Chapter 335Max I think that I've been cheated on before, my memory is a bit foggy but I can remember everything I've been through with Ellie. I was lucky to have her, and I still am. Before she left there was something in me that switched on. I wanted to go through her stuff because I didn't know how to handle the guilt I was feeling. When I saw the condoms I just lost my cool. Everything started coming back to me and even the moment I gave Ellie the condoms for safekeeping. I wanted to use them until I was sure I was going to be a good father and not cheat on her. I remembered everything as soon as I calm down and he was telling the truth I was the one who was being skeptical and before she left she told me that she would be back to come to get ready and then she would be gone full stop and which in that time that she goes to the party and the time that she comes back it will be a very long time. If I didn't have an answer as to what the nature of our relationship was or is rig
Chapter 336EllieI'm not perfect. I have my days. There are days when I moody and there are days where I want to fight back with everything that I have but right now I'm really I've run out of find and I could really use a friend but all of my friends are busy getting ready for a celebration which I am invited to and have been warned not to go to but I'm going to go to it anyway. I know that Angela would understand if I said that I didn't want to go to his party because of the gang tensions but I figured I need a night away from my life and everything that has to do with my life and I needed a change of scenery and I also need to change my hairstyle and go back to my natural hair color which was dark brown . On top of that I also needed to find an outfit to wear for the party tonight and it was a themed party which wasn't that bad because I love them . The theme was Kings and Queens. It was a fitting theme to A very lovely couple. I wanted to arrive as a princess but I can't do that
Chapter 337Max I can't go out not yet . I am also not allowed to go out unsupervised. I'm still in recovery . Until I can prove that I am fit enough to what do anything irrational like what I did I have to have someone always watching over me which is a good thing and it is an annoying thing but in my case my best friend is doing and he's not my new bestie anymore but he's not my best friend so I'm very lucky to have I'm around he's probably like a brother to me so Daniel it's like a second brother to me apparently I lost my younger brother and my sister is almost due with regards to giving birth to my niece. I hope she named her after her mother and not Paul's mother. I've come to the conclusion that I don't like Paul. I didn't want to see him and I had a flashback of me telling him to stay the hell away from Ellie. I don't know what the reason was but I just didn't like the guy. I also don't like the fact that I've gotta work with him in order to keep the woman I love safe I do lo
Chapter 338Ellie I know Matteo .he is the type of guy to catch you on your way and he's the type of guy to strike when you don't suspect a thing so when I saw him walking into Carlo's restaurant, I wasn't as readout as Carla was he had terrible timing because; I was going to ask Carlo not to call for backup whatever he did he wasn't supposed to call for backup because and that would trigger him and he would do something drastic and something drastic would be making sure that I didn't get home to my son and my boyfriend and he would use me like a gate to get whatever he wanted. He doesn't suspect a thing, Afghanistan is an SOS to the gang and will be getting me and him in more trouble than he ever thought because I know for a fact that Matteo's guys shoot to kill and the last thing we need is for him to know that I am on to him and I'm the keeper of the map he wants. We have many of them and the ones that are easy to access are connections we have used for a long time … the others a
Chapter 339 Max The one thing about waiting is that there are times when time is not your friend and there are times when time is your friend and there are times when time flies and you wish that you had more time to spend with the ones you love. Time can be your best friend or your worst enemy depending on how you look at it right now. It is my worst enemy because I don't want to play the waiting game. It had been six hours since I called Ellie and Matteo answered her phone . I can't remember what I did to him but as soon as I remember and I figure out why he hates me , I will try and make things right but it doesn't seem like a bargaining man or a man who likes to negotiate and anyone who wants to negotiate with him better have a good reason for negotiating with him that includes having sharp negotiation skills which I am starting to find out my girlfriend has. Fabio it's friendly but he doesn't take any nonsense. He looks like he's been trained in a lot of combat arts. I have mus
Chapter 340 EllieThis it's not the first time that I have been taken by an opposing gang and my way around not so I know my way around being tied up but this is a whole new different ball game because Matteo is a man of intent. I knew I was being followed. I needed him to come to me. I didn't need to go to him but I ended up having to go with him and it was not planned but it was something I expected to happen because I knew how Carl reacts in certain situations. My heart also was breaking for Maxwell I could only imagine what he was going through because I know for a fact that he does the love me and he does remember loving me and to remember loving me only to have me being taken away is not a nice feeling when you feel awful stuff things and you feel like the one person you can trust who thought that you can trust but pushed away and didn't want is not there and they are taken away at the very moment that you remember what once was.I'm glad that my memory came back gradually and
Chapter 341MaxI'm not a sore loser. I just don't like losing knowing that I got a phone and knowing that I tried my best and lost is a horrible feeling. I don't want to sleep tonight. I don't remember ever having a sleepless night over something that I couldn't quite grasp. My friend was having a pretty party today and I needed to make an appearance. It's not fair to not make an appearance at a friend's birthday party and show disrespect and it shows that you don't care which is the one thing that I don't want to happen. I remembered that Toby was my minder, but after the call that I had with Daniel, I can see why my boyfriend decided to call in the backup because of what I did to my father who I just found out that is working for the enemy. The more I tried to make sense of what was going on the more I got confused. The last thing I want is confusion but the one thing I do want is to let go and have a good time from what Fabio told me; Michelangelo is a party animal and he comes ou
Chapter 342 Ellie I love playing dress-up. I love it, even more, when I have to dress up to go to a party that is the party of the month, not the year because my birthday is coming up in a short while well in a month or so after we celebrate Michelangelo's birthday, Carlo's, and Matteo's. We have a history that I haven't told anyone for my safety for his safety and for the safety of both parties involved I've always known how he has operated and I always know what he uses to hack into other people's systems I'm just 10 steps ahead of him and I knew that he knew that I knew where Romano and Melech were. I couldn't ask anyone within the gang to help me. I had to ask somebody outside the gang to help me pull this off and he helped me pull it off in spectacular fashion because the only way I could get the recording was that they were looking for ways to ask for it and it would be given to me by mentioning his name. The main reason I kept Melech and Romano hid in plain sight was bec
Chapter 374 Ellie I locked eyes with him, placed my spoon down, I placed both the palms of my hands on either side of his jaw and kissed him. "I have always had the fear of you leaving me and us not getting back together again. We almost lost it all but we fought to get to every year and I don't want us to not be with each other and have each other's backs when we're down. I know that sometimes our Lives can get hectic and thank you for forgiving me for what I did with Matteo. We both don't want to risk losing the people we loved and it seems as if Paulina is in love with you." "That may be true but my heart belongs to you I love you and I will never stop loving you you went when I was with other people I could think about was you so we also have something that we did together in that binds us so nice and I will never forget the day that we had our binding rooms done together at the same tattoo parlor. That was one of the best days of my life because you admitted strawberry ice cr
Chapter 373 Ellie I've been in pain before both emotionally and physically but combined it's a different kind of pain. Pain has levels that transcends by either triggers or events that trigger the same sensation that you felt before. It's like seasonal trauma but on a bigger scale because you feel it physically and you also feel that emotionally and no matter how hard you try not to feel like you always end up feeling it because it's meant to be felt. I always said that if you have torrents for paying you can tolerate anything, any blow that hits you or any fall that you suffer. I didn't expect what would happen. It wasn't supposed to happen if I had just said that I wasn't pregnant and just kept quiet and walked away instead of letting my ego get the better of me. I had to help my territory. Paulina needed to know that what she was doing was wrong. I already admitted to wrongdoing by trying to stop her friendship with my fiance from blooming because I was afraid of losing him
Chapter 372 Max By the time we made it to the hospital we had to enter another section of the hospital which was in the main entrance. I was a betting man. I'd say that these people have sections of hospitals everywhere they have wings .even when I traveled abroad with Daniel he had to go see a friend of his who was involved in a shooting that he wasn't supposed to be involved in and the level of security clearance was out of this world I had never seen security clearance like that and me being a football player which of course I'd need to get back to playing football our security clearance is nothing compared to the security clearance these guys have to get you have to be identified you have to know that you will be searched and the people that are searching you have to know that you're coming so for me to be tagging along with Fabio was a miracle. As soon as we walked in we were offered something to eat and drink but I don't have the first to drink anything in all the appetite
Chapter 371 Max have you ever been connected to someone so much so that you know that when something is wrong you can feel it in your blood bones and everything including your soul and you wonder if it might be something good or might be something bad or maybe it's just your mind playing tricks on you but I believe that when you are connected with someone and you've created love with someone you can feel when something is a bit off or something is wrong and in my case I did feel that something was off when I got taken away all of the sudden when I organised a meeting between Romano and Claudio. however understand reason why it happened but what I don't understand is the way I'm feeling right now because if you deserve the right has been pulled out from under me and I don't know how to react how to respond or 38 I don't know how you feel because I cannot comprehend how I feel everything was going ok I knew that the person that I loved and my loved ones are ok but all of the sudden t
Chapter 370MaxwellI don't like being hurt preferably I would love to do the hair thing because I know that I I'm getting something out of it I'm getting cathartic experience but the only thing I like getting as a punching bag which of course I love hurting because it doesn't fight back and it's just there for me to take out my frustration but when somebody takes out their frustration when you turn extent it's called abuse if you allow it to happen on a constant basis but in this case it wasn't to be my best friend who I really appreciate right now and I am happy and Proud to call a friend.I have to say that he pulled a number on me I'm in pain and I'm recovering from The Blues that he told me to make it look like I was involved in an attack this guy's a professional at what he does and I didn't have any makeup so he made it look like it was very young and I have been coming for a little while I don't know how he does it but he's a genius and I'm thinking that Daniel bought the fact
Chapter 369 Ellie The worst thing about setting up a meeting is if the person who set up the meeting doesn't pitch for the meeting and were civil and swine you know that the meeting is very important to both parties because it has to do with me marrying someone who requested for a meeting that I so wanted and now he's not here to eat the fruits of his labor. I'm still confused as to why Maxwell decided to have cold feet and not come to the party he's not the type of guy to chicken out of something that he said that he would do he's always been dependable and he's always been directed deliberate and intentional so for him to do what he did at a very important time of my life and at a time when I needed him the most is sort of out of character because it's not the guy that I've come to know and it's not the man that I thought and mind you thought being the operative word I was going to marry. I had to focus on the positives if I was still confused at how things had turned out and if
Chapter 368Max I'd like to believe that I'm not a skeptic but that would be lying. I know for a fact that I am a skeptical person because sometimes people don't always tell the truth, sometimes they just do and they sometimes make it into something that they want you to believe. There are always three sides to a story. I will say that there's always four sides to every story, there's the part that you hear, there's the part that the other person has to tell, the part that people believe is their own opinion of the truth and then the one that balances all is the real truth. When somebody says something it is always right to ask the person that they are talking about if what you heard was true if you don't it means that you choose to believe the truth that the other person who's lying told you and then you have to either verify the truth or believe the truth or someone else's version of the truth instead of hearing it from the horse's mouth. Deep down I knew for a fact that Matteo Ma
Chapter 367 Ellie If there's one thing that I don't want and one thing I don't want to go through again is the same hurt that I felt when Maxwell left me. You can love someone and give your all in a relationship but if the trust is not there then there's something that's missing people often say they trust is like a plate once you break it you can't put it back together but I beg to differ because once you break a plate it's up to you if you sweep up the pieces burn them making your plate it's ceramic for crying out loud so why would you not want to fix what was once broken and see if this person is capable of changing because everyone is capable of change if they want to change and if they are changing for the right person because if someone refuses to change they can actually limit the growth I always say a person who doesn't want to change as like a stagnant water , if doesn't move it can harbor filth. Water like blood is a life force. It's constantly moving and it's constantly
Chapter 366Maxyou know very well when you're about to go play a match whatever you have is enough to get you through the performance, whatever you wear and what every feeling you have means. I normally work through the nerves and of the times that I've been nervous my go-to thought all my go to safe place has always been the person that I want to marry and it turned out to be the person that I am engaged to right now. I've had nerves and I've had instances where I don't feel confident about the game I'm going to play but the only way to beat that is to have safe thoughts recently it has been only my son and my fiance but now I've got more things to think about than the usual soccer game and a performance that I have to put on. This is one of those days when I am not supposed to put on a performance because if I couldn't performance they are going to pick it up and if I act all weird they are still going to pick it up so the only thing to do is to act normal around both men who are