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Chapter 9 - Slow

Author: matomaenetsha
last update Last Updated: 2024-07-02 20:46:36

When I get home I am hit with this heavy feeling of loss. I can tell my mother hasn't moved from her bed since I left for school this morning.

That means she didn't go to work again. I don't even know if she still has a job.

Her work bag is still on the kitchen counter. The breakfast I made is untouched and all of the curtains are still closed. I open them and warm the food I left for her in the microwave.

Then head to my bedroom. I have to start on my game plan for getting my grades up. I would love to go check on my mother but I can't place my energy on her right now. Seeing her is going to drain me completely. And if you didn't notice I am holding on by a thread.

I open my bedroom door and stare at the pile of clothes on the floor, the unmade bed, and the overall mess.

"Well, this is bad," I say to the empty and messy room. I throw my book bag on the bed and attack the laundry on the floor. I separate the clothes in matching colors and then I make my bed.

A part of me wants to
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