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Chapter 58 - Another one of my firsts
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2024-10-29 19:42:56"Do you want something to drink? Eat?" He asks after a long pause I shake my head no and he nods. "I need s a drink." He says gettin up from his chair. He walks to the end of the room and he opens a door I didn't even notice was there. I stare at the open door wondering why I don't just leave.He won't even notice until he comes back.
A few moments later he walks back in with a beer in one hand a packet of chips in another. He hands me the chips and then he sits next to me."You comfortable?" He asks smiling at me. "No" I say and he places his beer botle on the floor and he starts to take off my shoes. "I would ask you to stop but I know I would be sasting my energy." I say and he dhrugs He slips one shoe off and then kisses the top on my foot. I sigh in a mixture of pleasure and sheer panic. I don't understand why he's doing all these sweet and downright sexy things to me. I close my eyes for a second trying to calm myself. And then he doesRelated chapters
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