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ILLICIT AFFAIRS Fifty-Eight: Love Or Something Like That.
AXELI took another shot and I gulped it down in one go.The loud music and excited screams in the bar did nothing to better my mood and alleviate my worries. If anything, it was worsening it and I knew I should leave, I should go back home but I badly needed this distraction. I badly needed something or someone that'd take my mind off the turmoil that Lisa had plunged me into.Or better put, the turmoil that Prince's observation had put me into."This is not just about you being into her, you're in love with her."I was in love with her? No, I wasn't. I was clear on that as the day was daylight. I wasn't in love with Lisa. I couldn't be in love with her but what was this hollow hole in my heart? What was this hollow space in my heart after she walked away? What was this irrational need to call her and get her to go back on her words? What was this insane desire to call her and hear her voice? What was this bizarre need to go over and see her face and hear her laugh and just bask in t
Last Updated : 2023-02-07ILLICIT AFFAIRS Fifty-Nine: Trying To Forget Him
LISATana had dragged me to the bar, and now we were standing in front of it. I had tried to talk my way out of coming out and coming to this bar with Tana but she was having none of it. She insisted I had to come here, to party, to socialize to get him out of my mind.I was starting to think that might not be possible, getting him out of my mind, I mean. "Come on, babe, what's that look on your face?" She asked me when I was only looking at the entrance of the bar and not making an attempt to enter."What look?" I asked, feigning innocence. "That sad, wistful expression. Come on, Lisa. We came out here to forget about everything and just have a good time. "And you're a badass, pretty, smoking hot and sophisticated girl. I don't see why you're stressing over him when you can easily get any man that you want."Yeah, I could but none of them were Axel.But Tana was somehow right. Maybe all I need is a distraction, and that won't be difficult, especially since I was already receiving g
Last Updated : 2023-02-08ILLICIT AFFAIRS Sixty: Harsh Reality?
LISAI didn't say anything as he dragged me out, dragged me towards the car park, unlocked his car door, and threw me in. I didn't say anything when he rounded the car and he got in behind the wheels when he leaned over to help me buckle my seat belt, torturing us both with our closeness because my breath hitched up and his became very rapid too. Didn't say anything when he started the ignition when he eased the car out of the parking lot and he started driving towards the roads that I’d gotten to know way too much. Because they lead to his house. He didn't say anything too, he just looked as angry and pissed off as hell and it made me wonder why he was so angry because he doesn't have any right to be angry. I was dancing with a guy and he was suddenly our personal space, all angry as if someone stole his candy. He even had the nerve to punch the poor guy, knocking him out cold in the process. Thinking about it now, I was the one that was supposed to be angry, I was the one that
Last Updated : 2023-02-09ILLICIT AFFAIRS Sixty-One: Love
LISAHis hand didn't leave mine and he didn't attempt to step up position on the floor and I could only stare at him with wide eyes because I couldn't fathom a thing. I couldn't fathom why he was doing this."What are you doing, Axel?""I wish I knew," he smiled a bitter smile, "but I just knew I'd be damned if I allow you to walk through that door without letting you know how I feel."I thought my heart had reached the maximum level for how fast it could beat but why did pick race again? Why was it beating so much that I feared it would burst out of its rib cage?Without letting me know how he feels? How does he feel?"I don't know, Red, I should ask you because what have you done to me? Why can't I stop thinking about you?" He asked me, eyes boring into mine and filled with so many emotions that I couldn't even start to decipher them.He can't stop thinking about me?"I can't stop thinking about you, Red, I see you when I close my eyes, when I open them, I see you in every girl, e
Last Updated : 2023-02-10ILLICIT AFFAIRS Sixty-Two: A couple or something like that
LISAI woke up feeling refreshed as I'd never felt before. For a minute after I woke up, I was disconnected and lost because I didn't understand where I was. The white walls and interiors didn't feel familiar at all and I was immediately discombobulated before I remembered that I had slept over in Axel's house and I had woken up in his bed. I don't remember ever waking up in someone else's bed.I smiled in contentment as I stretched on the bed and I expected my hand to meet the solid frame that was Axel's body but my hands met nothing. Sleep cleared from my eyes and I looked around the room to find him gone. I stood up and my first check was in the bathroom but he wasn't there. I quickly freshened up before going out of the bathroom and I went in search of him. The smell of fresh toast and brewing coffee immediately assaulted my nose when I stepped out of the bathroom and I took a deep breath to inhale the scent deeply. I started to walk in the direction the aroma was coming from a
Last Updated : 2023-02-11ILLICIT AFFAIRS Sixty-Three: Lovestruck
LISAAxel IvanovAxel.Ivanov.That guy had incinerated every part of being, leaving only what I feel for him and the memories of us together in its wake. It's been three days since that night at his house and it's been nothing more than euphoric bliss.I've been thinking about him a lot.In fact, he was the only one I'd been thinking about.Here I was again, I was sitting in front of my vanity and I was supposed to be getting ready but guess who was getting all distracted because of the thoughts of Axel? Me!I don't know where we were headed, especially since we have to keep things under the wrap for now but damn, thinking about Axel was making me warm and fuzzy and I just can't get him off my mind. He's like a virus taking over my body in the best possible way, but this virus was dangerous, and I still fucking love it.I know what we're doing is risky but we couldn't control our feelings and who would have thought that there'd be one day when I'd feel this way about Axel?I was supp
Last Updated : 2023-02-12ILLICIT AFFAIRS Sixty-Four: Surprise?
I'd never gotten used to parting ways with Tana once we arrived at the lecture halls, but I returned her small wave as she walked away because I knew I'd see her real soon.The wind was having a field day, blowing through rustling leaves and ruining my perfectly laid hair as I walked toward my lecture hall.I loved the weather, but it had its unpleasant quirks, ones that made it somewhat annoying.After walking in long strides to avoid unnecessary chit-chat with passersby, not like I’d ever involve myself in conversing with anyone in the first place, I was finally seated right in time for the lecture.As if on cue, the lecturer waltzed in a few minutes after I'd set up my laptop and greeted the class casually.The lecture went by in a breeze mostly because I was immersed and intrigued enough to enjoy every bit of it, I loved being a brilliant mind in the tech space.The lecturer left the class with a few students trailing behind him and badgering him with questions, while I stayed put
Last Updated : 2023-02-13ILLICIT AFFAIRS Sixty-Five: More Surprise
LISAI enjoyed the ride so much because Devin played one of my favorite love song medleys the whole way, I'm certain Axel tipped him on my music taste, he knew exactly how to make a girl giddy in love.We pulled into a park shortly and I felt the car coming to a halt, I was staring out the window in awe since I'd never had the opportunity to spend a day at a park, and somehow my inner child felt seen and understood.My Childhood memories were an endless loop of violent and tedious training sessions with men thrice my age because my family put the mafia's organization before everything else and I was no exception.I stared out the window like a child watching the ice cream man's truck drive by, I'd dreamt of visiting a park someday but I had no idea it would feel like an out-of-body experience when I finally did."Ma'am, we're here" Devin's voice broke through my thoughts as he opened his door and walked towards mine."Thank you so much, Devin, I enjoyed the ride- and the music" I wink
Last Updated : 2023-02-15
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ILLICIT AFFAIRS EPILOGUE
LISA A YEAR LATER Have I just spent the absolute best year of my life? Yes. Best was such an understatement to describe the year I just had. Axel made sure to keep on his promise of being the best thing that has ever happened to me and each day was better than the last. And he also made sure to keep up with the promise of putting babies inside me during our honeymoon because here I was, heavily pregnant and the scan has confirmed that we were expecting twins. Axel has never allowed me to hear the end of it. He was always bragging about his skills and all those yadayada nonsense and that was how he was able to impregnate me during our three months honeymoon. Yeah, we did use three months for our honeymoon and I was sure we were the only couple that had done that. I wanted us to go back after a month but Axel had insisted that we spent three months and in the end, it was all because of me. He wanted me to learn all the things I've mentioned that I wanted to learn while making sure
ILLICIT AFFAIRS FINAL CHAPTER
AXELI still couldn't believe my eyes, just like I couldn't believe everything that had happened for the past 2 hours but one thing was real. Lisa was here by my side, wearing my ring as we walked out of the airport hand in hand and into the car that was already waiting for us.“But how did you do this?” I finally asked, speaking for the first time since I confirmed that she was the one sitting beside me on the plane, “how were you able to make that happen?” I asked as the car drove us to the hotel we booked for our honeymoon. “My brother-in-law helped me,” she sassed, leaning closer to me like she has been doing since we entered the car. It was like she couldn't believe that I was here and she needed to feel my body to confirm that. Not that I was complaining though. I'd gladly allow her to enter my body if that's why she needed it. “Your brother-in-law? Prince?” I asked incredulously suddenly slammed with the idea that Prince somehow knew of where she was all these while but I k
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Lisa's POVMy disappearing act was the most unplanned and spontaneous decision I'd ever made in my life and now I'd realized that it was a poorly thought-out decision, one that only caused the people I loved more pain than the relief I'd expected it to bring them.As much as it literally blew my mind that I'd finally gotten married to the man I wouldn't have dared to dream of while I was growing up, I couldn't stop myself from feeling like a burden and a magnet of unfortunate events for him.It was bothersome that I could easily trace every misfortune that had befallen him back to myself, it was as though I was a catalyst for his misery over and over. It felt as though trouble trailed dangerously close behind me and affected everyone in my life, most especially Axel.I'd broken his heart and betrayed him, stolen a shipment that he'd worked tirelessly to procure, and made being a hostage a mentally challenging chore for him, and now I'd been oblivious to the fact that I was being used a
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AXELSIX MONTHS LATERMy entire life had been turned upside down ever since Lisa disappeared from the hospital, it hurt like hell that the moment I’d gotten her back, I’d lost her without single trace. I’d been wild the day she disappeared, I was fucking angry at everyone and I raided the hospital angrily.I spat threats out and shook the very foundations of the entire hospital because I needed at least a single clue as to how Lisa had disappeared. But no single person had any reasonable information to offer me and my heart had sunk with fear, what if I’d lost her forever?I regretted having gone for the meeting that day and leaving her unattended, the two days when I didn't step out of the hospital she’d been perfectly safe and then the second I left, she was suddenly lost to the fucking wind? I blamed myself and feared what would become of me if I never found her.Every day for the last six months had been a recurring nightmare, I was living in a world where Lisa wasn't by my side an
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Axel's POVEverything felt like a blur in the past two days, time seemed to be at a standstill and nothing made sense to me asides from updates on Lisa's fragile and critical health. I'd been seated for hours in the private waiting lodge of the secluded recovery room I paid for to ensure she was being catered to in the best conditions.It felt like no time had passed yet time had dragged aimlessly for the last forty-eight hours, I was always on edge whenever the doctor approached me with news, I didn't know how I'd react if I lost her— I'd lose my damn mind, that's for sure.In over 10 hours, the last news I'd gotten about Lisa was that she was still unconscious and her vitals were unstable. Since then, I'd shuffled between pacing up and down, running my hands through my hair in frustration, feeling like my heart would burst from the scare, and refusing to speak to anyone that dared to tell me I deserved rest— rest? I'll rest when Lisa is awake and stable.Involuntarily my mind drifte
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Lisa’s POVMy heart ripped into a million pieces while I watched what had become of the day that I’d love to keep replaying in memory on a loop, my father has turned my wedding day which had just made me shed tears of unimaginable joy into a freaking shit hole.As he called to me with an arm stretched out, I felt a wave of disgust and hatred for him that was impossible to conceal. I was certain that my facial expressions gave away just how much I detested his guts as he stood before me.My heart kept beating uncontrollably and I could barely form the millions of questions that flew threw my mind, I needed to breathe but I didn't care to catch my breath as much as I terribly needed answers to those questions from my father.I couldn't believe the smug and unapologetic look he has on his face, it was as though he didn't care about hurting me as long as she had his way. I finally mustered the courage to speak but I was certain my voice would sound cracked and snotty because of how much I
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Axel’s POVA serenading symphony of wedding songs that Lisa and I had chosen was being played on the organ and my heart squeezed in its position in my chest because I knew what the start of the music signaled. It had meant that in no time, Lisa would be walked down the aisle by her father toward me.As I looked down the empty aisle I noticed that Volkov’s men has moved from the positions outside the church and had joined my men indoors.They all seemed to be in sync for some reason, but I couldn't possibly guess with the excitement in my veins, still, I looked over at Prince and nodded toward them so that he’d observe them and u could focus on Lisa, and he’d understood what my gesture meant and nodded back at me sharply.I quickly shifted my mind from worrying about what might be irrelevant and focused on my wedding day again.I became tense yet excited at the prospect of looking at her beautiful face for the last time before she became my wife before this congestion. I stood before t
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Axel's POV I was certain that I hadn't stopped smiling while I got dressed for the event of the day, I was thrilled beyond human comprehension. I'd retied my bowtie a couple of times because my mind kept wandering to Lisa like the hopelessly smitten man I was, I could barely focus on myself. I'd decided to wear a dark blue double-breasted suit instead of sticking with the conventional rite of black suits for the groom. I buttoned my jacket and dusted it proudly while I checked myself out in the mirror, Lisa was lucky to be getting married to an absolute snack, I laughed as the silly thought crossed my mind. It hit me again that very moment, I was truly getting married to the woman that made love feel so good I was certain we'd cheated the laws of the universe. I'd never thought I would be so certain that someone was made for me, my soulmate, and my entire world. Just then, a hand landed on my back and rubbed it aggressively and shook me out of the thoughts I'd immersed my mind in.
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LISAIf anyone had told me that my love would become an ethereal dream after being a complete nightmare a month ago, I'd have spat bitterly in their face. But yet, here I was, living the life I wouldn't have dared to dream of after all the unfortunate events I'd been through.My nerves could barely contain my excitement and my heart was an endless leap for joy because I was about to get through the day I'd fantasized about a million times over the past month. I was beyond elated and I couldn't hide it, I didn't want to anyways, it could easily pass as the best day of my life.I was getting married to the man of my dreams, the man that surpassed my dreams and made life a living fantasy. It was I and Axel's wedding day, finally! I'd already said I do in my head several times but the thought of saying it as a vow before a church intrigued me greatly."Girllll! I can't fucking believe your luck with love, teach me a thing or two please?" Tana's excited voice broke through my thoughts and
