When everyone heard Lu Zhan's name, they all looked at him. So many eyes came to him at once. Lu Zhan was nervous and didn't know where to look. Disciple B seemed a little unresponsive and asked, "Master, what did he say he was looking at?" What?" Disciple C said, "It must be the cultivation rings of Brother Jiang and Brother Lin." Disciple B said, "No wonder, Brother Jiang and Brother Lin rely on their ability. Only Brother Jiang has two rings in our academy. Brother Lin, who wouldn't be jealous?" Disciple C said, "What's more, he framed Brother Lin before. In the end, all the disciples from outside were scared away, which simply ruined the face of our Hengtian Sect."
Lu Zhan heard their conversation, lowered his head on the table, clenched his fists, and exposed his veins. The Master patted the table and said, "Quiet." After that, he continued to teach. This kind of thing would not be easy for anyone, let alone an arrogant and domineering person.
Shen Lan saw Lin Zhihui's cultivation ring and said, "Xiao Hui, this is the first time I got a cultivation ring. Do you know how to use it?" Lin Zhihui said, "In addition to the function of preserving and repairing memories, I didn't find anything else. "Mother Lin said, "Turn the ring to the center of your middle finger, and then press the silver embellishment. "The embellishment is a small piece of gemstone, which is very dazzling. Lin Zhihui did so, and then pressed it and found that there was a sword hidden in the space. , with sharp edge and ice soul in ecstasy, Mother Lin said, "There is a weapon hidden in every ring, and this sword is just right for you."
Lin Zhihui was very happy. The sword could still recognize its owner. It circled around Lin Zhihui several times in the air. Lin Zhihui stretched out his hand, and then it slowly fell into Lin Zhihui's hand. Mother Lin said, "Okay. , this sword will be yours from now on, now you can give it a name."
Lin Zhihui asked, "Didn't it have a name originally?" Mother Lin said, "The weapon in the ring is kept by the owner, so the name should also come from the owner." Lin Zhihui picked up the sword and looked at it carefully and said, "Look The sword god Bing Jie can make people feel ecstasy, so I will call him ecstasy. "
Each ring hides a weapon, so Jiang Yuan already has three. Thinking of this, Lin Zhihui suddenly felt a sense of disparity. However, his parents also had several rings, but they used the same kind of weapon every time, so he asked, "Mother, did your Hua Luo Sword also come from a ring?"
Shen Lan said, "Yes, Hua Luo is the first time I got the sword in the cultivation ring." Lin Zhifu asked, "Why have I only seen you use Hua Luo and never seen you use weapons in other rings?" Shen Lan looked at the red ring she was wearing and said, "The first time I saw Hua Luo, I was impressed by its courage. I could feel my whole hand shaking when I held the hilt of it. When I held it in my hand, I could feel a different power. This power was so powerful that I decided it was my only weapon. "
Lin Zhihui couldn't believe that a sword could have such magical power. Shen Lan continued, "Maybe you will get other cultivation rings in the future, but if you can identify a weapon, don't replace it. They He is very spiritual and understands the feelings of the director. "Lin Zhihui picked up the rapture and performed a set of sword skills. The sword was as white as jade, and its body was as light as a giant. Its sharpness was unstoppable wherever it went. It was indeed a superb weapon. sword.
Lin Zhifan took the opportunity to practice swordsmanship and familiarize himself with the sword. The sword had already recognized its master and could only be used by Lin Zhifan. When Lin Zhifan called its name, it would immediately unsheathe and fly towards its master. After practicing for an entire afternoon, Lin Zhifan had almost mastered the sword of the sword.
"It's really a good sword." Lin Zhifan was practicing swordplay when he heard someone talking. The person who came applauded and congratulated him. Lin Zhifan saw that it was Jiang Yuan and said, "What is there to congratulate? Don't I always fail to congratulate you every time you get a weapon?" Jiang Yuan smiled and said, "Although this sword is sharp, it is too light and not as stable as my Ruyi."
"Ruyi? Your sword is called Ruyi?" Lin Zhihui felt funny when he heard Jiang Yuan's sword name. Why did it sound like a girl's name? Jiang Yuan said, "What's wrong with Ruyi? Everything goes as you wish, every year goes as you wish, every day goes as you wish. Such an auspicious name is perfect for my sword." Lin Zhihui said, "Good, good, good, What you said makes sense. Ruyi is indeed very auspicious, as long as you like it." After saying this, he was still thinking about the word "ruyi".
Jiang Yuan asked, "I wonder what your sword is called?"
"Ecstasy."
"Pfft" was the first name Jiang Yuan heard, but when he saw Lin Zhihui's eyes, he immediately changed his expression and said, "Ecstasy is good, just draw the sword and make the enemy ecstasy." Lin Zhihui shook his head and said, " That's not what I meant by the name I gave it."
"Huh? What's the point of that?"
"The first time I saw it, I thought it was flawless and flawless, which made people ecstasy, so..."
"Oh~, that's it. It's pretty good, a nice name."
"Does your previous weapon have a name?" Lin Zhifu asked, "No."
"No wonder I haven't seen you use it before."
Jiang Yuan said, "I don't think I need it in the pie. I just left it in the house and never touched it." "I didn't see you taking it with me when I went down the mountain last time." Jiang Yuan said absently, "After leaving it for a long time, I forgot about it. There's still this."
"By the way, did you come to Qingfengju just to see my sword?" Lin Zhifu asked.
"I happened to be passing by and stopped by to take a look."
"Then you have something else to do?"
"Um."
"Okay, then you go and do your work first." Lin Zhihui felt that if something happened, it would be better to finish it first. Lin Zhihui didn't like procrastination.
"Okay." Jiang Yuan said and left.
In the evening, Lin Feng said, "In order to celebrate the suppression of the bandits, the Nanjing Saintian Faction is planning to hold a martial arts competition, and specially invites each faction to participate in the battle. The top three will also be presented with magic secret books." Lin Zhifu asked, "Then I Can I not participate? I don't want to go. "I don't know why, but Lin Zhihui feels very repelled by Nan Jing. This may be a sign of the coming storm.
Lin Feng handed the invitation letter to Lin Zhihui. There were two lines of regular script written on it, which meant that the disciples mentioned above must participate in the martial arts competition. Now that the world is peaceful, there can be no shirk. If anyone uses the excuse not to come, he will be punished. Don't be afraid of being ridiculed by other sect disciples when his name is announced at the conference.
Lin Zhi angrily slapped the invitation letter on the table and said, "This is not an invitation letter, it is clearly a threatening letter. The Shuntian faction is simply too arrogant." Shen Lan said, "The Shuntian faction took advantage of the suppression of bandits. The reputation is rising rapidly. Many people have been saved from the fire and water. It is inevitable that people will turn around. Even if we, the Hengtian Sect, are well prepared, it is still a step too late. Even the eastern border of the Qing Emperor and the northern border of Feng Tang have some other All the small sects have received help from the Shun Tian sect." Lin Feng sighed and said, "Now some people are starting to make trouble in these places, saying that our Hengtian sect doesn't care about them, and these places are going to split and submit to the Shun Tian sect."
Lin Zhihui felt very incredible after hearing this and said, "Why do these people think like this? Just because of the help of the Shuntian Sect, they completely forgot about the constant protection of the Hengtian Sect and what benefits the Shuntian Sect has given them. It's so ungrateful."
Lin Feng said, "The Shuntian sect is rising, and supplies are scarce. There may be no benefits. However, the Shuntian sect is quite capable of deceiving people. Not only in the eastern part of the Qing Dynasty, but also among the people of all the sects who have been helped, there are more or less similar people. question."
"Isn't the Shuntian sect a small sect? It's not half as big as the Qing Emperor. Why is it so easy to suppress bandits? How can they have so many disciples scattered all over the country to suppress bandits for the people?" Lin Zhifu asked.
Shen Lan said, "This is what your father and I were wondering about before, so we checked it out when we went to Nanjing."
"What's going on?" Lin Zhihui asked anxiously.
Shen Lan said, "There are not many disciples of the Suntian sect in Nanjing, but wherever they go, they try their best to persuade the local people to join forces to suppress the bandits. They are filled with righteous indignation and have great ambitions. There are many young and middle-aged people among the people. Hot-blooded, they convinced them that they had no weapons, so they used farm tools to fight against the bandits..."
Lin Zhifan had seen the power of bandits and robbers. They had no real skills, but only a fierce appearance. They were all wanderers who made a living by robbing. If a few disciples of cultivation really came out, they would be scared away. Lin Zhifan said, "Then they would eat and live with the people, fight against the enemy together, influence the people, and seduce the people?"
Lin Feng said, "Yes, that's right." Lin Zhifan said, "Shuntian Sect is really treacherous and deliberate. What is its purpose?" Lin Zhifan couldn't help but think of the worst, "Is Shuntian Sect's ambition to become the largest sect in Tianxuan?" This idea is obviously valid, but there is not enough evidence to prove it. Lin Feng and Shen Lan didn't say anything, and they probably guessed it a long time ago.
What Lin Zhihui didn't expect was that in addition to the names of his father's uncles, it also had his own name. Although Lin Zhihui ranked second among his peers, the Hengtian sect had so many disciples, and the magic spirit There are many powerful people, so why did you invite yourself to go? Maybe it was because you had made great achievements in suppressing bandits and obtained the cultivation ring. But as Lin Zhihui moved his eyes down the list, he realized that things were not what he thought.
Not only was he going, but many disciples who had not obtained the cultivation ring were also on the list, such as Lu Zhan, Wei Ji, etc. These disciples all had high-quality magic power. What surprised Lin Zhihui was that Lu Zhan was arrested as soon as he was released from the ban. Invited to the martial arts competition, the Shuntian faction is really rebellious and not afraid of trouble. But I found that Jiang Yuan's name was written in the last place. Jiang Yuan was the most talented person of the Qing Emperor. Isn't it obvious that Jiang Yuan's name was written in the last place to humiliate the disciples of the Qing Emperor?
Lin Zhihui couldn't bear it. The Shuntian faction relied on its reputation in suppressing bandits to be so arrogant and domineering without any respect. Lin Zhihui decided that he would definitely go. Let’s see where the confidence of his Shuntian faction comes from?
Lin Feng said, "Xiao Hui, since you have decided to go, be careful in everything. From the incident of the Saintian faction's suppression of bandits, we can see that its purpose is not simple. In previous years, the martial arts tournament was a competition between various factions. This is the first time. In all discussions between factions, we must proceed with caution no matter what."
Lin Zhihui said, "Father, don't worry, the Shuntian sect just wants to use the martial arts competition to show off its achievements in suppressing bandits. What can such a proud and complacent sect be afraid of? If it is not just a martial arts competition, there will be nothing." Things." Shen Lan couldn't help but frown when she heard what he said.
Although she is worried about her son, Shen Lan still understands Lin Zhihui's temperament and believes that he will take measures and not cause any trouble. Early the next morning, Lin Zhihui passed by Qingyou Pavilion and asked Shang Jiangyuan to go to the academy with him. As expected, Jiang Yuan was still sleeping, so Jiang's mother asked Lin Zhi to go back and wake him up.Lin Zhihui opened the door, and sure enough, Jiang Yuan was still sleeping soundly. Lin Zhihui shook his arm and said, "Did you get reborn by a ghost in your last life?" Jiang Yuan turned over and ignored him, and Lin Zhihui was ready to go again. Try it one last time, I don't want to be late with him.Lin Zhihui said, "Xiao Yuan, if you don't get up, I won't wait for you." In the past, after Lin Zhihui shouted this sentence, Jiang Yuan would say, "I'll sleep for a while, you go first." Today Jiang Yuan He actually opened his eyes and said, "Xiao Hui, wait for me for a while, I'll be fine s
It was less than ten days before the martial arts competition. Cui Shiming's so-called helping them improve their skills was just asking them to memorize the Nei Jing of regulating the breath-control meridians. All the disciples mistakenly thought that Cui Shiming had some unique secrets that he had hidden for so many years. To put it bluntly, Cui Shiming is just a teacher. Apart from teaching, I have never seen him practice martial arts.It is the seniors who can truly help these disciples improve their cultivation. It was the first time that various factions participated in the martial arts competition. Each faction paid special attention to it, and the Hengtian faction was no exception. Lin Zhihui has not yet reached adulthood, but his reputation is already better than that of some adult disciples, especially Jiang Yuan.But reputation is reputation, and if there was a real-world competition, Lin Zhihui might not be able to defeat those older brothers and elder
Lin Zhihui took advantage of his break to practice the magic of transformation that his father had just taught him. When Yin Changyi saw it, he said, "Brother Xiao Hui, you are really amazing. You can learn it as soon as you learn it. Can you teach me?" Lin Zhihui said Seeing her face filled with admiration, he said, "It's not because of my brother's greatness, but because Changyi is lazy, right?" Yin Changyi smiled sheepishly and said, "Brother Xiaohui really understands me."Jiang Yuan interjected, "When Uncle Lin teaches the mind method, can you learn it if you keep looking here?" Yin Changyi looked at Jiang Yuan's pouting mouth, and then said, "Changyi knows that he is wrong, brother Xiaoyuan can't let Xiaohui Brother, can you teach me?" Jiang Yuan said, "Why do you want Xiao Hui to teach you? Can't I teach you?" Yin Changyi looked at Lin Zhihui's graceful appearance and picturesque features, and then said, "How dare you trouble the Qing Emperor? Will Yizizi teach m
For the martial arts competition, the Hengtian Sect has prepared a martial arts competition within the sect. One is to encourage the disciples to improve their practice, and the other is to test the disciples' spiritual power and spells. If they rank high, they will also get rewards. As for what the rewards are, everyone knows I don’t know, but will the reward personally announced by the leader Cang Xingyuan be something small?Since it is a martial arts tournament, every disciple will pay attention to it. In previous years, the martial arts tournament within the sect was a competition between peers. But for the Nanjing martial arts tournament, the Hengtian sect has set new rules. People of different age levels can compete with each other. It all depends on the draw. In this way, everyone has the possibility to compete with the elders or younger generations.The disciples on the list drew lots in the Qingxin Hall. Cang Xingyuan sat on the dragon couch in the hall,
Lin Zhihui watched Lin Feng take the elixir and gradually get better. This elixir was really amazing. I had never seen it before. Lin Feng coughed twice and spit out a bright red color. Lin Zhihui hurriedly prepared to give it to him. After using his spiritual power, Lin Feng stopped him and said, "It's okay, Xiao Hui." Shen Lan carefully supported Lin Feng and said, "I'll get better after spitting out this blood."Lin Zhihui asked, "Mother, this elixir is very magical. What is it made of? Why haven't you seen it in previous martial arts competitions?" Shen Lan said, "This elixir is condensed from the spiritual power of all things. The master refined it himself and it is very precious. If it were not for the martial arts competition in Nanjing, the master would not use it. "It turns out that the leader seemed not to care about the martial arts competition in Nanjing, but in fact, he really spent a lot of money in order to allow the disciples to concentrate on the
The disciples in the audience were in an uproar. Jiang Yuan stood up slowly and said, "Changyi, this is not like your temperament. Why are you using so much force?" Yin Changyi saw that he had fallen badly and said, "Who told you Are you kidding me?" Jiang Yuan chuckled and said, "No, it's because you are so good at magic." "Look, you still dare to quibble!" After that, Yin Changyi slapped him with the palm of his hand.Before Jiang Yuan could react, she slapped him in the audience. The disciples stepped forward to watch. Someone asked, "Brother Jiang, are you okay?" Jiang Yuan held on to his left leg and stood up with difficulty. He waved his hands to everyone and said, "Brothers, don't worry, it's just that half of the legs can't walk for the time being."When Yin Changyi heard what Jiang Yuan said, she quickly came down from the stage and said remorsefully, "Brother Xiaoyuan, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. I can't control myself when I'm angry." After saying that
Ecstasy scratched his collar, but no pain was felt. Lu Zhan quickly stood up straight to check the wound and found that his snow-white chest was still as smooth as before. He looked up at Lin Zhihui. He was summoning Ecstasy. It turned out that he had controlled Ecstasy. .Lin Zhihui didn't want to have any more rumors with him. He was most annoyed by hearing some idle disciples gossiping behind his back, so he was able to control his ecstasy in an instant. It was an unexpected surprise.The competition is not over yet. Many people in the audience are watching the excitement, all coming to see how Lin Zhihui will "revenge". If Lin Zhihui wins, it will be very popular, but Lin Zhihui will definitely not lose.One of the two people on the stage was holding an ecstasy, and the other was holding a wooden sword. Just looking at the weapons could determine the outcome. If Lin Zhihui won, he would also gain uneasiness. So in an instant, Ecstasy had already taken ou
"Xiao Hui has really grown up. He took the initiative to use the wooden sword in the martial arts competition and competed fairly. He is such a good boy." "You really know how to praise your son." Lin Feng said with a smile, picked up the tea cup and took a sip of tea.Shen Lan was cleaning his sword and said, "Isn't he your son? Of course he should be praised for his good work." Yes, yes, Xiao Yuan is such a good child, and Brother Jiang didn't see him praising him. You. "Lin Feng sighed and put the teacup on the table.Shen Lan put the sword on the table and said, "When have you ever seen Xiao Hui proud? Besides, you, the father, don't know what kind of person Xiao Hui is?""Xiao Hui, get the painkiller and apply it on your father quickly, so that he can talk again.""No need, I can do it myself." Lin Feng coughed twice with emphasis. Upon hearing this, Shen Lan quickly changed her attitude and said, "Xiao Hui, you go read a book. I will help him wit
It's already difficult to just contend with him, and there's no other energy left to look for the thing that controls 300,000 people.When Lin Zhihui looked again, his eyes glanced at Shi Yi's gorgeous yellow clothes intentionally or unintentionally. If Shi Yi took it off because it was too troublesome, then Jiang Yuan put on the cloak because it could be used as a protective clothing. .So thinking about it this way, facing such a powerful enemy, Shi Yi took it off instead, which seemed a bit suspicious.When Lin Zhihui tried every means to get close, he was repeatedly blocked by Bai Changjian. Such words further strengthened Lin Zhihui's curiosity about this mysterious suit.Lin Zhihui signaled Bai Changjian not to fight, and they rested for a while before continuing. Unexpectedly, Bai Changjian nodded and agreed.The night was long, as if surrendered by a huge devil. Under the city wall two hundred meters away, the firelight illuminated the fa
Shi Yi's army retreated to rest for a while. Jiang Yuan took this time to order all his disciples to rest, check for loopholes, and replenish falling rocks and rockets.Looking at the hill-like disciples in black mysterious clothes below, Lin Zhihui seemed to have seen the battle he didn't know about three years ago. That battle he didn't participate in, left Jiang Yuan to fight bloody battles alone. How did he regain it? No one said how difficult it was in the city, but now seeing Shi Yi's situation, Lin Zhihui naturally thought of three years ago.Jiang Yuan wore a black cloak and inspected the imperfect places on the city wall one by one. Everyone was resting, but he wasn't there yet.Jiang Yuan's figure looked even thinner under the dim sky. Lin Zhihui saw his busy hands, slender and white, constantly instructing his disciples on combat techniques.Lin Zhihui walked over and said, "Xiao Yuan, take a rest and let me do it."Jiang Yuan looked a
The next day, a stressful day came as scheduled.All the disciples in the Qing Emperor's City held their heads high and their expressions solemn. This was a war to protect their families.Lin Zhihui stood on the tower, his broken hair fluttering in the breeze, and he was very energetic.Jiang Yuan stood side by side with him. Lin Zhihui glanced at his side face, which was sharp and angular. At this time, he looked more determined and calm. Jiang Yuan did not say what the chance of winning this war was, but when he saw him With an expression on his face, Lin Zhihui felt a little more confident.Han Yu was patrolling aside, and when he saw a wilted disciple, he cheered him up, "Speak of God, everyone, this time we must let that ungrateful thing Shi Yi see the breeze outside our door, and watch us beat their butts to piss." Flow. I will remember those who have made meritorious deeds. When the time comes, one of you can fulfill your wish!"Han Yu's w
"You mean the person you like is Brother Xiaoyuan?" Yin Changyi was a little surprised but still asked immediately."yes."The door was not very far from the window, and Lin Zhihui's voice was not very quiet, so when he heard Lin Zhihui say that he liked him, Jiang Yuan unconsciously showed a bright smile on his lips.It seems that there is finally someone in this world that you are worth waiting for. He is there, just like you, approaching you step by step, and all you need to do is to make yourself better, and then walk towards him without hesitation.Jiang Yuan, understandably, has waited for the person he wanted to wait for. This person is different from him, but his every move can always attract you, so that you completely fall in, and then sink deeper and deeper, unable to extricate yourself.Jiang Yuan once thought about this question, why did he like him so much? Until now, when he smiled and heard him say that the person he liked was him
Shi En was resting in Qingyouju. They left early, so no one called him. Just as he got up, he heard the footsteps of a group of people outside the door. He quickly got up and found the saddest and most painful posture.As soon as Lin Zhifan pushed open the door, he saw Shi En with a painful expression on his face and curled up in his arms.His body was still wrapped in several bandages, stained with blood.Lin Zhifan stepped forward to help him up and asked, "Call a doctor quickly."Then he smoothed Shi En and dragged him to the bed to rest. Seeing this scene, everyone felt sympathy for him.Shi En said, "I accidentally fell down and accidentally squeezed the wound."Jiang Yuan stood aside coldly, watching Lin Zhihui's stomach fidgeting and saying nothing.Han Yu sat on the chair and said, "Okay, maybe he did this on purpose. Brother Lin, stop helping him. Let him speak."Everyone stared at Shi En, who was suddenly startled, and
What is he deliberately covering up?Lin Zhihui wanted to speak, but Jiang Yuan gently held his hand tightly, and Lin Zhihui did not continue to ask.Song Kai walked to the door and an old voice rang out, "Everyone, did I tell you? There is only one way to kill you. You just have to do what you want."This sentence was said in a relaxed and comfortable manner, like a wise man who looked down upon all the situations in the world. After saying this, he continued to walk in, then found his previous seat and sat down, ignoring them no more!Lin Zhihui glanced at Jiang Yuan. His eyebrows were as before, even a little sarcastic."Song Li has done all the tricks. Do you have anything else to say?"Lin Zhihui saw Song Kai's body in the darkness, and it seemed that hearing the news was quite exciting to him.Then he sat there motionless with his back to Lin Zhihui and Jiang Yuan, like a sculpture.Lin Zhihui lay next to Jiang Yuan's ear
So, they don't care?At this time, Han Yu sighed beside him. Lin Zhihui didn't know what he was feeling, and then turned around to look at him.Han Yu laughed at himself, "I really have no face left in this world."Lin Zhihui smiled slightly at the corner of his mouth, and he was quite self-aware. At this time, Lin Zhihui had almost thought about it and said, "If you two are happy with each other, I will naturally be very happy."Lin Lu held Lin Ya's hand and showed a big smile. I knew that Brother Xiaohui was the best.Lin Zhihui paused for a moment and then continued, "But you are not old enough to get married now. We have to wait until you grow up."Lin Lu made some calculations and found that Lin Ya was younger than him. It would take 7 years for her to reach adulthood. It was such a long time.Lin Zhifu asked, "What's wrong? Can't wait any longer?"Lin Lu quickly shook his head and said, "No, no, no, I just like Lin Ya so m
After the waiter pushed slightly, Bai Changjian threw the cup on the table, then stood up and shouted.The waiter's expression was forbearing and decisive. Lin Zhihui wanted to cast a spell to restrain him, but he had no choice but to cast it. It seemed that Bai Changjian had already cast a barrier here to prevent people from getting close to him at will.But how could this happen to Lin Zhihui? He specifically learned how to break barriers from Dao Xiang, so this was not a problem for him.Lin Zhihui patted Jiang Yuan, and Jiang Yuan nodded tacitly, protecting him. The two of them knew each other tacitly, and even without explaining, they had already guessed what he was going to do?Lin knew how to return his luck, but at the same time he did not dare to use too much force, so the barrier was broken.Silent, as quiet as the air.Bai Changjian's face became ferocious, like a piece of rusted iron, turning red and purple. His expression was v
So what happened when she came?Lin Zhihui didn't want to listen to them at first, but he didn't know where to go in the deserted forest? Gu Xu and Han Yu were both sitting next to him. Lin Zhi thought back and said, "Let's just leave it like this, otherwise it will look stingy."Lin Zhihui saw Xerox slowly moving towards Jiangyuan to get weapons, and thought there were several men here, and they couldn't do anything.Jiang Yuan's face was delicate and handsome, and when the sunlight hit his face, he looked as gentle and elegant as the beautiful man in the painting, with extraordinary temperament.Seeing her walking in, Jiang Yuan asked coldly, "If you are here to persuade us, then you can leave now!"Lin Zhihui's heart trembled when he heard the words were cold and like a basin of water, let alone a girl.Xerox looked at him silently, with a sad, almost painful and forbearing expression on his face, and said, "I know I may never be able to