“My weight? It is what it is. You could get hit by a bus tomorrow. It’s about being content. And sometimes other priorities win.” – Melissa McCarthy.
MAISIE
AFTER THAT ENCOUNTER with Avery, she always acknowledged me whenever she sighted me. She’d catch my eyes in the hallways and smile. Sometimes, she’d stop by my locker when I’m there to say hi. Initially, I thought she was just being nice and had not yet been told about me but I was wrong. Because a month later, she still gave me those smiles and she’d sometimes sit beside me when she sees me in the classes we had together. I didn’t understand why she was being so nice. She was supposed to have put two and two together and realized that I have no friends. There’s no way someone wouldn’t have told her about me. I didn’t really pay attention to her but it was hard not to notice her and her brother. This past month, I’d mostly seen her with her brother. Seeing as she hadn’t joined the Bs—despite their attempts to befriend her—I guess my assumption about her was right. But I might also be wrong. She might not have joined them because she wants to form her mean-girl clique herself.
Apart from Avery being weirdly nice to me, everything else was normal. Normal as in the rude comments, snooty remarks, and the picking on me in general.
On a particular Thursday morning, I bumped into Alexander. I honestly have no idea how it happened. Because not bumping into anyone or anything when walking with my eyes glued to the ground was my specialty. The only bumps I remember having were intentionally caused to embarrass me.
But somehow, on this Thursday, it happened. It was obvious that he was in a hurry. I had turned the corner just seconds before he rammed into me. All the books I was holding fell to the floor. I 100% expected him to walk away without as little as sorry but he surprised me.
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry,” he muttered apologetically and the next thing I knew, he was bending with me to pick up my books. He handed me the books after, mumbling another apologetic sorry.
“It’s okay,” I replied as I looked anywhere but at his face. I just couldn’t bring myself to look at his gorgeous face and I hated that he was looking at me. I could only look at his retreating figure when he walked away.
The next day, we surprisingly made eye contact in class. He walked in and his eyes swept over the class; when they landed on me, they lingered for a few seconds before looking elsewhere. I didn’t think it meant anything so I didn’t think much about it.
Everything changed on the day we were assigned partners to do a paired assignment in a class that Alexander happened to share with me. Instead of Mrs. Wilde assigning partners like every other teacher, she decided to spice things up a little. She had all the boys' names written in tiny strips of paper, folded, and placed in a basket. She asked us, girls, to walk forward and pick a strip of paper. Whosoever’s name is on our strip of paper would be our partner. My breath hitched at the thought of being partners with any guy in my class, let alone one of my bullies. I didn’t try to go before anybody else. I was the last to go forward, so only a piece of paper was left, leaving me no choice. Miraculously and weirdly, we had equal numbers of boys and girls in class.
“And you’re not allowed to swap partners. Even if you’re paired with your enemy, you’d make it work if you want to pass my class.” Mrs. Wilde announced as I took my seat. I unveiled my paper to see who the unlucky person is.
Oh no! Oh no! I mentally panicked as I saw the name.
Alexander Scott.
Though I got to pick last, I still got the guy that probably every girl in this room wanted to be paired with. I glanced at him and he was just sitting there, waiting for a girl to show up as his partner. Some people were already partnering up but most girls had disappointed looks on their faces; unhappy that they didn’t get a certain someone. I knew they were all probably wondering who got Alex and I didn’t want anyone to know it was me. I didn’t even want to imagine the look they’d give me and someone might even bully me into swapping despite what Mrs. Wilde said. I looked at Alex again and our eyes met. I held his gaze for a few seconds before looking away. Just then, the bell rang. I heaved a sigh of relief, quickly gathering my things and booking it out of class.
“Hey.” I heard someone say behind me in the hallway but I kept walking because it couldn’t possibly be me they were talking to.
“Hey, wait.” I heard again, the voice sounding closer and more prominent. The next time I heard the voice, my path was blocked by Alexander.
He smiled widely. “Hey.”
I looked behind me before giving him a bewildered look. “You’re talking to me?”
“Yes. You’re my partner for the paired assignment, right? He asked.
“How… how did you know?” I narrowed my eyes suspiciously.
“No one in the class approached me and I saw you leave. I figured you’d be my partner.” He explained with a shrug, his British accent prominent.
My eyes stayed on him for a few seconds before I looked away. “I’m guessing you want to swap with someone?”
“No.” He shook his head. “Of course not. I wanted to ask you when and where we should meet to start.”
Disbelief was written all over my face. He was okay with being partners with a loser like me?
When I didn’t say anything, he pulled out his phone, unlocked it, and stretched it toward me. I raised a brow at him.
“I need your number since we need to get to class now. I’ll text you later.”
I collected his phone hesitantly and debated giving him the wrong number. But I knew that wouldn’t benefit me in any way. I handed him back his phone after typing my number.
“Your name, please?” He sounded so polite that it kind of annoyed me.
“Maisie.”
He smiled, his dimples showing. “Nice to meet you, Maisie. I’m Alexander. I’ll text you.”
After watching him walk away, I went to my next class. In class, my phone vibrated. I checked, expecting the text to be from my mum but it was from an unknown number.
“Hey, it’s Alex.”
I couldn’t help the smile that appeared on my face as I saved his number.
“To love yourself right now, just as you are, is to give yourself heaven. Don’t wait until you die. If you wait, you die now. If you love, you live now.” – Alan Cohen.MAISIETHE BELL JINGLED as I opened the door and walked into Rainbow Café. My eyes scanned the room and I noticed a few familiar faces from school. As I walked towards an empty table, I noticed a blonde whisper something in her friend’s ear. Then they both stared at me with similar looks on their faces –one of disgust. Usually, I’m affected by things like this but for some reason, I didn’t give a damn. I think it had something to do with my being here to see the new guy, Alexander.I sat down in anticipation, keeping myself entertained with my phone as I waited. But an hour later, I was still waiting. Alexander hadn’t walked through the door. Maybe he’s just running a little late, I thought. I had hope and believed that he would show up. I mean, he’s a nice guy and he wanted to be my partner so he’d definitely show.Abou
CHAPTER FIVE“To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself.” – Thich Nhat Hanh.MAISIEALEXANDER LOOKED UP at me. “What?”“Hmmm?”“You said something.”OMG! He heard me. It was embarrassing to me. I tried to speak but it was hard. So I decided to pretend I didn’t hear him, hoping he’d drop it but he didn’t.“You said something. It sounded like another language,” he pointed out. “What does it mean?”I held my hands together on my lap and stared at them, badly wishing I’d let my hair down today so that it could cover my face a little.Hold up a second, this isn’t something to be embarrassed about, right? Most people would be proud of something like this. So, I took a deep breath and answered, “It means ‘What did you say?’ or ‘I beg your pardon?’” “Oh, I said, ‘You look nice by the way.’”You didn’t have to repeat that, I thought.“What?”Oops! Did I say that out loud?“Nothing. Thanks, I guess. You look nice too.”Alex smile
"Since I don't look like every other girl, it takes a while to be okay with that. To be different. But different is good." - Serena Williams. IT WAS MONDAY again and I did my usual morning routine. After my mom dropped me off, I headed into the school and straight to my locker. I kept wondering about one thing all weekend and it was the same this morning. Why on Earth was Alex being nice to me? He had not shown any form of ill-treatment towards me ever since I met him and I felt weird about it. There was something suspicious about it. To someone who was used to being treated like trash, this was new. At my locker, I dropped the stuff I didn’t need and picked up the books for my morning classes. I was so occupied with my thoughts that I didn’t realize that I had company. "Hello…" The person said to gain my attention. I was surprised to see that it was Avery. "Penny for your thoughts?" She said it so casually, easily – as if we'd been friends for a while. I didn't know what to s
“Life is so much more beautiful and complex than a number on a scale.” – Tess Munster. * “OH MY GOD!” Avery exclaimed. “Are you okay?” Concern was written all over her features. I looked at my shirt and saw chocolate milk dripping down it. My gaze shifted to the carton of milk now on the floor. I tried to wipe the little on my face off. Of course, I wasn’t okay. How could I possibly feel okay after this? Why did I think nothing bad would happen? I should have known something like this would happen. Luck wasn’t on my side. It has never really been. I just wanted a chance to try this thing called friendship with Avery but I guessed my chances had been ruined. Even if she initially genuinely wanted to be my friend, I was sure this would scare her away. I looked forward and Brittany and her crew were on the way and it looked like they were heading toward our table. I was so embarrassed already and the thought of Avery witnessing whatever they’d cooked up made me feel even worse. I j
“Stop trying to fix your body. It was never broken.” – Eve Ensler.MaisieWHEN I CALLED my mom to inform her not to bother to pick me up because I was going to hang out with a friend, she couldn’t hide her surprise.“Wow. This is new.” I could hear the smile in her voice. “You have no idea how happy I am about this. Go ahead. Have fun, honey and stay as long as you want.”“Okay, mom. See you later.” She even offered to pick me up when we’re done but I told her not to worry, that I’d find my way home. “Boo!”I jumped away from the sound like a startled rabbit and someone laughed. I narrowed my eyes at Avery, not at all amused by her laughing at my expense. “It isn’t funny,” I deadpanned.“I didn’t mean to startle you that much. But it was hilarious either way,”“I’m starting to think that you like teasing me.”She stopped laughing, and put her left hand to her chin, as if thinking about something. Then she shrugged, grinning. “I guess I do.”I shook my head a little, smiling.“You
“People often say that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and I say that the most liberating thing about beauty is realising that you're the beholder.” - Salma Hayek.I WAS EXHAUSTED. Well, a little bit. I felt sweaty, hot and tired in my joggers and t-shirt. It made me wish I was wearing shorts and tank tops like most of the girls here. I hated gym class but it was mostly because it was the perfect place and opportunity for people to give me the stink eye and comment about how ridiculous I look doing sports. That was one of the reasons I stick to wearing T-shirts and joggers instead. I didn't want to give them more stuff to talk about. We’ve been asked to run laps around the gymnasium and now we were gonna play a game or something and I was already dreading it and hoping it wouldn’t be dodgeball; but as usual, luck was never on my side. “Listen up everyone! Gather around. It's time for some dodgeball. Divide yourselves into two teams.” Our gym teacher, Mr. Norman yelled. Some g
“Your words have so much power. Everyday, if you tell yourself ‘I love you,’ if you give yourself one word of validation, it will change your mind.” - Ashley Graham.“I'M GETTING SICK and tired of her.” Someone said agitatedly as I heard people walk into the restroom.I froze in place, my hand still on the lock of the stall I was about to open. The voice sounded so familiar but it was taking my brain awhile to place it.“Me too.” I recognized the voices. It was Bianca and Betty – Brittany's minions. I wondered who they were talking about.“She's so infuriating. She acts like everybody's beneath her. We are supposed to be friends but–”“She treats us like we're her puppets.” Bianca cut in, completing her sentence. They both let out groans.Brittany. They were talking about Brittany.I could have bet that they were standing before the mirror, touching up their makeup as they talked about her. I wondered where their puppet master was, that they were here badmouthing her.Is it bad mouth
“You can’t hate yourself happy. You can’t criticize yourself thin. You can’t shame yourself worthy. Real change begins with self-love and self-care.”— Jessica Ortner.“WHAT IS GOING ON here?” Alex’s voice was firm and strong as he spoke.Even though I wasn't happy that he had shown up, it was nice to witness the Bs' shocked expressions as they turned to see who it was.“Alex!” Betty gasped, exchanging questioning glances with her group.“Fancy seeing you here, Alex.” Brittany said flirtatiously.Alex merely waited, staring at them with an expressionless face. His expression revealed nothing to me, so I had no idea what he was thinking. A few beats of silence went by before he spoke once more. "I ask again: ‘What is going on here?’"“His accent is so hot. I can’t get over it.” Bianca whispered a little too loudly to Betty. I had to resist rolling my eyes.Then the Bs realised that until they gave him an answer, he probably wouldn’t have a conversation with them.“Oh, yeah, that.” Britt
“You can’t hate yourself happy. You can’t criticize yourself thin. You can’t shame yourself worthy. Real change begins with self-love and self-care.”— Jessica Ortner.“WHAT IS GOING ON here?” Alex’s voice was firm and strong as he spoke.Even though I wasn't happy that he had shown up, it was nice to witness the Bs' shocked expressions as they turned to see who it was.“Alex!” Betty gasped, exchanging questioning glances with her group.“Fancy seeing you here, Alex.” Brittany said flirtatiously.Alex merely waited, staring at them with an expressionless face. His expression revealed nothing to me, so I had no idea what he was thinking. A few beats of silence went by before he spoke once more. "I ask again: ‘What is going on here?’"“His accent is so hot. I can’t get over it.” Bianca whispered a little too loudly to Betty. I had to resist rolling my eyes.Then the Bs realised that until they gave him an answer, he probably wouldn’t have a conversation with them.“Oh, yeah, that.” Britt
“Your words have so much power. Everyday, if you tell yourself ‘I love you,’ if you give yourself one word of validation, it will change your mind.” - Ashley Graham.“I'M GETTING SICK and tired of her.” Someone said agitatedly as I heard people walk into the restroom.I froze in place, my hand still on the lock of the stall I was about to open. The voice sounded so familiar but it was taking my brain awhile to place it.“Me too.” I recognized the voices. It was Bianca and Betty – Brittany's minions. I wondered who they were talking about.“She's so infuriating. She acts like everybody's beneath her. We are supposed to be friends but–”“She treats us like we're her puppets.” Bianca cut in, completing her sentence. They both let out groans.Brittany. They were talking about Brittany.I could have bet that they were standing before the mirror, touching up their makeup as they talked about her. I wondered where their puppet master was, that they were here badmouthing her.Is it bad mouth
“People often say that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and I say that the most liberating thing about beauty is realising that you're the beholder.” - Salma Hayek.I WAS EXHAUSTED. Well, a little bit. I felt sweaty, hot and tired in my joggers and t-shirt. It made me wish I was wearing shorts and tank tops like most of the girls here. I hated gym class but it was mostly because it was the perfect place and opportunity for people to give me the stink eye and comment about how ridiculous I look doing sports. That was one of the reasons I stick to wearing T-shirts and joggers instead. I didn't want to give them more stuff to talk about. We’ve been asked to run laps around the gymnasium and now we were gonna play a game or something and I was already dreading it and hoping it wouldn’t be dodgeball; but as usual, luck was never on my side. “Listen up everyone! Gather around. It's time for some dodgeball. Divide yourselves into two teams.” Our gym teacher, Mr. Norman yelled. Some g
“Stop trying to fix your body. It was never broken.” – Eve Ensler.MaisieWHEN I CALLED my mom to inform her not to bother to pick me up because I was going to hang out with a friend, she couldn’t hide her surprise.“Wow. This is new.” I could hear the smile in her voice. “You have no idea how happy I am about this. Go ahead. Have fun, honey and stay as long as you want.”“Okay, mom. See you later.” She even offered to pick me up when we’re done but I told her not to worry, that I’d find my way home. “Boo!”I jumped away from the sound like a startled rabbit and someone laughed. I narrowed my eyes at Avery, not at all amused by her laughing at my expense. “It isn’t funny,” I deadpanned.“I didn’t mean to startle you that much. But it was hilarious either way,”“I’m starting to think that you like teasing me.”She stopped laughing, and put her left hand to her chin, as if thinking about something. Then she shrugged, grinning. “I guess I do.”I shook my head a little, smiling.“You
“Life is so much more beautiful and complex than a number on a scale.” – Tess Munster. * “OH MY GOD!” Avery exclaimed. “Are you okay?” Concern was written all over her features. I looked at my shirt and saw chocolate milk dripping down it. My gaze shifted to the carton of milk now on the floor. I tried to wipe the little on my face off. Of course, I wasn’t okay. How could I possibly feel okay after this? Why did I think nothing bad would happen? I should have known something like this would happen. Luck wasn’t on my side. It has never really been. I just wanted a chance to try this thing called friendship with Avery but I guessed my chances had been ruined. Even if she initially genuinely wanted to be my friend, I was sure this would scare her away. I looked forward and Brittany and her crew were on the way and it looked like they were heading toward our table. I was so embarrassed already and the thought of Avery witnessing whatever they’d cooked up made me feel even worse. I j
"Since I don't look like every other girl, it takes a while to be okay with that. To be different. But different is good." - Serena Williams. IT WAS MONDAY again and I did my usual morning routine. After my mom dropped me off, I headed into the school and straight to my locker. I kept wondering about one thing all weekend and it was the same this morning. Why on Earth was Alex being nice to me? He had not shown any form of ill-treatment towards me ever since I met him and I felt weird about it. There was something suspicious about it. To someone who was used to being treated like trash, this was new. At my locker, I dropped the stuff I didn’t need and picked up the books for my morning classes. I was so occupied with my thoughts that I didn’t realize that I had company. "Hello…" The person said to gain my attention. I was surprised to see that it was Avery. "Penny for your thoughts?" She said it so casually, easily – as if we'd been friends for a while. I didn't know what to s
CHAPTER FIVE“To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself.” – Thich Nhat Hanh.MAISIEALEXANDER LOOKED UP at me. “What?”“Hmmm?”“You said something.”OMG! He heard me. It was embarrassing to me. I tried to speak but it was hard. So I decided to pretend I didn’t hear him, hoping he’d drop it but he didn’t.“You said something. It sounded like another language,” he pointed out. “What does it mean?”I held my hands together on my lap and stared at them, badly wishing I’d let my hair down today so that it could cover my face a little.Hold up a second, this isn’t something to be embarrassed about, right? Most people would be proud of something like this. So, I took a deep breath and answered, “It means ‘What did you say?’ or ‘I beg your pardon?’” “Oh, I said, ‘You look nice by the way.’”You didn’t have to repeat that, I thought.“What?”Oops! Did I say that out loud?“Nothing. Thanks, I guess. You look nice too.”Alex smile
“To love yourself right now, just as you are, is to give yourself heaven. Don’t wait until you die. If you wait, you die now. If you love, you live now.” – Alan Cohen.MAISIETHE BELL JINGLED as I opened the door and walked into Rainbow Café. My eyes scanned the room and I noticed a few familiar faces from school. As I walked towards an empty table, I noticed a blonde whisper something in her friend’s ear. Then they both stared at me with similar looks on their faces –one of disgust. Usually, I’m affected by things like this but for some reason, I didn’t give a damn. I think it had something to do with my being here to see the new guy, Alexander.I sat down in anticipation, keeping myself entertained with my phone as I waited. But an hour later, I was still waiting. Alexander hadn’t walked through the door. Maybe he’s just running a little late, I thought. I had hope and believed that he would show up. I mean, he’s a nice guy and he wanted to be my partner so he’d definitely show.Abou
“My weight? It is what it is. You could get hit by a bus tomorrow. It’s about being content. And sometimes other priorities win.” – Melissa McCarthy. MAISIE AFTER THAT ENCOUNTER with Avery, she always acknowledged me whenever she sighted me. She’d catch my eyes in the hallways and smile. Sometimes, she’d stop by my locker when I’m there to say hi. Initially, I thought she was just being nice and had not yet been told about me but I was wrong. Because a month later, she still gave me those smiles and she’d sometimes sit beside me when she sees me in the classes we had together. I didn’t understand why she was being so nice. She was supposed to have put two and two together and realized that I have no friends. There’s no way someone wouldn’t have told her about me. I didn’t really pay attention to her but it was hard not to notice her and her brother. This past month, I’d mostly seen her with her brother. Seeing as she hadn’t joined the Bs—despite their attempts to befriend her—I guess