Chapter 357EllieSuppressed feelings have a way of coming out unexpectedly if you don't want to know how to handle them. If you don't know how to be practical with your feelings and you know how to be practical with day-to-day things then you are not practical at all. You have to master both being practical with your feelings and your actions. The trick is to not let your feelings direct your actions. The hardest thing to master is to balance both your brain in your heart one cannot function without the other and you need to have both in agreement in order to be at peace but sometimes one knows more than the other and that's where in logic kicks in because you cannot be making decisions based on feelings you've got to make decisions that can sometimes be life-changing based on logic where feelings are concerned you need to take a bit more time to figure out if you are being driven by feeling or here if you are being driven by logic .
Chapter 358MaxThere is a point between knowing the truth about someone and not being surprised when you find out the truth about someone and being surprised about the new things you are learning about the person you thought you knew? I'm starting to believe that the person I thought I knew isn't the person that I got to know . The meeting that took place between me and Ellie's father was the most fruitful and insightful meeting I had to endure in years . I was given a breakdown of what would happen between the two gangs and how they came together, however the most interesting thing was the friendship between my fiance and her cousin. It turns out that they've always been friends and they've never been on opposite sides of the fence . They have been best friends for years and they had kept their friendship secret from everyone for years up until recently.I know that I'm not perfect and I
Chapter 359EllieI don't like not being in control of what's going on in my life,and with everything going on the last thing I needed was to be at odds with my fiance I'm still grappling with the fact that I finally found out who my real father was and that I was not as free as I thought I was on top of that I need to also figure out how am I going to navigate a lot of things. I need to grapple with the fact that I'm not who everybody says I am somebody different and I'm dealing with this metamorphosis the best way I can. I'm taking it as a big adventure but sometimes adventure has twists and turns and you need something or someone to ground you. Don't get me wrong I'm happy that my son and my fiance are with me and that last night I had a semi peaceful sleep.I know my fiance very well and I know it like the back of my hand and I knew that you was mad at me for conspiring with someone I was related to to make sure that
Chapter 360MaxI don't want to be fighting about Ellie with someone that clearly had a thing for her but now has to come to grips with the fact that she's mine and I have full permission from her father to be with her I know that she's going through a lot and I know that I haven't been the most supportive person but I needed to take my feelings seriously. She's going through a lot with regards to finding out that he isn't who he thought she was and the people that he thought were family I actually had capturers to have a life that you thought that you knew only to find out that the life you are living as an absolute lie is a lot to handle and a lot to take on and on top of that I had to find out that she was working together with someone that I didn't expect her to work with to keep me and my friend apart.I don't exactly have it's in history when it comes to the women I've dated and the woman I've been with but I
Chapter 361Elliethere are other things that I value my life and one of them is spending time with family and having breakfast with family but was also awesome with having breakfast with friends and catching up on old times full stop the nice part about this breakfast was that I was catching up with both my best friends who have been loyal to me for a very long time and with a new addition that was my fiance.There are many conversations you can have while eating breakfast. In my case it was wrong because I was talking with my fiance about his boss also because I don't think that I like Daniel anymore. You can give somebody so many chances to change to be a bit of a man but it seems as if he's got two sides that I knew about but I didn't pay attention to all the red flags.when I was in a relationship with him and felt natural if I deserve he was the right person but at the back of my mind I always thought of Maxwell.The
Chapter 362Max The situation that I'm in is not unique to me alone but it's the experience that makes it special I guess. It's not often that you get to see someone out without being taken away and I'm counting my blessings every day and I'm valuing every moment that I spend with my baby love and our son . Yesterday just before bed I had a conversation with Ellie about my job situation. I know that I messed up and I know that I didn't do what was right by blaming Carlo. The person that I was supposed to blame was Danel was the one who thought that it was a great idea to mess with my relationship and make me believe that something was going on between him and my baby love. I know that there was nothing going on with them because Ellie was not the type to say something and then do the direct opposite of what she said she would do. I knew that I didn't have a lot of time with regards to spending the next week with my son and my fiance. It's been a hectic couple of days and months but
Chapter 363Ellie I have a habit of not speaking up if something's wrong and if I'm not feeling well I have gotten into the habit of also sucking it up and getting on with my day because time waits for no one and I need to get things done . The only way to get things done is to do them and get on with life. There are also times when I feel like I want to just have a day off from my own life . If last night had anything to go but I had the best night that I've had in months and truth be told Mike solar has not lost his touch not even one bit but the fun part of it last night was that I was in control and I was having fun with him and had been a while since we reconnected. When I woke up this morning I was feeling all sorts of uncomfortable because while I did the night before but it was nothing that I couldn't handle so soon as I got up I got cleaned up and went to go see my son who was busy having fun with his grandfather I asked him if you wanted to go out with me or spend some tim
Chapter 364MaxYou don't know how powerful you are until somebody points it out before you or somebody shows you that you've got the power within your hands to make Power making moves that can catapult you to influential status. I couldn't figure out why it It was so easy for Daniel to exactly into the gang without going through the rigorous process because I asked my new bestie about how he managed to land a job with both games and he told me that he had to go through a rigorous process and go through a rigorous process I just went for training and then before training I was already accepted into the fold so that didn't make sense however; Ellie had a valid point people don't just do things people do things that's know that what they are doing will benefit them in the long run whether it be to help them gain momentum for a blend that they're formulating or control a situation .Daniel is an upstanding guy I don't hate the guy I don't like neither so I have enough it's like I feel e