I look up with a small smile and turn sideways to see that half the serum in it has disappeared into my body. I had to stop doubting his affections for me and start appreciating the efforts he was putting in to demonstrate his true self and feelings for me.“What happened between you and the dancer. It's Jonathan, isn't it?” Hunter questions, his eyebrows getting all furrowed, clearly displeased with the very thought of me and Jonathan going out.I give him a wary look. “How do you know so much about this?”“These questions are mine now.” He dictates firmly.I shoot him a glare but answer regardless. “I met him at the community centre. I went to take dance lessons and he is the coordinator of the group.”He doesn’t seem quite satisfied with that “That’s all? I know you’ve been talking to him and you both run on the beach. But you haven’t slept with him.” He says such things as if it were an absolute truth.“How do you know all that? Have you been spying on me?” my voice goes up.“We'l
I slip out of bed and run to the bathroom. The weather here is excellent. The heating must be something I install in my new house. Strange, the bathroom appears different. It must be something with my head. But when I turn on the light, it wasn't all in my head. Hunter did a renovation here for sure.There was only one large sink. Now there is a dark wood counter with two modern white sinks. On the underside of the sinks, where there are four doors, two on each side, are the two letters "H" and “S” in opaque gold. Oval mirrors are divided over the sinks. In the left corner is a Box with a vast and sophisticated shower and touch screen television. And on the right side is a beautiful white bathtub with a greater depth than there was before. The bathroom is spectacular and out of this world. I peer at either side of the two sinks and find my brush still on the tub’s ledge, along with some cosmetics I used daily. Everything is still here.I'm looking at myself in the mirror and trying to
Hunter returns in four days. By then my surprise is halfway done. I have to stop to go to my job interview at Ciário Barcelona, which I am looking forward to.The building is located on the old side of Barcelona with only five floors, but an extension. It is enormous. I identify the secretary the moment I walk in. She gives me a visitor's badge and gives me weird wide-eyed stares. What is her problem?I wait in a room with light-coloured walls and a wooden floor. Indeed, something I expected since the editor-in-chief's base is also made of wood in the newspaper I worked for before. I peer once more at my caramel-coloured leather jacket and jeans to make sure they’re dry enough. I can’t take any more of this rain. I think I will become a frog and have to live in the puddles soon.“Selena Garcia? This way.”A lovely girl in a blue dress-shirt leads me to the last door in the hallway. She says something else, but I don't understand precisely what it is. I step inside the office.“Hi Sele
“Score!” I throw my hands in the air for winning one more point in the ping-pong video game.Hunter is beside me, laughing with disgust that this is his second consecutive game that he’s lost to me.“I have to admit you're good,” he says, looking at me crestfallen, holding his wireless controller up.“As a table tennis player, you are a great football player.” I laugh at him, and he grimaces at me in response. “I need to go home.” I look at my rose-coloured watch that I got from Hunter when we visited his family. “It's getting late.” He looks at me with his puppy-dog eyes.“What if I don't want you to leave?” He grabs me by the waist, trying to seduce me. “I can for gourmet style pizza with jalapenos and pineapple which you like so much,” he says, trying to tempt me with food.“Hahaha, I cannot, despite this offer being very tempting.” I look up, thinking very well on the subject. We've already talked about it though.And how long we talked. We spent hours talking about it, and it's s
“Another one has arrived.” With that observation of Joanna, we let out a laugh. Valentina, not understanding anything, glances back to see if anyone else is at the door.“One more what?” Valentina says, confused.“We were just saying that love changes us,” I tell her. Joanna can't hold back her laughter.“And you are one more,” Joanna says. “We’re complete.”Valentina smiles in delight and comes sliding over to us and sits in one of the armchairs beside us.“I was born to be Cupid,” I comment. I point out the flush in Valentina’s face.“Selena, you were a thousand times worse than me, ok.” She narrows her eyes at me. “Now it's my turn.”“And my turn to piss you off.” I shrug.“Touché.” She points at me in defeat.We keep stalling and talking about our delusions about love some more. But my near-ending pneumonia ends up spoiling my range of staying up late again and again. By around ten at night, I'm already dead.As usual, I plug in my cellphone to charge a battery that lasts next to
Inside the interior of the dance studio, which is also modest as the façade, has many people circulating and smiling. Men, women and children are milling about, either in their ballet clothes and ballet shoes, or just tap shoes or simple gym clothes.I head towards the door with the sign above "administració". I wait in what looks like a small queue and stare at the brochures about Barcelona's sights. What most catches my attention is the church of the Granada Familia. How can I not have a closer look at this wonder? I need to make sure exactly where it is and be sure to visit. And it would make a good article for my blog.The girl who comes to talk to me is a descendant of... What? Japanese? Chinese? Korean? Oh, I don't know, I can only say that she is all-smiles and her eyelids are close together enough that I wonder if she sees me. She is a few centimetres shorter than me, with short, straight black hair and seems my age or close to it. It’s hard to understand what she says in Cata
We get in the car. He turns on the radio to a melodic, male-voiced song.“You are fantastic,” I say, rolling my eyes.“Why?” He looks at me. “What is it?” His smirk is there, I can tell.“You. How do you manage to do this to women? Did you see their faces?”“They are your friends. I only greeted them because of you,” he explains.“They are not my friends.” I make a face.“Oh, no? I thought they were.” He’s tries not to laugh.“No, they are not. I just asked them for the address of where I was.”He nods his head. “Speaking of which, could you try to explain to me what you were doing so far away?”“I lost my job,” I confess. “So, I started walking non-stop until I found myself in front of the community centre.”We stop behind a line of cars because of the traffic light, and he looks at me deeply feeling sorry.“Lost your job? Just like that?” he questions.“Carlo dumped Valentina and me.” I get an internal scare. Oh yeah, I need to call her.“He didn't say anything else? Simple as that,
I fall to the ground with my face burning from the blow.I wake up from the fright of my dream. I run my hands over my face and feel none of the pain I always remember suffering in my dreams. Only, it is the first time in a year that this has happened again.I search around, a little dazed, trying to see where I am. Alone for a change. Through the window of Hunter's room, there is little light passing through the curtains, which tells me it is freezing and not very sunny.I get up uncoordinatedly and head towards the bathroom. Bathtub, you beautiful piece of work. How are you today? As I brush my teeth, I look at the tub several times, considering. I go in. I don't go in... I go in. I don't. I let go of my internal fight over whether or not to get into the tub and head to Hunter's closet.On second thought, it's not just Hunter's closet anymore. The bathroom was practically adapted for me too, and the closet is not even mentioned. Half of the space holds things that now belong to me.
One year later...You've been married for just over a year, and your children will complete one year. How has your life changed from then?I fiddle with my fingers that are resting on my now finely crossed legs.“I discovered myself as a woman,” I answer, facing Alice as she interviews me. “I found that I can really take care of someone, since I didn't even know how to take care of myself. And now I take care of four!”“How is the atmosphere in your house with your children?”I smile. “My house is the biggest mess ever. It's a minefield of toys everywhere. Every time I get home, my kids start waving their arms frantically and laughing nonstop to see me.”“And your husband, Hunter Blanco, is at home with his children?”I look at the camera nervously photographing me and then back at Alice.“He is an amazing father, and whenever he can, he is with his children and family.” I end it there and Alice tilts her head and looks at me.“Selena!” she scolds me. “This is a personal interview, so
I let him enter the dimly lit room. The quiet and peaceful environment, together with the image of Hunter kissing our children's foreheads, fascinates me. He cares about them fifteen thousand times more than he cares about me. Before, I didn't understand the reason for this exaggeration, but now I would watch over them as they sleep twenty-four hours a day if I could.“How did they spend these last few days?”My heart sinks, remembering. It’s been five days since we've seen each other, way too long!“The pediatrician said that Valeria should start taking half a dose of the medication,” I inform and he sighs. “The boys are missing iron. Did you see the size of Pedro's fat little hand and Liam's thick thigh?” I say, laughing.“There was no way not to notice it, it makes you want to bite it.”I feel like crying to see him so happy. I want to hug him and hold him so much that I have to hold back. I need him to keep me strong, and I like it better when I have more time, but now it doesn't
Hunter:"I know I'm stubbornBut I changed when I looked at youYou made me wiserAs much as I try to run awayI'm always led in your directionIt seems like I let go everythingAs I held your hand."“I Forgot to Forget You – Mr SantanaThe plane lands on the ground as the intense Madrid sun helps ease the short winter days it has been having lately. I smooth out my suit, ready to get off the plane. I become twice as nervous.I'm coming back from Germany after another game for the Champions League*. It was quite a game. I’m bringing another victory and two more goals in my career. Today I feel like no one can beat me. Nobody can beat me as the best player, as the best husband and as the best father, and that's why I feel powerful, having my family around.I quicken my pace, leaving my team behind. I hear protests, but I don't give a damn. I'm missing my family. It’s been two months since my two little surprises have been at home with my little princess ValeriaI get into my custom bla
I try to get comfortable in my hospital bed, but it's impossible. My stitches are sore, and my belly never seems to want to deflate. I want my tiny waist back and not get saggy!My two boys have just had their last hospital feed as tomorrow we are finally going home. After almost four days, we can go to our new house which I still haven't seen after the last details of the renovation. The hard part will be leaving my little one with the pink bow in her hair at the hospital. It won't be easy. After all, I have to feed three babies, and one of them will be far from me in that damn incubator.Hunter is hesitant after I mention Christiano's name, constantly dodging the conversation. Still, every time I look at him, I see his watery eyes for our daughter, who hasn't shown any improvement. I can't hide my crying spells. After all, I want my family back home and healthy. I can't believe that as soon as he learned more about the subject, he didn't think straight about his brother, who is too
“We have tested everyone in our family,” Hunter takes the lead. “Even Alice, Joanna, Stella, Fernando and Sophia volunteered. I realised that Sophia was on the list since she is not your blood sister. But none of them are a match,” he says, unsatisfied.I spend more time with my daughter, my beautiful little princess with blue eyes. She swallows stiffly every time she moves inside that warm bubble. She is so small, so white and almost bald.I head back to the bedroom, and soon they bring me my two boys. When I hold them one by one in my lap, already lying on the gurney, I almost fear I am going to drop them. Like their sister, they are so tiny, also white and bald. I can barely distinguish them from one another.First, I cuddle Pedro, who keeps moving his hands and making faces. And then it is Liam's turn, who keeps wiggling and blinking lazily. So beautiful.For the first time, I am going to breastfeed my children. The nurses watch me all the time to see if I am doing it wrong. And f
Life is sometimes so unfair but objectively correct. There are no pains that cannot be healed, no bonds that cannot be joined, people that do not come back—the concept of life and death. Widely known as the eminent pain after a person, who is deliberately said to set out on a better journey. Maybe not. Since no one has yet discovered what occurs after death, there are only scientific and religious theories to go by.I can say that experiencing death is neither painful nor sad. I don't feel like running out of the light and back to life. Peace. Perhaps the peace that everyone seeks is not in life itself. Never, ever, no matter how hard you try, you will never have any rest. As much as something is resolved well, another factor comes and shakes everything again. That may be the meaning of life. It’s not just you opening your eyes and feeling that your heart is still beating. It's a vicious cycle, where love and disagreement will always be present as a challenge, a challenge you face eve
I feel my eyelids getting heavier. It's too hard to keep my eyes alert. The doctors and nurses keep encouraging me to stay awake as I drift off. Sleeping at a time like this would complicate their work much more.They get to work with the scalpel. A rush takes place behind the door, and I am aware of what is happening. Hunter, my Hunter is in sterilised blue suits to match his blue eyes.My head starts to ache, and I close my eyes due to the sudden pain."Our first appearance together. There will be a lot of people.“If you get nervous and want to leave that's fine.""Let's see you soon, my beautiful. Just don't forget what we had together."More pressure in my head settles, and every time I open my eyes and blink, there’s a flash of memory.“I promise to never forget you,” I speak hoarsely, repeating what I told him on the day of the benefit ball.He takes my hand, and we both cry, and then he understands everything. Despite the rush to move my belly that occurs around us, we are obl
Losing him was something I've never imaginedMissing you was like the dark grey skies, I am here all aloneForgetting you was like trying to find out about somebodythat I never sawBut loving him was all redTouching him again was me realising that everything I ever wantedwas right in front of meRemembering it was as easy as knowing all the lyricsfrom your favourite songFighting with you was like trying to solve difficult crossword puzzlesAnd realise that there is no right answerMy regret for you was as though you wishedthat you had never discoveredThat maybe love could be this strong – Tay Swift – “Red”Contractions increase with every nanosecond of my breathing. I look at the car's dashboard and realise that Fernando is driving at 110 km/h on one of Madrid's busiest avenues. I let out one scream after another in pain, and with each one that is echoed by the car, I see the expression of agony on Sophia's face.I can't feel my hands or feet. My hair is plastered to my forehea
SelenaAfter our last fight at the end of last month it is like a burst of guilt. Guilt is now stuck between us and our relationship. He for talking to me about pessimism, and I admit that I'm pessimistic, but I didn't say that, and that's precisely my percentage of the blame.Despite what the doctor said, I was determined to fight the obvious consequence at all odds. I had to be positive, believe there was a calming light at the end of a tunnel, that it wasn’t a train which will crush me under it’s wheels of destiny.Snap! Someone makes a click with their fingers to bring me back to reality.“Stop thinking so much!” It was Sophia, my best friend soulmate.“I think the third baby's name is Theo,” I tell Sophia as she came to me to confirm that she chose her baby's name too. “And we'll have one more family man.”When we speak together, the same name is spelt out in our voices, making us laugh like crazy until she says I could put it on the third baby since I'm going to win first. It wa