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2024-04-16 12:44:11Elaine
I looked at him and studied his features. He was chiseled, and hisHis neatly styled dark hair framed his face and enhanced his rugged charm. With a defined jawline and commanding stature, he was far from the boy next door image I remembered him to be. Yet, despite that five years had passed, he still retained the same magnetic presence that had captivated me during our younger days.
However, his undeniable handsomeness struck me. Yet, cold and piercing blue eyes sent a shiver down my spine and hinted at a depth of intensity I hadn't fully comprehended before. Despite that, I still felt an inexplicable pull towards him. Sudden panic filled me; my infatuation with him was still present deep within me.
“Don’t just sit there! Help me get changed!” he commanded, jolting me out of my delusion and making me grit my teeth. So I hadn’t just been a wife he ignored. I’d been a wife he was also treated like a slave.
“Well? What are you waiting for? Go get me some —”
“Why don’t you just do it yourself?” I snapped. “It's not hard to open your dresser and change.”
His eyes widened. It seemed he wasn’t used to hearing me object to his demands. But it was different now. I wasn’t about to let him abuse me again like he had, apparently, done in the past.
He huffed and grabbed a shirt himself. I smiled to myself and relished the small victory. He scrutinized me for a moment, then broke the silence. “Go with me to the party tonight. I know you're upset about Megan, so I decided to bring you instead of her. Just don’t make another scene.”
Maybe the moon goddess had made me forget my time with Tristan as a way of saving me from my misery? She may have been tired of seeing me cry and wail in pain. So maybe forgetting was more of a blessing than a curse? At the very least, Tristan no longer had the hold on me that Liz had told me about, and I wouldn’t let him control me like he used to. It was different now. Because now, I would no longer sit idly or cry all day under his abuse. Starting today, I would fight for myself, and that's what I would do starting today.
I went to leave the room, but Tristan grabbed my arm and pinned me to the wall.
“What are you doing?” I asked, trying to hide my nervousness by staring steadily into his eyes.
Tristan smirked and then leaned in to kiss me!
Oh, hell no! I wouldn’t let him!
“Get off of me!” I shouted, pushing him as hard as I could. Tristan looked surprised, and the next moment, I saw him glaring at me.
Surprise passed over his face before it morphed into a glare. “What’s your problem?” he asked, annoyed.
I looked at him dangerously. “You're not going to kiss me, huh? I won’t let you touch me ever again! Ever!”
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The omega nodded and rushed to fulfill my demands. At this point, Megan chose to resort to pathetic tactics. She began to cry with obviously fake tears. I kind of expected that Megan would pull such cards from under her sleeve so it didn’t surprised me at all. “I came here with good intentions. I don’t know what the Luna was trying to say.”Tristan held her back and tried to comfort her. meanwhile , I continued with my attacks.“You came here to mock me. I’m not as dumb as you think, Megan. Just wait for a moment until that maid brings out the truth. I’m sure your mask will fall off your face.”Megan panicked and raised her voice.“There are no cameras at the pool. So, please stop and don’t try to smear me.”My anger flared up once again, making my breaths shallow and quick. I felt the urge to yell at her immediately, but Tristan stepped in, grabbing Megan's arms and pulling her away.“Rest for tonight, Megan. Your body and mind need that after what happened.”Megan put on that fake
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