Ellie
Sometimes love isn't enough. I say this with a heavy heart because I remember that I hit lights out last night, and the reason I am regretting my life choices is because I may have hurt the man I love . What was supposed to be an open conversation turned out to be a judgmental session and I was the one who ended up hurt , because of the bullets Maxwell was shooting from his mouth. I had gone through hell with Dexter before. I didn't care if we broke up because I didn't love him completely and he didn't have my heart. I care at the moment because the person I hurt has always had my heart and It feels as if I have not only lost my best friend , but teammate. I woke up on Saturday morning with the mother of all hangovers in my bedroom at the family home. I was wearing the dress I had on the day before , which was a v neck LBD . I looked at my mirror and I looked as good as I felt... like hell . I got cleaned up and went downstairs , the ki
MaxNo matter how hard Ellie tries to hide something ; I always find it be it , physically or emotionally , I poke until she comes out with it. She suggested we go to Saturday mass instead of Sunday because, the gossip and rumor mill was turning. She ended her friendship with Maria and I couldn't be more happier. She has also found a new friend in Cleo who happens to live in the same Estate as we do. She is Daniel's sister , who is in love with Angelo Massa . I have never liked any Massa , but Ellie invited them to the house warming this Saturday which was tomorrow. I am friends with Salvatore and it will remain that way. During guys night out yesterday Daniel invited him . He already popped the question to Cleo and she is six months pregnant with a baby girl. They also have twins. I have met Pio and Pia; they are both adorable and Pio seems to like me more than her sister who is shy. I try not to cry but I do that when Ellie is fast asleep. I go downstairs to t
Chapter 28EllieI've had nightmares before; but not as intense and as real as the one I had a couple of hours ago. I hadn't told Maxwell that I had a run in with his father at the fresh produce market. I had driven back into my home town and touched base at the orphanage before I went to go get some milk, cheese, vegetable and fruits. I didn't recognize him until I bought a milk tart Max always loved when we were young. His father's family owned a farm and mass produced various deserts including my favourite blue berry cheesecake. Max's aunt Maxine was always at the stall and we had a great relationship . Even when Jeremiah went off the rails , we still talked. Maxwell's relationship with her wasn't okay and that worried me. He wouldn't talk to me about it then and now he has a habit of closing off and going cold. I was feeling iffy about telling him. I was planning to talk to him over dinner before we prepped for lunch tomorrow. I ne
MaxEllie has a way of distracting me. She hasn't lost her touch not even one bit. I thought we were going to discuss her doctor's results , but we ended up in bed again and , I kind of thought I was the one with the stamina but she surprised me. Usually she is the one who is up before the birds chirp but, this morning she was fast asleep next to me . I would have known if she slipped out of bed because it was cloudy outside and a bit nippy because we were on the top floor. It was going to get hotter . I realized what disturbed me from my peaceful slumber when I looked across the night stand . Ellie's phone had an incoming call and she wasn't waking up any time soon. I gently untangled myself from her and walked to the other side of the bed to retrieve her phone and walk out the bedroom to her study. Daniel was staying at my apartment and he said that he'd help out with the housewarming in terms of food and drinks .As soon as I made i
EllieMax placed my phone on my desk , and looked at me with sad eyes . I could be so mad at him right now, but I can't be after what I just heard . Maxwell never confused me . We've known each other since we were kids, and every time he pulled that look he knew he was busted . He turned the swivel chair around and placed his palms on his face. I was wearing his blue superman shirt that went up to my knees and I was still feeling the effects of the stuff we got up to all night last night. I walked to where he was and knelt in front of him ."MJ?""Ell?"I slowly peeled his palms off his face and he looked at me with tears in his eyes . I placed my palms on his face and wiped his tears he sat up and I sat on his lap and gave him a hug and he held me close." Hey it's okay you don't have to tell me everything at once my baby love."" I do because you're my best friend and teammate . "I pulled back and
MaxThere are moments in life when you regret the mistakes you make, and when you realize how much of a fool you have been . I don't know why I keep on hurting the people I love . I always find a way to mess up the one good thing I have , except for a relationship that was mended by a woman whose heart I think I just broke . After slamming the door I couldn't bring myself to leave and just run . I heard Ellie shut the bathroom door and I stood up to go to her guest room to go get cleaned up .I knew I had just messed up and I couldn't leave her thinking I broke her heart. Now that I think about it I didn't even give her a chance to plead her case . Ellie has always been my biggest can even when I thought I was messed up; she showed me that I can trust with no holds bard and be accepted for who and what I am. It's not that I am struggling to trust her, I am afraid to let go because I fear losing what I already have . Once I was done I w
Chapter 32EllieWhen Max walked out if the bedroom I was sure I was done with him... Not really I loved him, and to be honest I was a bit fired up . I think we both needed time to cool off and then talk . After getting cleaned up and changing into a red top and black jeans with back sneakers to match, I went into the study to go make a phone call . I had told Meagan what had happened and that I really don't know how to help his son when he will not open up. She told me that she found him crying his eyes out the day before yesterday in the laundry room because he thought he deserved everything bad that was happening to him. When I mentioned Maria ; she sighed and told me that she has been guilt tripping Maxwell for a decision they both took together . She had mentioned that Max and Maria were both pregnant but they were career focused and they decided to terminate the pregnancy. Maria was never really over max so they continued to see
MaxThree weeks . It's been exactly three weeks, and I haven't heard anything from Ellie . She won't take anyone's calls not even Daniel's .On the day she said she needed a break we went through with the housewarming party and everyone except for Salvatore knew what was going on . He had snuck up on Maria and knocked her out by injecting something into her neck. As soon as she was knocked out he called the cops.The party went well and Ellie knew how to hide the fact that we were in trouble , she wasn't with me half the time and during lunch she did sit next to me . My brother wanted to tell me something but ; he held back , I later received a text from him asking what was going on? I told him; I messed up so badly I don't think there is a way to fix the mess I made. Ellie wasn't even talking to my mother that's how bad things were .It's been raining all week and it hasn't stopped . The weather
EllieTaking a break is necessary, where feelings and heart matters are concerned . The three weeks I took away from everyone worked for me ... Make it two weeks because Blake found me. I never left home I just went out of sight . I needed to change my security system in my apartment and it turned out Blake's side hustle was the best.He is was a tech head with a romantic streak because he confessed to me about what he did on the day Maria held me hostage. He told me that he didn't anticipate what happened to happen and that; Max was in bad shape and he was sad. When I told him about what I was told and what I found out with regards to Max and his trust issues, he told me Maxwell trusts me with his life. Blake was always fair and I loved him more as my "adopted" little brother because he always told the truth when it mattered the most .I was going to take a longer hiatus until Blake told me he knew that I