Xavierโs POVโXavier, Iโm sorry, please,โ Nathania said but Xavier was not himself. His mind was going through a lot of thoughts and the most affected was his heart. How could she play him like this? And then again, why? Everyone in school believes her to be a boy, why did she lie about her identity, about her gender? Xavier ran his fingers through his long hair, he opened his mouth to speak but no words came out. He brought the glass of water to his lips and nearly emptied the it in one sip. He placed the glass on the coffee table and stared at the girl in front of him, her beautiful gray eyes were covered in tears but he didnโt want to be affected by it, in as much as it was a hard battle to win. He just couldnโt believe that she has been deceiving him for months, months!โWhy?โ He asked in the end, โwhy do you it?โโCan you sit down?โ Nana asked.He struggled but at the end, he sat down, his eyes not leaving her for one second when she sat opposite him once more. โI have a brothe
Nathaniaโs POVNathania stiffened at the sound of Xavier raising his voice. She knew it would be like this, even she would find it difficult to forgive herself for what she did. No matter how justifiable her reason may be, it doesnโt remove the fact that she played with his emotions and gave him a lot oof emotional break down.โDo you know what I went through?โ Xavier asked. โI had to fight with myself about my orientation. I knew I was straight, I have always been. But from our trip to Hawaii, I havenโt been myself, thinking about and wondering what was going on with me. Nana, no matter how you look at this, you really broke me. And to think I had altered my orientation just to be with you, do you know what that means?โโIโm sorry,โ Nathania said and Xavier scoffed and stood up.โYou know, โIโm sorryโ were the words my mother heard a lot from my father after finding out he already have a family. Judging our case, it doesnโt look too different from what my Dad did to my Mom. Iโm sorry
Nathaniaโs POVXavier didnโt come to any of the morning classes and neither was he seen at P.E. Nathania knew he must have gone off somewhere to be alone and may be avoiding her. She just wished she knew all the hiding places he usually frequented to sleep but sadly, she only knew of the Library and since the teacher found him that day in the storage room, the room was always locked and she had heard Xavier complain about it a few times. As she packed her books to get ready to head for the cafeteria, a loud commotion sounded on the hallway along with excited screams of students. The rest of the students in the class all rushed out to know what was going on and Nathaniaโs interest was picked as well as she grabbed her back and left the classroom.Getting the lockers hallway, she saw a crowd of students, everyone was whispering and she could make out from their conversation that someone was confessing to someone and the girls high pitched voice was urging the one being confessed to, to
Nathaniaโs POVCatherineโs rejection indeed reigned the school for days until the news of Chloe waking up from the hospital and Tyler being found made everyone forget. Chloe had confessed to Tyler being innocent and having nothing to do with her accident but everyone wanted to know why Tyler was hiding and only came out when she woke up. No one knew the full details and the principal had told everyone to leave the case to the authority to focus on their exams coming up. Nathania had been trying her best to meet with Xavier but all to no avail.She had even purposely gone over to his room on the days on visiting Teresa but only to discover the room always locked. No matter how she tried to make a contact, it was Xavier always knew what she was planning and was prepared for her. She even tried calling him with a payphone and he picked up, but that only happened once. He had ended the call instantly when he discovered she was the one and hadnโt picked up any call from a payphone again or
Xavierโs POVXavier had seen Nathania run out of the house and in as much he wanted to ignore her, in as much as he wanted to hold on to his anger, he couldnโt deny that he was worried with the look on her face and so he followed her against his better judgment. Seeing her moving away from the house piqued his interest more and he had followed silently. When she had answered the call and he heard โMomโ, he had sighed and nearly punched himself, wondering why a call from her mom would have been dangerous. He turned to go back to the party but he stopped in his tracks when he heard her teary โOllieโ.Xavier turned sharply to Nathania as her words that day in her living room came back to his mind and he knew instantly that that call was important to her and he found himself wishing that her brother had called her to give her good news. He stepped away, giving her privacy to talk with her brother but also keeping her in sight to make sure she was okay. In as much as she was dressed like a
Nathaniaโs POVNathania couldnโt sleep throughout the night. She was plagued by Xavierโs words. โYou ask for forgiveness but you are still unrepentant. Iโm sorry, but my forgiveness is not that easy to come.โ What did he mean by she was unrepentant? If she was not sorry for hurting him, would she be trying to make peace? Would she be going to such length to earn his forgiveness? The more she thought about it, the more she felt like she was missing the bigger picture. However, the problem was how was she to make up what Xavier wanted to say? Unrepentant, what did he mean by that?She tossed and turned on her bed until eventually, she lost herself to sleep. Waking up the next day, Nathania didnโt feel the urge of going to school, however, since she had an exam, she couldnโt skip. She dragged herself up from her bed to the bathroom and took her shower. As she stood under the shower, she kept having this foreboding feeling that something bad was about to happen but she couldnโt lay a fing
Xavierโs POVXavier said nothing and turned to walk out of the room when it was obvious that Nana had hung up. โHold on, Xavier,โ Teresa called and he turned back to her. โWhat is really going on?โโWhat did he tell you?โโNot this again,โ Teresa rolled her eyes. โPlease, I want to understand. The last thing I want is being laughed at in school. Just tell me, let me prepare myself.โโItโs not in my place to say.โโBut you guys are a thing? Just answer me honestly.โXavier said nothing.โI have always wondered why you were single, why I have never heard you being interested in any girl or dating one and when Catherine told me she wanted to confess to you, I had secretly looked forward to it because I wanted to know what you would do. When you rejected her, I wasnโt surprised, but then I asked myself why wasnโt I surprised? Could it be it was because I knew that was what was going to happen or because deep inside, I was already believing that you are gay? Letโs be clear, I have nothing
Nathaniaโs POVNathania had been so worried since she get to school and it got worse when neither Xavier nor Teresa had shown up. When she heard the revving Of Xavierโs bike, her heart had stopped beating and she had to force herself to remember how to breath. She has been enduring the stares and whispers of the students who were already in school and she knew should she go outside and meet Xavier, it would raise more questions. So after contemplating that, she decided to wait for him by his locker. No matter what, she has to clear the air about being gay with Xavier. She knew the best thing to do now was to tell everyone that she wasnโt gay but in fact, a girl. However, no matter how much she tried to build up the courage, she just couldnโt.How could she bear coming to school afterwards? Sure, her parents are picking her up next week but she still has to come to school till they do and moreover, her exams are only finishing tomorrow. No matter what, she has to come for her exam tomo
I glared at him and he laughed, โyour words, remember?โ He reminded me.โPoint of correction, it wasnโt my words.โโBut you suggested it and she just said it,โ he winked and walked to my bed. Falling on it, he picked up the novel I had no idea was still there, yeah right. โHmm, romance, never knew you were that type judging by the fact that you always push me away when Iโm trying to be romantic with you.โI rolled my eyes, โget out of my bed, Adrian.โโWhy should I? Itโs soft, almost like Iโm lying on your body,โ he winked.โIt will only happen in your dreams,โ I rolled my eyes.โHere we go again,โ he sighed, โanyway, this place is awfully quiet, where are your parents? You screamed really loud when you first saw me, how come none of them heard it?โโMy parents are not around and my brother sleeps like a log, no matter the amount of noise in this house, he is not waking up. Well, thatโs probably because he always sleeps with his headphones on.โโThatโs not good, my uncle who happens t
โWhat the hell?โ I asked.โI have missed you,โ he chuckled, taking a step towards me, โwhatโs hard to understand there,โ he was now in front of me and he ran his fingertips on my cheek, โI missed you pigeon,โ he repeated in a whisper.A shiver ran through my body and I took a step back, โokay, you have seen me, now leave,โ I started pushing him towards the window.โHey, hey wait, wait, I havenโt said what I came to say,โ he commented.โYes you have.โโNo, I havenโt,โ he stopped moving and turned to face me.โFine then, what else do you want to say?โ I crossed my arms on my chest.Adrian licked his lips and sighed, โlisten, I figured it out today during your outburst.โ I frowned, my outburst? โYou are angry not just because I kissed you but because it was your first kiss and I may not be the guy you wanted to give it to and also not in that surrounding.โI took a minute staring at him, speechless. First, letโs begin with the fact I never expected him to come apologising and to use the
โNo, I donโt want to join in anything,โ I was saying to Christy on the phone as I climbed the stairs to my room. Max chose to turn in earlier and I only enjoy watching Netflix with someone, or at least start it with someone before being left alone. It was only eight o'clock and I didn't know what to do with my time so that the hours could pass by. Then I called Christy to chat a little with her.โCome on Molly, you are no longer a new student, there are a lot of clubs in the school, find one to join. There are the drama club, the singing club, the debate club, the fashion club, the math club and you are very good in math, oh and they also have the nerd club, so which is it going to be?โโNone,โ I deadpanned.โOh come, donโt be a killjoy.โโWhat of you, which one are you in?โโWell, I was in the drama club before I had to leave but now I want to join again or just any of the clubs. Iโm tired of not belonging to anything.โโWell, thatโs what I do best, I donโt belong to anything.โโCome
I sighed when I heard her words, โbut that doesnโt mean everybody in school has to know about it and that stupid Adrian too. I wonder what he will be thinking of me now.โโProbably, as the most beautiful girl he has ever met. Molly, do you even look at yourself in the mirror? You are an angel when compared to beauty, you have this long wavy brown hair that glitters like a chocolate ice cream, a pair of beautiful brown eyes that captivates everyone, I mean it captivated me. You have this adorable height, has it ever occurred to you that you are more than two inches taller than me? And I am considered tall for a girl. You have this flame around you that makes you special. Beautiful and attractive like a blue fire and everybody knows that blue fire burns fiercer and hotter. You are like blue fire, Molly, attractive to look at and dangerous to touch but you also care for those who you love. Your personality is what attracted me to you, remember, and the girl I met that day is not the type
โMs. Davis, may I know the reason you have chosen to disturb the class?โ Mrs. Meyers asked.โUmโฆโ I looked around and everyone was looking at me, even Christy was looking at me with worry, โIโm sorry Mrs. Meyers, it wonโt happen again.โโIt better not or there will be consequences and please, mind your use of words in my class. Understood?โโYes Mrs. Meyers,โ I bowed my head. The class continued again and I heard Adrian chuckling, I turned to glare at him and he clammed up immediately but his eyes were still filled with amusement, โI hate you,โ I mouthed.โI know and Iโm sorry,โ he smiled.Rolling my eyes, I faced my front, ready to ignore him for the rest of my life, but he didnโt have the same plan for me I guess, for he continued pulling my hair, tickling my neck and whispering my name, well, thatโs if you would call pigeon my name. Now, I hate-hate-hate-hate-hate him.When the bell rang, it was as if I had my redemption, I packed my books immediately and was out of the class befor
The next day had me preparing for school tiredly, I had watched Netflix far into the night because I couldnโt sleep. I was still dressing when my door opened and Christy stormed in, โI canโt believe this, you are still dressing?โ She shrieked.This felt strange, I was used to being the one to shriek at Max for not finishing on time but having Christy do the same to me made me frown, I didnโt like it one bit. Agh, now I understand what Max usually complained about. โIโm dressing arenโt I? Calm down, I will be ready soon.โโWell you better be, being late to school is not my specialty,โ she fell on my bed.โNeither is it mine,โ I rolled my eyes and turned to get out my top from the wardrobe and my mind chose to remind me of someone who loves being late, a white haired guy with ocean blue eyes. Ugh, I canโt believe I will be seeing him again today and he is going to stress me out like only he knows how to.Minutes later, we were going down the stairs on our way to her car, โso, I had this
Adrian withdrew to his seat immediately and he put on his headphones just as everyone started waking up. Seeing him, you wonโt believe that he was seducing me five seconds ago.I shook my head and pulled out my backpack from the seat, turning to Christy, I woke her up just as the bus was stopping. Adrian stood up immediately, strapping his bag on his shoulder, he left the bus. I stared after him and sighed, so much for being attracted to me. I rolled my eyes, grateful for Benโs intervention, if not he would have kissed me again just like he did last night and without my permission.Actually, it was with my permission because I didnโt see myself doing anything to stop him when he was leaning closer to me. Sighing, I helped Christy up, the bus was emptying and we joined in line after she got her backpack.Outside the bus, Ms. Sanchez called for everyoneโs attention and I noticed that Adrian was nowhere to be seen, I searched for him with my eyes but I couldnโt find him, where could he h
The time to leave finally arrived and as I expected, Christy woke me up and we loosed our tents. Nobody was actually happy leaving but there was nothing we could do, the principal has spoken and we could only obey.Getting to the bus, I walked straight to the back seat and sat down, pushing my backpack under the seat. I brought out my phone and plugged in my earplug just as Christy sat beside me and I placed my head on her shoulder. Minutes later, I felt someone sitting beside me but I didnโt bother to look, it was the school bus after all and every student can sit wherever they want. The car started some time after and I knew our journey had started. I dozed in and out of sleep until I perceived that cologne, that beautiful sea sent. I furrowed my brows, I have come to know the owner of that smell. What is he doing here? Why could I perceive his cologne when I know he is not near me? I opened my eyes to see really beautiful slender fingers resting on a black jean. My frown deepened,
As you all know, I was woken up in the morning just when I was starting to enjoy my sleep. I got up and hand combed my hair before walking outside. The sun was so bright that I had to close my eyes and open it slowly to adapt to the brightness, courtesy of sleeping late. I met Christy coming out of her tent. She looked bright and beautiful, no doubt because she had a good night's sleep, unlike me.โHey, good morning,โ she approached me then frowned, โwhatโs with the eye-bags, didnโt sleep well?โโTrust me, you donโt want to know,โ I replied, yawning.โYou know what? I really do want to know.โโNot now Chris, I will tell you later, Iโm still trying to figure it out myself.โโAlright kids, gather around,โ Ms. Sanchez's voice rang loud and clear. We all started gathering around her and the Monroeโs, โListen kids, there is a change of plan. We have to go back today.โโWhat, why?โ The whole students asked.โApparently, Mr. Wood didnโt hear when I told him we would be staying away for two d