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2024-10-29 19:42:56Katherine sucked in a cold breath, but the princess wasn't finished yet.
"Did you think you could win his heart with time?" A melancholic smile lifted a corner of her mouth. "You can't win what doesn't exist anymore. He lost his heart to the darkness. Some might call him a heartless monster. Anyway, what is taken away can't be brought back just because we want to. You understand?"
Something about the princess' explanation made Katherine run a shiver down her back. She couldn't bring the man the princess described in agreement with the one she knew. Nathaniel might be cold, but no heartless monster. She saw him loose his composure when mourning for his aunt. A monster wouldn't mourn for twenty years, wouldn't help an homeless girl like her and certainly wouldn't pull her out of her dark thoughts with a hand kiss.
However, it might be true that... Nathaniel didn't have a place for her in his heart. Not for love at least. Honestly, she always wondered what could be
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