Chapter 5

I sit next to Tyler on the table that had been for only popular people for as long as I can remember with Dana, who had her salad places infront of her and the twins, who were pressing their phones and giggling at only God knows what while Tyler ate his sandwich and I placed the puzzles together.

The song.

It was a lullaby my Mum had played for me when I was very young.

This is shocking for me to remember as I can barely anything about her but this

She had called it Starlight sonata.

And it made no sense for me to be hearing it everywhere

Especially in school.

At the house, I have no good explanation for that but I knew Pops could not even tell what 'doh' was on a keyboard.

The whole thing was definetely creeping me out and I felt like taking just one pill of aspirin but I was quite sure Pops has warned every possible pharmacy or shop to not sell anything to me that he could get himself.

"Hey baby"

I turn to Tyler who has this worries expression on his face "Hmmm?"

"Were you even listening?" Dana asks, ever rolling her eyes

"I was the one who called her" Tyler says "Thank you" Making her roll her eyes and go back to picking her food and saying "He's having a party, you coming?"

"It's just..." I feel Tyler hold my hand and entwine our finger together as he says "I know.. it's been just a day, that you left the hospital, and that everyone is after your head, yes but we had a game yesterday, and we won. I haven't won ever since you went to that horrible place, it's like you're my good luck charm or something"

Dana scoffs while the twins 'awwed'

"I just want you to be there" He says with a smile "I've missed you, you know"

This was Tyler, someone who has me in his hand like a remote, and I was about to say yes, that I'd follow him to the end of the earth if it'd keep him with me, but I also had flashes of how Tyler's parties always were.

It involved alcohol, drugs....

And I, just being weaned from whatever I had been using, would readily hop into something else.

A part of me wanted to tell him to cancel and stay with me, but I knew how selfish that would sound so I just say a small "No" and feel my heart shatter as he looks hurt.

"No?" He asks "But... But this means alot to me. To us, you know that"

I bite my lips "Tyler, I know, I wish I could explain...".

"It's okay" He says as he flashes me a smile and goes back to eating his sandwich.

And things would have gladly been weird, but Dana had to make things look horrible "You should rethink you know, I mean, you could make a statement in the sexy gown of yours, while taking back your throne as Head bitch in charge and..."

"She's not coming Day" Tyler snaps making Dana freeze midsentence and then say with a shrug "Fine, whatever"

"Would you be going with your boyfriend?" I ask to see a reaction.

And I get it.

Dana is choking on her food while Tyler has this lost but amused look and the twins squeak and squeal "WHAT?!"

I watch Dana who is now drinking a glass of water, looking a bit white as she sends me a glare "I can swear you aim to kill me or something"

"I didn't know you had a boyfriend" Tyler says "You always acted so high and mighty and said we boys were too, what was the word, little, for your league"

"Well" She replies, still staring at me "It was going to be a surprise"

"Well I'm surprised" Chaos says as Fire nods "Then where is he? Let him come sit with us, let's know our new homeboy better"

Dana faces her with a smile on her face "Actually he's in college, and I would have just loved to take him to the party with me but he's got, college things to do"

The fudge is wrong with this female?

"You can't even lie" I say, shaking my head

Immediately, like a bee had stung her as she looked worse than white as she says with a glare "Okay, this shit you pulling has to stop, you can't possibly act like you're better than me when we all know you're the fakest barbie alive!"

The whole hall quietens again while I stare at her calmly, like she's crazy as I was supposed to be "You seem to have happily taken that title from me. How does it feel being plastic Dana?"

"Okay that's it..."

She was already launching towards me but Tyler stands up, staring back and forth at both of us "No fighting here"

I stand up, picking up my journal "Like I'd punch that face and it'd affect those eight layers of makeup"

"Stop it Lily" He says and I actually feel my heart hurt that he used my real name.

"Y'all can just kiss or whatever" I say "I'm going home"

"We can talk about this..."

I was already walking out the cafeteria, knowing that if I stayed long and listened to whatever he said, I would be a goner, but when I was out of the cafeteria, I was running down the hall, and I didn't stop till I had reached the schoolyard.

Panting, I look back to see if he had followed me, but I see nothing and an image of him comforting Dana and not me, makes mw feel like crying all over again, but I just run back home instead.

*

To take my mind off things, I spend the last six gotta trying to find out if Starlight sonata was a real song and turns it out it does not exist, which means my Mother obviously made it up for me.

So who else would have known it?

I did not know many of my Mothers friends as they never checked up on me much and I don't think, no, I am sure no one else could have learnt it...

Or was I having withdrawal symptoms again?

Cause one of them was hallucination and I definitely could be doing that right now but why would I hallucinate about that?

A couple of minutes later, I was wearing my pyjamas so I could head down the stairs and watch TV before the lights go off.

It being a normal phenomenon did not faze but Pops usually called me to tell me if they was going to be a power outage so I could be forewarned because he believes strongly I was afraid of the dark, even though I wasn't.

My head begins to throb again and I search the whole house for some sort of relieving pain, finding nothing of the sort and in my last resolve, I called Pops who sounded extremely busy "Could we make this quick Princess?"

"My head hurts" I mumble through the phone.

There is a brief moment of silence between us and I hurriedly try to atleast save myself from his anger as I say "My head actually hurts! I swear!"

I hear him sigh "Can you wait for me to get home and give it to..."

Suddenly, he begins to break and I can barely hear him anymore. I sigh, knowing that this was karma playing tricks on me before I realise I should have asked him about the song and mentally slapped myself.

To feel better, I began to watch youtube videos online until I see a notification of Chaos' webpage come up, I immediately click on it hearing Chaos say "It's your girl, C to the H to the O... Or something like that, whatever, I don't know how to sleep it but it's me! And im at this awesome party that I know you wish to be in but you're too not cool to be seen around him, awwn cheer up buddy...."

I smile as she continues talking, rambling about how her day and had gone and how excited she was to see me before she says "And guess what? Something forbidden is happening right now, come see!"

She's suddenly walking around series of rooms and I can see alot of teenagers making out and using some other stuffs they probably should not be using with her stopping in a dark room.

They were sounds of someone making out in the background until she says "Dana Greene and Tyler Johansen, why are you both being worse than Adam and Eve right now?"

Suddenly, it's like the world is frozen, and I can barely breathe. All I hear is the sound of my own heart feeling like with every beat, it was shattering and cracking...

I was not sure how to react so I sat, immobile and lost till I saw it.

Someone passing through my window hurriedly.

The first thing my mind told me to do was run but my brain refused to signal anything to the nerves in my body making me stay frozen there till I hear a crash in my bedroom and I find myself running to the door and opening it.

Bumping into a male who seemed to be as tall as 7ft, with a lean body and bright green eyes that gleaned in the darkness of my house as he says "My my Iana, what would you do without me?"