Chapter 363Ellie I have a habit of not speaking up if something's wrong and if I'm not feeling well I have gotten into the habit of also sucking it up and getting on with my day because time waits for no one and I need to get things done . The only way to get things done is to do them and get on with life. There are also times when I feel like I want to just have a day off from my own life . If last night had anything to go but I had the best night that I've had in months and truth be told Mike solar has not lost his touch not even one bit but the fun part of it last night was that I was in control and I was having fun with him and had been a while since we reconnected. When I woke up this morning I was feeling all sorts of uncomfortable because while I did the night before but it was nothing that I couldn't handle so soon as I got up I got cleaned up and went to go see my son who was busy having fun with his grandfather I asked him if you wanted to go out with me or spend some tim
Chapter 364MaxYou don't know how powerful you are until somebody points it out before you or somebody shows you that you've got the power within your hands to make Power making moves that can catapult you to influential status. I couldn't figure out why it It was so easy for Daniel to exactly into the gang without going through the rigorous process because I asked my new bestie about how he managed to land a job with both games and he told me that he had to go through a rigorous process and go through a rigorous process I just went for training and then before training I was already accepted into the fold so that didn't make sense however; Ellie had a valid point people don't just do things people do things that's know that what they are doing will benefit them in the long run whether it be to help them gain momentum for a blend that they're formulating or control a situation .Daniel is an upstanding guy I don't hate the guy I don't like neither so I have enough it's like I feel e
Chapter 365Ellie There's a point where you need to start taking stock of your feelings, what you feel, what you need to feel, what you also need to break down and deal with. I don't know if this is a thing , but I feel things intensity to a point where if a feeling cuts me I'm able to understand what the feeling is and box it and what happens when I box feelings as they had a box them according to their intensity to figure out which feelings I need to deal with and which ones I need to shower and deal with later if I need to deal with something now I deal with it immediately if I need to cry I cry immediately if I need to shout I need to shower immediately so it's game of playing self-control and managing my emotions so I need to know how to manage my emotions so that I don't take things personally.Emotions come In waves.Sometimes you're able to handle the way you feel and sometimes you drown in the waves that emotions tend to bring. Amwater sign that lives and emotions and both Ma
Chapter 366Maxyou know very well when you're about to go play a match whatever you have is enough to get you through the performance, whatever you wear and what every feeling you have means. I normally work through the nerves and of the times that I've been nervous my go-to thought all my go to safe place has always been the person that I want to marry and it turned out to be the person that I am engaged to right now. I've had nerves and I've had instances where I don't feel confident about the game I'm going to play but the only way to beat that is to have safe thoughts recently it has been only my son and my fiance but now I've got more things to think about than the usual soccer game and a performance that I have to put on. This is one of those days when I am not supposed to put on a performance because if I couldn't performance they are going to pick it up and if I act all weird they are still going to pick it up so the only thing to do is to act normal around both men who are
Chapter 367 Ellie If there's one thing that I don't want and one thing I don't want to go through again is the same hurt that I felt when Maxwell left me. You can love someone and give your all in a relationship but if the trust is not there then there's something that's missing people often say they trust is like a plate once you break it you can't put it back together but I beg to differ because once you break a plate it's up to you if you sweep up the pieces burn them making your plate it's ceramic for crying out loud so why would you not want to fix what was once broken and see if this person is capable of changing because everyone is capable of change if they want to change and if they are changing for the right person because if someone refuses to change they can actually limit the growth I always say a person who doesn't want to change as like a stagnant water , if doesn't move it can harbor filth. Water like blood is a life force. It's constantly moving and it's constantly
Chapter 368Max I'd like to believe that I'm not a skeptic but that would be lying. I know for a fact that I am a skeptical person because sometimes people don't always tell the truth, sometimes they just do and they sometimes make it into something that they want you to believe. There are always three sides to a story. I will say that there's always four sides to every story, there's the part that you hear, there's the part that the other person has to tell, the part that people believe is their own opinion of the truth and then the one that balances all is the real truth. When somebody says something it is always right to ask the person that they are talking about if what you heard was true if you don't it means that you choose to believe the truth that the other person who's lying told you and then you have to either verify the truth or believe the truth or someone else's version of the truth instead of hearing it from the horse's mouth. Deep down I knew for a fact that Matteo Ma
Chapter 369 Ellie The worst thing about setting up a meeting is if the person who set up the meeting doesn't pitch for the meeting and were civil and swine you know that the meeting is very important to both parties because it has to do with me marrying someone who requested for a meeting that I so wanted and now he's not here to eat the fruits of his labor. I'm still confused as to why Maxwell decided to have cold feet and not come to the party he's not the type of guy to chicken out of something that he said that he would do he's always been dependable and he's always been directed deliberate and intentional so for him to do what he did at a very important time of my life and at a time when I needed him the most is sort of out of character because it's not the guy that I've come to know and it's not the man that I thought and mind you thought being the operative word I was going to marry. I had to focus on the positives if I was still confused at how things had turned out and if
Chapter 370MaxwellI don't like being hurt preferably I would love to do the hair thing because I know that I I'm getting something out of it I'm getting cathartic experience but the only thing I like getting as a punching bag which of course I love hurting because it doesn't fight back and it's just there for me to take out my frustration but when somebody takes out their frustration when you turn extent it's called abuse if you allow it to happen on a constant basis but in this case it wasn't to be my best friend who I really appreciate right now and I am happy and Proud to call a friend.I have to say that he pulled a number on me I'm in pain and I'm recovering from The Blues that he told me to make it look like I was involved in an attack this guy's a professional at what he does and I didn't have any makeup so he made it look like it was very young and I have been coming for a little while I don't know how he does it but he's a genius and I'm thinking that Daniel bought the fact