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2024-10-29 19:42:56Aislyn retreated back into her mind while guiding the bass through the mellow rhythm of her heart. There really was no reason to get caught up with the others on her feelings. It was just better to focus on getting it out through self expression and that was it.
She explored lonely nights where she was alone after her wolf left her and crowded her mind with hushed undertones and softly spoken words that were only hers to bear… unrepeatable hymns that promised she was less than alright, missing someone very dear to her. And still her lips caressed the overused fabric of her mic as she imagined speaking into his fur. It was so personal, raw… damaging and all the while she’d let it record.
Track after track managed to come through, until the flash of an orange light on her board summoned her away from continuing.
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The bass dropped hard as Aislyn swallowed. She did her best to look around the room, hoping Derek wasn’t there in the crowd suddenly. She didn’t want him to think that she’d take just anyone’s attention. It was all but a day difference between then and now and watching Micha made her heart pound harshly in her chest. Micha slid her body, her back to his front suggestively. Her left arm snaked up behind her, dragging her glitter up the side of him. Aislyn groaned at the sight of her wrapping her arm around the back of his neck then, making him curve himself against her. Unlike Derek, Micha’s choice allowed her to pull his arm around her and settle his palm widely across her soft belly. Her hips swayed suggestively from side to side until he complied. It was hard to look away from the clearly possessive way he responded to her friend, but as his other hand slid over the curve of her hip
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It wasn’t a question, however, that he’d heard Micha. It was one that he didn’t hear her, or at least that’s what she suggested to herself… and while it hurt her too, speaking up for the sake of him regardless of their situation still hurt immensely. He didn’t come for her. She wasn’t his Little, like Micha said. They were in two very different worlds and maybe it just needed to stay that way.“Do you think you’re going to be alright tonight?” Candice’s voice softly wedged itself between Aislyn and her thoughts. “Ais?”Aislyn took a deep breath before answering. “I’ll be alright. I think I just nee
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It was times like these that he wished he wasn’t part wolf. His nose practically controlled all of his reactions. That and a finicky wolf that was just as reserved about things as he was. The cloth shimmered only slightly in the bathroom under the fluorescent light. It picked up the undertones of her turquoise tiled floor and walls but nothing else seemed so telling about it. He should have just chucked it in the garbage on the way in, tied it up or burned it… both ideas still stuck out heavily in his mind. He still could. He could travel back to where they used to be and light the dreadful thing on fire; burning it for even his goddess to see. Derek worked his jaw trying to figure out just what to do with the disgusting thing. The longer he took in deciding if it was worth examining, the quieter the apartment became.
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“You do?” Derek couldn’t possibly hide the surprise that lingered in his question. Aislyn nodded against him. “Why?” Derek had to hear it. He had to know that this wasn’t just one moment in the sea of many still to be had or rather, missed.. Again, he felt her nod, but it wasn’t enough. “Tell me,” he pleaded against her lips. “It’s hard to explain,” she whispered, still seeking him… his touch… Derek hummed again in appreciation that she was still speaking to him on this level; that she didn
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Aislyn’s eyes met his once more and dipping down to kiss her was all he could do. There was nothing else. Just the two of them in this holy place underneath the most beautiful sky. Her lips are so soft and willing, cradling his own with the same love and desire as before all of this. Goddess, he whimpered in his mind as she accepted him only further. His love pulled back only slightly, her lips still leaning against his as she spoke. “I love you so much,” she whispered. “Felt too much. It was terrifying.” “I’m so sorry you did so much alone,” he apologized. “If I could go back and fix it…” “It’s better this way,” she promised, kissing him soundly. Her fingers loosened then, worrying him as she went, regardless of how she still hung hungrily from his lips. No… no, no… He stepped forward, closing the small gap between them. His arms reached for her, landing on her waist first to steady them where they stood. Aislyn’s kiss deepened as she moaned against his lips, her body follow
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“Relax, won’t you baby?” The tall Alpha replied, rolling his sleeves as he stepped into the light. “I understand you’re here to see me.” “Who the f…” Aislyn began questioning Zane only to be cut off. “This is Guy, the Alpha of the Silverback pack here in the city,” Zane introduced him. Derek growls at the thought of that bastard touching his mate. “Can you tell your dog to behave?” Guy chuckled at the attempt to warn her. “Don’t be rude to my mate,” Aislyn replied evenly. Derek wanted to turn around and hold her against him for that. “Real cute, sweetheart,” Guy countered, “but you still wear my mark baby.” Aislyn’s anger cycled through her once more, deeper this time, but before she could speak up, Guy thanked Zane for her return. “Your pack won’t be subject to our wrath,” he said, “So long as you stay off of my land.” What? Derek growled. Angerier still with Zane. “You,” he spoke to Aislyn directly, “didn’t think I wouldn’t raise hell for my little mate’s return,
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Aislyn watches carefully as Earl waves Zane off, already sensing tension in the Zane’s proximity.“I thought you said you were brothers; always looking out for his best intentions,” she pushed out the moment she locked up behind the werewolf in question.“Pack life isn’t the easiest,” he assured her. “There’s always some that slip through the cracks… or run off into a human’s arms.”“I’m glad he did,” Aislyn murmured her reply.The Alpha beside her grunted, then corrected his posture. He slicked back his hair, then itched at his stubble. She could feel his eyes everywhere but on his brother and that was concerning
