I didn't sleep much last night. I spent most of my time wide awake and planning all the things needed for the Smiths house and what colours they opted for.The colours are fine, I don't mind that part. It's when they change their mind at the very last second and you have to restart because when one colour goes, they all go.It's time for us to leave the house and now that my period is done with, I don't feel as emotional or even turned on as I did yesterday but hopefully, everything will be fine."You ready?" Cody asks as I bring my usual bag to my shoulders. It's the one I take with me that has a few clothes in and some shoes for work but other than that I just want to get there, get the job done tomorrow and come home Thursday."Yeah I'm ready" I say but I don't get very far until he takes my bag from me and walks off."I can carry that you know""Yeah. I know. But do I care? No. Take the muscle while you can" he smirks at me and if I didn't know any better, this woman he's talking
Casually sitting and drinking the world's shittest coffee I feel Cody tense beside me before he throws himself out of his chair."The fuck?" I ask but then movement catches in the corner of my eye.Isabella."Fuck. Fuck no!" I shout as I run out of the cafe and to my woman who's just finished being sick and has fallen on her front."Isabella?" I shout, but she doesn't seem to hear me. All my men, apart from Cody, run inside and bring out a guy who looks to be 6 feet tall. He's not bigger than me, but he's still big.I take hold of Isabella and lift her body up only to find bruises and marks on her body making me see red."YOU!" Cody shouts and I lift my head to see who it is that he's looking at."Lorenzo...that's Dean. That's who ruined Isabella!""You know what to do," I say to my men who know what I'm talking about. Dean puts up a fight, claiming fuck knows what but I don't listen. When they bring a female out of the apartment complex I can only assume she was working with this bas
My body hurt from the moment I stepped foot into my room. I had the food Louisa made me and once she had cleared all my wounds and put some strips along my stitches, I sit on the bed and wonder what Lorenzo is up to.I checked my work email to find one from Dunken about how it was going but I couldn't bring myself to call this late at night to tell him what had happened but I also didn't want to just let the email go and not say anything so I typed out a simple email.My body hurt from the moment I stepped foot into my room. I had the food Louisa made me and once she had cleared all my wounds and put some strips along my stitches, I sit on the bed and wonder what Lorenzo is up to.I checked my work email to find one from Dunken about how it was going but I couldn't bring myself to call this late at night to tell him what had happened but I also didn't want to just let the email go and not say anything so I typed out a simple email.To: DunkenGranger@Multidesignandhomes.orgFrom: Isabe
Warmth hits my body before my mind has a chance to catch up.Snapping my eyes open I'm greeted with a sleeping Isabella. Her drool sits on my chest but it doesn't irritate me the way it would if it was anyone else, it simply makes me smile.Shifting her onto her side, she doesn't even flinch or move a muscle apart from to bury herself further into the mattress.Grabbing my clothes from the floor I head to my room and take a quick shower before meeting Dante in the office at the far end of the manor to go over some security footage he pulled up."Morning bro. You're looking refreshed and too happy... I don't like it""Fuck off.""Did you not stay in your room last night?""No. I went and stayed with Isabella. Thinking I was just going to crawl into her bed and sleep, Imagine my surprise at 1 am when I walked into her bathroom and found her watching Netflix in the fucking bath""Anything good?""Fuck knows but it has something to do with doctors' and Nurses'"Porn?" he asks with a grin.
40 minutes ago-"Don't fucking touch me. You disgust me. If you've not been home you've been out. Doing what? Selling yourself? Making some extra cash by selling me out? Making a fool out of me?Get your things out of my room and go back to your room I don't even want to see you. In fact, get all your shit. Out of my house"His words make me feel so small and so gross but I don't even hesitate to try and explain that there's been some form of misunderstanding.I try to get him to listen. To see where it is I have actually been going for the last few weeks and the fact that one of the rooms in the house is now turning into a baby room but I know it's futile. He wouldn't believe me now anyway."I didn't do this Lorenzo. You have to believe me.""I'll never believe a word that comes out of your fucking mouth again! Who knows who's had their hands all over you if that's what you've been doing? Who knows what my enemies now know shit because of you. Get the fuck out of my room Isabella and
"What the fuck have you done!" Cody shouts as he walks into my office. Not even bothering to knock or anything he just storms right in and makes a hefty scene."Me?""No. The duke of fucking England! YES, YOU!""Care to elaborate on what you think I've done?"No one has spoken of Isabella since the night she went out. Well, not in front of me any way I can only assume Cody is here because he finally went to his apartment and spoke to her. Maybe he got the truth about what she's done.Maybe she's told him some bullshit lie and that it's all my fault."I have never, never picked sides with any enemies. I have never wronged you or hurt you or betrayed you. I have sided with you on so much even when I thought you were bonkers but this...""Whatever she's fucking told you I don't want to hear her excuses. I don't care what she does or doesn't do""That's funny..." he says with a locking laugh."Whays funny? Spit it the fuck out, Cody""I CAN'T FIND HER!""What do you mean? You can't find h
Heaviness settles in my body.I want to move but I can't. Hey there" a soft voice calls out. I feel like I'm dreaming but then I feel the heaviness of my eyes slowly opening.The beeping of the machines and the smell of antiseptic hits first.A hospital. I made it to the hospital."My body hurts" I mumble but my voice hurts so much I feel like I'm going to be sick."You have a lot of people out there wanting to see you," she says with a smile. I can't reciprocate the smile because I don't feel happy right now so I ask the only question I can."My baby?""I'll go get your doctor. The surgeon will be there as well love""Surgeon?""I'm just your nurse sweetie. Do you need any medication? Any pain?" she asks so I nod but I feel numb so whatever had happened I don't feel much but coldness and heartache.A few moments pass by of silence before 2 doctors and what looks like a surgeon walks in."Miss Moreno," he says. I try to sit up but they tell me not to."My baby?" I repeat feeling a se
Evie and Elena showed up at the hospital, frantic and worried, wondering what's going on and that's when I spot Cody leaving Isabella's room.He stands next to the door and scrapes his hand down his face before turning and locking eyes with me.He storms up to me and I know the look in his eyes. Murderous.He throws a punch and gets me in the jaw. Then another. And another and I let him."Fight back!" he says but I can't. I shake my head which makes him hit harder."Fucking fight back!" he shouts gathering a bit of a crowd around."Cody! Hey!" Evie says but he doesn't listen to her. He keeps throwing punches."A whore! A FUCKING WHORE! You accused her of selling herself and betraying you?" he says with another punch and this time our men get in the middle and separate him from actually trying to harm."Let me the fuck go" he shouts but they don't. They are his friends just as much as my family and employees.I haven't cried since I was a child. I don't cry over things. I don't show an
It has been 9 days since I've spoken to my girl. Once I found out what really happened the night Dante came home from throwing out the 'Trash' I couldn't believe my ears. But let's just say I'm thankful for my mother and father being at home."You going to be pissed at your brother for life now?" My dad asked me the night I split my brother's lip, gave him a black eye, broke his nose and broke 3 of his fingers on his shit hand. I walked out angrier than I had ever been."No. But right now he can fucking do one. He had no right""What happened between you and this woman?" He asks as he takes a sip of his whiskeySighing I take a sip of my own drink. It had been a hell of a night of sparring with some of my men, getting angry over minor situations and a woman I couldn't get out of my head.A woman who continuously beat herself up over losing our baby. I knew it wasn't her fault but she was adamant that it was all her fault. No amount of words I could say would make her guilt or fear go
4 days is what it took to do a 12-hour drive.I took 4 days to get from one state to another. On my way to Chicago, I did a bit of sightseeing in different places, I went to a few restaurants I've always wanted to travel to and did a bit of exploring during the day but slept at a simple motel.One of the first stops was New Jersey. It's as big as I believed it to be and I managed to go exploring while I was there. Visited one of the attractions which was Cape May, tried some of their famous wines and sat near a bonfire on the beach which was lovely.By day 3 I had gone through Pennsylvania, Ohio and Illinois and all three trips were heaven! So many beautiful sights I caught on the new phone I have and exploring some of the things each state does without boarding a plane or leaving America, I really did enjoy myself.It's been 5 days since I've seen Lorenzo. I haven't switched my phone on just in case they could still track it but I did remove my SIM card and also bought a new phone to
My plans backfired.I didn't want to go over to her house and lie to her face.I don't know what else I can do. When the box came to the house, the letter inside the envelope was what made me look at everything else gathered inside.It wasn't cryptic. It wasn't too long or too short. It was straight to the point.Lorenzo.Our time months ago, it has been proven that it was a magical night.I'd hate to think you'd abandon me and your unborn child.I know the kind of work you do. I know the type of man you are. I also happen to know that my child- Our child will be just like you as well. Everything about this is precious and a shock but I need you.One night together doesn't define what we could have.Here is a photo of the scan of our little boy, I'd like to think you'd accept my apology for springing this on you but you never returned my calls and you also never get seen about on your own so I couldn't talk to you about it. And then you became obsessed with another woman but if you wa
A pregnancy test.$100,000A Range Rover SUV jet black.The words he's spewing seem so far away. It doesn't seem like a man who wants me, but then again, does he really want me? Did he want me this afternoon, or was it just a punishment?"And what do I tell my cousins? Lorenzo?" I ask through the lump in my throat."Tell them you're travelling. Lorenzo won't buy it though so tell him it's space to think. He will offer alternatives but I need you to leave and stop screwing with my brother's head. He's the Don of a crime family. He doesn't need you."No, because he's got his new life waiting for him.A life I couldn't give him."Fine" I say but I feel my heart shattering all over again. He wants me gone and to stay gone so I will. I'll stay gone and I'll do what I need to do in order to survive."Oh and Isabella""What?" I ask without looking at him."I'm sorry you lost your baby. I know this is extremely hurtful and not the time, but Lorenzo needs an heir or heiress. You couldn't give
"Isabella?" He says my name with that Italian accent that I love so much.My heart is hurting with him being here but it's also kicking me for not feeling like I could be honest with him to begin with."Yes?" I answer."I want to kiss you so bad. I want to take you to bed and I want to lay with your head on my chest. I want you to hear how fast my heart is beating.Because right now it's beating so fast I feel like it might explode"His words shouldn't make me feel warm. They shouldn't make me feel anything.But they do.I take his hand and I lead him across the hall. I know I shouldn't and I know it's going to hurt when he leaves but I need to feel him. I need to hold him even if it's for one last time.Maybe I can convince myself that everything will be okay. He will leave and move on but my heart isn't in the same cahoots as it should be with my brain. My heart is telling me to love him still. To ask him to give me another chance. To love me. To forgive me but my pride won't allow
2 hours before."You're getting slow old man" Rafael says as he dodges my next punch."Slow? Fuck off.""Seriously man, what's going on?""I'm sorry if I'm not fucking sunshine. I lost my woman and I lost my unborn child the same fucking week" I say as I throw punch after punch his way. I'm only 29. Almost 30 but the fact that I have lost so much in such a short period of my life is my karma.All the bad things I have done and all the lives I've taken, the men I have lost on the way make me feel rage so deep today that everything I have felt since Isabella walked out of my house makes me feel angry.Pain. Anger. Grief.The whole fucking bunch and it kills me to watch her this way. It hurts so deeply that she hasn't even left her apartment unless it's to go out with Cody. That I know of.A few days ago, I had followed him once again and she was wearing black leggings, a hoodie and sunglasses paired with heavy black boots. Her hair was pulled up in a ponytail and she looked underweight.
I started my training weeks ago, I couldn't run as fast as I wanted to without my scar hurting and I couldn't do a lot, to begin with. Still, once I got home I would do certain exercises to blend in with the pain on the emotional side and the physical too, and I found it so much easier and better.Cody started showing me guns and how to use them.He showed me the clips and the magazines and how to load and unload but using guns would always be the very last resort as long as I held his protection and some of Lorenzo's men but even that it was hard to accept.These are the basic skills that I would need to live in their world and to be safe on my own. When I wasn't training and using all my physical abilities to escape someone if it ever happened, I was continuing to follow Alexei across Chicago Via CCTV footage even managing to pick up a timeline of the times he would visit Russia with his son and his men. Not very often.Then I started following the spawn of satan.Or more specifical
I have spent 10 days in the hospital.I'd spent that week on so many pain meds and antibiotics to help with my immunity, I had days where I felt okay to sit up but then I'd be feeling utter shit the next day and shivering, Coughing and being sick.But I couldn't stop thinking about Lorenzo.I'd never seen a man cry before and he cried. I saw it.I felt it. I could feel the drips in my neck. I heard them talking and arguing when they thought I was asleep.Some nights I'd even pretend to be asleep so I didn't have to speak with anyone. I couldn't stand to see the pity roaming in their eyes when no one cared when he threw me out. But I never had the energy to throw him out the way he did me. Rude I know, but I couldn't bear listening to their Pity. I needed to think.Last night though, I couldn't stop the flow of tears as I looked at my scan. My baby was just a blob but the red and blue colours where his or her heartbeat was what made me cry even harder.It was pip. My pip.Cody dropp
Evie and Elena showed up at the hospital, frantic and worried, wondering what's going on and that's when I spot Cody leaving Isabella's room.He stands next to the door and scrapes his hand down his face before turning and locking eyes with me.He storms up to me and I know the look in his eyes. Murderous.He throws a punch and gets me in the jaw. Then another. And another and I let him."Fight back!" he says but I can't. I shake my head which makes him hit harder."Fucking fight back!" he shouts gathering a bit of a crowd around."Cody! Hey!" Evie says but he doesn't listen to her. He keeps throwing punches."A whore! A FUCKING WHORE! You accused her of selling herself and betraying you?" he says with another punch and this time our men get in the middle and separate him from actually trying to harm."Let me the fuck go" he shouts but they don't. They are his friends just as much as my family and employees.I haven't cried since I was a child. I don't cry over things. I don't show an