Chapter 04Chris had already stepped into the bar before I did. My eyes wandered around, taking in my environment as I followed Chris slowly, walking over to the barstools near the counter. A thick smell of alcohol, sweat and cologne encompassed the place. Scattered everywhere were scantily clothed skinny bartenders who paced around the several tables and booths.Chris sat on a barstool and I took a seat on the one beside him, leaning on the counter. A bartender popped her head out of the counter with a bottle of vodka in her hand.She flashed a quick smile, "What can I get you guys?""Just a beer." I answered her.Her eyes drifted to Chris, "What about you, handsome?""Same." He said to her, referring to my order."Okayyy." She dragged on the word as she had her back to us, taking out two bottles of beer from the top cabinet in the shelves. She handed a bottle to me and one to Chris, after taking the cap off with a bottle opener. I gave her a curt nod as a form of gratitude and dran
Chapter 05When we got back to our apartment, I was too mad at Chris to say anything to him so I just walked into my room and sank into my bed. I stared at the ceiling as memories of the evening replayed in my head. Chris had really outdone himself. What the hell was he thinking, picking that fight? I know the man was an asshole but he obviously provoked him first. Never in my life had I felt so useless.I felt so pathetic; so weak. I felt like a helpless little girl when the bastard pushed me to the floor and I simply couldn't do anything. And to top it all off, that was when Dean intervened and hit him like he was some sort of savior to me, like I couldn't defend myself, like I was some helpless little piece of dog shit and he was my superman there to sweep me off my fucking feet.Oh please.I could have handled that motherfucker all on my own.That was when my conscience hit me. Dean wasn't trying to make me feel helpless or anything, he was just trying to help and I shoved it up
Chapter 06The rest of the week rolled by fast and it was Friday. The week was okay, same as every other one. I tried my best to attend all my classes, ignore everyone around me, get out and go home.Dean called a few times. We'd talk a lot actually. For someone who wasn't Chris, I had spoken so much to him, which was so little this week, than I've ever spoken to anyone. For some reason, when he was talking to me, I didn't feel like giving him the middle finger, or tell him to leave me the fuck alone, or just ignore him. And somehow his voice didn't sound like fingernails on a chalkboard to me.I actually liked talking to him.I think I can call him my friend.Wow, congratulations Dean Ryan.I was walking out of my last class for the day when I heard someone speak behind me."Hey, wait up!" Said the voice.It obv
Chapter 07"Bye Grace!" Chris shouted as he went his own way."Bye boo!" I said, hurrying crazily to my class.Chris and I had stayed up late last night and we overslept and lost track of time this morning. I was still feeling really sleepy, I hadn't eaten breakfast, I barely took a shower, my head hurt and I probably looked like a homeless person.I was outside the auditorium walking to the back door. The class had already begun and our professor was standing in the front of the class, speaking. I threw my hood over my head and stepped into the class. I searched for a vacant seat and spotted one at the edge of the back seats. I walked over to the seat and sat, sinking lazily into it. I took out my laptop from my bag and placed it on the little desk after adjusting it up."Why'd you come in so late? That's unlike you." I heard an all so annoying voice speak beside me.
Chapter 08"Ayeeee!" We exclaimed in unison with our hands up earning glares from people around us.Chris, Dean and I were in a diner and believe it or not, we were tossing strawberries into each other's mouths. We had become quite the trio actually. If we were to star some badass movie, Chris would be the man-with-the-plan, Dean would be the super hot brains and I'll just be, you know, very awesome at fighting bad guys. Well, the point is that, three of us were really close friends now who hang out a lot.It was Friday and we didn't have any other class for the rest of the day.Except Chris.I rubbed my palms together, "Okay, my turn. Shoot me."Chris picked up a strawberry and threw it carefully into my open mouth. I felt in land on my tongue."Ayeeeee!" We exclaimed with our hands up, again. Earning dirty looks from other people, agai
Chapter 09"What about the pink dress she wore the other night?" Chris looked over at me."No freaking way." I panted."But it was cute!" Chris exclaimed."To you." I mumbled, trying to catch my breath."Do you think she'd want a dog?" Chris asked me."I don't really know Chris, get her whatever. The. Hell. You. Want. To." I panted as I stopped, resting my palm on my knee.Chris stopped jogging and hovered over me, "Come on, Grace. We haven't even run 10 blocks."Chris woke me up early this morning to go for a run. I was still sleeping when he barged into my room with the wonderful idea. Apparently, he wants us to keep in shape. So, I threw on my tank top, track pants and running shoes but my boobs hurt like hell.I stood up straight, "I'm fucking tired, Chris.""Too bad, we're not done. Let's g
Chapter 10Immediately I stepped down from Dean's car, the chilly October air hit my skin and I wrapped my arms around my body, rubbing up and down my bare skin."Cold?" Dean asked beside me."Yeah." I shuddered.Dean shrugged off his thick jean jacket and brought it behind my back. I willingly fixed my two hands into the sleeves and tugged on the edges of the jacket. It was huge on me; my fingers were barely visible through the sleeves.It felt a lot warm."Thank you." I said in gratitude."It's no problem," He smiled at me. "And it really goes great with your outfit."I smirked, "It does, doesn't it?""Come on, let's head inside." He cupped the small of my back and we walked toward the house.Immediately we stepped into the house, the loud trap music which was faintly audible when we were ou
Chapter 11{ D E A N }I knew it was wrong the moment I finished speaking. I shouldn't have been so harsh on her but she just drove me fucking insane. But, what I said to her wasn't right, especially after she opened up to me today."Got it." She said sternly.At that moment I was scared because I couldn't particularly tell what she was thinking. Her eyes held no emotion at all; they seemed distant and cold, like she was building her walls back up.Not like she ever really let them down for me but I saw a glimpse of what was on the other side. But it felt like she was locking me out again.Completely.Immediately the words came out of her mouth, she walked away and I hadn't realized it. I was thinking too much, about her, again.God, this woman."Grace!" I ca
Chapter 73{ D E A N }Something wasn't right.There was something wrong with Grace and I could feel it in my gut.Maybe it was the way she always seemed distracted, maybe it was the way the littlest things I said or did caused her demeanor to change, maybe it was the way she always seemed lost in thoughts, maybe it was the way I could simply tell when something wasn't right with her but this was a gut feeling.And I was going crazy with the oblivion.It hurt that she didn't want me to be there for her. Whenever I asked her what the matter wa
Chapter 72I had no idea what to do.Kendra had given me the offer again.We had quite the conversation when she called me last week. We talked about everything that happened and how it affected her view of me. We talked of how relieved she felt when her son told her that it was all a misunderstanding and everything was done out of spite. We talked about how she had received a call from Dean Ryan and the heart-to-heart conversation they had.We talked about how hesitant she was to contact me when the truth behind the photo was revealed. We talked about how shocked and happy she felt when she received my email. She talked about
Chapter 71"Hi." Dean said in the most feathery voice, his tone completely matching mine.Someone teach me how to breathe, please.I literally held my heart in my hands as I stood in front of him. I had no idea how this was going to go or what I should've said next but all I knew was that there were a million things that I was finally ready to get off my chest. I was done fighting it, I was done trying to act strong, I was done with all of it. Because standing there in that very moment, I realized something;I missed him.God, I missed him painfully."Can I come in?" I asked him.He cleared his throat like my voice snapped him out of a trance
Chapter 70I woke up the next morning with this nervous feeling in my stomach. Every action I performed, right from brushing my teeth, having a shower and getting ready, made the feeling in my stomach go up a notch every time.Every bone in my body screamed at me to just stay home today until I was sure that I could go to school without feeling like anxiety was about to knock me out but there was also a voice at the back of my mind that told me to suck it up and get this over with once and for all.I swear, I felt like a freshman on their first day of high school.Chris and I's schedule no longer aligned this year. As my first lecture of the day began at 9
Chapter 69{ G R A C E }Summer had come to an end, making it close to two months since I last saw or spoke to Dean.I remember that day vividly everyday. I remember how hurt Dean looked when I walked out of the penthouse which was basically our home for months. I remember how his face fell when he begged me not to fall out of love with him and I lied through my teeth. I remember feeling like a part of me was missing when I had to force myself to be okay. I remember going back to my best friend and him trying to get me to hear him out.Chris had told me that Dean had explained to him what really happened and that if I'd just listen to what
Chapter 68{ D E A N }Three days.I hadn't heard from Grace in three days.Ever since she broke up with me, I've felt completely empty. As cheesy and over the top as this may sound, everything seemed to have lost purpose and meaning. I never thought a time like this would come, where Grace would no longer want anything to do with me, where we wouldn't be together.After that morning at Chris', I drove back home feeling the deepest void inside me. I had been texting Grace nonstop to hear me out but I haven't gotten a response from her. It was only today that I realized that she had blocked my number, if not deleted it and that hurt me, a lot. If sh
Chapter 67I felt the pain in my core.It was as though someone had thrown a heavy weight upon my chest, crushing and crumbling my heart bit by bit. My head was spinning, everything around me at that moment was spinning. I felt a heavy lump in my throat as my eyes never left the laptop screen. Jenna was saying something but I had completely drowned her out, trying to calm the wave going on in my head.The photo stared back at me, taunting me, mocking me, causing a thousand questions to flood through my mind and rush back out. I wanted to believe that this was all just some stupid prank, that Jenna was lying about all of this, that Dean had not
Chapter 66Chris' photos got approved.He was so happy and excited that his work was going to be displayed on Mark Finston's photo exhibit and Dean and I couldn't have been happier for him. We still hadn't seen the photos, Chris wouldn't let us. He said he wanted us to see it for the first time in the exhibit and we didn't mind, honestly. We were just really proud of him and his accomplishments.The photo exhibit was tonight and Dean and I had gotten ready to leave. We had agreed to meet Chris there, as well as our other friends whom he had invited. I was dressed in a rose gold dress which hugged my upper body and flared from my waist, ending mid-thi
Chapter 65"Oh my Jesus!" The sound of Chris' voice boomed over the entire living room. "Holy fucking shit! I'm gonna be blind, I'm gonna be blind! I'm gonna be fucking blind!""Chris, what the fuck?!" Dean shouted as he wrapped me up in him as an attempt to cover me up."I'm never gonna see again!" Chris exaggerated, throwing his hands over his eyes. "Please put some fucking clothes on! Holy mother of Jesus. How will I ever unsee that?"I couldn't help but laugh at how ridiculous he was being. Dean's glare etched his features as he lifted himself off me, looking around for wherever we threw our clothes to. He tossed his shirt to me, putting on his briefs right after. I put the sh