Chapter 203
Max
I have never liked keeping things from Ellie . We haven't been talking to each other let's get to the point where I need to just either hang in there or let go of her completely and we can co-parent. I know I was wrong for doing what I did with Daniel. It was the only way that I could prove his innocence and when he remembered he told me that I shouldn't tell anyone that you remember thuy was and what he did. We did talk it out and he came to the conclusion that we only let Ellie know once his name was cleared because the puppet master wasn't him it was Salvatore who confessed that he too wanted Ellie.
I was missing early and I wanted to see her and ikes also. I had two days before I had to report for duty and put on a great performance. My Lake had healed and my uncle was functioning properly. Ellie help me at the toughest time of my recovery and I was thankful that she did because I wouldn't have known that doing ballet was a
Chapter 204EllieMy lunch with Cleo was upsetting to say the least and she had exciting news to share with me but I on the other hand was really sad about a whole lot of things that included Maxwell getting all cosy with Paulina who he is rumoured to be getting close with. Even though I'm engaged to Maxwell I don't have on his engagement ring and that mad at fuel to the fire if I get photographed without the ring.I was really looking forward to telling clear about my engagement to Maxwell and as much as I wanted to give it to you if I wanted to stand on the rooftops and shout it out to the whole world that I have engaged and I am the next Mrs Blackwell well the one and only at the moment. I left my ring in my bag for safety reasons but it also I wasn't sure if I still wanted to be engaged to Maxwell because he was taking way too long with regards to getting things done or us getting married . Granted that I have
Chapter 205MaxWhen Ellie asked me the question she asked me I couldn't give her a straight answer . I had been interviewed recently by a local newspaper asking me ; if my girlfriend wasn't black would I want to marry her or be with her, and that the question that followed was that if; Eleanor wasn't loaded or die still want to be with her and marry her or still wants to have more babies with her.My answers to those questions were simple.I don't member Evernote loving Eleanor or being with her when I was going through the toughest of times. She has always been there for me and she's always been patient with me even when I didn't know how to deal with certain problems she helped me troubleshoot and for that I will always be thankful.I knew I wasn't answering the question, but truth be told how do you answer a question that requires you to dig deep when you've always been a quiet
Chapter 206EllieI've known Max long enough to know when he has just received bad news or knows that he is about to receive bad news . His eyes usually give him away and he has this thing that he does with his pinky , he puts it in one whole hand and squeezes it . He also keeps quiet and gets into his head about a lot of things and starts over analysing scenarios that don't exist in real life . When Max hung up the phone he wasn't himself, he was a bit out of sorts .When I recieved a call from ; Blake telling me to get to the hospital because something terrible had happened , I told him I'd be there with Max . Getting Max into the car with me wasn't that difficult to do since he followed me without saying a word . It was already riush hour and I knew that the traffic was going to be a nightmare. There was no other way to get to the hospital and thirty minutes away from the medical facility ; M
Chapter 207EllieWithin seconds of me shouting for help the heart doctors surrounding me trying to help Blake. Max came out of his mother's cubicle to see what was going on. When he saw me lying next to Blake who was having a seizure, he too lost his cool . He was screaming for help just as much as I was and he didn't realise that help had already arrived . As soon as they took Blake away to the E.R I was scared. Not only for my life but for the fact that Blake might not make it because he didn't look too well and I don't think his brother noticed.I still needed to see Janet together with Max. Before we could go back into the cubicle that Janet was in we heard ringing and alarm sounds that will coming from her room. It was the machine and you had gone into cardiac arrest because the last thing we both remembered was hearing the doctor shout; get the crash cart . When everything goes wrong and it goes
Chapter 208MaxThree days when I feel like nothing is ever going to go right. I listen to most important people in my life. I lost Blake my mother. I know that I should be talking to someone what what I'm going through but at the moment I feel everything and nothing at the same time I want to feel the good and bad it is just too difficult to process what's going on.When Raphael told us that both my mother and my brother and my mother didn't make it, it felt like the whole world and went dark including mine I know I should be thankful for what I have right now. It's hard to focus on the good when everything bad is happening around you and you just want to be left alone full stop in my case I want to be left alone because I had an important match to play on the day after the unthinkable happened I had contractual agreements that I had to uphold so I ended up doing what needed to be done .
Chapter 209MaxI looked at Eleanor not wanting to cry. I know that I haven't been the best day to come home to. I didn't know where Ellie's head was at. There were days when I knew how to approach a situation where my fiance is concerned. This summer I feel like I've messed up and that there is no coming back from what I did. I shouldn't have done what I did I should have just talked to Eleanor and told her that I was feeling too weak and not as strong as she's come to know me to be and the last thing I ever wanted her to do was to question whether or not she wants to be with me and stay with me through everything."Ellie the last thing I ever wanted to do was keep quiet. I wanted to talk to you so badly but I couldn't because I just don't know-how. I haven't talked to anyone and I haven't been talking to anyone hell you can even ask my sister, she even told me to talk to you or at least try spending some more tim
Chapter 210EllieLife; death, and rebirth. Three things that we are supposed to know about and have a clue about the direction we are supposed to take, but at times they can be the three things that define our journey on earth and our spiritual flow into the next life . I've come to understand the three stages always have meaning in more ways than one.Nobody ever really has life sussed out ; and everything happens for a reason no matter how cliche it might sound if something didn't happen you wouldn't be where you are right now and if you weren't given the choice you'd say that; you're a victim of circumstance but everybody always has a choice no matter how hard ,how easy ,or how logical everyone has a decision to make that may affect their lives in one way or another.I could have chosen not to get back together with my ex ...after the pain he caused me on a previous breakup 10 y
Chapter 211MaxThe most brutal feeling one can ever feel in my opinion is having something beeb taken away from you and not getting the chance to say goodbye or be given enough time to prepare to say goodbye to someone you love. They say that the hardest part of any death is letting go not being present. That may be true; but the hardest part of any death is being present and watching it happen in front of you first I saw my brother die in front of me in my fiance's arms. Then when that was happening I got a chance to speak to my mother but I didn't get a chance to say goodbye. She had a very important message to give me but she slipped away before I could hear what she wanted to say.I had to deal with saying goodbye to two of the most important people in my life without saying goodbye properly. I know that I cannot change how things turned out and I had no control over what happened. Part of me feels lik