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His Heart Ruler 22
Ryan’s POV It’s been an amazing morning since I woke up without any nightmares today. I wonder why but later I just stopped wondering because I didn't want to spoil the amazing start of my day by thinking over why I didn't have any nightmares. Life isn’t same for everyone, so do for me. Someday I wake up with the urge of dying but someday I wake up hoping that everything will be fine soon. I’m torn between giving up on myself and hoping for the good, but anyway I have to live through these torned emotions because that’s all I have got. I’ve spent years believing that one day all these nightmares of my horrible childhood would stop haunting me, that one day I can walk into darkness without having the fear of facing my cowardly self,one day I can look at a woman without feeling insecure of what I'm not capable of. One day I can breathe without feeling my heart getting heavy with grief and agony of memories that I'm not able to erase. One day i can just be me without putting a
Last Updated : 2022-11-09His Heart Ruler 23
Jenny’s POV I woke up with a hangover since last night I drank too much than I should have. I don’t know why I feel like these days I'm losing my control over myself. Certainly i’m not like this whole thing of losing my control, especially when I'm around him. Last night was another example for me to open my eyes and knock myself to get a hold before things get out of hand. Ryan was good, I mean he’s so freaking good that I can't believe it. From day one this man has been driving me crazy that it’s hard for me to think about controlling myself from what I want to be with him. At first I thought it’s just an attraction since he’s all good looking and can lure anyone by his charm but lately I realised that it just can’t be an attraction because everytime i see him I tend to smile more often than I should. This isn’t me, I don't easily get affected by anyone's charm but him. And the curiosity of knowing more about him grew each day inside me making me more desperate. I alre
Last Updated : 2022-11-10His Heart Ruler 24
Author’s POV Ryan hasn't been able to stop smiling since this morning. He was in a meeting where his employees were explaining the presentation one by one but he wasn’t mentally present there. His mind was still occupied with last night's thoughts. Jenny was all wonder for him. He doesn’t remember the last time he fully enjoyed himself while living in the moment. It's either a rush for meetings or being sucked up without any energy left till he falls asleep as soon as laid in bed. He had spent a busy life where he didn’t get much to enjoy and recall to cherish. He had to constantly run one after another thing or priority. And in the moments of rush he never cared about pausing and appreciating what is in front of him, and what he got to live with. The world was out there for him, but he would still stay in his office, making deals in the morning and cursing his nightmares in the midnights. Peace was a rare find for him until he saw Jenny. Be it a day of rain when he first saw
Last Updated : 2022-11-12His Heart Ruler 25
Author's POV "Chocolate or vanilla? " Asked Sam, grabbing two mini stoneware plates from the utensils rack. " Vanilla " Jenny replied quickly. " Sadly you're not asking about condom flavours so yeah, I would have to go with Chocolate," said Maya keeping a stern face while she was watching the F.R.I.E.N.D.S series on N*****x with Jenny. Sam shook his head playfully as he opened the freezer and took out vanilla and chocolate ice cream tubs to layer the pecan pie he made. It was late evening when Jenny wrapped her work and called Sam to check on him. While talking to him she came to know that Maya went to visit Sam and both of them asked Jenny to join them too. Jenny agreed and drove to Sam's house as it's been a few days since three of them met as a gang. Besides, she knew Sam will be leaving for Thailand in the coming two days as he has some business meetings with Clients there. Jenny was clueless about what to do with Ryan's text message that she received this morning. As much
Last Updated : 2022-11-13His Heart Ruler 26
Author's POV " You aren't serious right ? ... Are you? " Ryan looked down at his mother, who has been keeping mum and looking down for the last few minutes. Ryan wanted to laugh but then it was not funny to be assumed as gay and be forced to meet a gay partner by his mother. He felt judged, and that was more than enough to be angry and upset with his mother. He took a long breath to calm himself and asked her " you think I'm gay? " The seriousness in his voice conveyed his erupting anger towards her, she looked up and said " I didn't mean to hurt you, Ryan.....I thought you must be affirmed to tell me about it " " Tell you about what? That I'm gay as you imagined and judged? " He rasped looking directly at her. His clenched jaw and red-shot eyes told her how wrong she was. After seeing him walking out of marriage and relationship talks whenever she starts about, Ryan's mother Maria was worried about her son's future. It's been years since he turned into an adult and not even o
Last Updated : 2022-11-14His Heart Ruler 27
Author's POV Jenny was tossing and turning on her bed for the last two hours and still wasn't getting any sleep. It's been three hours since she came back from Sam's place and hit her bed as it was already past twelve. After changing into a pink baggy t-shirt which hopefully reached below her mid-thighs. Switching the lights off she put her phone to silent and slumped in bed hoping that she would fall asleep soon. And now, it's been two and half hours of her trying to sleep, yet she didn't succeed. She tried everything that could help her to fall asleep, she closed her eyes and lay down while recalling the good memories that always comforted her. She tried counting sheep even if that didn't work. After two major failures in the attempt to sleep, Jenny gave up finally and got up from bed. Leaving a long sigh she looked around her gloomy room of hers, and utter silence was the only thing she could find around her. Stepping down from bed Jenny wore her soft mushy sleepers and walke
Last Updated : 2022-11-15His Heart Ruler 28
Ryan's POV " Ryan, you should at least give it a try," said Natasha leaning forward as she placed the fork on the plate and waited for my response. Leaving a long sigh I leaned back on my chair muttering " now I regret telling you about it " And instantly earned a slap on my forearm from her. " Don't be mousy... Just got it " she asserted. " Easy for you to say " I breathed out while looking around. As it was almost lunchtime now I could see more people gathering around the French-Kott restaurant which is near Natasha's office. It was brunch time when I got a call from her asking me to meet her at a French-Kitt restaurant near her office during lunchtime. I was relieved to see her after a long time, since the time she went on a business trip I wasn't able to contact her cause mostly her phone would be out of reach or I was too busy to attend her call. But thankfully she returned earlier this morning and called me to meet her. And I am a messed up shit who needed a sane person
Last Updated : 2022-11-16His Heart Ruler 29
Author's POV " Umm this is my first time to be on a date " confessed Ryan with a bit of hesitation dripping from his words yet he’s the one who broke the brief silence that was present between them since the moment they sat across from each other. Jenny smiled " I know " " But I'm not the kind of girl who would feel proud to be your first " she added further. "Oops " Both of them chuckled. It's a pleasant evening for both as one is admiring the beautiful sight which is available in front and the other one is enjoying the time of being admired. After a lot of denying and accepting games Ryan finally decided to give it a try and prepared himself to face whatever falls after this date. Somehow the conversation with Natasha helped him to figure out what actually he wanted to do rather than what he was denying to do. Ryan slipped into a crisp white shirt that clinged to his body like his second skin. Tucking the shirt inside black casual pants he left the upper two buttons of hi
Last Updated : 2022-11-17
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His Heart Ruler Epilogue
Author’s POV The beauty you see in everything is the beauty within you. And to enhance the beauty within you , you must know that love is an essential ingredient for that. People may hate love thinking that love breaks them but it’s not. Love doesn’t break anything, disappointment does. Lake of trust breaks peoples insecurities and bringing up the past in every present situation breaks peoples. Misunderstanding and refusal of efforts breaks peoples. Faking loyalty and over expectations breaks peoples. Love doesn’t breaks anything. It’s people. Infact love mends the broken pieces of heart. The mere presence of love is enough to fill one’s soul with strength and courage. Love becomes the strength that one needs in their life to stay still, face and fight their battles against all the odds. Love heals everything, Averting his gaze from the empty sight of the window , Ryan looked back at the hospital reports of Jenny kept on the table in front of him. He has been staring
His Heart Ruler 112
Author’s POV “ You planned all these ? “ asked Jenny, being surprised by the lighting and decoration around, which made the place seem more beautiful than it was already. “ mmm…..yep “ he smiled looking at her sparkling eyes that travelled all around the room. Her big doe-like eyes were adorable as they moved back and forth looking here and there and amazed. It’s been a while since Ryan and Jenny bid bye to the newly married couple Maya and Asher after the party and drove back. At first Jenny thought he was taking the short route to reach the home soon since he seemed tired a bit but when Jenny noticed that he was actually driving to the highway which would lead them out of the city in a few minutes she couldn’t stop herself from asking. “ Just stay silent, enjoy the ride……that’s all he said and she didn’t ask him any questions and decided to wait and watch. After one hour or so he stopped the car in front of a huge tree house which was made at the end of the forest and near
His Heart Ruler 111
Author’s POV Life has been a bliss for Ryan since the time he learnt to let go of many things that kept bothering him for years. He’s now the relieved and sorted out person who only thinks about his present and future life with more optimistic thoughts. With every passing day he has learnt to cope up with his nightmares and gradually the nightmares stopped for which he couldn’t be more thankful as he can now sleep without worrying about anything. And he is grateful to his wife because of whom he’s at a point now where life seems the most beautiful and worth living thing ever to him. He feels like he is a new born baby who just came out from the womb of mother and got hit by the fresh breath of air. The newness in every kind of situation, and ways of thinking just gets him excited for everything he does and sees. Besides, living with a wife like Jenny who isn’t less than any fairy makes him feel super blessed at times that he keeps finding new ways to express his love
His Heart Ruler 110
Author’s POV Asher and Maya sat together talking, enjoying each other's company much more than the mostly-forgotten movie they'd picked playing on her laptop for the weekend, the streaming-site flick downgraded to background noise for the flirtatious pair's constant conversations; they'd both downed a few beers each, the alcohol loosening their lips and helping put them at ease. Kissing occasionally interrupted their words, but it was a welcome interruption, both of them enjoying every moment of each other's company. No place else either of them would rather be. "Take, take off your shirt," she panted, "I need to see that amazing body of yours!" Eager to comply, enjoying this take-control side of her, Asher slipped his arms to the bottom of his shirt, detaching himself from her chest. As swiftly as he could he pulled it from his torso and tossed it across the room, spreading his arms and flexing slightly for his girlfriend's pleasure; if there was one thing Asher was confident about
His Heart Ruler 109
Author’s POV "Ohhhh..." Jenny moaned as she felt her vagina stretch open for him. After sorting out their small misunderstanding Ryan and Jenny spend some hours in bed, cuddling and talking about random stuff. They didn’t realise the passing time while being with each other and when they did it was already afternoon, and none of them had a bath yet since they woke up late and hungry that their focus went on food later on their sudden conflits which was sorted out lately. Feeling lazy to do anything they decided to spend the day in a room and order something from outside to eat and just chill watching any random movies. As Jenny got up and dragged herself to shower, Ryan uncontrollably followed her and offered her his idea of showering together. Though he promised her that it’s going to be only to shower together, nothing else but that yet Jenny knew where it would lead them hence she agreed. Within a few minutes of standing naked under the shower they were already doing what the
His Heart Ruler 108
Ryan’s POV “ Jenny, I'm not going to do that….please stop pestering me. “ I had enough and couldn’t bear it anymore when Jenny kept pestering me for something I don't want to do or, much likely, I'm not capable of doing. It’s been more than six months now since we sorted out our conflicts and began to live together. I had been doing good since then, and I figured out why. Because from the moment I shared my traumatic experiences with her I did feel the lightness in my chest as the burden of keeping everything inside me faded away. She grasped the depth of hurt and mental anguish I felt. And soon, she and I took slow but steady steps towards healing. I can;t deny that she stood strong in every path i chose to walk on. She was just beside me, guiding me, listening to me and making me feel valued and worthy. Talking to her almost felt like talking to myself because she never showed any discomfort or judging look which I was afraid to get from people. She felt like me, more of me
His Heart Ruler 107
Author’s POV“ Hand me the fish sauce. ““ now, rice vinegar ““ not this…..see on the right corner….you’ll find it beside the soya sauce bottle “ he instructed her“ got it, here….” she replied“ red bell pepper ““ now….hand me the chilli sauce ““ here…take it '' Jenny handed me the bottle and sat quietly on the island watching him add the ingredients one by one as he was preparing the Thai noodle salad with peanut sauce as per her demand. After finishing their quick morning session Ryan took a bath while Jenny was still recollecting her energy by sleeping for a little long. By the time Ryan was done changing he came out and woke her up before going downstairs to prepare coffee for both of them. Jenny took a long-soul-soothing warm bath as she was sore and thanks to her husband though. As she came downstairs wearing his t-shirt that hopefully reached till her mid thighs. One thing they love about spending their time in his penthouse is - they can literally roam around in minimal c
His Heart Ruler 106
Author’s POV When Jenny woke up, it was not by any choice of her own. While the sunshine on her face was warm and pleasant, the clock showed that it was not even 7:00, and she'd had a late night. She took a deep breath and wriggled herself out from under Ryan's arm, leaning off the bed just enough to reach the blinds and block out the sunlight. As Jenny moved herself to this position, the sheet fell away from her body ever so slightly, and she realised she hadn't put anything on after she and Ryan had finished off last night. They'd simply fallen asleep in each other's arms afterwards, with no energy left in their bodies.The fact that Jenny was naked was of no real significance to her, except that it reminded her that Ryan was naked under the sheet as well. As much as Jenny wished that she could go back to sleep, she knew she was up for good now, thanks to the sun in her eyes and the knowledge that Ryan's body was all hers if she just pulled away the thin sheet lying on top of hi
His Heart Ruler 105
Auhor's POV Ryan blinked and hugged her to his naked chest, taking hold of the back of her shirt and tugging it out of her jeans. "We're not equal yet, are we?" he said. "I want to see my favourites in you ." He meant her soft, spongy and perfectly round mounds that he never gets enough of doing things. She nodded against his shoulder and pulled back, still sitting in his lap, she ran her fingers down the hem, losing buttons as she went, until she at last shrugged her shirt off to the floor behind. "Let me," he said, laying his hands on her hips, he traced all the way up her thin body, fingers dipping beneath the band of her bra, momentarily holding her two warm, soft mounds before bringing the elastic fabric further up and over her head, helped as she raised her arms to slip it off. Not massive, no, but even though she fidgeted as he looked, he felt he had to burn this sight into his memory. Smooth, pale skin, goosebumps spreading in the cool air, topped with taut, pink nipple
