Lisa. I’ve always thought that she was just different, that she enjoyed the thrill of killing, that it makes her adrenaline surge faster as it does for most made men. I didn't know that she was doing something she didn't want to do, that she was doing something that gives her nightmares on end. I didn't understand the dynamics of her family to kno
Last Updated : 2022-12-22ILLICIT AFFAIRS Forty-Five: Blurring Lines
AXELShe closed the distance between us and she threw her hands around me, hugging me.For a minute, I stiffened and froze under her hug because I had no idea what I was supposed to do with it. We've never been in this much proximity if it doesn't include a lead-up to sex. Hugs were reserved for people who shared a deep affection for each other, who liked each other and cared for each other, not people like us who shouldn’t even be seeing eye to eye. People like us who share a risky arrangement that must not and should never see the light of the day.And here we are, with her hands thrown around me, enveloping me in a hug that I wasn't supposed to like because I wasn't even a hugger, I've never liked the idea of hugging because why should I? Hugging was waste of time when we could use that time we'd waste on hugging for something more productive like fingering or sucking. But her hug was making me feel something different, something I've never felt before, it was an alien feeling, o
Last Updated : 2022-12-23ILLICIT AFFAIRS Forty-Six: More Blurred Lines
LISAI turned it into ice.My whole body turned into ice at that familiar voice and the tray of edibles nearly fell out of my hands when I turned back and I confirmed my greatest fear at that moment. Angel Volkov, my sister-in-law was really standing across me, talking to a man. But thankfully, her back was to us but any minute from now, she was going to turn back and...God forbid! I whirled around immediately."That's my sister-in-law," I told Axel even though I was already sure that he knows who she is. I half-expected him to abandon me because it wasn't his problem, Angel wasn't his family and he wasn't going to get into any trouble because of her. But we couldn't say the same thing for me because I was going to get into a shitload of trouble if Angel should see me and that looks like it was going to happen any minute from now on. "Yeah, I know," he replied as he took the tray from my hands and he dropped it on the nearest table and without voicing it out, we already both sta
Last Updated : 2022-12-24ILLICIT AFFAIRS Forty-Seven: Secrets
LISA“I'm an illegitimate child,” he told me casually and my jaws figuratively dropped to the ground. Of all the things I was expecting him to say, this was the last one, in fact, this wasn't on the list at all.I wasn't expecting him to say this and I did not believe him at all because who would, nothing about him screamed illegitimate child at all. Just like nothing about you screams bloody assassin, my subconscious mocked me.“You really don't expect me to believe that, do you?”He shrugged casually, “no, I don't but the fact that you don't believe it doesn't mean that it's not the truth.”“Come on Axel, I don't understand why you feel the need to make me have leverage over you but it's really not needed, I told you what I told you because I wanted to, not because you forced me so you don't have to make up a lie about yourself just to make me feel better that I shared a weakness with an enemy.”“I don't care about you enough to try to make you feel better because you told me somet
Last Updated : 2022-12-25ILLICIT AFFAIRS Forty-Eight: Night Out
AXELWe drove back to school in silence. The Question and Answer session was already over when we returned to the venue so we just slipped into the car and drove away. Nobody said anything during the drive and just like I was thinking, I was sure Lisa was thinking about the same thing, about the vulnerabilities that we both shared with each other back on the field. We both knew we crossed a line we shouldn't cross, a line that'll blur the dynamics of our relationship but I just wanted to strike a balance, she had blurted her vulnerability out in a moment of weakness, and knowing Lisa and what she thinks of me, I was she'd always have a nagging thought at the time back of her mind that I was going to use that piece of information against her.I wasn't an unfeeling monster so there was no way I’d use that against her but she wasn't going to believe me so I had to make it a truce.I had to tell her something about me that I'd never told anyone. I've never shared a relationship with an
Last Updated : 2022-12-27ILLICIT AFFAIRS Forty-Nine: Never Gonna Happen
AXEL“The shipment is coming in barely 6 weeks,” Prince pointed out from where he was sitting, “do you have everything under control?”I glared at him, making sure my eyes conveyed what I really wanted to do to him; twist his neck and yank his head off his shoulders.“I don't remember ever poking my nose in the affairs of C47,” I replied curtly, hoping he'd get the gist and his nose out of this conversation but it seemed I was forgetting who I was talking to.Tell Prince not to do something and that was the thing he'd make sure to do.“Well, C47 isn't directly your business but this shipment concerns all of us,” he replied casually, “I hate to admit it but if it should flop, C47 would be affected badly.”“You’re lucky you're my friend, if not, I’d have pulled out your tongue a long time ago.”“Save your love language for your soldiers please, I'm not interested in them.”“Bastard.”He lifted his glass in a mock cheer, “never denied it.”I poured from my third bottle of beer into the g
Last Updated : 2022-12-29
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ILLICIT AFFAIRS EPILOGUE
LISA A YEAR LATER Have I just spent the absolute best year of my life? Yes. Best was such an understatement to describe the year I just had. Axel made sure to keep on his promise of being the best thing that has ever happened to me and each day was better than the last. And he also made sure to keep up with the promise of putting babies inside me during our honeymoon because here I was, heavily pregnant and the scan has confirmed that we were expecting twins. Axel has never allowed me to hear the end of it. He was always bragging about his skills and all those yadayada nonsense and that was how he was able to impregnate me during our three months honeymoon. Yeah, we did use three months for our honeymoon and I was sure we were the only couple that had done that. I wanted us to go back after a month but Axel had insisted that we spent three months and in the end, it was all because of me. He wanted me to learn all the things I've mentioned that I wanted to learn while making sure
ILLICIT AFFAIRS FINAL CHAPTER
AXELI still couldn't believe my eyes, just like I couldn't believe everything that had happened for the past 2 hours but one thing was real. Lisa was here by my side, wearing my ring as we walked out of the airport hand in hand and into the car that was already waiting for us.“But how did you do this?” I finally asked, speaking for the first time since I confirmed that she was the one sitting beside me on the plane, “how were you able to make that happen?” I asked as the car drove us to the hotel we booked for our honeymoon. “My brother-in-law helped me,” she sassed, leaning closer to me like she has been doing since we entered the car. It was like she couldn't believe that I was here and she needed to feel my body to confirm that. Not that I was complaining though. I'd gladly allow her to enter my body if that's why she needed it. “Your brother-in-law? Prince?” I asked incredulously suddenly slammed with the idea that Prince somehow knew of where she was all these while but I k
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Lisa's POVMy disappearing act was the most unplanned and spontaneous decision I'd ever made in my life and now I'd realized that it was a poorly thought-out decision, one that only caused the people I loved more pain than the relief I'd expected it to bring them.As much as it literally blew my mind that I'd finally gotten married to the man I wouldn't have dared to dream of while I was growing up, I couldn't stop myself from feeling like a burden and a magnet of unfortunate events for him.It was bothersome that I could easily trace every misfortune that had befallen him back to myself, it was as though I was a catalyst for his misery over and over. It felt as though trouble trailed dangerously close behind me and affected everyone in my life, most especially Axel.I'd broken his heart and betrayed him, stolen a shipment that he'd worked tirelessly to procure, and made being a hostage a mentally challenging chore for him, and now I'd been oblivious to the fact that I was being used a
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AXELSIX MONTHS LATERMy entire life had been turned upside down ever since Lisa disappeared from the hospital, it hurt like hell that the moment I’d gotten her back, I’d lost her without single trace. I’d been wild the day she disappeared, I was fucking angry at everyone and I raided the hospital angrily.I spat threats out and shook the very foundations of the entire hospital because I needed at least a single clue as to how Lisa had disappeared. But no single person had any reasonable information to offer me and my heart had sunk with fear, what if I’d lost her forever?I regretted having gone for the meeting that day and leaving her unattended, the two days when I didn't step out of the hospital she’d been perfectly safe and then the second I left, she was suddenly lost to the fucking wind? I blamed myself and feared what would become of me if I never found her.Every day for the last six months had been a recurring nightmare, I was living in a world where Lisa wasn't by my side an
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Axel's POVEverything felt like a blur in the past two days, time seemed to be at a standstill and nothing made sense to me asides from updates on Lisa's fragile and critical health. I'd been seated for hours in the private waiting lodge of the secluded recovery room I paid for to ensure she was being catered to in the best conditions.It felt like no time had passed yet time had dragged aimlessly for the last forty-eight hours, I was always on edge whenever the doctor approached me with news, I didn't know how I'd react if I lost her— I'd lose my damn mind, that's for sure.In over 10 hours, the last news I'd gotten about Lisa was that she was still unconscious and her vitals were unstable. Since then, I'd shuffled between pacing up and down, running my hands through my hair in frustration, feeling like my heart would burst from the scare, and refusing to speak to anyone that dared to tell me I deserved rest— rest? I'll rest when Lisa is awake and stable.Involuntarily my mind drifte
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Lisa’s POVMy heart ripped into a million pieces while I watched what had become of the day that I’d love to keep replaying in memory on a loop, my father has turned my wedding day which had just made me shed tears of unimaginable joy into a freaking shit hole.As he called to me with an arm stretched out, I felt a wave of disgust and hatred for him that was impossible to conceal. I was certain that my facial expressions gave away just how much I detested his guts as he stood before me.My heart kept beating uncontrollably and I could barely form the millions of questions that flew threw my mind, I needed to breathe but I didn't care to catch my breath as much as I terribly needed answers to those questions from my father.I couldn't believe the smug and unapologetic look he has on his face, it was as though he didn't care about hurting me as long as she had his way. I finally mustered the courage to speak but I was certain my voice would sound cracked and snotty because of how much I
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Axel’s POVA serenading symphony of wedding songs that Lisa and I had chosen was being played on the organ and my heart squeezed in its position in my chest because I knew what the start of the music signaled. It had meant that in no time, Lisa would be walked down the aisle by her father toward me.As I looked down the empty aisle I noticed that Volkov’s men has moved from the positions outside the church and had joined my men indoors.They all seemed to be in sync for some reason, but I couldn't possibly guess with the excitement in my veins, still, I looked over at Prince and nodded toward them so that he’d observe them and u could focus on Lisa, and he’d understood what my gesture meant and nodded back at me sharply.I quickly shifted my mind from worrying about what might be irrelevant and focused on my wedding day again.I became tense yet excited at the prospect of looking at her beautiful face for the last time before she became my wife before this congestion. I stood before t
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Axel's POV I was certain that I hadn't stopped smiling while I got dressed for the event of the day, I was thrilled beyond human comprehension. I'd retied my bowtie a couple of times because my mind kept wandering to Lisa like the hopelessly smitten man I was, I could barely focus on myself. I'd decided to wear a dark blue double-breasted suit instead of sticking with the conventional rite of black suits for the groom. I buttoned my jacket and dusted it proudly while I checked myself out in the mirror, Lisa was lucky to be getting married to an absolute snack, I laughed as the silly thought crossed my mind. It hit me again that very moment, I was truly getting married to the woman that made love feel so good I was certain we'd cheated the laws of the universe. I'd never thought I would be so certain that someone was made for me, my soulmate, and my entire world. Just then, a hand landed on my back and rubbed it aggressively and shook me out of the thoughts I'd immersed my mind in.
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LISAIf anyone had told me that my love would become an ethereal dream after being a complete nightmare a month ago, I'd have spat bitterly in their face. But yet, here I was, living the life I wouldn't have dared to dream of after all the unfortunate events I'd been through.My nerves could barely contain my excitement and my heart was an endless leap for joy because I was about to get through the day I'd fantasized about a million times over the past month. I was beyond elated and I couldn't hide it, I didn't want to anyways, it could easily pass as the best day of my life.I was getting married to the man of my dreams, the man that surpassed my dreams and made life a living fantasy. It was I and Axel's wedding day, finally! I'd already said I do in my head several times but the thought of saying it as a vow before a church intrigued me greatly."Girllll! I can't fucking believe your luck with love, teach me a thing or two please?" Tana's excited voice broke through my thoughts and
