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2022-04-26 17:03:41Gelo and I returned to the venue. At exactly one o'clock in the afternoon, the list of the auditionees who made it to the top twenty would be announced. We still have fifteen minutes to spare, so I decided to go to the bathroom to pee.
I left Gelo with my org mates and made my way to the nearest bathroom. After that, I exited the girl's restroom only to be greeted by Rupert. He was leaning on the wall beside the restroom, arms crossed over his shoulders, and seemed like waiting for someone.
What was he doing here?
My forehead furrowed. Obviously, he's waiting for someone... But who?
I looked inside the restroom again but no one else was there. So, I stood in front of him to ask him but I was shocked at the next thin
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