"Hey, Mallory. Good morning, little one." I feel a warm hand on my shoulder, gently caressing my skin.
"Five more minutes, mom," I murmur, still asleep.
A now familiar rough laughing makes me open my eyes. Recall of the last night's events strikes me.
"Jesus, I'm so sorry!" I sit in the bed and mutter an apology for mistaking Viktor, the God of lust, for my mother.
"Come on, breakfast awaits you."
"Eh? Breakfast?" I look at him, still half asleep. Even in the mornings he looks so sexy. With his tight slacks on and him trying to button up his dark blue shirt. Staring at his perfect torso can easily become my best way of waking up.
"How are you?" he stops the buttoning up and looks at me concerned.
"I'm... alright. What time is it?"
"9 AM. I left you sleep."
"You... you left me sleep?! Oh my God, I'm late for work! Larry will fire me! Jesus!" I jump out of the bed and run panicking around the room, searching for my clothes.
"What is so funny?! Get dressed! You need to drive me back to work!" I shout at Viktor, who is obviously having fun with the fact I'll lose my job. Just perfect.
"Mallory, you have the day off."
"I... why?! Why did you do that?!" I stop startled in my tracks when I hear I have the day off. I was supposed to be first shift.
"I told you, I know Larry. And he owes me a favour."
"No. Why did you do that?!" Now I get angry and with clenched fists I keep raising my voice at him. Bold of me, but this is just ridiculous!
"I thought you won't want to get up at 5 AM to travel to work," Viktor slightly raises his eyebrows in confusion, as to why I'm throwing a tantrum for getting the day off.
Under different circumstances I would've been happy, a day off sounds great, considering how worn out I actually feel, but my absence being excused by me being with Viktor is next level.
"You can't do that!"
"I honestly can't see what's the problem with having a free day of work." Viktor continues to patiently button up his shirt, calm and unbothered by the fact I'm tearing my hairs because of his act of stupidity.
"It's not the day off that is bothering me! It's the fact I have it because of you!"
"Yeah? And I still can't see what's the problem with that." Viktor gets up off the bed and goes to the little hallway and standing in front of the mirror hanging on the bathroom door, he fixes his shirt and I just sit on the small couch next to the bedroom desk and try to cool down.
"You can't do this. You can't use your name or connections for doing whatever you want." I try to sound calm and collected. I stare at the ground, with fingers entangled in my hairs and holding my head. So much for having a great morning.
My remark makes Viktor laugh. That kind of mocking laugh that tells you 'You're mistaken'.
"Little one, I can do whatever I want. Why did I create these connections then?"
"Well, use them for yourself! I don't want to be the city's gossip!"
"And why do you think you will be?" Viktor walks next to me, then squats in front of me and pulls my hands from my hairs and into his big palms. I lift my gaze and meet his, his face so close to mine I feel his steady breathing.
"Because, first, I was seen with you in an obvious sex room, then I was excused from work by you. I don't want to be talked by people. I don't want to be connected with your name in any kind!"
"Why are you working?"
His question surprises me. Why do I work? Why do people work? Because they need money. Not everyone is blessed to be born with the silver spoon in mouth.
"What do you mean by that? I work, because I need the money!"
"Yeah, but what for?"
"Because I'm a grown up that has needs? Not to mention I'm saving for college."
"I have enough money to shower you with lux and cover all of your needs. You don't have to wo--"
"This is out of question!" I slap him and jump out of the couch, towering over Viktor as he's still squat. He looks me straight in the eyes and no matter how intimidated I feel by his gaze, I won't crack up this time. What is he suggesting is disgusting.
"But why? You'll have everything," he gets up placing his palm on the spot I just slapped and fast enough, again I'm the one who's being looked at from higher. He's taller than me and even with heels on, he's still at least four inches taller than me. What a bummer, I'm used to being the tall one with my 5'6 feet height.
"I won't be your whore!" I shoot it and hurry to look away from him, so I just go back to collecting my clothes. I need to get dressed up.
"My whore?! Mallory, this is straight pissing off!" Viktor shouts at me and it startles me. I stop in my tracks for a moment and without looking back at him I ask a question, then go back to putting on my jeans.
"Then what will I be?" I whisper, almost unnoticeable.
I ask shyly, awkwardly. It is exactly what I will be. A cheap whore. A gold-digger. And it'll last for no longer than a few months. I can't even dare to say a year. It'll be until he finds another girl he likes and buys with luxury. Then I'll be kicked out and will lose everything I got used to. And will lose every chance to have the future he would've promised me.
"Mallory, look at me." I feel Viktor a few feet behind me. He walked closer, but in an acceptable distance. But I don't respond to him. I just put on my red blouse and shove it under my jeans.
"Mallory! Look at me, goddammit!"
"Why?! What do you want?! To convince me otherwise?!" I turn back to him and shout. Anger and regret rush through my veins. What did I get myself into?!
"I won't try to convince you otherwise, because what you're saying is big bullshit! All I'm offering you is to have the life you deserve!"
"I know how such stories end! I've read enough books. So please, don't bother. Just drive me back home and don't try to contact me ever again."
"I... Okay. Get ready. I'll wait for you in the car," Viktor sighs defeated and raises his hands in retreat. And thanks God. He breezes past me and leaves the apartment. He gives me one last glance while closing the door and leaves me in peace to get ready.
The adrenaline leaves my body and I start to feel like a complete idiot for getting into this. It feels like I was drunk till now and now that I finally sobered up I realize what a mess I did.
I sit back on the bed and embrace myself with arms, then a tear rolls down on my face. And then another one. A few silent tears make their way out of my eyes. I'm such a fool.
***
"Are you sure?"
"Yes."
"Okay..."
I spent the ride back to Long Beach in complete silence. I glued my eyes to the rear window and didn't peel off a word, although Viktor tried to pick up a talk numerous times. And now we're finally in front of my home, I feel relieved that I'll get away from him.
I leave the car and quietly close its door, then run to the front door of the building and hide from his eyes behind it. I wonder what will my mother's reaction will be once I get home.
I take off my heels so I can sneak in home as quietly as possible. I climb up the stairs to the second floor and search for my keys in the white clutch.
I put the key in the keyhole, but before I can unlock, the door fastly opens and I see my mother standing at the doorstep, her face getting red like tomato.
"Mom?!" I get startled by her. She's squeezing the doorknob and doesn't let me in.
"What do you want?" she hisses and I smell her strong alcoholic breath.
"Um, I'm getting back home?"
"You don't live here anymore," she indifferently says and reaches for the traveling bag thrown on the floor behind her.
"What do you mean I don't leave here?! Let me in!" I try to walk past her, but she stops me by shoving the bag in my hands.
"You're 18. You can take care of yourself." And then she slams the door in my face!
"Mom, let me in! You lost your mind!" I start banging at the door, but she doesn't open it. I try to unlock it, but I can't. She has put her key in the keyhole. She lost her freaking mind.
"Go to your boyfriend, Mallory! You chose him last night!" she hysterically screams behind the door.
"Okay! So be it! But from now on you don't have a daughter!" I shout, hoping that threatening her will scare her.
"I don't have a daughter anyway."
I wipe out the tears from my face, grab the bag and leave. If she thinks I can't survive without her, she's deeply wrong.
"Hey, Jen!" I call Jennifer, hoping I can stay at hers for a day or two. I know my mother will call begging me to come back when she sobers up.
"What's up, girl?"
"Long story short, my mother kicked me out of home. Can I stay at yours?"
"Mm, I don't know. I don't think my parents will agree."
"Come on, can't you ask them?"
"I don't know, Mal. My dad is quite... rigorous."
"Okay, okay. I understand."
And I hang up. Mixed bitter feelings fulfill my body. I'm tired, sad and angry. I've helped her enough times and she rejects me without even trying! So be it.
I can't think of another option than going to work. I'll ask Larry to sleep on one of the couches until my mother reconsiders.
***
"Mal? Didn't you have the day off?" I bump into Tom, who is smoking a cigarette at the staff exit.
"Yeah, is Larry here?"
"Mmm I think so, why?"
"I need to talk to him about something."
Without any further questions, Tom steps aside, freeing the entrance for me. I enter and walk to Larry's office, then take a deep breath and knock on the door.
"Yes?" I hear his muted voice. Here goes nothing.
"Hey boss, it's Mallory. I--"
"Mallory?!" I don't finish my sentence, as Larry interrupts me by wide opening the white door. "Mallory, what are you doing here?!"
"Can I talk to you about something?"
"Come in, come in." Larry gives me access and I enter, then he carefully closes the door. He walks nervously to behind his desk. Something tells me he is not happy to see me, if not even scared by my presence.
"Boss, it's kind of a weird thing to ask for, but can I stay here to sleep for a day or two? My mother kicked me out of home."
I watch his facial expression curve to real surprise. He lifts his eyebrows to an extension I didn't know someone can reach. His anyway wrinkled face covers with even more age marks and his jaw hits the desk by opening it so wide.
"I fear this is not possible, Mallory," he finally opens his mouth and mutters.
"Please! Just for a day or two! Until my mother realises what she did! Please!" I start begging Larry as if my life depends on this. And well, it does. I have no place to stay.
"I'm sorry, Mallory. I can't let you do that."
"But why?! I have no money to rent a hotel room! At least give me some money in advance! Please! I know it's just the beginning of the week, but I need a place to stay. Please!"
"Why don't you ask Viktor? I know he won't reject you."
Mentioning Viktor, Larry awkwardly scratches his half-bald head and I freeze in my place. So this is what's about.
"No, no. Sorry to bother you. I'll manage to find something that will work."
"Mallory..."
But I'm already outside his office. Whatever Viktor did for Larry must be big. You can't imagine the fear I saw flashing in Larry's eyes when mentioning you-know-whose name.
"Mal? Wait, Mal!" Tom runs after me as I storm out of this place. I stop in the middle of the parking and look back at him.
"What?" I cross my arms. I'm humiliated to a breaking point, but I try to look as confident as I can, but it's almost impossible.
"I accidentally heard your talk with Larry--"
"So you eavesdropped?!"
"No. I accidentally heard it."
"Yeah, call it however you like. What do you want? To mock me?"
"N-no, God, no! I wanted to offer you a place to stay."
"Where?" My eyes lit up hearing this. So maybe I do have someone to trust.
"My house."
"What? No. No, no, no!"
So much for giving me some hope. I can't stay at his. There's no particular reason that stops me from doing so. I just feel bad and guilty for almost sleeping with Tom.
"Come on. I told you I'll look after you. Plus, I can't let you sleep on the street. You can stay as long as you want. Mi casa è tua casa."
"Mi casa what?" I doubtfully stare at him. What did he just call me?!
"My house is your house. That's what I said," Tom awkwardly scratches his arm, expecting my answer.
"And in what language?" I arch an eyebrow. The language sounds painfully familiar.
"Italian. I assumed you'll understand me."
"And why is that?" I feel the anger getting over me again. I'm pissed off at myself for getting myself in this big mass of bullshit.
"Because, you know..." Tom coughs, clearing his throat and looks away from me, obviously ashamed of what he said.
"No Tom, I don't know."
"Okay, never mind. Just... forget it. You can stay at mine. I live alone anyway. What will you say? Come on, it'll be fun!"
The last time I heard that I ended almost getting molested, then almost gave my virginity to Tom. I don't know how fun it'll be now or what to expect.
"Okay," I sigh. "But only for a day or two! Until my mother changes her mind!"
"Of course, doll. As long as you want."
I walk to him and he pulls my travelling bag from my hand.
"Come on, I have an hour and my shift will end. I'll make you a coffee."
"I need something stronger than coffee," I sigh.
"I'll make it Irish coffee then," Tom jokes and I finally smile.
"Thank you, Tom. Really."
"It's all my pleasure."
I sit on one of the bar stools and watch Tom doing his job.
Why did I have to mess up with Viktor Russo?
"Good looking and good cooking. Can one be more perfect?" I sit on one of the bar stools and impatiently watch Tom preparing dinner. After I agreed to stay at his, I waited for his shift to end and here are we now. I haven't eaten all day and whatever he cooks smells way too delicious. He, on the other side, turns back to face me and giggles, holding the frying pan and the wooden spatula. The view is a sight for sore eyes. And how I was dumb enough to believe he's not my type? He's pretty much everyone's type. "You know... I'm not that perfect as you say," Tom mumbles and turns back to the stove but I don't complain. The green loose tank top he wears reveals to me enough of his both sides. "You don't see what I'm seeing," I quietly purr, but judging by his awkward coughing, he heard it too. "So... how did our date go?" "Huh?"
"Mallory. My office. Now." Larry hisses as a good morning greeting, angrily trampling the parking. Was he waiting for my arrival?! "What's this about?" Tom gets outside the car and leans on the right door blocking my way out. "None of your concerns, go get ready for work," Larry crosses his arms threateningly. "I won't let her get outside the car until you tell me what's this about." "Listen, you little brat! Go inside and get ready for work before I make you regret your whole existence!" Larry leans closer to Tom and growls. There's no trace of the harmless-looking pervert of an old man I know so far. His whole presence got harsher, ordering, a little scaring. "Should have that scared me?" Tom indifferently asks. "Tom, it's okay. I'll go," I interrupt them and open the door, pushing Tom to step aside. "Are you sure?" Tom lo
"Mallory, you look..." Tom stops and exhales loudly. "That bad?" I ask, unsure if choosing the leather black pants was a good idea at all. "Amazing, irresistible, hot," Tom finishes and scratches the back of his head, looking me up and down while a naughty smirk dances on his lips. "Does it make me look fat?" "Ugh, typical woman," he rolls his eyes. "Why would it make you look fat? In fact, it makes you look... damn," he sighs and checks me out again. "It makes me look..?" I furrow my brows and frown. "Yummy," he says and licks his parted lips. "It points out your curves just perfectly." "Are you sure?" I ask again, still debating whether I should go and change. I always loved this pair of pants. I wear them proudly, after the hell of torture I've been through last summer. Diets, workouts,
"Hard times sleeping?" Viktor's voice startles me and I drop my cigarette. "Why are you up?" I turn back and see his silhouette at the balcony's door. "I woke up and you weren't in the bed," he rubs his eyes and yawns. "Go back to sleep, I'll come in a minute," I reassure him, then get inside and to the kitchen to grab a glass of water. Yes, I have a hard time sleeping. Despite the overly comfortable mattress of Viktor's king-sized bed, I couldn't find the rest to fall asleep. I tossed and turned, snuggled in his arms, got up for water a few times, smoked a cigarette or two on the balcony. It's nearly 3 AM and I'm still up. My own thoughts give me no rest. I beat myself whether this was the right choice. I feel nothing but great whenever I'm with Viktor, but this man still remains a mystery to me. I feel bold and free whenev
It's been almost two weeks now since I sort of moved in with Viktor and things seem to normalise. If you can call ours normal.He's nothing but great with me and I return to him with the same. I tried to close my eyes to our age difference, in the end, he was right. We're both adults and ours is not illegal. Well, maybe not in the moral way of the word but the lawful- it's alright.I promised to learn to accept his jealousness, I found I'm pretty jealous myself. And I learned some general things about him.I learned that he has a sweet tooth, we share the same passion here. I learned that he's actually a great cooker and that he tends to spend money on useless things. I learned that he owns a coin collection and has a playroom. No, not the Fifty shades kind of playroom. A real playroom. With gaming consoles and all that stuff. He said that his parents couldn't afford to buy him games when he was young, so building
"Someone's at the door," I yawn. "God, it's so early.""I heard it. They'll wait a minute or two," Viktor stretches his body, then lazily slips out of the bed."Are we expecting someone?" I ask, a little worried. The last time I heard the doorbell ring so early in the morning was when Larry came to Tom's to put quite the show for the neighbors."No, I don't think so," he says while sneaking inside my favourite part of his wardrobe- a pair of black loose training pants, carelessly hanging on his waist. It makes him look even sexier."Are you going to answer dressed like that?" I cross my arms and protest."What's wrong with it?" he chuckles. "I thought you like this look of mine.""You're shirtless," I point out, "and not that I mind it when you're walking around only in that, but what if a woman is at the door?""Is that jealousy I'm sniffing, Miss Cox?" h
"1732, have fun and don't miss me too much."I read the little note that's left on the nightstand next to my phone along with a credit card and the car keys. I rub my eyes and pout, I feel sadder than I should by the fact I'll be alone for three days. At least I'm back to work, so half of my days will be busy.My morning starts with a cup of aromatic coffee and aimlessly scrolling through all the TV channels- 280 and still nothing there to watch. I do the laundry and prepare myself breakfast, then get Ginger out in the garden to play.Time really do passes boringly slow when you have nothing to do.And not that I am completely unhappy by the fact time seems to has slowed down, if not stopped. As another hour pushes me further into going to work, I start to feel uneasy. What if I see Tomas? Or Larry?Larry, I will see indeed, it's unavoidably and Viktor said he'll make
"What do you mean he quit?""I mean exactly what I'm saying," Jake shrugs."Why would he do that?!" I protest."He didn't give me a reason, he just left.""This is ridiculous!" I cut confused.It's Thursday now and Viktor hasn't come back yet. On top of all our other barman, Jake, informs me that the girl I saw behind the bar earlier is Tom's replacement, because I quote 'he just quit'. Disappeared into thin air. Poof, begone. Overnight. Without telling a thing to anyone. Even Larry doesn't know. All he knows is that something made Tomas leave. Not only his job but the city as well.Calling him is useless. His phone is switched off. It's like he was abducted by aliens. How does one disappear with no trace? He never even hinted of doing so. He has packed all of his clothes. And besides his clothes and car, everything else is where he exactly left it. Lar
This is the worst graduation ceremony you could ever see. Not because of the ceremony itself but because of me. I feel dead. Viktor is in jail. It's the reality, it wasn't a nightmare. I really hoped for it to be a bad dream. I hoped that I fell asleep while watching horrors and my brain played such unbelievable scenarios, but no. It's real. It's late May now and the weather is warm. Why do I feel so cold then? I barely slept and cried a lot last night, maybe that's the reason. Our school hosts a big and fancy graduation ceremony. There are togas, awards and diplomas. Lucy's boyfriend, Gideon is awarded 'best football player', the ultimate teacher's pet is awarded 'smartest student', Lucy is graduated 'most artistic student' and the list of awards goes on and on. And no, I'm not awarded shit. And I couldn't care less. I keep my nose stuck in my phone. Viktor's arrest and the exposure of
"What do you mean you have to leave?!""It means that I have to leave," Viktor nonchalantly shrugs as he pushes another shirt in his travel bag. "Hopefully, for a few days. A week the most.""But... You can't! You will miss my graduation ceremony!" I complain."I'm sorry, little one. I can't miss this deal," he says without even looking at me. He just keeps stuffing his travel bag with clothes. "I didn't want to tell you earlier. I got the call the other day, when was your Prom night. I didn't want to ruin your mood.""But that was two days ago! Why are you telling me the last moment?!" I throw myself sitting on the edge of the bed and cross my arms angry and confused. "Why didn't you tell me yesterday?!""I told you, I didn't want to ruin your mood," he says as he pulls the zipper of the bag."And you thought telling me an hour before your departure is the r
"This one really does looks good on you!""I like the first one better.""No one is asking you.""Can you two just shut up?" I scoff. "You are bickering like kids."So, as you probably guessed I'm together with Lucy and Viktor and we are picking a gown for the Prom night. It would have been funny if it wasn't annoying. The theme this year is "Spring magic" and I narrowed the options to three and truth be told, I am with Viktor in this.The first dress I tried and he liked is in gentle mint green. It has a deep V neck and open back, really high slash and is high split with the upper part being covered in rhinestones. It's truly beautiful and really sexy. I love how it suits me.The one Lucy liked is a princess type of big, in gentle pink, with open back and again is covered with rhinestones. I like it too, but I feel a little like a cake.
Have you ever wanted to have the ability to stop time? As the inevitability comes closer to becoming the bitter reality, have you ever wanted to be able to stop time? Yes? That's exactly how I feel.It's late March already. Spring is settling in, life seems to have awakened from the winter sleep. It's warmer, calmer, prettier. Nature's beauty is revived. Why don't I feel any calmer then?Viktor came to peace with the fact I'm not willing to give up on Berkeley. Or at least he pretends to have accepted it. He has, maybe, but I am not. I gave up on the hope of him following me to there. First, he promised to try everything possible to be with me but then he just defeatedly admitted that he will miss me.At first, his confession made me feel somehow loved by him. It melted me like butter. I liked his confession at first, but now... Now realisation has finally struck me. He has given up. He will not follow me to Berkel
"So? How did it go?""Uh?""The tour around the university. How did it go?""Oh... it was good. Yeah, it was good."After I drive for another six hours back to Long Beach, I come home to find Viktor carelessly lying on the couch in the living room and watching something on the TV. The moment I step a foot through the door I feel some sort of tension. Actually, I feel it since the other day on our way back from the vacation.We haven't talked about my choice of a university since then but there seem to be unspoken things that fuel this awkward tension between us."Did you do what you had to do?" I ask as I sit on one of the small stools in front of him, just wanting to start some sort of a dialogue. Have you ever felt so awkward around someone that you just feel the need to say something? That's how awkward I feel for a few days now."Hm?"
It's such a pity we have to leave already. I fell in love with this small neat town, its friendly people and beautiful landscape. Originally, we were supposed to stay for four nights but the weather was in my personal favour. It was heavily snowing during the last night of our stay, so instead of leaving on Wednesday morning, we leave on Thursday. I can't say I'm disappointed, a whole day being in complete privacy at a mountain cabin with Viktor only, is far from being a reason to complain. At first, Viktor was a little moody for having to stay closed in one place for over 24 hours but I know how to fastly turn that frown upside down. If you catch my drift. Anyways, this was just the perfect vacation and I will gladly accept people calling me names for being with Viktor if that means I will visit more such incredible places. "Do you want me to drive?" I offer my d
"Come on! One more! Right here!" "Ugh, fiiine." Our first day here flew away in doing nothing. We ate, warmed each other in bed and rested. Six hours are tiring, no matter if you are on the driver's or the passenger's side. For our second day here we decided to make the best out of it. We decided to go on a walk through the town and I want to take photos of the whole place. I pose next to big live and beautifully decorated Christmas trees, I take a few selfies with Viktor with the downtown's decor as a background. I take a lot of photos. Memories might stay forever but I want to secure myself and have photos. "Tell me we are staying for at least a week!" I bounce joyfully in front of Viktor on our way to one of the few small restaurants in the town. "We can stay for as long as you want," he chuckles. "How about a month?" I giggle.
I have never been the angel everyone thinks I am. I have never pretended to be one, I don't know why people think so highly of me. Is it because of my looks? People say I have an innocent and handsome face.I took the silver eyes from my mother. And thanks god, because my father has the most basic brown eyes you can ever see.Those eyes have seen much. Maybe too much. They have shown me pain and happiness, they have shown me naked bodies and pretty faces. They have shown me love and disappointment. They have shown me much.And that ash-blonde hair, I got it from my mom again. Messy untameable locks that felt the entangling fingers of enough girls.I don't pretend to be a player. No. I was something much worse.I got much from my mother. But I wish I got her courage to leave. I wish I got it sooner.I was born and raised in what I thought was a happy fam
"Wake up, little one.""Huh?!""Come on, wake up," Viktor's long fingers gently brush my hairs."But why?" I complain still asleep then roll to the other side."We need to leave," I hear him chuckling then."Uh? Why?""I promised you snow for Christmas, didn't I? Come on, get up. It's a long drive.""But... it's 5:30 AM for god's sake," I cry out as I check my phone."Yes, exactly. And it's almost six hours drive. Come on," Viktor laughs and pulls me out of the bed. "Come on, get prepared. I packed you warm clothes already, all you need to do is simply get up and get ready."I groan and complain, I curse and cry at the fact I was awakened so early. I have never been the morning type but never had problems with waking up early when I have to either. Never had problems with it but when i