Chapter 32

I have never felt like being on top, and I have always been more familiar with the feeling of being down. However, I had never felt this low. This helpless—this pitiful.

I did crave attention, but it never crossed my mind that I could be violated like this in my pursuit of validation.

The shame of being seen consumes me.

The ruination of a princess, blinded by her desire to be seen. What bliss. I clenched my fist, the sun nigh out yet I still sit in the middle of my bed, and aggressively hit my chest.

I wanted to scream. I wanted to let out my rage and unleash hell on Earth.

But all I could do was quietly beat myself until my own skin was bruised. I wanted to cover up the feel of his sticky touch. Everywhere he touched, I wanted to ruin.

Most of all, I wanted to forget.

I wanted to ruin myself so no more cannot. It is the only way I can think that I still have control over my own body.

“….Princess” A distant voice eventually neared me and as my senses cleared, I found Ellie vigorously