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Chapter 34 - Adore you
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Adore You by Harry Styles plays on my phone. I stand in the same spot he left me in, utterly shocked. This man is going to be the end of me. Why would he play a song like that for me? What am I supposed to think about this?
These lyrics!
You don't have to say you love me
I just wanna tell you somethin'Lately, you've been on my mindI stare at the books on the kitchen table and wonder if I have the strength to finish the work I have. Trust Liam to mess my feelings up.
My phone vibrates. It’s Tamrin calling. I answer the phone without thinking about it. "How's everything going? Need any help?" I almost laugh at the irony. If only she knew.
" I don't think you want the problems I have." I say and she chuckles. "I'll manage, though." I add and she doesn't say anything else.
"You sound off though." She says and she's not wrong
"It’s nothing. Just.... stress"
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