"I'm sorry." Dean said softly into the cold night.
"For?"
"I'm sorry for being an asshole to you, for being so mean and saying all those stupid things. I didn't mean any of it, I swear."
"Just because you want to be forgiven doesn't mean you should lie. You meant every single word that night, you just never thought you'd say it to my face."
Dean had driven us to the beach house. By the time we got there, darkness had already seeped into the sky. We sat quietly on the beach sand, staring into the water.
He lowered his head and whispered, "I'm sorry for making you cry, Chip. I really am."
I'm sorry that I let his words make me cry. I had promised myself that that will never happen again but it's like with Dean I seem to break all my promises on my rule of life. I didn't know what it was about him.
"And?" I inquired.
Chapter 15Dean and I stayed at the beach house for a little while last night before he drove me back home. I made sure to give Kyle a call, apologizing for Dean's behavior, before I went to bed.I woke up this morning with a cheerful feeling. I had a long refreshing shower, got dressed in a mint green sweater and blue jeans, placed everything necessary into my bag and walked out of my room.Chris was still in his room when I got out so I walked into the kitchen and started fixing up breakfast. I was dancing to the song that was playing in my iPod, swaying my hips and bobbing my head to the rythm as I flipped the pancakes in the pan."Morning, Grace." I heard Chris speak groggily behind me.I placed two pancakes in a plate and turned to Chris who was seated on a barstool. I handed him his breakfast with a bright smile on my face, "Morning, best friend."Chris' e
Chapter 16"Grace!" Tommy ran down the stairs excitedly and tackled me to the ground."Ow!" I winced. "Get off me, Thomas! I am not one of your football teammates!""Gracie?!" I heard my mom's voice as she came into view."Hey mom." I said with a smile and ran to embrace her.She pulled away, "How have you been sweetie? How has college been?""All good mom. How have you been?" I asked her as we walked to the kitchen."I've been great, dear.""Something smells delicious." I bit my lip."Uh huh, you're just in time for dinner." My mother smiled."Thank God. I missed mommy's cooking." I said. "Where's Dad?""He'll be home soon. I'm sure he's on his way back from work." She said hovering over the stove."Well, did he know I was coming home tonight?" I asked.
Chapter 17I walked over to them, "Mom, this is my new friend, Dean.""It's very nice to meet you, ma'am." Dean smiled at my mom, stealing glances at me."You must be the reason behind my daughter's smile recently." My mom said and I felt my cheeks heat up. "And it's Miranda to you.""I hope I am." Dean smiled at me. "You look amazing, Grace.""As do you."Dean was dressed in a black suit and a black bow tie. I couldn't help but smile when I noticed he was wearing the suit jacket I told him I preferred and it hugged his body in such a way that easily said that it was tailor-made for him. He looked muscular and his hair was a hot mess on his head.I know I said that Dean was like a brother to me, but why did said brother have to be smoking hot?!"Enough with the googly eyes. Let's go!" Chris rolled his eyes."But I
"She will be the death of me," They said.Little did they know I wasn't afraid of dying.Chapter 18"Chip, calm down for a second." Dean held both my shoulders. "He has to be somewhere in the house.""He's not," I sniffed. "I've looked everywhere. He's not picking up his phone and I'm worried out of my goddamn mind.""Maybe he might just be somewhere you haven't looked yet." He said in a soothing voice."He was talking to his parents not too long ago and he looked so glum. They must have said something terrible to him." I stuttered."We're going to find him, Chip. You have to calm down."
"She will be the death of me," They said.Little did they know I wasn't afraid of dying.Chapter 18"Chip, calm down for a second." Dean held both my shoulders. "He has to be somewhere in the house.""He's not," I sniffed. "I've looked everywhere. He's not picking up his phone and I'm worried out of my goddamn mind.""Maybe he might just be somewhere you haven't looked yet." He said in a soothing voice."He was talking to his parents not too long ago and he looked so glum. They must have said something terrible to him." I stuttered."We're going to find him, Chip. You have to calm down."
Chapter 19"Strawberry or chocolate?" Kyle asked me as we walked out of our department."Tough one." I bit my lip. "I'd go with strawberry.""If you could only eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?" He asked.I thought about this for a while, "Ice cream, but only if I can get my mom's brownies with it.""You have to pick one." He said as he gawked at some girls walking past us."Ice cream then." I decided and that was when I saw Dean waiting near his car.Chris was home sick with a really bad cold so Dean was supposed to drive me home so we could take care of Chris together.Kyle and I walked to Dean's car and I gave Dean a knowing look. I had been telling him that he had to apologize to Kyle for acting the way he did the other day but he always managed to slip out of the topic."Hey Chip." Dea
Chapter 20I woke up the next morning with a very terrible pain in my stomach and when I walked into my bathroom to take a shower, what I had been thinking was confirmed.My period.I thought it wasn't coming for the next three days.I groaned loudly as the striking pain came again. I have always had excruciating period cramps. Whenever I was on my period, I always take a lot of ibuprofen, sit on the floor in pain, reduce my sugar intake and most of the time, I get sick. It was the worst time of the month for me.I think for most girls too.When I was done taking a shower and fixing on a tampon, I looked through the cabinets to see if I had my ibuprofen but it had finished. I let out another groan as I staggered out of my bathroom and got ready.I placed all my necessary things in my bag and walked out of the room. I
Chapter 21It was another amazing holiday in the year.Halloween.Dean invited Chris and me to a Halloween party his friend, Ethan, was throwing and I thought, why the hell not?Halloween was one of my favorite holidays.The first being Christmas.I ordered my costume two days ago and it came in this morning. It was around 7 PM and I was in my room getting ready."Grace? Are you ready?!" I heard Chris shout from the living room."In a minute!" I shouted back.I walked into my bathroom and put on my costume. It was really hard to put on and I spent over 10 minutes wearing it all. Once I was done getting ready, I glanced at myself in my full length mirror and I liked the woman staring back at me.The makeup I had on was pretty much and it re
Chapter 73{ D E A N }Something wasn't right.There was something wrong with Grace and I could feel it in my gut.Maybe it was the way she always seemed distracted, maybe it was the way the littlest things I said or did caused her demeanor to change, maybe it was the way she always seemed lost in thoughts, maybe it was the way I could simply tell when something wasn't right with her but this was a gut feeling.And I was going crazy with the oblivion.It hurt that she didn't want me to be there for her. Whenever I asked her what the matter wa
Chapter 72I had no idea what to do.Kendra had given me the offer again.We had quite the conversation when she called me last week. We talked about everything that happened and how it affected her view of me. We talked of how relieved she felt when her son told her that it was all a misunderstanding and everything was done out of spite. We talked about how she had received a call from Dean Ryan and the heart-to-heart conversation they had.We talked about how hesitant she was to contact me when the truth behind the photo was revealed. We talked about how shocked and happy she felt when she received my email. She talked about
Chapter 71"Hi." Dean said in the most feathery voice, his tone completely matching mine.Someone teach me how to breathe, please.I literally held my heart in my hands as I stood in front of him. I had no idea how this was going to go or what I should've said next but all I knew was that there were a million things that I was finally ready to get off my chest. I was done fighting it, I was done trying to act strong, I was done with all of it. Because standing there in that very moment, I realized something;I missed him.God, I missed him painfully."Can I come in?" I asked him.He cleared his throat like my voice snapped him out of a trance
Chapter 70I woke up the next morning with this nervous feeling in my stomach. Every action I performed, right from brushing my teeth, having a shower and getting ready, made the feeling in my stomach go up a notch every time.Every bone in my body screamed at me to just stay home today until I was sure that I could go to school without feeling like anxiety was about to knock me out but there was also a voice at the back of my mind that told me to suck it up and get this over with once and for all.I swear, I felt like a freshman on their first day of high school.Chris and I's schedule no longer aligned this year. As my first lecture of the day began at 9
Chapter 69{ G R A C E }Summer had come to an end, making it close to two months since I last saw or spoke to Dean.I remember that day vividly everyday. I remember how hurt Dean looked when I walked out of the penthouse which was basically our home for months. I remember how his face fell when he begged me not to fall out of love with him and I lied through my teeth. I remember feeling like a part of me was missing when I had to force myself to be okay. I remember going back to my best friend and him trying to get me to hear him out.Chris had told me that Dean had explained to him what really happened and that if I'd just listen to what
Chapter 68{ D E A N }Three days.I hadn't heard from Grace in three days.Ever since she broke up with me, I've felt completely empty. As cheesy and over the top as this may sound, everything seemed to have lost purpose and meaning. I never thought a time like this would come, where Grace would no longer want anything to do with me, where we wouldn't be together.After that morning at Chris', I drove back home feeling the deepest void inside me. I had been texting Grace nonstop to hear me out but I haven't gotten a response from her. It was only today that I realized that she had blocked my number, if not deleted it and that hurt me, a lot. If sh
Chapter 67I felt the pain in my core.It was as though someone had thrown a heavy weight upon my chest, crushing and crumbling my heart bit by bit. My head was spinning, everything around me at that moment was spinning. I felt a heavy lump in my throat as my eyes never left the laptop screen. Jenna was saying something but I had completely drowned her out, trying to calm the wave going on in my head.The photo stared back at me, taunting me, mocking me, causing a thousand questions to flood through my mind and rush back out. I wanted to believe that this was all just some stupid prank, that Jenna was lying about all of this, that Dean had not
Chapter 66Chris' photos got approved.He was so happy and excited that his work was going to be displayed on Mark Finston's photo exhibit and Dean and I couldn't have been happier for him. We still hadn't seen the photos, Chris wouldn't let us. He said he wanted us to see it for the first time in the exhibit and we didn't mind, honestly. We were just really proud of him and his accomplishments.The photo exhibit was tonight and Dean and I had gotten ready to leave. We had agreed to meet Chris there, as well as our other friends whom he had invited. I was dressed in a rose gold dress which hugged my upper body and flared from my waist, ending mid-thi
Chapter 65"Oh my Jesus!" The sound of Chris' voice boomed over the entire living room. "Holy fucking shit! I'm gonna be blind, I'm gonna be blind! I'm gonna be fucking blind!""Chris, what the fuck?!" Dean shouted as he wrapped me up in him as an attempt to cover me up."I'm never gonna see again!" Chris exaggerated, throwing his hands over his eyes. "Please put some fucking clothes on! Holy mother of Jesus. How will I ever unsee that?"I couldn't help but laugh at how ridiculous he was being. Dean's glare etched his features as he lifted himself off me, looking around for wherever we threw our clothes to. He tossed his shirt to me, putting on his briefs right after. I put the sh