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Leonardo

Hope is the worst emotion to experience when there’s no light at the end of the tunnel.

You wait.

You pray.

You even try to delude yourself that it’s not happening to you. That it just can’t be you.

But that’s the problem with hope.

The false positive. The feeling that the horrible situation can end any moment when that’s far from the truth.

It’s the falsification of reality.

The yearning for a different dream.

A feeling of being on the cloud that can’t be reached in real-time.

I had this feeling for years while I was in B-20 until one day when I made myself realize there was no hope at all.

As I sit here with Nova, reminiscing over the horrible feelings and things I did a part of me wants to put an end to this story before it even starts.

"You were still so young. They had no right to deprive you of your life." Nova says, agitated.

I chuckle at her reaction. I was just getting started with the story. "It didn't matter to them. Twenty-one was the perfect age. S
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  • His To Ruin   The End

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  • His To Ruin   Loving Her

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  • His To Ruin   Their Wrath

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  • His To Ruin   She's safe

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