I wondered for a moment if I could have been dreaming but after glancing at my wrist to see my name written in messy cursive, I knew it wasn't true. Every letter sat where I'd written it earlier to prove that I wasn't in a horrible dream.
I hadn't made this up, it was real.
"You found me, didn't you?" His voice came out in a faint whisper. It was as though the thought had been worming its way through his mind ever since he saw me and now it had finally slipped from his tongue.
I nodded, "yes."
"So I am...dead?"
"Yes."
"But...you're not?"
"No."
"So, I'm a ghost?"
"Probably."
His lips tugged into a small smile. "You're excellent at the whole conversation thing, Rei."
There was a moment of silence where only the sound of birds from outside as they screeched playfully could be heard.
"Sorry," he muttered.
I knew he wasn't apologizing for his comment but instead for the fact that I had found his body. Anyone could've seen it in the way my eyes hooded when met with the topic that bothered me greatly. I appreciated that he noticed but shrugged away the sympathy. I wasn't the one dead in this situation.
Deshawn looked down at his feet that were dressed in expensive shoes, before hesitantly rising out of the desk chair. He wobbled at first, making the floor under him creak with the pressure. One foot stepped in front of the other as he jutted his tongue out in concentration. He looked like a toddler who'd found their feet for the first time and my heart raced.
He turned his body slowly before his legs worked quicker than I could. Deshawn tumbled to my bed and I scuttered off quickly, my cheeks ablaze. The hair on my arms stood as electricity coursed through my body.
I captured my bottom lip in between my teeth and pressed the back of my cool hands against my cheek.
"S-stay there."
Confusion flashed through Deshawn's brown eyes as he stared at me from my bed that he clung to. His eyes shouldn't have flashed with anything, his eyes shouldn't have even been open. Deshawn Cervantes's eyes should have been closed and locked in a casket six feet under along with the rest of his body. He should have been dead.
With a deep breath, I stood. Never once leaving my back to him, I bit the inside of my cheek silently.
"I'm going for a walk. You'll stay here, okay? I'll be right back, I just need to get some air."
Deshawn nodded wordlessly, a smile of pity passed his lips. Then, I left.
I raced out of my bedroom, down the stairs, and out the front door within one breath. The cold air hit me full force as I stepped outside. It breezed past my hair and tickled my face. My heart, though still beating abnormally fast, felt as though it had time to relax finally. The clouds above me were murky grey and threatened a downpour. I wasn't bothered though, I'd welcome the rain at this moment.
I hobbled down to my front gate and noticed my neighbor, Mrs. Tan, as she walked out of her front door at the same time as me. I gave her a tight-lipped smile but as she neared, I noticed her eyes and sucked in a deep breath. Mrs. Tan was an old lady with frail bones, grey hair, and normally kind, blue eyes. Today, however, they were both an eerie black. Like two pools of oblivion, I felt myself falling into horror.
"I've been made aware of the spirit that you hold in your possession, Miss De Vega."
Her voice was not the typical gentle voice of Mrs. Tan. It was authoritative and demanding. Deep and intimidating.
Not Mrs. Tan.
A shiver ran down my spine when she continued and I felt the numbness from my heart slowly spread around my body like poison, trapping my legs to the floor.
"Reniella De Vega, you are messing with the laws of life and death. Time cannot move freely whilst you selfishly grasp onto pieces of the past."
My eyes were wide as I opened and closed my mouth like a blubbering fish for something to say. In an attempt to break free from the clutches of my fear, I forced my hand up and wiped away the sweat from my upper lip. Mrs. Tan continued to stare and as though she were buffering, the black pits in her eyes wavered from the horror to her usual color.
My head screamed but my body wailed and painfully, I forced my legs to jump into action. I whipped my head away from the old lady and left. I walked faster than I normally would've down the pavement while glancing over my shoulder every other second to check she wasn't following. After concluding that I was safe, I crossed the empty road and rushed to the safety of the corner shop located at the bottom of my street.
"Reniella De Vega!" I heard my name being yelled out once again and my muscles tensed. A red car rushed out of nowhere before slowing down when it was near me.
The window lowered gradually and I was met with the same pools of black. This time, it wasn't Mrs. Tan but a middle-aged man. The eyes were distinct and captured me before I could think better of it.
"If you do not return the soul, the balance will break." It was the same sinister voice that echoed from Mrs. Tan inhabited the driver too.
I ran ahead of the car and turned a corner as it zoomed past me, the person inside didn't spare a second glance at my cowering figure. The corner shop with its faded banner and flashing open sign stood not that far away, it was the place I visited the most often in the village. At this moment, it felt like a haven.
I followed the pavement to the end of the street when the doors of five or so white terraced houses snapped open. A person stood stiffly in each doorway, a blank expression painted onto each of their faces.
"Reniella De Vega," they stated in unison. "You're messing with things you don't and won't ever understand. Something as intricate as time cannot be cheated and if the boy is not passed over soon, the consequences will be dire."
They sounded like ghostly robots as they spoke together. Their voices weren't loud but they echoed around my mind and distracted the sane part of myself. The wind picked up and it began to whip my hair around my face ferociously. All at once, each door of the terraced houses slammed shut in my face.Before anything else could've taken me away from my goal, I rushed ahead to the shop. The bell above the door chimed as I stepped inside and I wasted no time in escaping to the sweet and chocolate aisle. For such a small shop, they had a lot of good stuff. Snatching the off-brand milk chocolate, I followed the white aisles as they led me to the counter. When I was younger, my dad used to allow me to get a pretty pink magazine for my birthday every year. I often wished times were simpler, that I could allow myself to get excited over the little things again.
When I slipped back into my bedroom, Deshawn was sitting exactly where I'd left him, cross-legged on my bed. My eyes scanned around the room in search of anything that had moved or scratched but nothing obvious popped out at me. His eyes were trained to the window as he watched the trees outside dance in the wind. I wondered if he was a ghost and what that felt like. I'd never had ghosts follow me before so this couldn't have been something to do with me. Death had seemed pretty angry that a spirit managed to slip from his grasp so I guessed this was a rare occurrence for him too. I circled the boy whose chest, though dead, lifted and fell with breath. I carefully pulled my desk chair forward so that I could watch as he moved, breathed, and observed life moving outside. The life he'd no longer be part o
I woke up to the numbing feeling on my forehead as it spread around my body and made my muscles tingle back to life. Cool leather pushed against my body from the couch and was a cold awakening to the bare skin of my arms.I reached my arms up and above my head, clicking them into place. Every one of my limbs ached and it felt as though I'd been sleeping for years. Fluttering my eyes open, I recognized my surroundings as the living room. I lifted my head from the leather sofa and pain pierced through my skull. With furrowed brows, I massaged my temples and breathed deeply to soothe the pain.Just the thought of what happened earlier sent a shudder through my body. What was that? It all felt so real and scary. The blood looked real, it smelt real, it felt real. I glanced down at my wrist and saw the words 'Ren
"I'm surprisingly very excited about this party. You know, considering I died at the last one, I think I'm doing alright," Deshawn explained while sitting on the bed behind me. He used his hands in big gestures while his voice rang out loudly with amusement. "You're not funny, you know that, right?" I frowned. I was sitting in front of my full-length mirror while applying my makeup gently. I'd thrown on a simple, red, spaghetti dress and called it a day. I wasn't in the mood to go all out tonight. I could see Deshawn watching me through the mirror as I painted my face and his eyebrows furrowed in interest to follow what I was doing. "Why do you insist on coming with me?" I muttered while applying the mascara slowly to my frustratingly short eyelash
"Is this a Zobel boy party?" I asked over the music."Uhh, yeah," she answered absentmindedly while trying to roll up her window to stop the bitter chill of night. I figured if this was a Zobel party we'd be more likely to find a suspect worth our time."Why? You got your eye on one of them?" Raven teased while the wind breezed through her dark hair.I threw her a half-smile. She knew better than anyone how I felt about relationships. I just didn't need them. I loved the thrill of a kiss but dreaded the burden of love. That's just the way it was for me."Well Corpus Cole from biology does weed and I'm going to join them tonight." Raven grinned.
I leaned against the headrest of the car and listened to the music as it vibrated from the house. Students from Zobel College house never failed to amaze me, this one was no exception. It was larger than I'd thought. It is adorned with colorful flowers hung from buckets along the front, blooming beautifully. More glass than necessary lined the walls just to give a breathtaking peak of the expensive interior. It also provided a nice view of the coastline the houses were built along. "I don't think anyone will die in this one if that's what you're worried about," Deshawn reassured while he was in the passenger seat. It was as if he'd fizzed into place as he'd always been there. "Unless there's a serial killer on the loose. Then, in that case, you might have an army of ghosts to help you out," he joked.&nb
Though Deshawn wasn't truly there, he could touch and hold stuff from our world. Taron's weight was shared between the crazy girl and the ghost of his best friend but he had no idea. It was unsettling. Together, the three of us walked through the front door where I was momentarily speechless at the interior. Just like every other Zobel boy house, it was large with winding staircases, expensive decorations, and designer wallpaper. The foyer alone was probably bigger than my whole house and led straight to the glass doors on the other side where more people danced in the garden. The smell of various alcoholic drinks and smoke clung to the air like a disease and groups of people came and went through. Girls idled on the staircase, boys screamed from the pool outside and the music pierced my eardrums.
"So the obvious one would be his ex-girlfriend, Amalia Hadid. They were the most toxic couple I'd ever seen. I don't think they ever said one nice thing about one another, in private or in person. She cheated on him a few months before he died and they broke up because of that. It was a messy parting and he said a lot of dumb fucking shit about her when they finished. She was pissed and almost failed her exams because of it and the last thing I heard, her dad went around to Deshawn's house and told him to pack it in. He threatened Deshawn and at the time we thought it was the funniest fucking thing but I'm not sure anymore. Anyway, that's Amalia." Taron took his other hand and enclosed it over mine that rested on his chest. His fingers were long and bony, trapping me in place. "Then there's Marco Arandi
"Need I remind you I have never done that before, so you don't have to worry, Marie." She rolls his eyes. My Aunt looks at him with a smirk before wiping the front and back of her wet hands on her red apron."Rather be safe than sorry," she sings as she grabs her white floral patterned tote back off the dining table. I walk over to stand beside my grandmother as I watch my aunt stuff her house keys in her bag before zipping it close."Oh, you still have that horrendously designed bag with the broken zipper?" My grandmother scoffs just by the sound of the zipper struggling to close as she flips another pancake on the pan.I burst out laughing when I see my Aunt's face. Her black curly hair tied into a bun keeping the tendrils out of her face yet she tries to place her baby hairs behind her ear. She grabs her bag with a scoff and gives me a small smile before heading towards the front door."Keep
INSECURITIES ARE what make humans imperfect and give them character. It makes people act out in ways they wouldn't have if they didn't have a feeling of anxiety, judgement and negative emotions attached to it.I know exactly what my insecurities are and even being self-aware doesn't change anything about it because I cant overcome them. It has become a part of me.As much as I hate my parents for everything they put everyone through, they did me well.As far as my skin was concerned, I was honestly blessed with the relatively clear caramel-coloured skin. Apart from some occasional acne that usually happened around the time of my periods, my skin was fine, probably because I was always diligent with the SPF and washing my face.Honestly, I wasn't the ugliest in the world, but nor did that make me a model either.When I used to go to school, my friend Raven used to alwa
"As if wolves would want you." I rolled my eyes. Playing along with what I knew he wanted.He was such an open book."Mhm, you want me," he teases as he raises his brows suggestively."Correction, jail wants you. Or Satan, or better yet, nobody!" I say sarcastically. I was a bit taken back by his teasing but I welcomed it. It was fun talking to someone other than my Aunt or grandmother. Its making me miss Raven so much."You break my heart," he says dramatically as he holds his hands on his chest over his heart."Yeah, I'm just doing what I do best,""Right..." he drawls as he rolls his eyes at my arrogance.He suddenly jogs so that he is in front of me, successfully catching me off guard. He then turns around and stops so that he is directly in front of me. I look at him in confusion.He takes
"I'm not your Sweetheart." I glared at him. "Okay, Sweetheart." And then I open my mouth to object but then he starts up again. "Sweetheart, sweetheart, sweetheart, sweetheart, sweetheart," he taunted while smirking at me. "Leave me alone, posh boy." I groaned with a glare while trying to run away from him and behind Auntie Marie who I didn't realize had served herself some of my cake on one of the paper plates I had bought. I ignore Deshawn and watch as my aunt takes a spoonful of the cake and puts it in her mouth. Even Deshawn stopped annoying me and glanced between my aunt and me to observe my reaction to her trying my cake.
She was new here, I had nothing to fear. Nothing to fear. Nothing to fear... I was walking towards them with my grip on my baseball hat when I bumped into a hard chest. I yelped and tripped on the other person's foot, sending myself flying towards their chest. I made the mistake of letting go of my bag with the cake container and I could feel the sharp realization come across in panic as I just realized what I had done. I don't even look up to see who I had bumped into as I crouch down and peer inside the bag to see the smushed-up cake through the clear plastic top of the container. I mourn the destruct
"They have me, Jenkins, and his grandson. I think even Mrs. Halmshire's husband. Even on top of that, they hired like 5 men. Gloria came with a lot of cash. I'm surprised that she is moving into our town of all places. Yet again, everyone in this town is rich, it's just that we choose this lifestyle." Jenkins is like Aunt Marie. Not a member of the family by blood but still considered as family. My grandmother has so many children, nieces, and nephews from another family. She's friendly like that. "When did you get the time to meet them?" I ask curiously knowing that she didn't wake up until like 9 and it was almost 11. I didn't even see or hear her leave the house. "I woke up at 8 and Marie told me they lost a few trucks on their way to town and o
I examined my arm to make sure there were no marks and I was glad to see nothing. Suddenly I felt bad for the caterpillar. I look back to where I had seen it jump down and I tiptoe towards that spot in the grass. I look down only to see the caterpillar balancing itself on a blade of grass. Oh gosh. I didn't want it to die or anything so I looked around for a stick. I scanned the clearing and spotted a stick by the flat area in the center which was just meters away from the cliff. I smiled and ran over to the stick and came back for the caterpillar. I crouched down with the stick in my hands, trying to get the caterpillar to crawl onto the stick so I could mount it onto a tree where it wo
Maybe it was something in the air or something but I opened my mouth and almost made the mistake of talking. That was until he interrupted."You alright?" he questions. I'm momentarily stunned by the fact that he was talking and that he was talking to me.I felt betrayed for a second because it was as if his voice had broken something that we had an unspoken rule about:No talking.His voice was deep, husky, and a bit raspy, and I couldn't help but look up at him with big eyes, but he wasn't even looking at me."Yeah."
I shakily exhaled as my eyes dart from his body to my blanket. I tuck some loose strands of my dark hair behind my ear, feeling my heartbeat inside my chest. He was yet to notice me which calmed me because I seriously wasn't in the mood to converse with him. For some reason, I had a feeling he wasn't either. I could feel the sadness radiating off of him and I couldn't stop myself from thinking the wildest of thoughts: Maybe I should go ask him what's wrong. Nobody comes to The Edge; and if they somehow manage to, I don't think that it would be by chance. There was no way this guy who looks about my age walked into the forest looking for this place.