Natalie gaped at me, stunned.
The fact that she hadn’t immediately snapped me down gave me courage and I stepped closer to her, staring into her eyes, pleading with her to see me. To really see me.
I took her hand from where it rested at her side and she turned her head to look down at where I touched her, following the trajectory of our clasped hands as I brought her sweet fingers up to my chest and pressed it there, right at the center. Her eyes got wider, then snapped up to meet mine again.
“Feel that?” I murmured, embarrassed by how my heart pounded. How my hands were trembling. But that was the truth of the effect she had on me. “For three years it’s been beating for you, Natalie. My heart speeds up every time you walk in the ro
If you like music while you read, try “Never Let Her Go (Reinvented)” by Project Vela. It speaks Mack’s heart very clearly in this chapter!*****~ MACK ~I slept in the next morning because it had been the small hours of the morning before I’d been able to sleep. I’d spent the whole night wracked with guilt and self-loathing, anger and injustice and… just weary. The wrong kind of weary. Bone-weary and with nowhere left to fight.She was right. I hated it, but she was right. I’d been not-even-eighteen years old and somehow in my mind I’d decided that finding other females, getting them to smile, getting them to give their bodies to me would make me feel better.Three years later and I couldn
~ NATALIE ~It had been a relief at first to hear the door close behind him, to know I was finally alone and didn’t have to hold myself ready for his appearance. I’d spent the entire morning trying to act normal, but fleeing his presence whenever it appeared.Exhausted, after a night staring at the ceiling and hating life, I fell into bed and slept at last.But when I woke three or four hours later and the house was still empty, a tick of apprehension started in my chest.Where was he? What was he doing? Had he disturbed Rig and Cara?Fuck, was he telling them what I’d said?Cara wouldn’t like that.I
~ NATALIE ~Laying on my bed later, staring at the ceiling with which I’d become far too familiar the night before, I couldn’t stop seeing that dead look in his eyes when he’d said he was fine. I couldn’t stop hearing that flat, emotionless tone in his voice.Mack was hard. Mack was fiery. Mack was arrogant.He was never… empty.The night before I’d been angry. Nervous. Frustrated. I’d hated that he’d just thrown himself into this plan without talking to me about it, and that it put him in danger. I’d hated that he’d made such sweeping declarations about me and us when he’d never shown an ounce of that kind of devotion before.I hated that deep down I was w
~ MACK ~I heard the front door close and closed my eyes. I was sprawled on top of my bed, still dressed, just staring at the ceiling.Part of me felt relieved to know she wasn’t just two doors away. That her scent would fade instead of strengthen. But my skin itched with the urge to go after her.I rolled onto my side and looked at the trees outside the window because I hadn’t closed the blinds. Even when I came back, pushing every thought and feeling down to my toes and growling at them to stay there, even when she’d talked to me, been worried… she still hadn’t come for me. Still wasn’t ready to give in.I was beginning to think it might actually kill me to be here in this house with her for a week and unable to touch her.
~ RIG ~I didn’t sleep much, but apart from eyes that felt gritty when I opened them to the morning sun, I was fine.Cara woke at the same time, but after a slow sigh, she sat bolt upright, eyes wide and staring at me, her hand braced on my chest.“That… what happened? Last night? Was that a dream?!” she hissed.I shook my head and smiled at her, rubbing her arm. “No dream, babe. But don’t worry. You’re fine. We’re fine.”“Fine? Fine, Rig? Really? I grew claws.”And a tail, but I didn’t think she needed to hear that just now. “The good news is, it s
~ CARA ~ Rig’s breath sucked in below me, and I giggled, letting myself go so I dropped because I knew that I had just the right angle to catch the next branch down if I just turned my body slightly… “Cara, for fuck’s sake, you’re going to give me a heart attack.” I laughed and continued on my path down the tree while Rig growled and paced below. He was strong. He could climb the trees too—like a gymnast. But it was all sheer power. He couldn’t jump the way I could. His body didn’t… bend like mine. We’d tried racing and it turned out I was faster off the mark—shooting ahead and keeping my lead for a while. But when I
~ CARA ~Rig leaped on me with a playful growl, straddling my legs, his large hands pinning me down to the blankets, his breath hot on my neck again, then disappearing as he curled himself up and for a moment I just stayed there as he kissed his way up from the base of my spine, his hands stroking and kneading all over my body, desperate, but leashed.I could feel the fight in him, the need warring with his desire to take care of me, and while I loved that he wanted to be careful with my heart, I hated that he felt like he couldn’t really let go.Then his kisses reached my neck and I sighed happily, bending my head forward to pressing into the warmth of his lips and tongue.He gave a little growl and nipped at the sensitive skin there.
~ NATALIE ~I don’t even know what time it was when I finally dragged myself back to the house, except that it was broad daylight, and I’d been gone several hours. The sun had risen hours earlier and now the sky glowed. The trees were still draped in mist and fog, but it had a magical quality with the sunlight shining through it.I should have been inspired by that. I should have smiled and enjoyed the incredible view, the quiet, and the safety of this place.But I was hungry, tired, and utterly miserable.I’d tried to flee my feelings. Tried to run away from the pressure building in my chest. At some point in the dark, I’d gotten it into my head that if I ran out all my energy and exhausted my body I’d be able to ignore… well, everyth
~ RIG ~ I let my upper lip curl up and bare my teeth. Let him see that he was dealing with a helluva lot more than a spoiled rich kid. His instincts were dulled by humanity and alcohol, but even his dimwitted senses caught the flash of my teeth. He stiffened. I smiled. “My wife wants to share her wedding with her Mom—we eloped, but we’ve just watched some friends getting married and it’s making her think about what we missed, so we’re going to do it properly. Make another memory. And Cara wants to share that with her mom. So, we’re going to renew our vows in front of everyone we care about. Which, sadly, includes you.” He smiled and I wanted to bite his face off. “You are invited,” I growled. “But you
SOUNDTRACK: “Your Daughter” by Chase McDaniel. ***** ~ RIG (Three weeks later) ~ Getting out of my jeep in the driveway of the house that was the site of Cara’s torture turned my stomach. My Alpha power—still difficult to contain at times, making me itchy and prone to aggression—surged as I took in the cracked cement with weeds and grass growing up, the overgrown flower beds now little jungles of three foot weeds, and the grass that was thin and patchy, and mostly dead. This was the place that her fucking father had made her believe no one could love her. This was the place she’d been hurt. This was the place I wanted to burn to the fucking ground. But for today, at least, that wasn’t the assig
SOUNDTRACK: “Unbearable” by Nathan Wagner. ***** ~ CHARLIE ~ Watching Mack salivate over Natalie as she walked up the aisle was a very specific kind of torment. Because even though I was supposed to be watching our friends publicly vow themselves, my eyes kept drifting back to Meg who, alongside Cara and Tessa, was standing with Natalie today. She looked… stunning. Natalie, always with the impeccable taste that I didn’t understand, but could fully appreciate, had draped all the girls in floor-length, light-green, figure-hugging-but-not-clinging dresses that revealed flesh without being suggestive. It was fucking torture.
~ MACK ~ When Natalie and Cara finally reached us on the stage, I knew that there was an exchange with the officiant. Cara and Rig said something, but I didn’t hear it. I just took Natalie’s hands and pulled her up to stand in front of me. I was aware of people speaking after that. The officiant—a wolf who’d been among the rebels, whose aunt was human, and had become ordained—spoke for a few minutes about marriage and what it meant, but all I could think about was the deep pools of her eyes, that hollow in her throat that she’d offered me the night before last, and how my entire blood hummed with love and desire and— There was a ripple of laughter. “Oh, what?” I asked. Someone had asked me something. Oh, right. “I do!”
SOUNDTRACK: “Don’t Give Up on Me” by Andy Grammar ***** ~ MACK ~ I had been shitting myself. Absolutely, one hundred percent, about-to-claw-my-own-hair-off, crapping my pants. When Cara told me about the human traditions around a wedding, and what she was planning to do with Rig for their vow renewal—which included not seeing or sleeping with each other the day before the ceremony, which sounded crazy—I’d joked with Natalie that we should do that too. I’d thought it would be cute and maybe increase anticipation for when we did come back together after the ceremony. I hadn’t banked on my mate getting cold feet about doing this in front of the packs, and how her nerves would kick my insecurities into gear—and that the whole damn thing would b
SOUNDTRACK: “Break Your Fall” by UNSECRET and Marc Scibilia. ***** ~ NATALIE ~ “This is stupid and… and indulgent and it doesn’t matter! I should never have agreed to this. It’s nothing but a dumb, human tradition and… it means nothing. I’m not doing it.” I stood in the bedroom that we’d made into a bridal suite—complete with three-way mirror—and folded my arms. I’d been staring at myself and all I could see were the imperfections. Tessa had done a beautiful job on my make up, but everything else just felt… sticky. My dress was a touch too tight around my breasts. There were too many people here and they were all going to be staring. I could feel Mack out there panting with nerves, but what if he didn’t like the dress? I should have shown it to him! Why had I let Cara talk me into all this traditional nonsense? “Natalie, you get your gorgeous ass out there and marry that man before he sweats through his Armani suit,” Cara growled. “Seriously, don’t make me turn it into an orde
~ RIG ~I started towards her, but was halted almost immediately as I watched in awe while my mate carved through lines of wolves as if they were butter.Claws, teeth, whirling body—despite her bulk, she moved like liquid, tail lashing and claws like wicked hooks designed to tear through fur and flesh.I shook and trembled because my father’s power was shifting to me and my veins were boiling with it—while the rest of me simmered in the rising rage and terror of the wolves around us.The transfer of Alpha should have been peaceful. There was an established hierarchy waiting, swelling with the newfound power. But my father was a liar and cheat, and he’d encouraged his wolves towards the same.The hierarchy, the elders, his advisors, every pack and family of power rolled towards us, howling in rage and fear.And my wolves, newly risen and brimming with the triumph of victory and the added confidence of success, tore right back to meet them.Mack, Charlie, Jack, and Natalie tore for me,
SOUNDTRACK: “Legendz” by AG and Devvon Terrell ***** ~ RIG ~ Everything slowed to a crawl, time seemed almost not to move at all as I watched my father go for my mate and I turned, twisting, pushing my body in ways I never had, panic screaming in my head, frantic to reach him before he got her. I couldn’t move fast enough. He was going to land at her feet before I did and his power would carry him right to her throat. She wasn’t equipped for this… It all washed through me in that second—the rage for what he’d done, the fury about his injustices, the anger that he would still cheat, even before the witnesses, and the shocking weight of grief because that was my mate. But then the second wave arrived that left me desperate, panicked, humiliated and hating myself. If she died right now it was my fault. My side screamed in pain as I launched myself after him, but my father seemed to hang in mid-air. I had time to see Cara bare her teeth and crouch. Everything moved so slowly I could
~ RIG ~My father saw the opening he’d been waiting for, gathered himself on his haunches and launched at me, the light of victory in his eyes.Instinctively, I didn’t even try to meet the attack, just leaped straight into the air in an attempt to deflect, dropping my chin, trying to hide my throat as my father snaked in—and to my horror, he would have taken me, except that was the moment Stephen howled in the link, then sent images to us both:Himself. Head bowed. Shoulders rolled forward. His human form submitted.To me.It was a boom of thunder right over my head. In any context, the submission of an Alpha brought al