Imperfection

Elle pov

They say beauty is what lies inside but why does this world always make me feel the opposite.

I mean I don't mind not getting attention from any guy out there, but I do mind being called ugly again and again.

Ugly duckling is what he calls me and every time he uses this world something hits my insides.

I mean don't husbands usually call their wives darling ,baby cupcake ,sweetheart or other sugarcoated appealing words like that?

"Ma'am, are you listening?"

The maid said moving her hand in front of my eyes to get my attention.

"Oh sorry May.....what were you saying?"

"Ma'am Sir said that today you are to get ready by 7 ,an after marriage party is being organised ..."

"Okay, thanks May,I will be ready."

"Do you need any help getting ready? If you want I call for our specialist team ?"

"I will manage on my own May ,thanks though."

"You are most welcome Madame,let me know if you need something."

She was gone giving me a smile which I returned.

Ignoring my burning body and throbbing head.

I lay down on the bed staring at the ceiling wondering when this party will get over and I can return to my bed.

A few hours later.....

"Just a second May! I will be there!"

I screamed from inside the bathroom as I gave my makeup it's final touches.

I was wearing a red dress with quarter sleeves,the stuff was body-hugging and I, for the first time felt beautiful wearing it .

My hair were tied in a high bun with my flick laying lightly on my face.

I didn't feel like using a blush as my cheeks were already a bit pinkish ,burning with fever.

With one final look, I opened my door to be met with a cold look from my husband.

He was looking perfect in a black tuxedo and for a second I forgot that I was blankly gawking at him.

"This will not do."

He simply says,a looks of distaste covering his perfect features.

"Huh?"

I ask ,not sure if I heard him right.

He shook his head in a no and looks displeasingly at me.

His words broke me for the first time...I mean I thought I looked beautiful for the first time in my life.

Why will he say something like this?

He moved closer to me and I couldn't manage to look into his eyes anymore.

The eyes which displayed how much he hated me.

I felt his fingers run through my hair to stop on my hair clutch , and next I know I felt a tug and my long hair flowed down my back covering the deep back neck of my dress fully.

I looked up surprised at him to only find his eyes fixed on my lips.

Handing me a napkin he speaks in coldness.

"Dab it on your lips,the lipstick is too dark."

I follow his instructions and all this time his eyes didn't leave my lips.

Making me even more self conscious.

Next, his fingers move up to play with my fringe.

Rotating it in his fingers.

The rotational swings made it bouncy and he laid it softly on my cheek.

His cold knuckles slide down  my burning cheek , making a shiver to runs down my spine .

Making my whole body to quiver under his touch.

I expected him to feel disgusted and that's exactly what he did.

He moved back his hand ,so fast like my touch just burned him.

Placing his hands back in his pant pockets he moves back from me.

He looked very angry at something ,which I failed to recognise.

I didn't do anything to infuriate him further, hell I even listened to his instructions.

Then why this change in his temperament?

"Do you think you look beautiful today?"

His words were like swords, piercing right through my heart.

Making me instantly look up at him, surprised to hear such a question.

"Ehhh... I don't know....I guess Asht-"

"Shhhhh"

He said showing me his hand and closing his eyes.

He looked belligerent and I don't know how I played a part in it.

"Don't you dare to say my name!It's Mr Lockwood to you....you ugly girl!"

Him calling me ugly again made tears well up in my eyes.

Control Elle!

You can't cry in front of him , you are sensitive but don't let him see it.

You can't be vulnerable in front of him.

"I don't know why dad had to choose a girl like you! I seriously don't know what he saw in an ugly girl such as yourself !"

I can't take it anymore.

Till now everyone has shown me through their behaviour and actions as of how unfit and and stigmatic I was on their name.

However ,he is the first man who had the audacity to say such harsh words straight on my face.

To defile my confidence so boldly.

He may be the most beautiful man I have ever seen but no one gave him the right to disgrace others.

We all are creations of the same creator and he was in no way better.

"Just how am I going to introduce you to them! Your hair is all rough and dull, your eyes have dark circles. Couldn't you at least cover them!"

He continues making my anger to reach it's brim.

"I hate it when things don't go according to me and you are the biggest example of it! I hate you ugly duckling!I fucking hate you so damn much!"

He shouted at my face ,glaring at me with those hateful eyes.

As the first tear escapes my eyes, my mind forgot all obedience he wanted me to follow.

I exploded , I have listened to enough of his bullshit already.

"Just go Fuck yourself Mr Lockwood! Go grab some whore and present her as your wife ! I am not going anywhere with you! Fuck you function!! Fuck your guests!! And Fuck YOU!"

The words leave my lips before I could stop myself.

I was right though, I have nothing to be afraid of.

He can be domineering and controlling.

Still bearable but I will never stand with what is wrong.

And he was wrong.

"What did you just say?"

He says in a low deadly voice, coming closer to me like a hunter approaches its prey.

My legs move back automatically as I continue to stare at him.

"I asked what you said, Elle!"

"You heard me already okay! I am not repeating myself!"

He was trying to calm himself.I fucked up his nerves.

Good.

He deserves it.

I saw him clenching and un clenching his fists before he takes a deep breath and continues.

"Come let's go."

He said in defeat ,turning around and moving towards the door.

But I refused.

He should learn to respect me and not treat me like this.

On seeing that I didn't follow him ,his footsteps stop to look back at me. 

I refused to acknowledge him by staring at the ceiling.

"Elle! I said come!"

When I again refused , the wild fire in his eyes got intensified. The beast in him woke up and he made his way towards me.

I turned my back on him, holding the wardrobe handle tightly behind.

Please go....please go.....I don't want to attend this party.....please leave...I kept praying.

Next, I know he pulled me up in his arms bridal style and I shrieked in surprise.

"Ahhh....put me down! Put me down! You asshole! "

I tightly held the handle to stop him from moving but it just took one pull from him and my grip on the handle dropped.

I was thrashing in his arms, screaming to let go ,but he ignores me and leads us towards the main hall.

Were we going to enter like this! Oh no!

What is this man doing!

Has he gone crazy or what?

"If you continue to behave like a spoiled little bitch you are , remember I won't mind teaching you some manners!"

"Just put me down you ass**** ! How dare you call me a bi*** when you are a Fucking bastard!"

"Such beautiful words from your mouth Elle, I swear I will love to shut your trap with a duct tape if you don't stop with this!"

His threat made me go silent for a second,this man is insane,he can do anything.

"You won't!"

"Try me my ugly duckling! The guests won't mind your absence after waiting for so long.Getting locked in a bathroom with duct tape on your mouth, isn't it a dream reception for you?"