He typed on his phone. โDidnโt you ask me to see if your eyebrows moved?โI was at a loss for words.It was late, and the cold wind felt like it was creeping into my blankets. So, I sat up in the lounge chair and said, โIโm going to sleep. Iโm tired.โWhile I was looking for my shoes, he suddenly bent down and picked me up.This was not his first time carrying me. Sometimes, he would carry me when it was inconvenient for me to walk.My face was pressed against his chest, and that strange feeling of familiarity returned.I could hear his heart pounding.Weirdly, my heart started to race a little too.I knew that I should not think this way, but he really reminded me of Zach.โYou kind of look like someone I know,โ I said.He set me down on the bed and typed on his phone. โWho?โI contemplated for a moment and did not answer.In the end, I just lay down. Mr. Ganes was in the room next to mine, and I had a call button. So, if I needed anything or shouted, he would hear me.Th
I remembered that Zach had a sweater just like this one. In fact, I was the one who had given it to him.He did not wear it often because he usually dressed formally.Was this the sweater from me?I reached out and touched the soft fabric. It felt fuzzy, and there was no painful static electricity.At the same time, my phone rang.I extended one hand toward Mr. Ganes while I answered the call with the other.Sophie said, โCassia, Zachโs with Cecilia.โโAre you sure?โโAbsolutely. They were hugging in a car. My friend, whoโs a private investigator, sent me a picture. It shows the inside of Zachโs car, and heโs hugging Cecilia. I would send it to you, but you canโt see.โโOh, okay.โI was still reaching for Mr. Ganes, but my arm was getting tired.I hung up on Sophie and lowered my left hand.Mr. Ganes typed on his phone. โWhatโs wrong?โโNothing,โ I replied softly.โAre you sure? Do you feel okay?โโIโm fine. You should go to sleep. I wonโt bother you anymore.โI turned
โI can see its color. My eyesightโs gotten a bit better these past few days. I can kind of see your face now.โโAm I pretty?โโYouโre gorgeous.โMs. Xavier laughed. โYour eyesightโs still not fully healed if you think that.โAs I prepared to wash up, I asked, โMy friendโs visiting today. If she stays late, can she spend the night?โโNo one can stay, but for you? Sure.โMy dad had shares in the rehabilitation center, so I could do whatever I wanted.Honestly, I was thinking about Mr. Ganes starting his shift at 6 p.m. If Sophie stayed, she might get to see him. For some reason, I just could not let it go.I trusted my intuition. After being with Zach and loving him for so long, I knew every little thing about him.While I walked by the lake after breakfast, Ms. Xavier came over. โMs. Sophie Freeman is here.โFrom afar, I could hear Sophie yelling, โCassia! Cassia!โShe ran up to me with a bunch of bags and dropped them casually on the ground.โWhat did you bring?โ I asked.
โLucy Grant is a fake name. What about her ID? Doesnโt she have one?โโHer ID is fake too.โโThatโs impressive.โโWhat kind of comment is that?โโHow else should I respond?โ In winter, it got dark early. By about 5 p.m., the sun was already gone.We went inside, and Sophie said, โBy the way, whereโs your male nurse? You keep suspecting that heโs Zach. I want to see if he looks like him.โโThe next shift starts at 6 p.m.โโOh. Iโll stay here tonight, then.โEven though I did not really want her there, she had an important mission tonight.At 6 p.m., Ms. Xavier came in to change my sheets. โWhy are you still here? Isnโt Mr. Ganes supposed to start his shift at 6 p.m.?โ I asked.โIโll leave soon.โโMr. Ganes isnโt here yet?โโHeโs changing.โI felt relieved. I thought that Mr. Ganes might avoid coming to stay away from Sophie.I had not given up yet. I knew that I was acting strange.After Ms. Xavier finished changing the sheets, she smiled and said, โWell, Iโm leaving now.
Sophie sighed and patted my shoulder. โYouโve loved Zach for so many years. Itโs not easy to move on. I understand.โThere was no way she could understand.We lay on my bed and stared at the ceiling. โSo, whatโs going on with you and Austin?โ I asked.โWhat do you mean?โโI thought I told you to ask him if he likes you. If he doesnโt, just find someone else. Donโt drag it out. Itโs not good for either of you.โโWhatever.โ She snorted.I wanted to talk more, but Sophie had already fallen asleep.She could fall asleep anywhere, even better than me, a pregnant woman.At 7 p.m., Mr. Ganes came to take me to vision therapy.I rested my hand on his wrist as usual. Realizing that my suspicions were all in my head, walking beside him felt different.The hallway was long, and I smiled at him. โYou know what? I almost mistook you for someone else.โHe typed on his phone. โWho?โI did not answer, so he asked again, โZach?โI laughed and said, โYeah. He keeps coming back into my life.
After vision therapy, Mr. Ganes walked me back to my room. The hallway was quiet, and his footsteps sounded so familiar.All of a sudden, I broke down.I stopped walking, and Mr. Ganes stopped too.I looked up at his blurry face behind the mask and asked, โAre you Zach?โHe did not answer. The air felt heavy and uncomfortable.I felt like I was going crazy. One second, I thought he was Zach. The next, I did not.When I was with Sophie earlier, I was sure that he was not Zach. But at this moment, I felt that he could be.I did not know if I should trust my feelings or force myself to ignore them.I thought that I had moved on. I had already accepted Hayden, so why did every man I encountered seem like Zach?I wanted to touch his face. I could not see well, but touching him would tell me if he was Zach.Just before I made contact, I retracted my hand.What was wrong with me?Everyone kept telling me that he was not Zach, but I just could not let it go.Even if he was Zach, w
โCassia...โ Sophie ran over and hugged me tightly. My appearance clearly scared her. โMr. Ganes told me that got very emotional. Whatโs wrong?โ she said with a quiver.โWhere is he?โโHeโs over there.โโIs he Zach?โโCassia, whatโs wrong? Donโt scare me like this.โ Sophie held me tightly. โHow could he be Zach? Heโs just your nurse.โโDonโt lie to me.โโWhy would I lie? Whatโs going on, Cassia? Do you love him so much that you canโt move on?โI thought that I had moved on. I really thought that I had.However, that feeling would not leave me. It felt so real that I started to doubt myself.I sobbed and leaned on Sophie. She held me and rested my head on her shoulder. โOh, my poor Cassia. You donโt have to pretend to be strong. You were in love with Zach for such a long time. Itโs not easy to just move on. If you really canโt, take your time. It scares me to see you like this.โI took out the Rubikโs Cube that Dr. Savier had given me and handed it to Sophie. She took it and as
The next morning, Sophie tagged along for my checkup. After that, she had to leave because she had things to do.However, she looked worried and said, โShould I tell Hayden? Iโm not comfortable with how youโre feeling.โโPlease donโt.โโI know. If Hayden finds out that youโre always thinking about Zach, he wonโt like it.โโJust go. I got through yesterdayโs breakdown. I wonโt keep losing it.โโBut CassiaโโโStop dragging this out. Once my vision therapy sessions are done, Iโll go back home.โโOkay.โAfter Sophie left, I sat in the doctorโs office. He looked over my test results and said, โMs. Freeman, the CT scan looks good. The blood clot is smaller than before. By your next checkup, it should be gone.โโSo, my brain is okay?โโThereโs no structural damage.โโThen, it must be a mental issue,โ I muttered. โHow do you figure out if someone has a mental problem? What tests do you do?โโNo, thatโs not necessary.โ The doctor smiled and shook his head. โMs. Freeman, it might jus
Sophie knocked on my door the next day around 7 a.m.I only managed to fall asleep at about 2 a.m., so I had a bad headache. I sat on the bed as she ran over excitedly and asked, โAre you busy this morning?โ โGo away.โ I lay down again. โCome to the city hall with me. Iโm getting married!โโWhy do you need me there? Am I going to breastfeed you?โโYou donโt have milk right now.โ I was disgusted by our conversation. Rachel sat up from the bed and asked, โWhy are you going to the city hall?โโTo get married.โโShouldnโt you be going to a church for that? Thereโs supposed to be a priest with a bible that asks if youโre willing to marry this person next to you regardless ofโฆ something?โโThatโs a religious wedding. Besides, it has to be lawful. What weโre doing today is the legal side of things.โ Sophie carried Rachel up from the bed. โDo you want to be a witness to our marriage?โ โYay, sure!โ Rachel immediately beamed and agreed. โI want to be the priest who holds the bibl
Cecilia had no shame at all. I would be speechless if this worked on Zach. After a while, she walked out dejectedly with her flowers. It seemed like she did not even manage to enter his office. She stood there in annoyance for a while before she suddenly looked over in my direction. I could see her, but she might not be able to see me. I was on a high floor, and the sun was blinding. Right then, Hailey gave me a call. I knew that she wanted to rant about Cecilia. Sure enough, Hailey started to complain, โMs. Freeman, Cecilia is really shameless. Iโve never seen such a shameless woman. When Mr. Gordon was cut off from Gordon Corporation, she abandoned him immediately. Now that she knows heโs going to be Gordon Corporationโs acting CEO, she instantly starts visiting him again. I really canโt stand her.โ โHasnโt she always been like this?โ I was unfazed. โFortunately, Mr. Gordon is not willing to see her.โ Hailey sounded relieved. โDo you really think he wonโt see her fo
I looked at Austinโs pale face, and I was at a loss for words. His argument was reasonable, and I had no way to refute it. I was upset, but I could not cry. I felt a heavy feeling in my chest, and I found it hard to breathe. He looked at me and suddenly smiled. โLook at your face. Have I ever said that I liked Sophie? I donโt like girls like her. I prefer girls like you who are smart, beautiful, and decisive. Why donโt you marry me after you give birth to your babies?โI did not want to joke around with him. It was not funny.After that, Lucy exited the bridal shop and got into the backseat of the car. I stood in front of the bridal shop and watched as his car disappeared into the corner. โCassia,โ Sophie called out to me. I turned around. โWhat?โโWhose side are you on? I realize youโve been extra nice to Austin recently. Have you forgotten that heโs a jerk?โโWatch your mouth.โI got into my car unhappily. โIโll make a move first.โโArenโt we having dinner together to
I knew that he was looking at the photos of him and Sophie in her wedding gown. Perhaps this would be the only time in his entire life that he could stand next to Sophie while she was dressed in a wedding gown. I felt the waterworks coming. When I tried to look for tissue papers in my bag, Zach called me. He sounded a bit excited. โCassia, thereโs this person overseas who has the same blood type as Austin. He has ALS, which is a fatal motor neuron disease. His family has already signed an organ donation form for him, and his condition recently worsened. He may pass in a monthโs time, so I got in contact with them. His family has agreed to donate his heart to Austin.โ โReally?โ It was good news, and I almost leaped in joy. I glanced at Austin excitedly. He was staring intently at his phone, so he did not notice me. โDoes Austin have to leave immediately?โโItโs still early. We can leave when the donorโs condition worsens.โ I estimated the time. Zach said that it would ta
Sophie could easily start a fight wherever she went. I immediately went over and saw that Austinโs forehead had turned red. It seemed to be getting swollen. I kicked Sophie in anger. โIs there something wrong with you? What are you doing?โ โWhy did you kick me? Didnโt you hear what he just said?โAustin bent down and picked up Sophieโs phone for her. โLuckily, your phone screen isnโt cracked. Itโs fine if my skull is cracked; it can heal.โ Sophie took her phone, and it immediately unlocked due to face ID. Her wallpaper was a photo of Kingston and her. She had just changed the wallpaper yesterday. It used to be a photo of me and her. Austin was the one who had taken that photo. Even though Austin was not directly in the photo, it felt like it was a photo of the three of us. He must have noticed it. He smiled and said, โIโll make a move. Tell Lucy Iโll be waiting for her in the car.โ Austin walked out of the bridal shop, and Sophie looked dispirited. โI was quite happy, bu
โYouโre getting married too?โโIโll be your best man or maid of honor. What? Youโre too cheap to pay for the outfits?โโYou, my best man?โโLook around you. Are there any single people left?โSophie rolled her eyes. โHah, I wasnโt planning on inviting you.โKingston tried to shake Austinโs hand, but Austin ignored him. Sophie got mad and pulled Kingston away. โDonโt pay attention to him. He thinks heโs too good for anyone. Heโs crazy.โโSophie,โ I warned.โWhat? Heโs always acting crazy!โ she yelled.I was not sure if Austin really wanted to be Sophieโs best man, or if it was just an excuse to come here.Anyway, Austin went to change too. I could not tell the difference between the best manโs and groomโs outfits. However, the difference between the bridesmaid and bride was clear.While Sophie was posing in front of the mirror in her wedding dress, Austin came out of the fitting room.Austin was very thin, and the suit hung loosely on him, but it still looked good.He had a
Sophieโs wedding preparations were progressing quickly. She limped to work in the mornings and dragged me along in the afternoons to buy wedding stuff.I felt like the wedding was just an excuse for her to go shopping.โThis afternoon, Kingston and I are trying on our wedding outfits. You should come too.โโItโs your wedding. Why should I come?โโTo help me choose! I look good in everything, so itโs hard to pick.โโIf itโs that hard, just buy them all. Arenโt you rich?โโWhy are you so grouchy?โ She leaned closer and observed me. โCassia, are your hormones off balance?โโIโm pregnant, so everythingโs a mess right now.โAfter some thought, I called Austin and told him, โSophieโs trying on wedding dresses this afternoon.โโOkay,โ he replied in his usual lifeless tone.โArenโt you going to say anything to her?โโDonโt eat too much. The wedding dress will be a pain to alter.โI was so angry that I hung up. He was so stubborn. I was sure that he would regret it and cry later.M
Austin was the weakest among us when we were kids. He could not climb trees, run, or do anything physically demanding. Instead, he would play board games and puzzles with us.Sophie always thought that he was smart, and she admired him.I never imagined that someone I grew up with might die so soon.โYou should leave,โ he said weakly. โShe should be done by now.โโAustin.โ I wanted to say something more, but he turned his back to me.He did not want to listen, so I had no choice but to leave.As I reached the door, I heard him say, โActually, this is a good thing.โWas he saying that Sophie marrying Kingston was a good thing?What was good about it?I felt like grabbing Sophie over. I wanted to point at the dying man in bed and say, โThis guy loves you more than you know. He helped you test Kingstonโs character. He thinks about you all the time. He comes to see you every night using his half-sister as an excuse, but heโs dying. He doesnโt want you to be sad, so he plans to die
โI just went for a checkup.โ Austin walked over to me. โWhy are you sweating so much?โHe took a handkerchief out of his pocket and gave it to me. Honestly, only Austin would still carry a handkerchief in his condition.I wiped my sweat. โI came with Sophie to get her cast off, and I thought Iโd stop by to see you.โโGet her cast off? I thought that wasnโt until next month?โโShe insisted on getting it off today. The doctor checked, and her bone is healing well, so itโs fine for her to take it off.โโWhen did she start caring so much about her looks?โ Austin walked back to his room, and I followed him.He sat down and seemed a little out of breath. I had already asked the doctor about him. Austin could not engage in any physical activity; he could not even walk fast.I was about to pour him some water, but he waved me off. โDonโt bother. Iโm not thirsty. How could I let you take care of me? I might be a patient, but youโre pregnant.โAt least, he could still joke. If I were him