So, Olivia decided she wants to be a help and listening ear to young girls and boys who are to the age of dating. So, she began to let people tell her their stories.
I first met Jack *at a BBQ dinner during my college’s Freshman Orientation.
He was cracking jokes and making everyone laugh. He seemed like such a fun guy. He was also a Christian—the perfect package.Within a month we were dating. I was flattered that Jack wanted to pursue me and excited about the way he showered me with affection.He would send me flowers. He’d also buy me cards and write Scripture mixed with professions of his love for me.I wanted to believe he was really sincere. So I blinded myself to how he was slowly changing.When we first started dating he loved everything about me—the way I dressed, my laugh, my relationship with God, the way I interacted with my girlfriends. But it wasn’t long before he started to pick on small things.One day he decided he didn’t like my roommate.The Search for Healing.Eight months later I found myself standing in a crowded court room.I had been told that going through the legal process would feel like being raped a second time, but actually it was worse.Even after sharing every intimate detail of the rape, Jack was still found not guilty—insufficient evidence. Case closed.After that I fell into a deep depression. The college I attended said Jack would be allowed to register for classes. Innocent until proven guilty.In the months that followed, Jack stalked me. He followed me to my classes, to the cafeteria, to my dorm.The helplessness I had felt during the rape was now multiplying, as I felt more and more helpless on campus.Finally I reached a breaking point and started contemplating suicide.Around that time I attended a chapel service on campus.A man named Stephen Arterburn was scheduled to speak. I expected him to talk about some recent missions trip or sha
That night I couldn’t go to sleep. As I thought about what Mark had said, I let my pain and anger surface. Tears finally came, followed by sleep.For the next few weeks, I went through 8 to 12 hours of therapy a day—sometimes in group sessions, sometimes individually.It was really hard—hard to face my fears, hard to let all my emotions out. But through the process God brought a lot of healing...[ The Necessity of Forgiveness ].When I came home from the clinic, memories of the rape haunted me day and night.Feelings of being trapped would grip me when I’d least expect it.It took me a while to realize that if I wanted to move on in the healing process, I would have to forgive Jack.If I didn’t let go of my bitterness, it would destroy me. So I chose to forgive, but I soon learned it would be an ongoing process.One night I needed to use a restroom at a grocery store. It was in a very obscure pl
Hey mum, I'm going to go now! I'll see you at around 11 tonight, okay?' I said as I opened the front door. Tonight was going to bea really fun night, I was going to meet up with some mates at a party.'Alrighty, have fun and stay safe,' my mother called out to me and gave me a hug goodbye.Once I got to the party and said hello to everyone I decided to have a drink. After a while I felt dizzy and thought it was best to drink some water.I heard that if you drink water after you've had some alcohol, the effects of the alcohol will slowly wear off.*A few hours later*'Oh my gosh, I'm so DRUNK!' My friend screamed as she held another shot up and quickly drank it.'Hey, I better get going, See you tomorrow, Beth!' I called to her. It was getting late and I didn't want to worry my mum.'Oh come on! Stay for a little bit? Or atleast let me drive you
I awoke the next day, my head spun even more then ever and there was a little bit of dried blood that stained my face from the hits I recieved from James previously.'Good morning,' He smiled down at me, I looked across, he was sitting in bed next to me.I remained silent, what was I to say? Today was the day he would take away all of my dignity.He rasied his hand to my face, I cringed and backed away from his hand.'Relax, I'm not going to hurt you,' he said and placed his cold hand on my sore face.'Don't, it hurts,' I sobbed.'I'm sorry, I don't like to hit women, but sometimes I get a little ..angry.' James sighed.'I've noticed,' I replied.He then got out of bed and grabbed a black blindfold and sat next to me again. He stretched the elastic at the back and put the blindfold over my eyes.'What the hell!' I said and pushed hi
All I could hear was the loud pitter-patter that the shower made, I closed my eyes as I counted to 10and wished that all the pain would go away, and that somehow I would maybe wake up and be somewhere else, by myself, and regain my sanity.I didn't want to open my eyes and see him standing there, staring down at me like an object, but I couldn't sit here forever, I slowly opened my tired eyes and saw that he was gone, probaly waiting for me outside.All the blood was nearly gone, washed away. Yet the pain still remained.'Ahh.. fuck,' I groaned in pain as I stood up.I reached for the tap and turned the shower off, grabbing a clean white towel with pretty blue lace and wrapped it around myself.What should I do? Here I am in some strangers bathroom, torn between facing my fears and dealing with James, or hiding in here,like the poor little broken girl I have become.The
I woke up and found that I was alone, the drugs have finally worn off and I gained my movement.I was still in that lounge room sort of place and looked around for James, where was he?'Hello, you,' he winked and then sat beside me.'Hi,' I sighed and looked down at my naked and abused body, I was so disqusting.. I once was a beautiful and confident girl, now I'm nothing.'It's 9 o clock, get up and make me breakfast,' He said while pushing me off the couch.'No! Make your own damn breakfast, smartass,' I snapped.'Just do it, Ally,' He said and gave me a look that sent shivers all down my body.I got onto my feet and pulled some clothes on, they were the same old clothes still.. They started to look old and sort of dirty, once again I sighed.'If you behave then maybe I'll buy you some clothes today?' He suggested. it was a bribe. Fuck him.
After I was forced to give him head, all I did was stay there on the ground.I started crying more, I placed my two hands over my face and sobbed.'I.. want.. to.. go.. home!' I barely managed to choke out over my cries.'Aww, Ally, no need to cry.. I know I've been a little harsh on you lately.. How about I let you go outside for a couple of minuets so you can get some fresh air?' He suggested and reached out to my hand. I grabbed his hand and he tugged me up, giving me a hug.I was a mess, I didn't want to fight because I knew it would result in more pain for me.. Yet if I gave in I would be seen as 'weak''No, take me home, please! I'll give you anything.. Money, clothes, food?' I begged.He wrapped his arms tighter around me so my face was resting on his chest, it felt so warm.'Al, you live here now.. I've already told you that! I'll give you everything as long as yo
I opened my eyes, there in front of me was the one person on this Earth I wanted to see the least. James.'I .. I'm so..' I stuttered.'Sorry? Fuck off, I already warned you about running off, you're going to regret this,' he replied and grabbed me. He hung me over his shoulder as he walked back to his house.The walk took ages, I must of ran really far away.. I wonder how he found me?'You're so stupid, there is NO way you'll EVER get away, you hear me?' he asked and gripped me harder.'Don't hurt me, I won't do it again.. I promise!' I begged and started to cry.The tears ran down my cheeks, soking his shirt. I gave up, I wanted to die.. There was no way for me to get away from this.. I'd have to live through this for the rest of my life.Once we reached the house, he kicked the door open with his foot. It was obvious he was furious.'
I felt as if I was being torn apart, his member even larger than I had thought and I cried out in pain, thrashing underneath him. The agony forced a surge of adrenaline through my body and I did everything I could to try and stop him. My legs kicked his, my arms wrestling to get free of his tight grip, my teeth bared to bite any part of him if I got the chance, anything to try and cause him the pain that he was causing me, as well as trying to stop him. But nothing helped. He had managed to pin me down in a way so that I wasn’t able to hurt him, making me helpless.“How does it feel to finally be a woman?” He hissed, pulling out and slamming into me again, making my back arch and my body tense in pain. “How does it feel to be MINE!” Another thrust and another scream of pain from me but I forced myself to fight through the pain.“No matter...what you do...I will NEVER...NEVER...be yours!” I cried between each laboured breath, my
My eyes flew open with a start as a scream erupted from my lips. I was breathing heavily, my mind reeling from what had just happened, or what I had dreamed...was it a dream? I hesitantly looked to the side and saw that the bed was empty apart from me, and I began to think that it was all just some horrible dream and he hadn’t actually taken me. But that hope was torn away from me when I shifted slightly, the soft sheets caressing my bare skin and I realised that I was naked.Tears started to fall when the fact that Zach had taken my virginity hit me; ripping away the only sense of pride I had left. I knew that he was cruel after the things that he had done to me, but a part of me had never believed that he would actually go all the way. He was harsh and unforgiving, but I thought that I had seen glimpses of a softer side of him that had kept me save. Obviously I had read him wrong; desperate to find the good in someone who was the spawn on Satan.I blinked and f
As soon as our lips touched, his anger hit me like l had run into a brick wall. It was so intense that I wanted to break away from him but I knew that he wasn't going to let me. I had been the one to kiss him and now I had to go through with it even if I regretted my actions, which I did. After a millisecond of our lips touching I realised what a big mistake I had made because he was going to take this a lot further than kissing, that was for sure.He responded instantly, kissing me roughly and harshly, channelling his rage into it so I did the same, making sure he felt every ounce of anger that I felt towards him. His hands let go of my wrists and they moved lower, gripping my waist tightly to the point where it started to hurt pretty badly. I was pressed right up against the wall and, using his body, he pushed me upwards, not once breaking the kiss. I struggled to get onto my feet but he left me no choice but to stand otherwise I’d be leaning on him for support and I
I wasn't sure exactly how long I sat in the empty bathtub for. The droplets of water clinging to my skin were making me shiver but I felt too humiliated to even move. What gave him the right to do that to me and act like it was nothing? He had taken away so much from me; my first kiss, my first touch, it wasn't going to be long until he forced me to go all the way. I wanted my first time to be special, but now, thanks to him, I was going to lose my virginity by rape.The turn of the door handle brought me out of my thoughts and I tensed up, waiting to be met by Zach's anger. But instead, it was Arran who came through the door, giving me a sad smile when he saw me. I bit my lip, embarrassed that I was naked and vulnerable, although I was quite certain that he wasn't going to hurt me.He grabbed a large and fluffy towel from the radiator, opening it out for me to step into. I hesitated, knowing that when I stood up he was going to be able to see everything, but I ended u
The sound of rain was the first thing I heard when darkness finally released me from its clutches. It was quite soothing in a way, calming me down for a few minutes whilst my mind woke up. I felt like someone had drugged me because my body felt like lead, meaning that it was a struggle to even open my eyes. I was in pain and very sore from the events last night and it was painful to even think about what I had done. I shuddered as I attempted to get up, but the sudden change in pressure on my injured back made me lie still as it increased the pain.Sighing, I settled down into the position I woke up in, hoping that the pain would lessen soon. My eyelids were heavy and difficult to lift up even when I put all my energy into attempting to open them, but it was no use. Even though I wasn’t tied to the bed and I was able to move freely, I was still trapped because I was too sore to move.My mind casted back to yesterday, wincing when the picture of me pleasuring him
He stared at me for a minute, as if he didn’t believe that I had actually accepted his offer. I couldn’t believe what I’d done either, but I didn’t want to die at sixteen years of age. I had plans for the future and I wasn’t going to let this bastard ruin them for me. I knew that I was betraying myself for willingly giving him my body for a rather long period of time, but it was either this or death I wasn’t keen on the latter.“No need to bully yourself, you know,” he said and I looked up at him, having no idea what he was talking about. “Every girl I have had accepted their fate sooner or later and you will not be the mark on my clean record. I assure you I will break you.” My hatred for him grew and it radiated off of my skin loud and clear without me having to speak.“I am stronger than you give me credit for. The only reason I’m doing this is so I don’t get killed so quickly. I want to g
I quickly turned around, my eyes straining to see if I was able to make out his outline by the door. But as he'd turned the lights off I was just looking into darkness, hating the fact that he could see me but I couldn't see him. He had a thing about switching lights off obviously, but I didn't think it was because he wanted to keep the cost of his electricity bill down. "Turn the lights back on," I demanded, knowing I was wasting my breath and him chuckling was conformation of him ignoring me. "And why would I do that? I can see perfectly well." I rolled my eyes, my fists clenching at my sides as it took everything I had in me to not attempt to murder him. "Just because you have weird vision where you can see in complete darkness doesn't mean everyone else does. Unlike you, I'm normal." Footsteps approached me slowly and as much as I tried to back away from him, I soon slammed into a wall, trapping me and I felt him take a step into my personal bubbl
I couldn’t even begin to describe how much my body ached when my mind finally awoke. It was like my insides had turned into stone, weighing me down. My muscles were aching and I could barely move; even my eyelids felt too heavy to open. When I started to wrap my head around the events that occurred in the office I heard murmurs coming from somewhere near to where I was lying. They were in the same room as me, wherever I was, so I strained my ears to see if I could hear what was being said.“-calm down. She’s not been here long and she just doesn’t know the rules yet.” Since the male voice seemed to be sticking up for me I assumed it was Arran because he was the only person I’d met who hadn’t treated me badly yet. He seemed to be watching out for me which I was glad about because I needed to be able to talk to someone who wasn’t going to beat me for no apparent reason.“Well I’ve not had a slave like her before
I opened the door and looked around, not able to believe how big the room was. I bet my whole house could have fit in his office. Ok, maybe a slight exaggeration but my living room and kitchen would have been able to it in it at least,which seemed ridiculous. Who needed such a large office? What did he even do for a living apart from illegally buying girls for their own personal needs? I scanned the place but I couldn't see Zach at all, even though I just heard his voice when he was outside. So where was he?"I would ask you if you like my office, but I wouldn't want you to punch the wall and hurt your other hand. You'd be no use to me whatsoever if that happened," his voice rang out and I scanned the room, searching for him."Maybe I should injure my other hand, because if I'm no use to you, you'll either kill me or set me free, so I don't see a bad side to this plan." He chuckled and a blur shot in front of me before disappearing and I assumed it was him trying to pl