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Lyra We arrived in the states late yesterday, Maddox and his men left to deal with some stuff to do with their pack. I am now waiting for his return so we can go visit Jared in the hospital. Kalsea has asked if she can accompany us to see if she can help.Atlas wasn't happy at first. He is even more protective than my Alpha, but I guess they know I can take care of myself. I heard Kalsea and Atlas having a small argument last night, from what I could understand she wants to take it to the next level with her Tie, and Atlas is terrified of hurting her.I had told Maddox, he is going to speak to him in private. Demitri is like a cat that has gotten the cream. The passion and love you see when he looks at Dollar makes me smile. My best friend has been a man whore for about ninety years. Dollar is perfect for him and I am glad they have each other. Carlos has been watching me closely, I know he knows something is up, he has been by my side for a long time. As I prepare my mind for what I
LyraI can't take my eyes off the man lying in the bed, he seems smaller, more fragile than I remember. I reach out and take his hand, the warmth makes me smile. I want to tell him I'm sorry, that this is all my fault. I already had Luca transfer the money into Jareds bank, I know it won't change anything.I can hear them talking, Kalsea and the other doctor but I can't drag my eyes away from the man in the bed. Most of his left side is bandaged up, his chest rises and falls, the tube down his throat keeping him alive. Guilt, it's another emotion that feels alien to me, I wish I could shut all these feelings off.Maddox, that’s who started this shit, slowly cracking the walls I have kept in place for almost one hundred years. Now with all these strange emotions swirling around inside me, my want to protect the people close to me and now all these wolves I haven even met, his pack. I am drowning in all these thoughts.“Boss, are you ok?” Carlos asks as he steps up beside me, keeping hi
Maddox‘Maddox, the doctor is being controlled. Look at his wrist.’ Lyra mind-links me, looking at his wrist I noticed what looks like a black festering wound. Fuck! What the fuck is this now?“Drop him Atlas, he is not of his own mind” My Beta frowns at me, but drops the now coughing and spluttering doctor to the ground. Kneeling down beside him Lyra lifts the sleeve of his white doctor's jacket. She hisses in anger as she stands back up.“It’s Vlad’s, I can smell his scent on it. But if has gotten to the doctor god knows who else he has got to” Lyra says looking like she's ready to explode. “What is a master's mark?” I ask her as she stands back to my side. I turn to talk to Atlas, he and Kalsea are already by Jared’s bed. Kalsea is removing all drips and bandages. “I need someone who you trust to help me” She says to no one in particular. “I can help you” A shy looking Brandy steps forward. I am sure there is more to their relationship, I see how she looks at him.I can feel somet
LyraSometimes I could kick myself, why would I offer to host the meal? Oh yeah, keep them on our turf. Maddox is pacing like a caged animal he is so nervous, its driving me fucking nuts. You would think he was meeting my parents, not his own.Atlas and Kalsea have been back from the hospital about an hour, they will be attending the dinner as will Dollar and Demitri. The rest of the men will be working, Carlos has volunteered with two of Maddox men to guard Jared and Brandy who has refused to leave his side. Last night Maddox had them put into the private wing of the hospital for protection. Luca has set up CCTV and reprogrammed the hand scanner to the private wing so we know anyone coming or going. I had them put a cot in for Brandy so she can hopefully get some rest.I looked over the table the maid had set. It was simple but elegant, not too fancy. The Omega that Maddox has working tonight is a friendly little thing who is very curious about us being vampires and keeps following M
LyraLilly had put an extra place setting at the table by the time we all entered. Willow, Atlas’s mother had not let my hand go all the way to the dining room, she gave my hand a gentle squeeze and I don't know why but that small act of kindness gave me strength i needed.Maddox’s hand never leaves the small of my back, I can feel him pouring love down through our bond. Dollar gives both sets of parents a hug and introduces them to his mate. Atlas’s parents are just as loving and warm towards Demitri, this I am glad of. Dollar goes to sit at the other side of Maddox as he was meant to, but the female beats him to it. He goes to protest but I catch his eye and shake my head just a little telling him it was fine. What the silly girl didn't realise was that she just sat beside my best friend, and Demitri didn't play when it came to me.This bitch is really trying my patience, and she has no idea what she is getting herself into when it comes to me. Kalsea sits to my left, giving me comf
Lyra There are no words to describe how I feel right now. I wish I could but I can't drag my eyes away from the sight in front of me. On the cold metal table of the coroner lies the beaten, abused and drained body of the little omega who has been working in the penthouse.Four days ago Lilly was reported missing by her mother and older sister. She didn't even have her wolf yet so no mind-link. I have killed many, and felt nothing but right now looking at her all I can feel is guilt. If one more person tells me it's not my fault they will be joining Lilly in the afterlife.The border patrol found her at one of the pack gates, she was dumped like trash. It’s the look in her eyes that is haunting me, she suffered more than anyone should. Lilly was innocent, she never hurt anyone. She had been following Masimo around like a love sick puppy. If Carlos had allowed me to leave a week ago this would never have happened. This is not his fault, no this is all on me. She was a curious little th
VladimirI can't get used to this country, the people are fucking crazy. Ahmet is completely unhinged to the point I have started to question myself and my choice to get him involved. His obsession with Lyra goes beyond anything I ever thought. I watched as he tortured the little wolf girl, her screams still very much in my mind. I spoke to my father, tried to explain how I had a very bad feeling about this, as usual he told me to grow a set of balls. He said Lyra would eat me alive if I didn't get my shit together. It disgusted me the things Ahmet did to the female. I have killed more than my fair share, but I draw the line at children. She was little more than a child, she was pure and he violated her. Maybe my father was right.I push my latest doner off me as I slowly get out of bed, by the look of her I may have drunk more than I should have. Tessa won't be happy, Ahmet has already killed two by accidently draining them. He just laughed at her when she told him it was inexcusabl
Lyra They have never allowed me to have five minutes to myself, it’s as though they know what I intend to do. I keep catching them whispering, then stopping talking every time I enter the room. Carlos is the most noticeable, he has always been the easiest to read.Today I am going to visit Jared with Kalsea. I know she will tell me if I ask, she is far too honest to be my friend; I think with a smile. “Do you want me to come with you?” Maddox whispers in my ear as he hugs me from behind. “No it's fine, I'll be ok with Kalsea. Some girl time won't hurt” I say as I turn in his arms so I am looking into the eyes that captivate my very soul. Leaning forward the short distance I place a soft kiss on his lips.It is slow and gentle, to start with. Maddox slips his hand into my hair and lightly tugs my head back, giving him better access to my mouth as he deepens the kiss as though It’s the last kiss. It’s as if he knows, oh god please don't let him know. I find myself repeating over and ov
Epilogue part one Five years laterLyra“Aleksei, be nice to your cousin when she arrives” I tell my now moody five year old. He gets more like his father everyday, and has the moody Alpha act perfected. He sits at the dining table feeding his two year old sister Czarina, even though my daughter is more than capable of feeding herself. “Why does she have to come again, Mommy?” Aleksei says with the cutest little pout. “She always wants to play with me” He huffs, making me smile. Even at a young age he is so clever and it is easy to forget he is only five.I pick up my daughter and sit her on my swollen baby bump, she claps her hands and kisses my cheek. “Daddy said you need to be careful” My son says, pulling his sister down and holding her hand as we make our way to the front door to meet Maddox as he has gone to collect Kameal from the air strip. “Baby, baby, baby” Czarina says as she walks beside her brother. At almost two she is a shining light in our family, always laughing and
LyraGetting to the front steps Maddox places me on the floor before he shifts into Chaos. Even now my big black wolf takes my breath away with his jet black fur that looks so shiny it could be oil. Not to mention his bright blue eyes a shade brighter than Maddox’s usual sapphire coloured eyes. ‘Get on my love’ Comes My Alpha’s voice as he lays lower to the ground so I can get on his back. I had only just climbed on when he took off, making a squeak come from me before I burst out laughing as my mate took off at speed towards the back of our territory towards the cabin that I used to go to when I needed away from my parents. The cabin comes into view and I place a hand over my mouth in surprise, there in the dark covered in fairy lights is what looks like a fairytale cottage. Leaning forward I wrap my arms around Chaos’s neck ‘How did you know, it looks amazing, thank you’ I say as I bury my face in his soft fur.He slows and I slide off his back, and lay my head on his side “It’s be
LyraI have been sitting feeding Aleksei for the past twenty minutes, he just keeps spitting out spit bubbles and looks so cute. This child is a Goddess sent gift as Maddox keeps telling me and anyone who will listen. Carlos stands guard outside. I can hear the steady thrum of his heart, while he waits for me to hand him Aleksei. I have told him many times he is his guard not Nanny but my friend wont have it. He says that there is no need as he has to be there anyway, and if I am honest I prefer and trust him more than anyone else. “Carlos” I called, the door opened and my friend's face appeared. “Is he ready?” I smile at him, “Yes, he most certainly is, and full of beans” I say as I brush my nose off his and he giggles while spitting more bubbles.“I have meetings for the next two hours, then we have the meet and greet for the Nest” I say as I tuck him into his stroller. I try not to laugh as Carlos puts the nappy bag over his shoulder and takes the pushchair. “What?” Carlos asks, lo
LyraStepping off the jet in Russia felt bittersweet, good to be back in the homeland but it no longer felt like home. Aleksei’s first trip to Russia and I know how excited the elders are to meet the future king. Something I have made clear can and will only be happening if my son wishes to take the title. Carlos steps off behind me, proudly holding Aleksei. Two days ago at our ceremony Maddox and I had announced that Carlos was appointed our sons personal guard. *Flashback*I smile at my Alpha as he takes the podium, we had a surprise announcement for the pack. “I know we all want to get on with the celebration, but I have a very important thing to do as one of our pack” Everyone goes quiet with just the slight murmur of those trying to guess what is going on. “My Luna and I have been going over this since our pup was born and we are excited to announce that we have appointed a personal guard for the future heir of the Red Mountain Pack” Maddox looks over at me and holds his hand o
LyraI stand in front of the full length mirror just staring at myself, my mind plays over the last year and the time with Maddox. From the fact we both were determined not to accept each other to being completely obsessed with each other to having our son. Our son, he is perfect from his chubby little cheeks to his big red eyes.Willow took both Aleksei and Kameal out for a walk while I got ready. Today is my Luna ceremony and I can't wait to officially be the Luna. I know it’s just formalities as I already do everything a Luna should. If you asked me a year ago if I would be leading my people I would have laughed. I have never wanted to rule, not to mention lead a pack of wolves but here we are and I would be lying if I said this isn’t where I belong. These people have shown me more love and acceptance than even my own parents. Willow treats us all the same; she has become the mother we never realised we needed. She would have made an amazing Luna, even though she says she is happy
MaddoxLyra has been running on low for a couple of weeks now, she won’t allow anyone except us to watch Aleksei. His aura is extremely strong and can easily affect anyone within his vicinity, especially if he is upset at the time. I am just glad the pup is quite a happy little thing, or we would all be in for a rough ride. I can't help but laugh at this thought. I hope Lyra manages to relax for a while. She really is an amazing Luna, even though she is exhausted she never turns away anyone who needs her, or even just a person to listen to them. Willow has been showing both Lyra and the Doc what their duties are and how the pack has been getting run. Of course Lyra and I have already started to change things especially when it comes to those in charge. The thing with my Queen is she is as deadly as they come but her heart is huge and she feels every single person's emotions. This is exactly why the situation with the Omegas really affected her so much that she sank so much of her mo
LyraAleksei is four months old. I swear he is the best baby, he never cries. Watching Maddox with him makes my heart swell with love. The little King is obsessed with Chaos, as soon as his Father shifts into his black wolf Aleksei gets excited. Watching him pull at Chaos, and the huge wolf looks like he is so in love with our baby. Our commitment ceremony and wedding are being combined, tomorrow is the big day. Kalsea is so excited she has been non stop planning with Evanka and Willow. I have been stuck in my little bubble with Maddox and our son. The love for my boys is at times overwhelming, I haven’t let Aleksei out of my sight. We have been learning as we go with Aleksei, he can feed off both blood and normal food. Maddox said he can feel his wolf spirit, at his age it is unheard of in normal wolf children. His aura is very strong, if he gets upset only Maddox and myself can get near him as his aura is too much for anyone else. Willow has been desperate to take him to give me a
LyraBlissful pain free darkness, where am I? Where is Maddox? As this thought hits me I feel a wave of panic run through me. My baby, is my baby ok? Shit! I need to get back from wherever this is, I need to get to them. Open your eyes Lyra! I scream at myself. It's funny the minute I start to feel parts of my body I know I am on my way back. First the tingling in my hands and feet, then the rest come to life. That’s when I hear him, my Maddox. He’s calling my name, I am calling back to him but nothing is coming out. I hear the pleading in his voice and it breaks my heart. I am coming my love, just hold on. Then the searing pain explodes through me and my eyes fly open.“Baby, your back” Maddox says as he peppers kisses all over my face, before I can answer him another pain knocks the breath right out of me. Sweat runs down my face as I try to gather my thoughts before another scream rips from my throat. “Lyra, Lyra listen to me” Kalsea says cupping my face and all I want to do is bi
LyraEverything has been steady Maddox and I are just back from Russia, it’s the last time I can fly before the little king arrives. The nest has been thriving, we spent a month there making sure everything was set up and ready for Evanka and Kammi to return. The gifts that the clan has been handing in for both Kameal and my pup as Maddox calls him is so heartwarming. There is a more relaxed atmosphere, they have accepted Maddox and that makes me proud of my people. Dollar has been over for quite some time with Demitri and he has been accepted into the clan. My people are doing better unfortunately two of the council men have been removed and replaced, but this is all in the good of our clan moving forward and healing.I am huge, my swollen stomach is bigger than Evanka was when she had Kameal and I still have six weeks left. I love how attentive Maddox has been but it is driving me crazy, I feel smothered. Willow has been amazing. She threw me a baby shower before we left for Russia